Women Do Better/BLOG

Image result for know your worth

I speak and listen to a lot of women tell their stories of life lessons. I know for me, at one time or another I was naive when it came to other people. I grew up in a two parent home and we all trusted each other. We never stabbed each other in the back, or even fought for it was not allowed. But when I moved out on my own at 22, I had to face a lot of things I never saw growing up.  Things I wasn’t taught. Things I didn’t see among my friends. Which made me naive to a lot of things that were going on with others in the world. It cost me a lot. Had many cries and loss through the years,  but I’m convinced it has made me stronger for what’s ahead.

With so much social media these days, I don’t understand why WOMEN allow themselves to be mistreated, abused and be flat out gullible. Its so easy to find your own situation in a video, in a FB conversation, even on the job talking to others. Why is it that women wont do better? Why is it so hard to get out of a relationship that is toxic? Why women don’t love themselves enough to want more? Do women put themselves in a situation that causes her to stay because she won’t make it without his financial support? Do women like or enjoy drama? I say drama because in order to deal with physical or mental abuse there has to be something in them that has the tolerance for it.

My prayer is that if you are reading this and this is your situation that you get out and get help. Its all about PEACE. Get somewhere and learn yourself. Find out what you like to do and do it. Love yourself. Stop being WEAK! Find your strength. Let your Yes mean YES, and your No mean NO. Tell yourself you will no long deal with anything that is not of God. Speak with boldness. Walk with your head held high. Give eye contact. Speak clearly and know what you’re talking about. Its Okay to laugh and smile, but take serious conversations SERIOUS.

I can go on and on, but I promise to write more on these types of subjects.

Be Blessed

Just Sayin Regular

Advertisements

Lifted FEAR

Image result for fear

Hey Family!!

I was watching weddings and proposals on YouTube. I love how the men set up the proposals.  Women are always the one behind a planning event. I’m learning to listen more and be more submissive. I haven’t thought about what type of wedding ring I want, or colors to my wedding if I ever got married. But it has made me think about those things.

God told me 21 years ago that if I did one thing,  that I would get married. He told me that it was someone that I knew already.  I neverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ever wanted to conquer my fear, so I was like.. OH WELL GOD. guess I won’t be getting married. ((( SMH @ myself)))). I wasn’t thinking about marriage back then, so I wasn’t in a hurry to know. How I know it was God? His voice was out of the blue and so clear. I know his voice, and every time he tells me something, or SOMEONE ELSE, it always come to pass. Plus, this is something that I FEARED doing, so I know I didn’t tell myself this.

So let me tell you what I did. ((( I’m always trying to help God.. SMH)))), I went to all of my male friends and bought them back into my life.  ONE BY ONE, to see if anyone of them would be potentials. Yup, sure did. I spoke with them, and they never knew what I was doing. After seeing what their life was about, I was like UGH… I don’t want none of them. I’m good God.

Years started passing, and still I didn’t want to do what I had to do to know. So, 5, 10, 15, 20 years passed and its funny, because when he told me this I was still meeting new people along the way.  It was getting hard to figure out who it was.  Never thinking that it would take me up until now to do this thing.  Which brings me to 21 years more of NEW PEOPLE. Yes, you get my point? And I still haven’t done it.

I NEVER shared this with  ANYONE, because they want to know.. well what is it?  What is it? What is it?  What did God tell you to do? A husband and you haven’t done it, gurl are you crazy? I don’t want to hear that, because my  fear is connected to something else and my sister helped me to realized that. BUT she didn’t know that it was connected to something else. She doesn’t even know about the husband part. But anyway. God has been dealing with me on that issue and when I say its almost time. My fear has been lifted after prayer, and soon, and very soon I will do this.  This is so funny and silly to me. Because I never cared, maybe because I wasn’t ready. I dunno.

Something happened to me recently and it has changed my whole life around and when I tell you I see things differently. I wish I could go deeper, but I can’t. ANYWAY… ENOUGH ABOUT ME. LOOK AT THIS RANGGGGGGGGGGG GURL!

OMG I’m in LOVE . I want THIS!

Image result for expensive wedding rings for the bride

Love & Trust Regular

 

Tyler. Oprah. Lee.. BE DONE WITH MO & DAD *lol*!

I’m jumping right into this, because my fingers* typing*  will NEVER catch up with my thoughts, so here it goes.

