Living Off Script/BLOG

It’s snowing here badly in Michigan. We are expecting 4-7 inches. I’m up thinking and writing. I can’t wait till Spring gets here. I’m so tired of this weather.  I’m ready to get out there and do something different.

It’s time I start living off script. Everything I do is by schedule.  Every day I do things by the way I have always did them. I’m ready to just get up and go, do things spontaneously.

I am a very outgoing person. A person with a huge personality and everything has to be planned out with me all the time. I won’t just get up and go on a dinner date it has to be pre-planned and I’m tired of that. I want to be ready at all times not by MY BOOK! I’m ready to live.

It’s funny because I make myself sick some time with this behavior. It’s like I have to be in control of what I do and nothing can get in the way of my schedule. I just learned that about myself.

My mother needed to go to her doctor to have her stitches removed from her knee, but, I worked that morning. I wanted her to switch days because I didn’t want to be tired. She told me you can do it, you won’t be tired, and you’re going to take me. I was so shocked and it was funny at the same time. I took her, and it only took an hour and when I got home I didn’t go to sleep for another 12 hours plus straight. I wasn’t sleepy.

I’m excited about this year and me Living Off Script. I’m tired of living by MY own book, I’m switching it up. I believe God has something special for me and how can I receive it living the way I have?

I’m ready Lord!

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God’s Voice To The Remote Starter/BLOG

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Hey Family!!!

Its been freezing here in Michigan since last month. When I say freezing I mean temperatures -5 below. In the day time its so cold, that even if you’re off work that day, its wise to go out and start your car for a good 20 minutes to warm up the engine.

One morning, I got up at 6:30 am and went out to warm up my engine because I knew  I wasn’t going anywhere that day. As I sat in my car, I saw cars start without the owner in them, and I knew what that was all about. People had remote starters and were starting their cars up from the building. All I kept saying to myself is, I sure wish this car had one.

Later on that day, as I thought about the coming week and the dropping temperatures with snow, the remote starter came to my mind again. The VOICE said, ask Nesha (( my daughter)) to send you a photo of the remote that’s on her set of keys to the car. Right away she sent it to me. I have one that goes to the car on my ring, but she has 2 on her key ring to the same car. Hers is way different than mines, so I told her that when I saw her again, that I wanted it to see if it remote started. But in the meantime I went on line and looked up remote starters and found one that looked just like the one Nesha sent me that’s on her set of keys.

The very next day, I got it!!! I went to the car and kept clicking and clicking and clicking and CLICKING! Nothing! It didn’t even unlock the door. Either the battery was dead, or it wasn’t working PERIOD!!!!.It looked way different than the one I had been using.  I continued to make sure I started my car in the snow and below temperatures, even if it meant freezing my behind off without a remote starter.

DAYS later, the REMOTE STARTER…. came to my mind AGAIN, with a VOICE saying…. “YOU DO HAVE A REMOTE STARTER.” I thought that was a weird LOUD thought, because I had THE REMOTE with me, and every time I went to the car, I tried to use it………. NOTHING. But this VOICE had me thinking. I couldn’t figure out why I kept thinking about THIS NON WORKING REMOTE?

So, I went to work, and walked up to 5 of my coworkers, 3 male and 2 female and asked them to take a look at my remote to tell me if it was a starter or not. It had a star on it, as if it was a starter. The men looked at it one by one, asked me a few questions, and said that it looked like a regular car door remote, and NOT a starter.  One of the men had one, and he told me that a remote starter looks like this…. Image result for remote startersOne of the women SHOWED me hers and it was IDENTICAL to the one I had, and she said mines is not a remote starter, and hers wasn’t either. I figured it wasn’t, but decided to ask one of the men to show me how to open it so that I could at least buy another battery to see if that was the issue. But half way through him working to open it, I said that’s okay.

I got off work and  HEARD THE VOICE AGAIN……. “YOU DO HAVE A REMOTE STARTER!!”  So, I tried it ONE LAST TIME. It DID’NT WORK! I was done with thinking about it, and done with trying to work it.

