My Daughter Blessed Me Today/BLOG

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Hey Family!

So, today my daughter asked me to pick her up from work because she had something for me. When I read the text, for some reason I skipped over that part, I was too busy thinking about having to get dressed.  She could tell from my text that I did not want to get out of the bed from my nap. ((LOL)) So when I got to her she couldn’t stop laughing. She said I know you were sleepy, but I have something for you at home. I laughed because she knows me so well. I told her that I thought she was playing about having something for me, and that I never paid that part any attention.

Once we got to her apartment which is directly around the corner from my apartment she went in while I waited. As she’s walking back to the car, I’m looking at watching me with a smile on her face. I didn’t know what was going on, and why she had something for me. She’s always giving me money, or buying me something, so I couldn’t figure this one out. As she gets in the car, she hands me this bag which is cute and small, not to mention my favorite color green. I opened it up and its one of my favorite perfumes in the world. Si!  By Giorgio Armani. I was so happy and so grateful!!! I could not stop laughing and looking at her. She amazes me. Always thinking about me. I hugged and kissed her.. then she says.. ” didn’t want to get out of bed today huh?” LOL She is sooooooooo funny!

Just then she hands me over a card and I’m wondering where is all of this coming from? I opened the card and this is what it read.

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I’m normally a cry baby, but this really shocked me! Then this falls out

She put $500.00 in the card!!! Thank you Lord! Thank you Jesus. As you can see in the background there are 2 money orders. I’m paying off my credit card debt and she knew that I had 2 more payments for the one and I’m done. She paid them for me. Not only that, but she put some money on my cash app card for FOOD ONLY! She made it clear that it was for food only! She told me that she wanted me to spend the money all on me, and next week she’s going to give me more than this. Not only that, but she also is paying my home Wifi bill. This is too much for me. She’s very persistent and would not ever let me give it back to her.

Now the LESSON IN ALL OF THIS…. READ CAREFULLY

I went home sat on the bed for HOURS thinking why is my daughter so good to me? For one, I’m good to my parents. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my parents. They also live around the corner from me. I take care of them and they’re always expressing this same thing to me. But I do it because they took care of us. I’m 50 years old and to me, I can NEVER EVER do enough for them. I have to get this in my head, because this is how my daughter feels about me. She’s my only child.  But as a parent I feel that was my job to take care of her, not be paid back later. In my mind, I want her to do her, I’m good. In her mind, she’s good, she wants to do me. My parents feel the same way. The point…Take care of your kids family, and they will take care of you.

I wrote a post not long ago,

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about the time when I was in my early 30’s of how I was partying a lot, drinking, talking on the phone all day, having male company over at night, neglecting the time I spent with my daughter and GOD WAS NOT PLEASED WITH ME!!! HE knows I take pride in paying my bills on time and paying it off. But they were all shut off for non payment this time! I knew he wanted to talk to me, so I waited for him to speak for over 2 weeks. What he told me blew me away. He said that the person that NESHA is to be, I am getting in the way with my foolishness. Right away I stopped talking on the phone, cut off sex, and got back into doing things with my daughter. I knew one day God would show me what he meant by that. Everyday he shows me through her. She is amazing. She’s very educated and she’s the Director of her Department doing well for herself.

God told me for my OBEDIENCE ((I did it right away)) that I am seeing fruits from it. Now I understand. Now I get why she takes care of me the way she does. God places it on her heart. I don’t need anything and I’m so grateful to God. Take care of your kids while they’re young, this way they will take care of you and it will all be from their hearts. Just as I do my parents, my daughter do for me. I love her! Thank you Jesus! Thank you!

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MY Dreams/BLOG

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Hey Family!!

Several times a week I like to sit and talk out loud to myself. Yes, I live alone so I talk out loud so that I can hear my own thoughts. Most times they’re about myself, or maybe something that happened and I want to go over it again. I do this to check myself. Sometimes, I can say something that someone heard differently than I meant, and I like to go over it a few days later, to see where I can better communicate. But mostly, I like to examine my heart.