I’m so SICK and tired of seeing Monique and her non working husband talk about this Tyler Perry, Lee Daniels, and Oprah Winfrey story.

I’m from Detroit, ** 4 minute poetry SNAP**

where I’m from we talk about it, debate about it, and we are DONE! Having these year long conversations about the SAME THING will get you BLOCKED AND DELETED! PERIOD!

  •  Done talking to you,
  • done thinking about you,
  • done wondering about you,
  • done seeing anything YOU,
  • done knowing you,
  • done hearing you,
  • you’re not even BORN to me.
  • DONE.
  • ERASED.
  • DELETE.
  • RINGER OFF.
  • BLOCK.
  • … See ya on JUDGEMENT DAY!
  • IN THAT ORDER!!!

We just don’t do that. So to keep hearing the same story over and over everywhere I read, does something to my SOUL. Who watches the same movie everyday for a YEAR PLUS? Nobody

First of all, and let me make this CLEAR. Monique know dayum well, OPRAH will never ever ever ever ever ever EVA EVA EVA EVA in her life reach out to her, or comment publicly about anything concerning this tired, year long story. PERIOD! I hope Oprah she’s sitting somewhere with her legs crossed eating cashews. BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I wouldn’t have a word to say to calm HER PERSONAL STORM. NEVA NO DAY * Lisa Pippen words*!

I’ll let Monique dance on the floor * talk about this story* to all her favorite songs * any and everyone who would listen* ALL DAY EVERYDAY! Oprah will NEVA have nothing for you Monique so you can stop trying to get a rise out of her. You’ll have a better chance of giving birth to a bed bug, than to receive a response. ** Stop it Cree** LOL

See, I’m a woman. I’m not going back and forth with NOBODY. I’m going to say what I gotta say, you say what you gotta say, we come to a conclusion on what we agree on and ITS OVA! DONE! No more TALKING ABOUT IT! PERIOD! Oprah knows this. I just love her quietness on this subject. See, Oprah knows that if she talks about this, a person like Monique will NEVER let it die down. In her mind she told Monique….. “kick rocks in your FAVORITE pair of shoes.” LOL

Lee Daniels. Lee only addressed the issue because Damon Dash confronted him. *laughs* He KNEW his character was in question, so he went on Raq Rants and tried to clear it up.  Then he pissed me off with the LIES and the MATTER OF FACT attitude. Saying… it was an investment. Negro PLEASE, who  gives a person 2 million dollars and doesn’t want it back when the person gets on their feet? Are you stupid? Is something wrong with him? Then turns the knife by saying… he needs it. Been done with him. UGH! Other than that, he wasn’t going to ever mention Monique’s name again. AND SHE KNOWS IT!!! Sooner or later Monique and Sidney will be talking about that interview.

Tyler Perry. Tyler Perry is a Christian. If I don’t know anything else about him, I know this. He wants PEACE. He wants to do any and everything in his power to make it right with them, so that they all can move on. He wanted to end the phone conversation with that only goal. I wouldn’t doubt if Tyler Perry writes a script for her in the future. That’s just how he is.

Monique and Sidney over talked Tyler so bad, pissed me OFF! I would have hung up on them nothings and turned my ringer OFF. I wish the hell I would at 50 years old attempt to hold an adult conversation with 2 clowns who over talks me. Neva No Day! I don’t do business like that. THEN.. it comes out that they were secretly taping him. Oh hell naw!!! I bet Oprah called Tyler and said see friend, now you see why I didn’t open my mouth.

But again, Tyler is a Christian and it killed him to know that he may have hurt her and  felt it was necessary to reach out , and for that I LOVE TYLER. He could have let her bleed out, cause Tyler already talked to Oprah she rolled her eyes and said.. I wish I would **  me laughing loud**, Lee aint thinking about her, so that leaves Tyler, the one with a soul. The one who cares. The one who loves God. The one who wants Peace. The one who knows it says in the Bible;

Galatians 6:1 ESV 

Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness. Keep watch on yourself, lest you too be tempted.

Matthew 5:9 New International Version (NIV)

Blessed are the peacemakers,
    for they will be called children of God.

 

See, Monique and Sidney was so busy daily being “offended”, when Tyler said, how can I make this right? They took it as, “what you don’t know?” So he bought up royalties, that was not enough, they over talked him on that. That then bought on new issues.. Oh you’re the billionaire talking now, as if to say this is not about money. But then make a public note to say… “he still haven’t sent anything.”  Then when they said admit you were wrong. So he admitted he was wrong,  but wanted to tell how he came to the conclusion he came too. That wasn’t enough.