About 4-5 days later, I had forgotten all about it. When I heard this VOICE out of the blue say AGAIN…. “YOU DO HAVE A REMOTE STARTER. ” I knew it was God. I remember saying to him, my friends says I don’t have one. One friend showed me hers and it was the same, and she doesn’t have one. I said WHY DO I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THIS REMOTE GOD???? It doesn’t work and I’m good with it. See God and I have this lovely relationship, he KNOWS I’M SPECIAL.. HE knows I ask HIM questions over and over and over again. He knows I ask 1000 questions on the same subject. He KNOWS…. that I go through many channels before I get things right SOMETIMES. HE knows me. He knows that I have to go over in my mind things way too many times, over analyze and then COME TO MY SENSES. So just know, He LOVES ME, AND THIS IS HOW WE COMMUNICATE because this is HOW I LEARN. He has patience with me, and he NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER leave me hanging.

SO with that being said….

After hearing him say AGAIN…….. “YOU HAVE A REMOTE STARTER!!!” I decided to go to my car and I made it my business to work with that starter. I knew how it worked, so I took my time with it and I kept thinking about that VOICE. For some reason the green light on the remote lite up THIS time when I went to unlock the car. I started thinking, when my co-worker was opening it, before I told him its okay, he must have loosen up the battery part and somehow made it work. Because when I tried it before it was dark outside and that light DID NOT COME ON. So when it came on THIS TIME and the door unlocked, it tripped me out. I clicked the yellow starter button (( mines look just like that))Image result for remote starters  once for a few seconds, then a second time… IT CAME ON!!!!! LOL LOL LOL MY CAR STARTED. LOL LOL I COULDN’T BELIEVE IT!!!! I KEPT TAPPING MYSELF BECAUSE IT DIDN’T SEEM LIKE THIS WAS HAPPENING. GOD SAID IT!!! HE KEPT MAKING IT COME TO MY MIND! LOL LOL I COULDN’T SHAKE THOSE WORDS.

This was the very same remote I tried 100 times, it was the one MY COWORKERS looked at and said NO it was a regular remote. But God said… “IT IS A REMOTE STARTER.” You can get up in the mornings and REMOTE START your car just like everybody else. I could not stop LAUGHING. I LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED!!!!

I had my Nisan for 4 years and NEVER KNEW I HAD A REMOTE STARTER! LOL LOL

THE BLESSING IN THIS STORY IS NOT THE REMOTE STARTER… ITS THE VOICE OF GOD!!! SEE, I CAN DO WITHOUT THE STARTER, BUT THE VOICE IS WHAT I CANT LIVE WITHOUT!

BE BLESSED!

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The BIG Picture/BLOG

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Being the oldest, is hard work. I’m 50 years old and I still ask God why did you make me the OLDEST?

I ask this question so often that every time I make a decision, give advice or opinion, he always whisper to me… “THAT’S WHY YOU’RE THE OLDEST.”

Growing up I always wanted to be a Teacher or a Lawyer. I love reading , I love teaching people what I learned (( especially my siblings)) then I pass it down to others.

I’ve always had the ability to see the BIGGER PICTURE. To see the situation out in its entirety. I don’t know if I learned this from my parents growing up, or if God gave me these gifts to help myself and others. Let me give an example.

A woman purposely threw a cellphone of the person they were mad at and broke it. He was mad,  she apologized. She promised him that when she got paid she would buy him another phone. Well, before that time came, he made her mad again, she told him that she wasn’t going to replace the phone. This made him angry.

That day he PROMISED her in text messages that he was going to get her back ((REVENGE)) for it. After she sent me all the back and forth texts I told her that I was scared and that he might do something real bad to her. Her text back to me was : “You keep saying that like you want him too.”  (( I told her  this many times in the past, the way their relationship is, someone is going to get hurt one day.”)) I was done. Shocked. Mad at her.

That VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY same night, while she was in the shop getting braids done, he came and knifed all 4 BRAND NEW tires.

I was one of the first people she called. I love my friend and will always be there for her, I just know with her……. I have to step back and let things happen.

I can always see the BIGGER PICTURE. You cant do something to someone these days and not expect for them to do something back. When you do A. to someone, expect them to do B. to you. Not everyone will do A. to you, those are the ones who have enough sense to know that this person cannot be trusted, and not to deal with them anymore. Because they’re the ones who will cause you to get in BIGGER TROUBLE. Sooner or later playing these types of games.. someone is going to get mad and do something about it.

Many people have came to me and told me things before they happened, and I didn’t listen…. but I listen now.

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What I Learned About Myself in 2017/BLOG 2

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Hey Family!!!!

Well, I wanted to hit 100,000  views before the New Year, but I was busy so I didn’t get a chance to hit my blog like I wanted, but its okay.