I was talking to a male coworker of mines and I came to the conclusion that I need to study my bible more. I told someone today.. I’m half way through life… I’m 50, I’m almost to the “next level”. LOL I gotta laugh at my own thoughts. But it’s true.

I pray and talk to Jesus daily, but, I NEED TO STUDY MORE.  I love my closeness with God. I love how he speaks to me. I just feel that its always more to him. No matter how many times you read a Scripture it will always come back to you in a different light at another time. I hope you got that. But you have to put in the time. You have to make time (( I’m talking to myself as well)). You have to set aside time for God. Yes, yes, yes we get off track, not to say we don’t love and acknowledge him, but that study time, and time alone is EVERYTHING. Sometimes I get wrapped up in LIFE, and we lose sight of whats really important.

I remember Tyler Perry would write his fans these long uplifting, encouraging, and inspiring emails. He hasn’t written any in over a year!!! I would look forward to his messages. But again, we all get off track. Doesn’t mean we don’t love God, or have a relationship with him. Just means we have got to get back to what bought us here. For me….. more time with God and more studying!

I was thinking one day… Cree what is YOUR dream? I always felt that it had to be some huge thing that I bought or lived in. Whenever people asked, I never wanted to say, because I felt it may not live up to what others had dreams of. Maybe, to own a shop or something, but none of those things has been my dream. Mines is so simple (( don’t take the word simple lightly than how I’m using it)).

My dream is to sit at my own BOOK SIGNING, and see the lines out of the door. I want women and men to say how much I inspired them. I want them to say, that they thought they were the only ones to go through what I’ve written. I want them to say, how I helped them to express how they were feeling about a certain situation. I want to see their faces, talk to them, cry with them, connect with them. I want to look them in their eyes and feel everything that they carry.

My second dream is to marry someone I’m completely in LOVE with and he feels the very same way about me. I want to do MARRIAGE seminars. I want to help marriages stay alive. I first believe that husband and wife should have great chemistry and that’s what I LOVE. GREAT CHEMISTRY IS EVERYTHING. I want my husband to be full of GOD, and I want to be submissive to him.

I can go on and on about both of my DREAMS for myself in this LIFE…. but I’ll stop here.

Check out my FAVORITE MARRIAGE TO BE YOUTUBERS.. I LOOOOOOVE THIS YOUNG FAMILY..  I watch their videos FAITHFULLY. CHECK OUT THE CHEMISTRY! ALWAYS CONNECT TO THE  WHAT YOU WANT TO ATTRACT!

MY ACE FAMMMMMMMMMMMILAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

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God’s Voice To The Remote Starter/BLOG

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Hey Family!!!

Its been freezing here in Michigan since last month. When I say freezing I mean temperatures -5 below. In the day time its so cold, that even if you’re off work that day, its wise to go out and start your car for a good 20 minutes to warm up the engine.

One morning, I got up at 6:30 am and went out to warm up my engine because I knew  I wasn’t going anywhere that day. As I sat in my car, I saw cars start without the owner in them, and I knew what that was all about. People had remote starters and were starting their cars up from the building. All I kept saying to myself is, I sure wish this car had one.

Later on that day, as I thought about the coming week and the dropping temperatures with snow, the remote starter came to my mind again. The VOICE said, ask Nesha (( my daughter)) to send you a photo of the remote that’s on her set of keys to the car. Right away she sent it to me. I have one that goes to the car on my ring, but she has 2 on her key ring to the same car. Hers is way different than mines, so I told her that when I saw her again, that I wanted it to see if it remote started. But in the meantime I went on line and looked up remote starters and found one that looked just like the one Nesha sent me that’s on her set of keys.