I’m thinking, so what these doe-doe birds wanted Tyler to call all cars * news stations* to hold a press conference telling the world he was wrong and made a mistake? What she wanted him to send out a email to his fans apologizing to them? Or did she want him to make a video? These nothings really have lost their minds! Listening to the interview made me mad, they wouldn’t let Tyler get a word in, being sarcastic, asking leading questions. I would have gotten them ALL THE WAY TOGETHER. First by saying.. all this over talking… WE AINT DOING!!! The first sign of them double teaming. hollering, asking leading questions, and bullying..  CLICK! RINGER OFF! DONE!!!

Somebody need to tell Monique and Sidney there are going to be plenty and many of times when they are offended. You can’t talk about your offenses for the rest of your life. Yes, there was a problem, it was an attempt to work the problem out, but you took none of the help. So, yall sit your asses in the ***OFFENDED HOSPITAL*** and figure it out.

Tyler Perry, don’t ever, ever in your life comment on this publicly, or even to anyone in your circle. You tried to be the * EMS* they refuse help/service… LET EM BLEED!

YummyCupcakes Medium

 

 

 

Going Home To See The King/BLOG

Image result for resting in god's presence

Hey Family!!!

Today ((May 29, 2018)) we laid my aunt to rest. When I tell you my auntie LOVED THE LORD, went to Church every week, and she served her community WELL! Believe IT! All of the things the people spoke about her, only made me cry tears of joy. People were saying how they never seen her upset even when she was whooping her grand kids. LOL That is so true, because she wore a permanent smile on her face. She was one of those ladies in the neighborhood that said ” Come on in here baby, are you hungry?”

My aunt had 9 kids (( adults now)), ALL by her first husband who passed away from Sickle Cell Anemia. My aunt got remarried in 1998 to a wonderful man of God name Glenn. One thing I loved about them, that if you looked at them, you can see God’s presence resting on them.

My aunt found out she had advanced Cancer in February, she said that she was at Peace with God and that when it was time for her to go, she wanted to leave. ALL of my cousins are doing well, so she left here knowing that they were close and had each other. I sit up at night and imagine the conversation she had with God. First of all, I know she asked him to forgive all of her sins known and unknown. She cleared her path. Can you imagine knowingly about to die, and all you can think about is that fact that you’re on your way to SEE THE KING? Are you kidding me! I love my whole family and especially my daughter, but she knows that when God calls me home, I’M OUT!!!!

So today was a good day. My aunt knew her time was coming quickly. She had time to clear the path.  Ask God TODAY, NOW, AS YOU ARE READING THIS, to forgive all your sins, known and unknown. One thing I know ….. my aunt is going to see Jesus face to face. Her work here on earth is DONE!

AMEN!

 

Image may contain: 2 people, people smiling, closeup and indoor

50 Things About Me!((BLOG))

Image result for 50 things about me

Hey Family!!

Today I decided to write out 50 things about me. Sometimes in life we are constantly moving and we forget about ourselves and the things that makes us… US. Every so often I like to remind myself of who I am by writing or thinking about the things I love and enjoy. So, I am asking that YOU do the same thing. It may take you a while, but its worth writing down. Here we go!

  1. I HATE cheese. When I buy pizza its always….. NO cheese, extra sauce, sausage and pepperoni. People ask me… do you eat Macaroni and Cheese tho? NOPE!
  2. I LOVE squirrels. I sit at the park and video tape them running around playing with each other. They are the cutest. One day I hope one come into my home so I can take care of it.
  3. I had one baby. She’s 31 now and  was born on MY birthday September 3. I was born at 1:40 am at HUTZEL HOSPITAL and she was born at 1:43 am at HUTZEL HOSPITAL. My mom was in labor with me for 3 days, and I was in labor with her for 3 days. I am 19 years older than her. People told us we would never get along because we are so much alike, but we are BEST FRIENDS because WE ARE SO MUCH ALIKE. We understand each other PERFECTLY!
  4. When I clock in for work, I WORK! If I’m not feeling it, or feel as if I’ll be mean… ILL CALL IN! I refuse to go to work and make others feel the way I’m feeling. I’m a positive force at work, and I want it to stay that way, even if my money is on the line.
  5. My favorite PERFUMES in the world are….. Si by Giorgio Armani, Beautiful by Estee Lauder, Carolina Herrera 212 NYC, and Paloma Picasso by Paloma Picasso
  6. When my baby was just 3 months I got pregnant by her father again, and had an abortion never telling anyone but him and his best friend. Years and years later a customer I met wanted to have one, but I talked her into having her baby. She kept her baby, and bought him to meet me. We cried. God told me it was the right time to share my story, so that one could be saved. So glad I got out of my own way.
  7. I’m the oldest of 4. I’m 50 years old. I have 2 Sisters and 1 Brother. Each of us have only 1 child, except my baby sister she has 3 grown adults.
  8. I ABSOLUTELY HATE talking on the phone. I want eye contact, so everything with me is in PERSON.
  9. Out of all the friends that I have, I know one who is LOYAL TO HEART! GLORIA GLASS (( over 23 years of friendship))
  10. God ALWAYS tell me things before they happen. Visions, Dreams, and His Voice. He LOVES ME SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!
  11. I LOVE ICE CREAM. I eat it every week. My favorites are Haaggen-Dazs Strawberry and Butter Pecan. I love chocolate with peanuts on top.
  12. I took my first cruise last year on the Norwegian Cruise Line for 7 days, got sick one day, and the rest was filled with drinking, laughing , eating and talking.
  13. I listen to MUSIC everyday. I gotta have it. It relaxes me. It loves me and I love it.
  14. I was afraid to fly. I would take the greyhound every time I went to Chicago to be with my online Ministry group. Until our Leader told me to go in a private place so that she could pray for me over the phone. Instantly, my fear of flying was lifted by God. That same night, she bought me a flight to New York for a weekend I’ll never forget.
  15. I love trees. I enjoy looking at their “arms” and strong “legs”.
  16. Dogs, Lions and Tigers are my favorite animals. When I was a kid, I asked God when I go to Heaven can I please take care of the Lions and Tigers?
  17. Before every meal I have to have a HUGE hand full of fresh raw broccoli (( straight out of the bag)) before I start my meals.
  18. Anita Baker is my FAVORITE SINGER EVER…. PERIOD! Beyonce,  Karen Clark-Sheard, Marvin Sapp, Maxwell and The Great (RIP) Gerald Levert.
  19. I started a Teens Group for over 5 years every Summer. We met every other Sunday at my home and we talked about God, family, parents, peer pressure, personal issues, and social issues. I keep in touch with them all through FB.
  20. I held several Women’s Gathering where we came together and talked about God, marriage, being single, friendships, relationships, and many other topics.
  21. I love to write and read.
  22. When you walk into my apartment you will smell my favorite plug in scent. Cashmere Woods by Glade
  23. My favorite lotions are Razac, and Bath and Body works Eucalyptus + Spearmint EVERYTHING!!!
  24. I dont put salt in any of my food unless its something I’m putting in the oven. I hate salt because when we were kids my dad would cook and put way too much salt in the food and I couldn’t eat it.
  25. I get upset when people don’t get over when EMS and Police speed by.
  26. I love being sarcastic, people always get my humor
  27. I’m a Virgo, and I’m silly as hell
  28. When it comes to taking care of business.. I’M A BEAST at getting it done.
  29. I love to multitask. I’ll never take a boring job
  30. My favorite food is Collard Greens… PERIOD!
  31. Tyler Perry is my favorite FILM MAKER
  32. I’m currently listening to Everlasting Love by Chaka Khan
  33. I HATE washing dishes, but LOVE cleaning up the bathroom
  34. I love driving. I can do 13 hours SLEEPY! Yeaaaa I’m one of them, a BEAST!
  35. Some of the things I talk about with God is so funny. I know he says to himself…. “What am I going to do with this gurl”? LOL LOL
  36. When I was a teen I asked God for Wisdom and I know he has Blessed me with this gift, but sometimes IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII get in the way of WHAT I KNOW.
  37. I sit in my car 15-20 minutes early for work, but I punch in DURING my 9 minute grace period. (( bad bad bad LOL))
  38. I dont eat sweets, but I LOVE food.
  39. When I’m done talking or dealing with you.. I’m done. But when I’m wrong, you will hear from me asking for forgiveness. (( check your email))
  40. I wrote a love story years ago, only listening to Maxwell’s song Submerge all the way through it
  41. One of my  favorite bands is The Brand New Heavies
  42. I’m SO private, that if you THINK you know me…. YOU DON’T!
  43. I LOVE when a man sees me for the first time, and looks at me as if I was his WIFE *turn on*
  44. I love a man who smells good! Instantly my body reacts….  *ON SPOT*
  45. I miss my great grandmother so much. When I listen to BB King’s “I like to live the life I sing about”… makes me cry, cry, cry hard.
  46.  I love walking into a room and setting it off, by my smile, friendly vibe, pleasant personalty and warm Godly spirit..
  47. All of my friends and family says I can be a drama queen… not in gossip… but in how I can heighten a conversation to 100. LOL
  48. By the time I get to the first traffic light, I curse out at least 3 people in my head SMH
  49. I’m not a jealous person at all, but I saw something on YouTube by a fan, and it ROCKED ME TO THE CORE! Devastated ME something terrible! I’m just NOW getting over it.
  50.  Sep 15, 2019 ….  I hope to get my face done by Lisa P  from Texas…. Her song goes. “She’s building, she’s blending, now she bout to be BEAT!

