When driving and coming to a ice cream truck it is very important to treat it as if its a school bus. You may not see any children coming, but its important to slow down, then come to a stop, because you never know with kids. They’re just being kids when they dart out into on coming traffic. They are doing exactly what they’re suppose to do at their age. Especially if they are excited. We all know that feeling of seeing the ice cream truck and to be able to buy something. Its up to us to know better. You want to always be in position that if you’re riding up a residential street, and a kid dart in front of you, that they can get back up and be okay. After today’s accident here in Detroit where a young gurl was hit by a driver and KEPT GOING. It reminds me to be mindful and for you who read this as well. We are the adults, we have to be the eyes and ears for our children. Even if they’re in the wrong to dart out in front of our cars, we have the responsibility to STOP until that truck is done serving. Lets be careful.
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I’m ready to move from this apartment, but I want to stay in this area. Its too small, I haven’t even unpacked all my things. Ever since being here, I haven’t really done anything. My lease is up in December, I’m out of here. I want towels, tissue, tooth paste, bleach, Ajax, brillo pads, dish towels, paper towels, bathroom smell goods, different kinds of soaps, bath oils, bath liquid, dish washing liquid, living and dinning room smell goods and things like that to TAKE OVER MY BATH CLOSETS… Here I can only buy so much. There’s no space! I don’t like that. I like to have 3 and 4 of each item. I hate looking in the cabinet and being out of something. I have so many things still in totes. Sigh …….anyway. I’m off to bed to day dream about my new apartment with everything in it.
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Its no secret… I LOVE KIDS. I love listening to them talk, I love the way they express themselves, I adore the way they hear things, how innocent they are when they feel that “their truth” is THE TRUTH. LOL I know that one of my gifts from God is working with them, and being their voice…. because I truly UNDERSTAND them….whether I agree with them or NOT.
There are a lot of things that kids, hear, do, see and BE when they’re in school, and not around their parents. They can have straight A’s and all 1’s in citizenship, but THAT IS ONLY ONE PART OF WHO YOUR CHILD REALLY IS. Education and CHARACTER are 2 different things. Your child can be well EDUCATED but have ABSOLUTELY no sense of direction, understanding AND WHO THEY ARE.
Understand that even though your child may act like they don’t hear you…. THEY DO. When I’m talking to them, the first thing they say is ” My momma always told me……….”. So trust me they hear you.
So with that said…. since I work at a High School here in Detroit that goes to school ALL YEAR ROUND this year being its first year… YES ….all year round. I have decided that I would keep ALL OF MY PARENTS AND GUARDIANS up on how our children think, act and tips on what can be done so that our children can grow up to be Successful PRODUCTIVE Adults. Many parents have NO IDEA the influence that is taking hold of our children when they’re not around. I DO.. AND I SEE IT.
So join me every Tuesday and Thursday on my BLOG page for “Behind the Scenes~ at School”. I’m going to post TIPS, QUESTIONNAIRES, IDEAS, HOT TOPICS, and lots of other goodies. It’s going to be very good, and very informative.
Photo is of Kimberly on of my students.
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Today was a good day!!! I slept most of my School Vacation last week. LOL Now since school has started back… I’m not even sleepy even on 4-5 hour sleep nights. I bet you tonight though…. I’ll be in bed by 11:00. LOL
As I look around my apartment, I can’t help but think about Atlanta. I still want to live there, and I know its coming. Its really deep that since being back, me and my dad have gotten really close. I even moved him around the corner from me, so that if he needs me I can be there real quick. God has a way of helping you to heal of past hurts. Who knows what could have happened, if I was living in Atlanta and he died without me getting the PEACE I always wanted about him. And the funny thing is, my mom is laid back, she says her peace, and she’s done. You knew she mean business. But my dad is the one who is aggressive and strong minded. All 4 of us take after my dad. We are all STRONG MINDED…. they say I’m the worst, but I don’t think so. We all are. Guess what I’m really saying is, that’s probably why me and my dad didn’t get along because of that. But God is working it out.
My kids at school are something else. It takes a STRONG person to work with these kids today. Baby, if I didn’t work with them daily, nobody could tell me the things they say and do. What amazes me is that God equipped me to do this. If parents knew what their kids were doing, they would either be upset, or say “they do that at home”. I am also happy that I was placed in a school where the neighborhood has gangs and lots of issues with anger. These are the students I feel I can reach. I’m very firm, I can be cool, I’m easy to talk too, but at the same time…. I have to BOSS UP. The boys are way taller than me, and the gurls are BEAST these days. I dunno why this job challenges me. I love getting the “Leaders” of the group and breaking them down. I learned once you break that leader down….. you can get to her/his crew. There is one gurl who thinks she’s so tough. She was running her mouth to me today….. I gave her this one look, and told her in my low, “to the point ..direct eye contact voice “FALL BACK” , she knew I meant business. Can’t wait to see her tomorrow. She’s one of those loud gurls…. I use to be just like that. Talk loud, thinking I’m saying something and wasn’t doing anything. I think this is why I love this job, I see myself in many of the students. The boys are hard headed… BUT I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. I raised one daughter, but never a boy. But I have a stronger connection to them. These gurls are really different than back in the day. Boys they get over ” me fussing” with them and they hold no grudges… but them GALS….BAAAABY they will gang up on you, and you have to threatened to exclude them in order for them to calm down. But I love my job. I love kids…. Maybe I need to have one more. Who knows. LOL
I have been writing like crazy. I’m so proud of myself. I have really a lot of work done. I just hope people get it. I do. Speaking of “getting it”. This week I’m going to do a blog on Temptation Tyler’s movie…..some people are just not getting it. And it bothers me so bad, so I will do that this week. ALL OF YOU AND NONE OF ME LORD….. when I write that one!! Oh boy!
Alright off to bed. Know that God loves you, and always SHOW YOURSELF FRIENDLY 🙂
*photo my nieces Brittney and Ganell*
Today was a silent day. My BFF can always tell when something is going on with me. Sometimes it makes me sick.(LOL) I get quiet and she knows it. More on that in my next blog entry.
I knew that when I went to work this morning the students would make me feel better. Its a trip that I prayed for a gurl when Nesha was born. I’m finding out that my bond is closer with the boys. They don’t have attitudes, they play too much, and will try you, but for the most part…. I think I’ve been sleeping on them.
I have never in my life seen so many gurls with attitudes… for NO reason. But I study them, I found out that gurls go through a lot. We are very emotional, and we think about stuff way too much. Boys let it go through their minds and its over. Imma have to talk to GOD about that. LOL Here I am still thinking about an email almost a week ago, and the person who sent it, probably aint thought no more about it. LOL Its funny, but its not. I need to find out why we’re like this.
I remember being 14 and thinking about boys all day long. I couldn’t sleep too busy thinking about boys. And trust me, they do the same thing, as soon as the bell ring, they are somewhere looking for their gurlfriends and HER friends to play in the hall way. I’m learning with kids though, that they are doing exactly what they’re suppose to do…. PLAY and learn from their experiences.
This one boy, he’s just like me…. let people get under his skin. I’m better with it because I’m older and have more experience with dealing. I see myself in him so much its crazy. What amazes me is that people LOOK for opportunities to get under our skin. Seems as if they wake up to find people *like us* to irritate. But as soon as we SNAP….THEY’RE DONE WITH US!!! And you know what’s a trip? I have been in SO many situations where I’d find myself in, and I have to end up praying myself out of TURNING INTO THE INCREDIBLE HULK! I was standing in line one day, and the lady at the register was taking so long, with decided which things she wanted, she was with her friend who was so embarrassed, she left and went to sit in the car. This lady took so long, didn’t care about how long the line was. I was seconds from turning into the HULK. And when I get like this * not too often* I have to walk around in my little square, and think about PEACEFUL things like……. Flowers.. roses, water, rain, trees, clouds, God/Jesus, bathtub, rivers, and grass to keep me from turning into a green monster. My legs get to moving side to side, and my eyes probably turn GOLD. LOL I get hot, and if my mind wander from those things I name…. I can feel the ROAR in me when the HULK wants to rise. The best thing is…. I can hear God so clearly saying, Lacrease you can do it, just be calm, stay focus, don’t embarrass me, relax, its okay. So, I know what this boy is going through. He doesn’t know how to find a medium in how to react. I told him today…. its still a struggle for me… and I’m 46. He was shocked when I told him I still struggle. He’s a serious person just like me, and the people who love to play, love to get an reaction out of us, will be the ones to push our buttons. We had a good long talk today. I think he’s one of my favorites. 🙂
What hurts me the most is seeing those young gurls who are going through something. This one gurl walks the hall so slow, and with something heavy on her heart. I can tell when she looks at me that something is going on with her at home. I can feel it. I went to her and introduced myself and said to her… if you ever want to talk to me, you can.. my name is Ms. Walker and what ever we talk about is between me and you. I saw her today and my heart smiled. There is so much molestation and rape going on with these kids… it pisses me off. I know the spirit. Then some come to school and be as tough as they wanna be, then there are those who suffer in silence…. gotta leave this topic alone.:(
Next week is Spring Break… YES!!!! I’m going to the movies this weekend with my friends, and next week… I will be writing and catching up on personal things.
I went back to work today since being off March 12, I had a great time in Atlanta with Neisha, but I was also so happy to see my co-workers. I LOVE my co-workers, I have never had a problem with anyone, and that’s what make my job that much easier. If I can get past the customers then I’m GOOD 🙂 LOL They were so HAPPY to see me, giving me lots of hugs and welcome backs……that just made my day. I hate attention…. but when I walked into the building LOVE WAS BEFORE ME…..and it made me feel so good. I just LOVE my Boss, we had a lot to talk about, she’s a Christian too, and we speak God’s language. She was happy to see me. My other Boss is also good people, and every month about 6-7 of us get together and go to a different restaurant to chat and have dinner, well at our last meeting, they all decided to wait until I got back from Georgia to have our gurls day.((((hugs to them))))) So tomorrow we’re going to dinner about 5 pm in Downtown Detroit. I’m excited to be with them again.
This is what I LOVE about my Bosses…… we can go to dinner, go out of town, go to a Barbecue, go out to a gathering, and still the NEXT DAY AT WORK….there is NO favoritism. My Bosses will still put me/us on a register that we don’t like LOL LOL LOL ….. AND I LOVE THAT ABOUT THEM…. At work its BUSINESS, and outside of work…. its play. My Bosses keep it real, 100% ALL OF THE TIME…. I’m older than them all, and I still call them Ms.( name).
Earlier today I was just sitting here thinking about how my Raisingurls from the first Season are doing. I see many of them and they have graduated from High School, in College and a few have children now. They still call me for advice, and today my niece came over, she has a job now, and she was telling me that my group has helped her out so much as far as working with the public, her attitude, and how to be a young lady at all times. She gave me a big hug and it really touched me. Sometimes I felt it went in one ear and out of another * while in the sessions*, but today she could have told me everything I said. It amazed me how much she remembered and how she uses those tools I taught in her life today. When I was in Atlanta looking at apartments, the school bus came up in the gated community and dropped the children off, and when I saw all of those kids getting off the bus, I was saying to Neisha ….. ALL OF THESE KIDS ARE GOING TO KNOW ME!!! LOL LOL My eyes lit up like a Christmas Tree. I was so happy to see that kids live in the community. I love kids, and I have even thought about adopting 1 or 2 of them. When I was there, I went to see The Covenant house of Georgia and took photos. I hope to work there someday, or even 2 other Foundations… as long as I’m working with kids. Out of all the things I can do or learn to do in this life, especially with my personality…. God has called me to do this work . This is my calling. I am reading this book, and this is what it says: God-given gifts are the skills a person performs without formal training. Although training and education may help to perfect our skills, they are readily recognized prior to the training.
When I get to Atlanta…..there is NO stopping me….
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
People ask me all the time…. how do you stay so positive, and in such a good mood. First, I say, being a Christian is hard work. In my mind its do it, or die. I have to constantly remind the everyday people that I work with, that I haven’t always been this person. It took LOTS and LOTS of hard work…. not to mention many testimonies. My parents use to tell me daily you need to change your attitude!!! I didn’t realize that I was angry, until I moved out on my own and started experiencing my own trials. Looking back on those days, I don’t see how I even came up with the energy to be that way. Being mean is hard work. LOL It takes lots of facial muscles, angry thoughts, video footage that play daily in your mind of beating somebody up who disrespected you, to be this way. Its not cute, and I hope that if you are this person, you need to look in the mirror at yourself, and find out why are you this way. And ask God to help you change into the person he designed for you to be.
I often ask God why is it so hard to reach these young gurls that I minister to, and why do I have the passion to stress it so deeply? He said it because you were once that young gurl, and you know they have it in them to change, and that’s where my desire comes from the help them. Its really hard work, because you know that they hear you, but how long will it take for the “medication” to set in. When I see young gurls being fast, and giving their bodies to these boys/men, it does something to my heart. If I could give them a glimpse of their lives when they’re my age, they would pull up their panties and hot tail out of site. I wish that I had someone to talk to when I was their age, this is why its so important for me to reach them. Some will listen to me, some won’t. That’s okay, if I can reach that ‘some” I’m good.
I love the fact that I have so much patience with my gurls,, but none with adults. LOL How did that happen? I can go over something 2000 times with my gurls, but will only willing to go over something with an adult 2 times. One day this gurl came through my line, and I was asking her how many months she was, and when was her baby due. She told me that she was going to have an abortion. I turned off my light at my register, and talk to her so deeply. I told her that I had an abortion with I was 19 years old by my daughters dad, and that was the worst mistake that I ever made. I begged her to re- think about it, and it may seem as if times are hard, and they will be, I told her to ask and believe that God will be there to help her, to comfort her and to guide her. I cried, she cried I talked to this gurl till she and I both were blue in the face. She left the store.
I remember sitting in subway one day taking my break ( we have a subway in my store), and this gurl walked up to me, I didn’t recognize her as she walked towards me. She looked me dead in the eye and said….. Do you remember me? I said Ah….. boo I don’t. She said I’m the gurl who you talked into NOT having an abortion, here is my baby, OMG I LOST IT, I CRIED AND CRIED. The baby was almost 1 years old, she said that she’s so glad that I TALKED TO HER. And that she looks at her baby everyday and can’t believe that she even THOUGHT about aborting him. I hugged them both and just Thank God that he used me to do this. I am not ashamed of the things that I did in the past, I have asked God for forgiveness and is NEVER afraid of what anyone think of me. Ever. I refuse to go through stuff for free. Meaning, someone will learn from my mistakes, I will not be afraid to tell the story. There was a time when I wouldn’t tell a thing about my past. I am very private when it comes to me, but when it comes to my mistakes, I have no problem sharing.
This is one of the reason why I HATE secrets. Secrets have kept a lot of people from knowing the truth. People get so caught up in the fact that others will know what they did, they chose to hide it, and it end up coming out later and really hurting others.
Everyday I have this vision of living in this huge house in Atlanta, and 2-3 times a week we meet( My Raisingurls) and have our meetings ( at my home). Sometimes with their parents, but most time just me and my (a) co-heart. Its like I’m obsessed with this thought. I see us cooking in the kitchen, making cookies for the seniors, helping them grocery shop, me raising up Leaders for the next generation of young gurls. I see all kinds of breakthroughs in this vision. This will come to pass.
the things I ask you to allow me to understand at this time. My mind runs deep,
and there is not a pen fast enough to catch all of this stuff. But there is one
thing I do know….and that’s my purpose for being here.
been knowing 32 plus years, it was clear to me that no more time is to be
wasted, what seemed important seem so minor to me. After listening to testimony
after testimony of how he touched so many lives, just made me sit and cry. My
momma kept looking over me, handling me tissue. But I wasn’t crying about his
death, because he had gave his life to God 2 years ago. He was the one who did
all the maintenance in the building ( his baby brothers Church), helping people,
giving the shirt off his back, he loved to cook, and had nicknames for
everybody. I remember being about 12 years old, I was messing with him as usual
and I made a mistake and ran * really ran* into his cigarette as he sat in the
car, with his arm out of the window. He felt bad about it too. I was so mad at
him, but I knew it was my fault playing too much. LOL As bad as I hated that
burn on my light skin at the time…. I’m happy that its there, to remind me of
about my projects, Sistergurls, Raisingurls, my family, friends, work. I
realized at the funeral that “I’m Gods gurl tough ……BUILT TO LAST”. God has
shown me the influence I have over people, and situations. And I was afraid of
the Power. As I understand my gift, I’m learning to be consistent, which is
really hard for me, but I’m working on it, and its working out pretty well. Time
after time he has shown me, without saying a word how I have the power to move
mountains……and I believe it. That amazes me, there is so much more to do,
and I’m not afraid anymore. I would cry ( happy) right about now, but I
can’t…. I won’t the assignment is already in the book. It’s okay…. I
see….. I know.
and for some reason I’m NOT feeling any pressure. Habakkuk 2 says:
2 Then the LORD replied: “Write down the revelation
and make it plain on tablets
That’s exactly what I did. I am learning that I cant shut myself
out from the world because I want to be left “alone”. Sometimes I feel that I’m
being pulled in all directions, and most is probably all in my head. LOL I’m
just going to look ahead and do what I have to do. I may seem as if I’m talking
in circles, but I’m not. We are having dinner at The Motor City Casino $25.00
a plate, but its worth it. We can sit talk, laugh until the next day. Its
important that I meet with my Sistergurls every so often, we have so many issues
that goes on within our families, and if I can touch on them…. I will. I post
on Face book and so many people come to me and tell me how they look forward to
my post, and how they encourage them. This lady who use to work with me, stopped
me in Walmart last week, and asked for a hug and told me how she wakes up
everyday to read one of my stats. That really blessed me because I really didn’t
know people paid attention. This is what I’ve been talking about. There is no
more time to “make friends”, its time to get people to turn to God. I try to
live a life pleasing to God so that people can see it. This is why I have to be
careful of my circle of friends, what I say, what I do, because people watch me.
God is very tough on me on what I say and think….yall just don’t know. Very
tough. He gets down on me TOUGH… READ IT AGAIN ….TOUGH! LOLMy Raisingurls called me and as bad as I want to squeeze them in
this weekend, I can’t. So, tomorrow I’m going to call them and tell them that
we’ll meet next week at my place. I went on line and pulled out an application
for Subway, just so that they can learn how to fill out an application PROPERLY,
and then in the weeks to come, how to do a resume for a career job. These are
important things they should know. I have 2 gurls who are 16 and one 12. We will
have Bible study and that will be on The Tower of Babel. For those who know me,
I LOVE TO ASK QUESTIONS….so I made up a 20 questionnaire to go over as a
group. LOL And boy can I come up with some questions. LOL
Well, I’m off to bed, how bout its 6:50 am….but I’m off today
so it’s gonna feel good sleeping. Be Blessed!