The very next day, I got it!!! I went to the car and kept clicking and clicking and clicking and CLICKING! Nothing! It didn’t even unlock the door. Either the battery was dead, or it wasn’t working PERIOD!!!!.It looked way different than the one I had been using.  I continued to make sure I started my car in the snow and below temperatures, even if it meant freezing my behind off without a remote starter.

DAYS later, the REMOTE STARTER…. came to my mind AGAIN, with a VOICE saying…. “YOU DO HAVE A REMOTE STARTER.” I thought that was a weird LOUD thought, because I had THE REMOTE with me, and every time I went to the car, I tried to use it………. NOTHING. But this VOICE had me thinking. I couldn’t figure out why I kept thinking about THIS NON WORKING REMOTE?

So, I went to work, and walked up to 5 of my coworkers, 3 male and 2 female and asked them to take a look at my remote to tell me if it was a starter or not. It had a star on it, as if it was a starter. The men looked at it one by one, asked me a few questions, and said that it looked like a regular car door remote, and NOT a starter.  One of the men had one, and he told me that a remote starter looks like this…. Image result for remote startersOne of the women SHOWED me hers and it was IDENTICAL to the one I had, and she said mines is not a remote starter, and hers wasn’t either. I figured it wasn’t, but decided to ask one of the men to show me how to open it so that I could at least buy another battery to see if that was the issue. But half way through him working to open it, I said that’s okay.

I got off work and  HEARD THE VOICE AGAIN……. “YOU DO HAVE A REMOTE STARTER!!”  So, I tried it ONE LAST TIME. It DID’NT WORK! I was done with thinking about it, and done with trying to work it.

About 4-5 days later, I had forgotten all about it. When I heard this VOICE out of the blue say AGAIN…. “YOU DO HAVE A REMOTE STARTER. ” I knew it was God. I remember saying to him, my friends says I don’t have one. One friend showed me hers and it was the same, and she doesn’t have one. I said WHY DO I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THIS REMOTE GOD???? It doesn’t work and I’m good with it. See God and I have this lovely relationship, he KNOWS I’M SPECIAL.. HE knows I ask HIM questions over and over and over again. He knows I ask 1000 questions on the same subject. He KNOWS…. that I go through many channels before I get things right SOMETIMES. HE knows me. He knows that I have to go over in my mind things way too many times, over analyze and then COME TO MY SENSES. So just know, He LOVES ME, AND THIS IS HOW WE COMMUNICATE because this is HOW I LEARN. He has patience with me, and he NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER leave me hanging.

SO with that being said….

After hearing him say AGAIN…….. “YOU HAVE A REMOTE STARTER!!!” I decided to go to my car and I made it my business to work with that starter. I knew how it worked, so I took my time with it and I kept thinking about that VOICE. For some reason the green light on the remote lite up THIS time when I went to unlock the car. I started thinking, when my co-worker was opening it, before I told him its okay, he must have loosen up the battery part and somehow made it work. Because when I tried it before it was dark outside and that light DID NOT COME ON. So when it came on THIS TIME and the door unlocked, it tripped me out. I clicked the yellow starter button (( mines look just like that))Image result for remote starters  once for a few seconds, then a second time… IT CAME ON!!!!! LOL LOL LOL MY CAR STARTED. LOL LOL I COULDN’T BELIEVE IT!!!! I KEPT TAPPING MYSELF BECAUSE IT DIDN’T SEEM LIKE THIS WAS HAPPENING. GOD SAID IT!!! HE KEPT MAKING IT COME TO MY MIND! LOL LOL I COULDN’T SHAKE THOSE WORDS.

This was the very same remote I tried 100 times, it was the one MY COWORKERS looked at and said NO it was a regular remote. But God said… “IT IS A REMOTE STARTER.” You can get up in the mornings and REMOTE START your car just like everybody else. I could not stop LAUGHING. I LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED, AND LAUGHED!!!!