Like I mentioned in my other blog, I have taken inventory of my life and my short comings and I see where I need to do better.

I have this BAD habit of having a DEEP desire to “help” people. When people come to me and they want to talk about a situation or anything going on with them, and I’ve been down that same “street” before, I want to help them. But it always seem to back fire on me.

I think I put too much time and care into it more than them. As long as its bad, they want to talk about it all day and night with me, text, call, anything to get my attention, and I give them that energy. Because I understand, I care. I get it. But then when something happens and they go back to the same ole ways, they don’t want to talk about it. Then days later, its back to all day and all night conversations about it. Its so funny. Because I am really being nice and caring. I INVEST TOO MUCH TIME INTO SUPPORTING OTHERS. I’m at the point were we don’t never, ever have to talk about THEIR situation again. Most times I don’t want to anyway. I do it because I know what its like to need someone to listen. But I’m done with that.

I know how it feels to be in certain situations, and having experienced it myself. I only try to give good advice if I have been through it, anything else I’m just a listener. As soon as they feel that things are going great for them in that situation, and I don’t say a word, they always have to test me, to see if I’m still readily engaged. And my face will continue to be TWISTED. Nope, don’t want to talk about, cant take  the advice YOU asked for, lets cut the whole head off!

That has STOPPED TODAY!

I have done so many people this way, now that I realized it. Not spending this year listening to other people’s story. Your situation… YOUR PROBLEMS.. I TAKE MINES TO GOD… FOLLOW SUIT

I’m about to BLAZE MY OWN TRAIL! WATCH ME!

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What I Learned About Myself in 2017/BLOG 1

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This year I have purposely taken the time out to get to know myself. I did that by paying attention to the things I like and to what I don’t like. It has helped me to give attention to those things that are important to me, and to leave those things that are not. I am really proud of myself, because I took the time to focus on ME. I’m always, always loving on others and being their biggest cheerleader, when I learned that I need to find out what it is that makes me ……La’Crease J. Walker.

I had to ask God, why do I love being alone so much? My friends always ask when are you going to do lunch or dinner? I love my friends and I would love to go and eat (( are you kidding me)) I realized that I’m more of a listener than a person who have something to share. I find myself having to be in the mood to listen, and when I think about that sometimes, I just want to stay HOME. I believe that I am just so boring and wonder why people always want to be around me. I am funny and very silly, but still I’m very boring.

For as long as I can remember, I have always had company at my place. I love to cook for my friends, and love to talk junk and laugh. When I started driving at 32, I no longer wanted to have company over, because I wanted to be out and about. I didn’t want to go over to anyone’s place,  I wanted to travel. I wanted to go to concerts, and plays. No one wanted to do that. They wanted to sit up and play cards, drink, or go out clubbing. I had a car, I didn’t want to sit in my house anymore and that’s when I had to start regrouping  myself. God showed me that when I had company everyday (( and there is NOTHING wrong with that)) that I was training people how to treat me. I did enjoy my company. But things changed in me when I started driving. And that’s okay too.

Then there came a time when I wanted to travel and go to concerts. I realized many years later, that those same people didn’t want to go to the concerts I liked. And that was cool too. I was traveling to Atlanta and Chicago a lot with OTHER friends. I went to Universal Studios in Florida 2 times stayed a whole week, that wasn’t with my card playing friends, it was with others. I traveled to New York 3 times with other friends. I went on a cruise this year for a week, and when I wanted to go back for next year, there were problems with friends. Its always so important to find like minded friends to do the things you like to do in life.

As time when by, I had to learn to travel alone. I will hop in my car and go to Atlanta so quick by myself. I’ll ask once, maybe twice, but after that I’m gone. I have went to so many plays and concerts alone. I go out to dinner and the movies alone. I got tired of begging people to do things with me, if they couldn’t go I had to branch out there and do it alone.

One thing that I notice about myself… is when I do go out with friends to a movie, dinner, concert, or anything else… I HAVE A BALL!!! I have always, ALWAYS. ALWAYS had fun.

So for 2018, my goal is to do more with my friends. I love my friends. I’m just a NERD right now and it has nothing to do WITH THEM AT ALL…. it has everything do to with MEEEEEEE. I promise to initiate dinner, movies, a concert or play with them. I have figured out why I was “crazy person” with them, now its time to realize that they love me and I love them and time is ticking for all of us. And at the end of the day, I can go home and BE ALONE! That’s the great part!

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