Chopin Script Regular

Hands On/BLOG

Image result for learning for yourself

Hey Family!

Have you ever just sat up and thought about the things people do? Sometimes, I wonder what does God think about what his kids are “down here” doing. I know I’m a handful BY MYSELF… the thing with me tho… I’m scared of CONSEQUENCES. I don’t want no trouble.

Then I sit up and think about how people treat each other. Today I was at a 4 way traffic stop, and everyone knows you take turns going. Well, instead of this one car waiting for his turn, he took off when it wasn’t even his turn. Just pissed me off. The car that was suppose to go started blowing her horn, it was funny, but the man didn’t care. As long as he went first without waiting, he was good. But then that same guy will go home, find out his house had been broken in, and will piss a fit about it. But you’re out here being disrespectful to the 4 way……ON PURPOSE!

This lady walked through the self check out at Meijer, she had to be about in her late 50’s. She walked in saying ” I don’t know how to work this”…. loud and obnoxious. The cashier said to her, come over here let me show you. The lady says ” could you just ring me up, those things frustrates me. The cashier rung up her and again, the lady is left not knowing how to do it. I’m a teacher at heart. I worked at an Elementary School for over 9 years. I’m a hands on person. I’m not going to ALLOW you to ask me 50,000 questions without me showing and teaching you.

One day my daughter surprised me with an iPhone 5, I didn’t know how to use it or anything. I would call her every 5 minutes asking questions. I knew she was getting frustrated with me because seems as if I wasn’t getting it over the phone. But the next day  in person she said I’m going to show you the basics, she said momma you have to play with the phone, make mistakes and remember what you did. I admit I was HEATED! I wanted her to show me how to do this and that, and all these things without having to do it myself. She said momma you have to learn it  for yourself. She said you can’t go around in life asking people to do things for you without you trying it first.. I WAS MADD in my mind! OOO weeeee. I was on fiyah.  She didn’t know that. But once I got to my apartment and thought about it, I said she’s right. I need to play with this phone until I can learn how to do everything. Even if I make mistakes. Even if it takes all day. I’m going to learn how to work this phone. And I did it!

That’s the attitude I have with everything now. I will get to a machine, look at it first, figure out the buttons and what does what, then I will work it. Especially in person. I’m getting older and that’s right, I dont want to be like that lady who want everyone to help her before she even TRY to work it. They don’t want to learn, or even think about it, just like I felt. They want it done for them and on to the next. NOPE… not going to watch others ask  questions all day and not try it first. My daughter has me in the iPhone forever plan where I can upgrade whenever a new phone comes out, and since then I had the 7 and the 7 plus, now I have the iPhone X and I got this!!! No help. Hands on!

So, I write this to say, if you have parents, or friends who are quick to say.. “HELP ME, HELP ME” Show them how to do it in love, and remind them to work with it first, make mistakes, then ask questions if they cant get it. Going around in life asking everybody to HELP YOU because you don’t want to learn it, don’t have time, being lazy, or intimidated is not a reason to not learn.  This is your life. I was feeling some kinda way when my daughter told me to play with things first, but I’m glad I learned that lesson from her.