I had my Nisan for 4 years and NEVER KNEW I HAD A REMOTE STARTER! LOL LOL

THE BLESSING IN THIS STORY IS NOT THE REMOTE STARTER… ITS THE VOICE OF GOD!!! SEE, I CAN DO WITHOUT THE STARTER, BUT THE VOICE IS WHAT I CANT LIVE WITHOUT!

BE BLESSED!

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The BIG Picture/BLOG

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Being the oldest, is hard work. I’m 50 years old and I still ask God why did you make me the OLDEST?

I ask this question so often that every time I make a decision, give advice or opinion, he always whisper to me… “THAT’S WHY YOU’RE THE OLDEST.”

Growing up I always wanted to be a Teacher or a Lawyer. I love reading , I love teaching people what I learned (( especially my siblings)) then I pass it down to others.

I’ve always had the ability to see the BIGGER PICTURE. To see the situation out in its entirety. I don’t know if I learned this from my parents growing up, or if God gave me these gifts to help myself and others. Let me give an example.

A woman purposely threw a cellphone of the person they were mad at and broke it. He was mad,  she apologized. She promised him that when she got paid she would buy him another phone. Well, before that time came, he made her mad again, she told him that she wasn’t going to replace the phone. This made him angry.

That day he PROMISED her in text messages that he was going to get her back ((REVENGE)) for it. After she sent me all the back and forth texts I told her that I was scared and that he might do something real bad to her. Her text back to me was : “You keep saying that like you want him too.”  (( I told her  this many times in the past, the way their relationship is, someone is going to get hurt one day.”)) I was done. Shocked. Mad at her.

That VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY same night, while she was in the shop getting braids done, he came and knifed all 4 BRAND NEW tires.

I was one of the first people she called. I love my friend and will always be there for her, I just know with her……. I have to step back and let things happen.

I can always see the BIGGER PICTURE. You cant do something to someone these days and not expect for them to do something back. When you do A. to someone, expect them to do B. to you. Not everyone will do A. to you, those are the ones who have enough sense to know that this person cannot be trusted, and not to deal with them anymore. Because they’re the ones who will cause you to get in BIGGER TROUBLE. Sooner or later playing these types of games.. someone is going to get mad and do something about it.

Many people have came to me and told me things before they happened, and I didn’t listen…. but I listen now.

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What I Learned About Myself in 2017/BLOG 2

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Hey Family!!!!

Well, I wanted to hit 100,000  views before the New Year, but I was busy so I didn’t get a chance to hit my blog like I wanted, but its okay.

Like I mentioned in my other blog, I have taken inventory of my life and my short comings and I see where I need to do better.

I have this BAD habit of having a DEEP desire to “help” people. When people come to me and they want to talk about a situation or anything going on with them, and I’ve been down that same “street” before, I want to help them. But it always seem to back fire on me.

I think I put too much time and care into it more than them. As long as its bad, they want to talk about it all day and night with me, text, call, anything to get my attention, and I give them that energy. Because I understand, I care. I get it. But then when something happens and they go back to the same ole ways, they don’t want to talk about it. Then days later, its back to all day and all night conversations about it. Its so funny. Because I am really being nice and caring. I INVEST TOO MUCH TIME INTO SUPPORTING OTHERS. I’m at the point were we don’t never, ever have to talk about THEIR situation again. Most times I don’t want to anyway. I do it because I know what its like to need someone to listen. But I’m done with that.

I know how it feels to be in certain situations, and having experienced it myself. I only try to give good advice if I have been through it, anything else I’m just a listener. As soon as they feel that things are going great for them in that situation, and I don’t say a word, they always have to test me, to see if I’m still readily engaged. And my face will continue to be TWISTED. Nope, don’t want to talk about, cant take  the advice YOU asked for, lets cut the whole head off!

That has STOPPED TODAY!

I have done so many people this way, now that I realized it. Not spending this year listening to other people’s story. Your situation… YOUR PROBLEMS.. I TAKE MINES TO GOD… FOLLOW SUIT

I’m about to BLAZE MY OWN TRAIL! WATCH ME!

