Met a guy this weekend… hmmmm my type.
He told me that I was different, but he couldn’t put his finger on why. If I’m feeling you, I wont give you any information about me…. NONE…. If I’m not feeling you, I can open up and tell you everything. I was quiet with him.. listening.
Until I found out……He’s married…… not interested.
In other news………In my meantime of waiting on Mr. Right….. I’m enjoying spending time with God and myself…
New International Version (©1984)
I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. Philippians 4:12
So……. I had 3 days off work, and I’ve been apartment searching in Sandy Springs, Georgia from Detroit. Its been stressing me out a little too. I hate this feeling. I’m such a hands on person, I have to see the property TODAY, talk to the owner TODAY, ask a billion questions TA…DAY, and have his phone number on speed dial TODAY. LOL Sometimes things are a money issues, and sometimes its a time issue. I was so stressed out about it, I slept all day yesterday. Today I refuse to do that, I got up and started early this morning. God is going to work everything out concerning my move. I know.
And let me “preach” a little while I’m on the subject of questions. Do you know that by asking questions you can get anything you want? You cannot tell me a story and I CONTINUE to hold a conversation with you, and I NOT understand what you’re talking about. That’s FOOLISH to me. My BFF …. I love her to death, but baaaaby she would call me and go right in to the subject, I had to tell her gurllllllllllllllll I have a billion things on my mind too, you gotta refresh my memory on the subject!!! You do want me on the same page right? LOL
One day the DISTRICT MANAGER came into our store. Now, when he comes the managers clean up and rebuild the store like his guest was JESUS. And its funny because YES, he is the BIG BOSS and its okay for everyone to be on their best behavior…… but when he comes in, he always come and talk to me. LOL LOL He’s a nice looking white guy, so friendly and Arkansas country. LOL We stand and talk for a long time all while the store managers and department mangers stare from a distance and wonder what we are talking about. So, one day he came in and we started chatting, afterwards my boss came over to me and said, why when he come in, he always talk to you? LOL I said because people put on a fake face when the BIG DUDES *GOOD DEEDS* come in, but its the real people who they recognize.
Bishop TD Jakes said on Sunday…… No Discipline means No Destiny!!!
Off to bed work in the AM
So, this lady came through my line today, she lets out this *dangerous cough….* I roll my eyes to the sky and leave them there for 30 minutes *( seem like), jumped back a half mile * sarcastically* and says to the lady….. in my nicest voice….”ma’am ….you- gotta- cover- your- mouth”… then she says ” that’s not a cold its bronchitis”….* blank stare up to God*. Then the customers BEHIND her says * even more sarcastically than I did* …”Oh you just cover you mouth if you have Tuberculosis? “…..LOL Classic…. I couldn’t have said it better.
I’m 44 years old now, and like Mr. Perry said….. its the new 30. Baby, he said a mouthful cause I LOVE BEING 44. I feel good!!!! LOL. I’m so glad I’m not in my 20′s anymore, I would never fit in with them. Its all about how you feel, how you look at life, how you deal with things, how you think, and how you react. Thank you Lord, that I am no where how I use to be. It comes a time when you grow up!
For the last week or so, I’ve been working mornings, and I noticed that so many women, especially the ones who are a few years older, they are always coming in with attitudes… Like how do you wake up in the morning with an attitude? Dang, the day hasn’t even started yet? The issues of the day haven’t begun to find you……..is that last nights anger you are carrying? Like for real. Then, I have those who are borderline “angry” they say to me, “you’re so cheerful in the mornings”…..Um yeaaaaaa, like how are you suppose to start off a day, YOU HAVENT EVEN SEEN YET”…. with an attitude….Owww Thank So!! You just met this day, how can you wake up, go out into the world and transfer that “ratchet” spirit to another person. Well, I’m not her, God makes me smile every morning, and if you want to come through my line, you’ll get smiles, peace, blessing, laughs, and a short conversation. I be DAMNED… If I change my attitude in the morning, cause the next person is not feeling so great.
I see myself in Atlanta with my Teens. I never wanted to have a *building*where you go. ….lock up for the night…..that’s corny to me. I see MY home as this place,. Its so nice and huge with bedrooms for them. I see myself with all my gurls in the kitchen making cupcakes, baking and cooking for the homeless and seniors. I see it so clearly, I feel as if I’m in this kitchen. I see myself cooking and talking to them as they help out, then all of a sudden I start to cry because what I see myself doing today Sep 14, 2011, is what I always wanted to do. Everyday, I see this. Having a *building* is NOT personal to me, its so *rehearsed*. I see myself sitting on this long couch that goes into this never ending circle * I have to see everyone’s eyes* , and we’re all sitting around with our shoes off, snacks on the table, just having a full chat talking about everything in life, me asking them a thousand questions * as I always do*. There is not a day that pass me by that I don’t think about it. I know this is what God has called me to do. I only wish I knew what kinda chip God planted in me, that makes all the teenagers and kids have a connection to me. They stare at me * its so funny*…. I can read their every thoughts. They want to connect with me when they do that, but since I’m an adult, they wonder if that’s “okay”. LOL LOL See, adults don’t talk to kids as we should, we look at them as “kids”, instead of people, and kids want to come in our world. They are so trained that * this is grown’s folks business*… and that’s cool too. But, kids are people too, and I let them know, that I see them, I hear them, I recognize their pain, their concerns, their issues, their questions. I will move to Atlanta and I will use my home as a healing balm for every teen that God sends my way.
Well, I’m off to bed.
writing”. Thanking God for another day to get it right.
is tomorrow June 22, and we * my sisters and brother* are taking her out to
dinner. She normally likes to eat at her favorite spot * Texas Roadhouse” but
this time she wants to go to the Golden Corral. I’m really
looking forward to it.
Father’s Day, but he was mad at all of his kids, days leading up, and haven’t
been answering his phone. LOL My daddy LOVES the grand kids, but he gets mad at
us. May daddy is a trip, when asked if he still wanted the dinner, he
said….don’t make me no difference. I called him tonight, and he wanted to go
into this story of “his kids” not visiting him like we should, and that he
regret not visiting his mom when she use to ask and beg him to come over. I
asked him… “daddy do you think what you didn’t do for your mom is back around
for you”. He said he thinks so…..then I got to thinking dang…..what if
Neisha do me the same way when I’m old? LOL Something to think about huh? My
daddy is too much for me, he likes to say his little stuff and say stuff he
shouldn’t say, and then when it leaves a “bad taste” in everybody mouth, he
wonders why no one like to visit him. We take turns taking him to the grocery
store, and to his doctors appointment. I’m not a person who likes to visit, he
isn’t either, or my mom. I will call you, and make sure everything is good, but
to just sit up in your house, ….can’t do it. Now with my dad he doesn’t like
to go dinner, or come over unless its a holiday, he wants what he wants when he
want it. And I feel bad to say, but I think he is guilty of how he didn’t do for
his mom than anything. Everything he said she was, I think he feels he is. I
love my daddy, and he has gotten so much better since he and my mom separated.
But he has to cut out that “woe is me mentality.” That……I won’t deal
and 9 of my Sistergurls went to the Golden Corral for dinner, talks and laughs.
It was very crowded. After about sitting for 2 hours and about 40 minutes the
General Manager came over and told us ( I was making a plate) that the time
limit to sit was 11/2 hours. “Um excuse me Sir”? Where is that sign, and when I
got back to the table, I told him that I wanted to talk with him. He knew I was
not happy, and I let him know it my “nicest and quiet, direct eye contact,with a
smile… VOICE that the ONLY reason why we are leaving is because we are done. I
let him know that when we spend our money, we can sit as long as we want. A few
of my Sistergurls didn’t take the situation well, but we left anyway, and went
walking at the Riverwalk. We had a good night talking over the Detroit River. In
my mind, we changed something negative into something positive.
Raisingurls for dinner at Applebees. They are really looking forward to seeing
me and I feel the same. I love my gurls too. They have lots of work to do that
day besides eating. LOL Lots of paperwork and conversation.
late….will post tomorrow. Night