My daughter and I  bought my mom a Ipad 2 last week. I showed her how to work it, she called me a few times about it, and now she got it mastered. The same thing my daughter told me, I told my mom. She lovessssssss it. My mom will be 69 in June and I don’t want her going around saying to folks….. “HELP ME DO THIS, HELP ME”.. unless she really needs it and not because SHE DOESN’T FEEL LIKE LEARNING IT.

Chopin Script Regular

My Daughter Blessed Me Today/BLOG

252883_10150200651766530_505101529_7034039_1118326_n

Hey Family!

So, today my daughter asked me to pick her up from work because she had something for me. When I read the text, for some reason I skipped over that part, I was too busy thinking about having to get dressed.  She could tell from my text that I did not want to get out of the bed from my nap. ((LOL)) So when I got to her she couldn’t stop laughing. She said I know you were sleepy, but I have something for you at home. I laughed because she knows me so well. I told her that I thought she was playing about having something for me, and that I never paid that part any attention.

Once we got to her apartment which is directly around the corner from my apartment she went in while I waited. As she’s walking back to the car, I’m looking at watching me with a smile on her face. I didn’t know what was going on, and why she had something for me. She’s always giving me money, or buying me something, so I couldn’t figure this one out. As she gets in the car, she hands me this bag which is cute and small, not to mention my favorite color green. I opened it up and its one of my favorite perfumes in the world. Si!  By Giorgio Armani. I was so happy and so grateful!!! I could not stop laughing and looking at her. She amazes me. Always thinking about me. I hugged and kissed her.. then she says.. ” didn’t want to get out of bed today huh?” LOL She is sooooooooo funny!

Just then she hands me over a card and I’m wondering where is all of this coming from? I opened the card and this is what it read.

IMG_5421.PNG

I’m normally a cry baby, but this really shocked me! Then this falls out

She put $500.00 in the card!!! Thank you Lord! Thank you Jesus. As you can see in the background there are 2 money orders. I’m paying off my credit card debt and she knew that I had 2 more payments for the one and I’m done. She paid them for me. Not only that, but she put some money on my cash app card for FOOD ONLY! She made it clear that it was for food only! She told me that she wanted me to spend the money all on me, and next week she’s going to give me more than this. Not only that, but she also is paying my home Wifi bill. This is too much for me. She’s very persistent and would not ever let me give it back to her.

Now the LESSON IN ALL OF THIS…. READ CAREFULLY

I went home sat on the bed for HOURS thinking why is my daughter so good to me? For one, I’m good to my parents. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my parents. They also live around the corner from me. I take care of them and they’re always expressing this same thing to me. But I do it because they took care of us. I’m 50 years old and to me, I can NEVER EVER do enough for them. I have to get this in my head, because this is how my daughter feels about me. She’s my only child.  But as a parent I feel that was my job to take care of her, not be paid back later. In my mind, I want her to do her, I’m good. In her mind, she’s good, she wants to do me. My parents feel the same way. The point…Take care of your kids family, and they will take care of you.

I wrote a post not long ago,

https://lacreasewalker.com/2017/09/02/god-told-me-that-i-was-getting-in-the-way-with-my-foolishness-pt-1blog/   https://lacreasewalker.com/2017/09/03/god-told-me-that-i-was-getting-in-the-way-with-my-foolishness-pt-2blog/

about the time when I was in my early 30’s of how I was partying a lot, drinking, talking on the phone all day, having male company over at night, neglecting the time I spent with my daughter and GOD WAS NOT PLEASED WITH ME!!! HE knows I take pride in paying my bills on time and paying it off. But they were all shut off for non payment this time! I knew he wanted to talk to me, so I waited for him to speak for over 2 weeks. What he told me blew me away. He said that the person that NESHA is to be, I am getting in the way with my foolishness. Right away I stopped talking on the phone, cut off sex, and got back into doing things with my daughter. I knew one day God would show me what he meant by that. Everyday he shows me through her. She is amazing. She’s very educated and she’s the Director of her Department doing well for herself.

God told me for my OBEDIENCE ((I did it right away)) that I am seeing fruits from it. Now I understand. Now I get why she takes care of me the way she does. God places it on her heart. I don’t need anything and I’m so grateful to God. Take care of your kids while they’re young, this way they will take care of you and it will all be from their hearts. Just as I do my parents, my daughter do for me. I love her! Thank you Jesus! Thank you!

IMG_4236.PNG

Chopin Script Regular