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Higher Is Waiting Question 4/BLOG

 

Recall a time in your childhood when a friend or relative helped to change you in a important way?

My Aunt Wana! She’s my mom’s only sibling and baby Sister. When she use to pick us up and take us to her house or we’ll go to one of her friends house. We would be in the room playing , and no matter how much fun they were having she would always cut off from them and come peep in the room and ask us ” Are yall okay?” She wouldn’t depend on the normal “YES”, she would look us ALL in our eyes to make sure that we were really Okay. She wasn’t leaving that room, until she was satisfied with the desire results she came for.

In my kid mind, I saw that they were having so much fun. They were playing cards,  music, dancing, drinking, eating, laughing and talking to each other. I couldn’t understand then, why she use to come check up on us so many times. But she knew. She knew what could happen in a few minutes, she knew that someone could be hurt and she couldn’t see them. She knew that kids say everything is fine, when something else could be going on. To her, it didn’t matter how much fun she was having, she took a break from her fun to make sure we were okay. That stuck with me to this day.

When my daughter was a kid and had company, I would do the very same thing. I dont care how much laughing I was doing with my friends, I had to make sure the kids was okay. I had to look them in their eyes to make sure no one is crying for help and I over looked it. I had to know before I close that door and go back to my friends that these kids were alright.

That changed me in a important way, because it lets me know that no matter how busy God seem to a person, he ALWAYS check in on his kids! US! We are never alone, and he always watches over us no matter what. He will never leave us to do what we want without checking in. When it seems as if he’s not around, he is always PRESENT!

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Higher Is Waiting Question 3/BLOG

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How do you “hear” God?

I hear God by KNOWING that the words spoken in my mind/soul/heart are NOT words I would say myself.

The best way for me to explain this is by stories of my Life Lessons.

One day I was at the red light, on the over pass, on my way to work, when I heard God say.. LaCrease pray RIGHT NOW as if today was your last day living. He said PRAY NOW. At first I thought I was tripping, because it was with urgency and he said before the light turn green. I remember saying.. God right now? He said pray NOW. I remember saying Lord Thank you for my life, my family that you hand picked for me. Forgive me for all my Sins, known and unknown. I told him that I wanted to LIVE with him forever. Then….. the light turned green and I was about to enter I-94. As I was driving, I’m thinking okay what is God up too, what is going on? He knows I ask a lot of questions and think a lot. I’m wondering if I was about to die, I didn’t know what was happening, but I PRAYED just as he told me.

I’m driving and JUST LIKE THAT… I started thinking about something else, and forgot all about the prayer I just prayed.

Just as I turned the radio on, and continued to drive to work.. all I saw was BRIGHT RED LIGHTS in front of me. People were breaking hard in front of me. I didn’t know what was going on to cause this all of a sudden STOP. The truck in front of me was blocking my view so I had to rely on him when to stop breaking. All of a sudden, he swerved over to the left, and that’s when I was able to see what he was seeing. When he swerved over I was RIGHT THERE about to run in the back of another TRUCK/SUV HARD!!!! When I say HARD… There was NO WAY in this world I would have survived that accident.  NO WAY!!!! I WAS DEAD!!! The truck that swerved over to the left  allowed me to see that HE was about to run into the back of another SUV truck. Once I saw what he saw, not only was I BREAKING REALLY HARD.. but I didn’t have enough time to stop, so I to had to swerve to the left.. THANK GOD NO OTHER CAR WAS THERE.

I would have DIED.. The impact would have crushed the front end of my car so badly, that it would have blew my chest out. It gave me a headache so badly. It never went away that day. My breaks took a beating too. LOL I went to work feeling so Thankful, I couldn’t stop thinking about God and HOW I HEARD HIS VOICE. This is one of the many stories I share with people all the time. You have to tune into that still voice.

Questions Taken Out Of Tyler Perry’s New Book – Higher Is Waiting

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