Angie Stone got on my nerves tonight on R&B Divas. She was out of order to call that gurl on stage like that when she KNOWSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS how she feels about singing right now. That is so disrespectful to her art as an entertainer, and as a person and friend.
When I was having my Teen group meetings, I knew the personality of all my gurls. I knew who would answer my questions, who would shy away, who would talk too long, who would want to help me every week, and so on. True enough as a leader it is my job to help get them out of their comfort zones, but I also believe that its a way of doing it. Putting people on the spot making them beg and plead for you to PLEASE take the spot light off them, is so wrong. I would have turned all of Angie’s tables over at that party, trying to put me on the spot like that * jp*. She pissed me off. I don’t like being put on the spot, and it bothered me to see LaTavia on it. That gurl begged her, swearing to God and everything for mercy…. ooooo that bothers me.
Some folks in my life feel that since I have such a huge personality that I feel like doing stuff all the time. I like to sit back in the corner with my hat over my face too. When the waitress come to the table.. I don’t like to be the one doing the talking to set the atmosphere. I like to bury my head in the menu like everybody else when they’re asked what will they be ordering. I like to chill too.. and people who know me.. KNOW THAT.. SO….. for Angie to do that while that gurl clearly had on her ” not right now, don’t go there look” on her face…. was wrong… Um um that wasn’t right.
Angie only did it because the gurl showed up late for her Birthday Party. She didn’t look like she wanted to be there any oleway. Who could blame her, when she’s feeling that she’s NOT READY TO PERFORM YET.. What is so hard about that to understand? If that was me.. I would have gave Angie Stone the look of JUDGEMENT DAY HOUR… I don’t play that. At some point you FALL BACK. Enough of that, because I’m getting mad.
Day 14 of the 21 May Challenge and I lost a total of 7 pounds!!!!! That time flew by. I love the change in my eating. I love not having the Pepsi’s… I love how I see a few of my issues with food. I sat down today and paid attention as I ate breakfast and dinner. I GET FULL FAST… I was full after a few minutes into my meal. BUT GET THIS…… I HAVE IGNORED that full feeling.. because I HAVE TOLD MYSELF FOR SO MANY YEARS….. ” YOU JUST STARTED EATING”… how could you be full? I have ignored that warning for so long that I have stretched my stomach overeating. WOW ISN’T THAT A HUGE GREAT BREAKTHROUGH? SO guess what I did when I got full? I got up and put the rest down the garbage disposal. I did hesitate, because guess why? I’m SO USE TO EATING EVERYTHING ON MY PLATE. WOW WOW WOW Something we all learned as a kid.
Okay! So, now that I know that……can’t wait until tomorrow, where I will monitor it again. I have to learn to stop eating whenever I feel full, no matter how much I’ve eaten. I can always grab an apple, or a fruit in between meals IF I FEEL HUNGRY again. I have to learn that. I HAVE TOO. I also learned that what ever I put on my plate the first time, I WILL EAT IT UP… That’s gonna stop. I have to learn portion control. I HAVE TOO. So now I have to be mindful of my portions. I hardly ever go back for seconds, because I’m so busy filling up the first time. This explains why I get full fast when I eat spaghetti.. and everything else I eat.. …..hmmmm. Wow!
I use to be able to eat a Big Mac Meal with fries and pop. For the last 5 years… all I can eat is a hamburger. N O W I K N O W WHY!!!!! I ignored it. The only thing that I’ve been drinking is WATER WATER WATER. Its not even like I’m drinking my water after each bite. I wait until I’m completely done eating before I take a drink. Which means I really get full fast.
Alright now, off to bed!
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy