Hey 🙂
Today I got up and worked out! I\’m so sleepy now its funny. I keep on laughing at stuff. Its past my bedtime too. lol
I called a few of my gurls today to make sure that they learn the first 5 books of the bible. I want them to know all the books in the months to come. I told them in the meeting that I was going to call their homes and spot quiz them, so they\’d better be practicing. LOL I have 14 gurls and I\’m going to make it my business to make sure that I stay on them about certain things. I have to be consistent. So I have to stay on myself when it comes to something as serious as this. A couple of my gurls were late, and this is something I\’m going to work on too with them. Also some talk out of turn, but I got a game for that this coming up meet. LOL When they first come in, I\’m going to pass out 10 buttons to each team, and then give them all raffle tickets. And then I\’m going to start pulling tickets. I\’m going to branch them off into groups of 3 where they will sit next to each other. When a person is talking they will be polite and let them speak………one at a time. And if someone interrupts them while they are speaking, they will give up a button. This will be a group thing, this way the group leader will make sure her people are in order, instead of me saying listen, let her speak, don\’t speak out of turn. The group leaders will have complete control.
I had to record a lot of information for the gurls today, and have more to do tomorrow. I\’m sleepy, I\’m off to bed right now. Sitting here thinking about somethings.
Going back for a moment……..
Sometimes I just don\’t get stuff. My heart means well, but I\’m missing something somewhere. Am I slow? I mean what is it? I wish that God could come down here, sit face to face with me and tell me what is it? Why do I have a hard time being nice? Why can\’t I love and admire someone without people looking at it as * too much*. These people don\’t even know me. Yes, it bothers me * but only for tonight, tomorrow will be a new day.* I\’m just trying to figure out what kind of family did these people come from…….grown people. NOT TEENS/KIDS. This is why I\’m so happy that my gift has nothing to do with them, cause they don\’t get the love I have inside of me.. Its pouring out. No more will I waste my time, or friendship on people who don\’t deserve it.. I love everyone, but there is a distance.
Another story…………
Recently my daughter had come into Walmart and she reached over and kissed me on the lips. My coworker said with her face all disfigured…………you and your daughter kiss on the lips? And I was like yes, she said my and my daughter don\’t do that, and this and blah blah blah. We kiss our mother on the lips and were all grown. Whats wrong with that? Dayum am I strange? I know I\’m not……. but dang!!! That\’s how we do it. I\’m 41 years old and I KNOW that if I had to walk from one room to another with a bra and panties on in front of my daddy, it wouldn\’t be a big deal. We are family,we love each other. If anything, My daddy would crack a joke on me and talk about how big my thighs are. We\’d laugh But the next person, in the next house hold would call it disrespectful. This is MY DADDY, if its disrespectful in YOUR HOUSE, that\’s fine with me. But in OURRRRRR HOUSE, IN OUR FAMILY, we crack jokes on each other, that\’s how we do it. I just have to understand that I am different, I have to find friends who are like me. And its okay. It really is. I finally get it. I have to quit sharing MY happy stories to unbelievers.
Another Story…………
I have a group of Anita Baker friends. We all went on line and bought tickets to see her in Detroit July 31, 2009 from Texas, Alabama, Georgia, Toronto, New Jersey, New York, California, NC, Chicago………..all over. There are a lot of us, they love and admire Anita just as I do. We support her in everything. People who don\’t understand that will take it the wrong way. We love Anita Baker. That\’s it. Period. We have our own lives. Can\’t we admire and show love to her? There are people who don\’t even have their house in order, cant even get along with their children, family and friends, but always got something to say about another person showing love to someone else. I never lose myself in someone. I will cut you off in a New York minute. Thinking I\’m all in about to fall in. I love meeeeeeee boo! You Betta ask somebody who knows me. All in my business ughhhhhhhhhhh any way…….
I\’m gone to bed , this is the last of this mess. Tomorrow is a new day. I\’m done
Cree
Inside the mind of cree 
