Weight Loss Update!!! Yalp she doing that!!!! (((((Blog)))))



Just wanted to stop in and update you all on my weight loss. Yessss!!! This journal of losing weight is all in our heads… I promise it is. I can’t say that its easy, but once you see what trigger your eating, you will be able to control and be conscience if what you eat. You have to really plan your meals ahead of time. Shop by the week if you can.. because you’ll most likely cook what you buy and have at home and if you plan your days , you will have a grip on your food intake.

Right now I’m between clothes. All my outfits that I wore last summer, I cant wear anymore. They are too big, and if I try to wear them anyway, they look like I’ve slept in them. On my way out with mommy again today.. and I’m like omgggg what am I wearing? LOL I love having to say that because I am looking at so many clothes with the tag on them, and I will soon be in them all.

Another thing about losing weight too. I use to be the type of person who hate to let go of people, and things in my life. And I always said * so crazy thinking about it* that I loved many of my outfits so much that I didn’t want to lose weight. Craaaaazy!!!! I have no love for those clothes anymore. I cant wait to be out of them. What kind of thinking is that? I’m glad and happy to be out of them so that I can constantly be going to other sizes.

Since I started the May  & June Challenge May 7, I lost a total of 14 pounds!!!! My highest weight ever… I loss a total of 34 pounds!!!! WOW… I’m tooooooo beautiful inside and out for this weight!!!

I am so proud of Tamela Mann… look at this WOMAN OF GOD… will ya?


Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou

My Weight Loss Update/Hoarders and Food Addicts…..(((((Blog)))))


Today was a great day!!! I can say that after a few days of feeling down in my Spirit. Sometimes you start thinking about things you have no control over and feel some kinda way. But after sitting still and asking myself do you trust God, and can you see a light at the end of the tunnel? My answer was yes, not only that, but I have God’s track record to look back on and KNOW he is totally in control. After I cry and whine a little… I bounce back.

Tonight I was watching Hoarders, I usually don’t like to watch this show because its so sad to see those people living in those conditions. All of that dysfunction comes from childhood issues, or things that happened in their adult life and as a result they start to live in their heads. But, tonight I decided to watch and…..what I found out Surprised me.

I’m a food eater. I love food! I’m a thinker. I think and over analyze a lot. I realized through watching Hoarders tonight, even though I’m not a hoarder, I LOVE to think while I’m eating. I love ice cream, and chocolate chip cookies that bakes in the oven. When I’m overwhelmed with thoughts and ideas… I like to FEED MY THOUGHTS AS I EAT. As the thoughts come to my mind, I eat while thinking. Many times after doing this, it never feels as if I’ve eaten anything, because I didn’t eat because its dinner time, I ate because I fed my thoughts. I know this will make sense to someone.

For so many years I have done this. It has become a habit. This is why I know for a fact that those Hoarders are doing this to feed their thoughts about their past. Its a form of therapy for them. Just as eating food and thinking is one for me.

Many years, I kept telling myself that I want to lose weight and get back to the “sexy walk into anyplace, and have everybody looking, because of my personality, Spirit and curvy body self.” But with so many thoughts coming to my mind about my past, now, life lessons, family, friends.. anything that’s going on with me at that time, I wasn’t able to focus on myself. I knew that when I FINALLY asked God to help me that I would know FOR A FACT that I was READY and serious about it.

Since the 7th of May with the 21 Day Challenge… I have lost a total of 12 pounds as of today June 2. I look at food TOTALLY DIFFEENT. I also had to change the programs that I was watching. Ooo wee this is so deep. I realized that when I watch shows like I almost got away, I killed my BFF, Fatal Attraction, Deadly Women, Wives with knifes, Redrum, Scorned, Evil Twins, Snapped…. that my mind start to think of who could have done this? What is the motive? I get angry, mad, and almost ready to fight those killers. I go right into detective mode… and while doing so… I HAVE TO FEED MY THOUGHTS WITH FOOD. I have to have a fatty snack usually baked cookies, or something to eat while I figure this out. WOW… GOD SHOWED ME THAT. He showed me that I do this. I paid attention to it and couldn’t do anything but laugh. It was a breakthrough for me. He is so right. So now, this is what I do. I wont buy pop, juice, cookies, ice cream, or anything that I love to eat in that way. I buy grapes, strawberries, kiwi, apples, watermelon * eating that now lol*, peanuts, salad, tuna, broccoli as snacks. I had to stop watching my favorite shows because they trigger personal thoughts and causes me to eat when I’m not even hungry. So, when I know for a true fact that I am doing very well with being consistent with losing weight, I’ll watch those shows again, but for now I watch cooking shows. I don’t like cheese at all, and by mostly everything is cooked with it, I watch the shows to NOT WANT TO SNACK AT ALL. I LOVE IT. This works for me.

I truly had to change the way I think and eat. Its amazing what you can learn about yourself…… when you ask God to help you.

Be Blessed!

Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou

21 Day Challenge Update- R&B Divas ((((((Blog)))))))

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Angie Stone got on my nerves tonight on R&B Divas. She was out of order to call that gurl on stage like that when she KNOWSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS how she feels about singing right now. That is so disrespectful to her art as an entertainer, and as a person and friend.

When I was having my Teen group meetings, I knew the personality of all my gurls. I knew who would answer my questions, who would shy away, who would talk too long, who would want to help me every week, and so on. True enough as a leader it is my job to help get them out of their comfort zones, but I also believe that its a way of doing it. Putting people on the spot making them beg and plead for you to PLEASE take the spot light off them, is so wrong. I would have turned all of Angie’s tables over at that party, trying to put me on the spot like that * jp*. She pissed me off. I don’t like being put on the spot, and it bothered me to see LaTavia on it. That gurl begged her, swearing to God and everything for mercy…. ooooo that bothers me.

Some folks in my life feel that since I have such a huge personality that I feel like doing stuff all the time. I like to sit back in the corner with my hat over my face too. When the waitress come to the table.. I don’t like to be the one doing the talking to set the atmosphere. I like to bury my head in the menu like everybody else when they’re asked what will they be ordering. I like to chill too.. and people who know me.. KNOW THAT.. SO….. for Angie to do that while that gurl clearly had on her ” not right now, don’t go there look” on her face…. was wrong… Um um that wasn’t right.

Angie only did it because the gurl showed up late for her Birthday Party. She didn’t look like she wanted to be there any oleway. Who could blame her, when she’s feeling that she’s NOT READY TO PERFORM YET.. What is so hard about that to understand? If that was me.. I would have gave Angie Stone the look of JUDGEMENT DAY HOUR… I don’t play that. At some point you FALL BACK. Enough of that, because I’m getting mad.

Day 14 of the 21 May Challenge and I lost a total of 7 pounds!!!!! That time flew by. I love the change in my eating. I love not having the Pepsi’s… I love how I see a few of my issues with food. I sat down today and paid attention as I ate breakfast and dinner. I GET FULL FAST… I was full after a few minutes into my meal. BUT GET THIS…… I HAVE IGNORED that full feeling.. because I HAVE TOLD MYSELF FOR SO MANY YEARS….. ” YOU JUST STARTED EATING”… how could you be full? I have ignored that warning for so long that I have stretched my stomach overeating. WOW ISN’T THAT A HUGE GREAT BREAKTHROUGH? SO guess what I did when I got full? I got up and put the rest down the garbage disposal. I did hesitate, because guess why? I’m SO USE TO EATING EVERYTHING ON MY PLATE. WOW WOW WOW Something we all learned as a kid.

Okay! So, now that I know that……can’t wait until tomorrow, where I will monitor it again. I have to learn to stop eating whenever I feel full, no matter how much I’ve eaten. I can always grab an apple, or a fruit in between meals IF I FEEL HUNGRY again. I have to learn that. I HAVE TOO. I also learned that what ever I put on my plate the first time, I WILL EAT IT UP… That’s gonna stop. I have to learn portion control. I HAVE TOO. So now I have to be mindful of my portions. I hardly ever go back for seconds, because I’m so busy filling up the first time. This explains why I get full fast when I eat spaghetti.. and everything else I eat.. …..hmmmm. Wow!

I use to be able to eat a Big Mac Meal with fries and pop. For the last 5 years… all I can eat is a hamburger. N O W I K N O W WHY!!!!! I ignored it. The only thing that I’ve been drinking is WATER WATER WATER. Its not even like I’m drinking my water after each bite. I wait until I’m completely done eating before I take a drink. Which means I really get full fast.

Alright now, off to bed!
Be Blessed


Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

21 Day- May Challenge ….. Oh Boy ( Blog )

Hey Yall!



On May 7, I started this  “May 21 day Challenge” with a group of women online. So far so good. I had to chose from a list of things what I can take away for 21 days. Mines is NO POP, NO COOKIES, NO CANDY, NO CHOCOLATE, NO ICE CREAM, NO FAST/FOOD OR TAKE OUT, NO JUICE AT ALL. And I will only fry food once a week. Which most likely would be my fish. I guess the hardest part for me is the soda, and fast food. I’m a food eater more so than a junk food eater. You wont see chips and cookies on top of my refrigerator, but you will some good food in the freezer lol.

I record everything I eat, I do these exercises to work on my behind. Its doing the most and I just can’t anymore. I’ve been doing exercises for that for almost 2 months straight.. haven’t missed a day at all. I’m so proud of myself on that tip. I can see results too my Capri’s fit different. And this stomach….. that’s a whole nother story. I don’t even see how my waist can hold this behind and thighs. LOL I’m working on that for real.

I notice that I feel better about eating when I plan my meals the night before bed. I follow it and I feel better. I just finished my planning for tomorrow, and also I write down my exercises. I try to do a few more than the day before. About a week ago, I went through my closet and gathered my summer clothes, I have so many outfits with the tag on them and cant even wear those clothes. IM SICK ABOUT IT. It just don’t make no sense. I have enough outfits to last for the rest of the summer wearing them twice. SMH.. I have to step back into my boldness. Sometimes I let what’s going on with me, stop me from focusing on losing weight. That’s about to come to an end. I think that I’m going to blog about this for the rest of the month to keep it on my mind and to be held accountable. I have a wedding to go to June 15, I want to feel good as I PLAN TO LOOK..


I took this full body photo last summer of me when my FB and Blogger friend came to Detroit. It was my first time meeting her and we had fun finally meeting face to face. I edit my face… you know those type of photos where you aint feeling it. But its my body.

Alright yall.. this video is my VIRGO youtube gurl CCAIN68 she’s going to see Monique tonight 5/10/14 IN HOUSTON and she IS KILLIN THAT JUMP SUIT,.. OH YESSS BABY.. I WANT ONE OF THOSE * when I get this body in order*.. SHE INSPIRED ME TO KEEP GOING!! OH YES…. I WILL ROCK A JUMPSUIT





Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy