I’m sitting here feeling “some kinda way” I can’t even explain this feeling. It’s this quiet thinking, but not talking feeling. If Nesha was here, she would say… “ma, you look weird”…… what’s on your mind’? I dunno. Usually when I get like this… I’m usually lacking time with God.. or my music. Tonight I think its my music. So, I’m going to lay down soon and let my Ipod put me to sleep.
I need to get out of this head space that I’m in. Oh yea… its almost the end of the month and my goal was to lose 9 lbs… and I’m at 10. So, that I am excited about. I have LOTS of work to do. Thank God for my beautiful shape… because I can get away with a lot. I can’t wait until it warms up, so that I can do my walking again at the Park. I can’t mess with all those jumping jacks, and hula hoops. LOL
Even though this “wilderness” that I’m in….. I can’t deny the things I’ve learned. And funny thing is.. had I not been here… I don’t think I would know what I know. That’s something to think about……if your reading and have found yourself here. That’s a Blessing in itself. I look at people, things and situations in a totally new light. Not so much as bad either……. just “differently”. LOL
Great thing is….. I’m feeling better even after writing this little bit. My break through is coming….and when it happens….. its going to be a loooooong time before I’m in this space again.
Good Night… Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy