How I Gained Back My Self Esteem/ PART 2/BLOG

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I was 24 years old (( 6 years in)) when I FINALLY came to my MIND. When I started talking to God about what I was going through. I thought that I would never get over my daughters father. The more sex I had with him, the more I loved him. That’s when I found out that SEX was the soul-tie that kept my mind on this man. The first thing I learned I had to do was, stop the sex. It was so hard. So so so very hard. Every time I saw him, we were a magnet and I had to give it to him. I knew if I could just stop the sex then I would be able to get over him. Sad thing about it,  I knew in my heart that he had to do something terrible to me, to turn me off from him, and that would be how I would be able to walk away. Its a shame that in order for me to get over this man, something bad had to happen. We never fought EVER, so I knew it wouldn’t be that, but it was something, and  when it happened…..I knew then that I had to let him go.

I started reading my Bible and separating myself from my friends to be more in tuned with God. I started reading how much God loved me no matter what I did. In my mind he was in charge of my LIFE. He was the man I had to please, and that’s when I started learning my worth. I was never a person who compared myself to other women, because it was clear to me that GOD MADE EVERYONE DIFFERENT. I enjoyed and loved the fact that I WAS THE ONLY ONE MADE LIKE ME. You can say, I favor this person or that person, but I was the ONLY LACREASE GOD MADE…and that made me HAPPY. So that alone made me NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER want or desire to be like anyone else,  because I KNEW.. that God loved me enough to make ONLY ONE of me, and I love ME.

Then, I had to learn and write down all the things God Blessed me with. I had to read it daily. I had to learn my worth all over again. I had to know it without a doubt. I had to live it. I had to think it, I had to see it ON ME. And here is what I started with.

NOW THIS IS MYYYYYYYYYY LIST…. you make your own list. Remember we are all different.

  • I grew up with both parents in the home, and they helped me with everything I needed.
  • I  got my  first apartment me and my daughter, and a job.
  • I was funny, loved people, loved to laugh and pretty
  • I had a beautiful shape, and wore clothes to compliment my body (( never disrespectful))
  • Had lots of friends and loved the Lord

One of the biggest conclusions IN MY LIFE that God helped me come to was that MEN wanted SEX. What I ( women)  have the men want !!! I had to learn the POWER in it. I learned it was OK to keep it to myself…. its mine. We women don’t have to give it away. Its so much POWER in the vagina. Its not to be shared with everyone. Its yours and all the boys want it. No! No! No! Learn this TODAY! You do NOT have to  give up your vagina.

Fast forward to today. I spend time with myself learning myself daily. Learning my wants/needs and don’t need. Learning things I will NOT ACCEPT. For example.. Married Men.

I met this guy at my job, he comes in often and he calls me “Momma cool”… why I dunno. This man is soooooo fine to me. He’s attracted to me and I’m attracted to him. He’s my type of man IF he wasn’t married. Now, I will NEVER EVER talk, meet, or see this man outside of my job. I will not engage in any conversation with a him or any married man, unless its work related, or God. That’s apart of building my self esteem. KNOWING WHO I AM. My self esteem stays ON 100 because I will not engage in anything not healthy for me and will disappoint God, especially when I know better.When you start crossing lines and doing things out of YOUR CHARACTER, that’s when your self esteem start going DOWN DOWN DOWN. Depression sets in, suicide, doubt , fear all that stuff starts to creep in. Cut off any thing that YOU KNOW is not good for you, because if you don’t you’ll find yourself in trouble. Stay inside of your worth!!! Married MEN ARE OFF LIMITS.. PERIOD! Once you exchange phone numbers….. THAT’S IT!

Take trips. Go to the park alone to spend time with God. Clear your mind. MAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF.. MAKE IT HAPPEN! Go to lunch alone, you dont have to take the kids all the time. Think about yourself. Whats your favorite desert? Go to Dairy Queen alone. Stop feeling guilty because you didn’t take the kids this time.. ITS OKAY. I promise you. Go to Bath and Body Works and buy not one but 4 different scents of lotions, its OKAY. Learn what you like and will  buy the next time you visit. I will book a hotel an hour away from me in a minute! Book a room for the weekend. Have someone to watch the kids… Go alone, make plans to do things while you’re there.

Listen… I will jump in my car and go to the park and sit for hours in the sun enjoying myself. I may have music or I talk to God. I use to be “scared” to go to dinner alone, because I always took my daughter or a friend… YEAH OKAY… I WILL hop in the car and go sit my but down alone so fast. I love getting to know myself. I love me. God made me and there is no one else like ME, and guess what… JUST AS I LEARNED THIS ABOUT ME…. YOU CAN TOO!!! Be your own “to do list”…. life is not about having Sex all the time, sitting on the porch watching cars ride by, going neighbor to neighbor needing someone to go shopping with you. Get to learn yourself, know what you will and will NOT ACCEPT from a friendship, or relationship. Do YOUR own thang in your spare time, and treat yourself. ITS OKAY!!!

Be Blessed!

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Bobbi Kristina-RIP/BLOG

Just sitting here crying my eyes out re-watching Whitney Houston’s funeral thinking about God and how we must all leave someday.

I was also thinking about how close Whitney and Bobbi were. You can tell in every video, how much love they had for each other. That lil gurl loved her mother something deeply. I can relate, because I feel the same way about my mother. We’re very close, talk on the phone everyday, we’re always together. I was at her apartment late last night. Took her to dinner the night before, I  take her grocery shopping,  take care of her bills, out for rides, trips, and her doctor’s appointment. I LOVE my mother something deeply. Bobbi Kristina was a young gurl when she passed away, I CANT imagine the pain she went through with the world watching. Always having to say “I’m okay” when she wasn’t. I just CAN’T imagine the tears she cried every time she thought about her mom. The love of a mom is DEEP.. A love that God can only create.

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Then I think about my daughter, my one and only, my 9/3/86… I love this lil gurl something deeply and she loves me the same way. We’re so close its scary sometimes. I wonder how did God give us the ability to love so strong. Don’t get it twisted… I LOVE GOD more than anything and anyone. HE GAVE ME- THEM BOTH. Since I have HIM.. I have them. I’ve been playing the song below all morning, crying my eyes out, thinking about the LOVE OF A MOTHER AND DAUGHTER.

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RIH Bobbi Kristina… I know you’re where you want to be. (( tears- tears- tears))

Catfish the show….INTERNET STALKERS/BLOG

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Hey Yall!

I’m a huge fan of Catfish the Show. I’m attracted to it because its so scary and it could happen to anyone! Its sad that people purposely live a life to deceive others over the internet. These people wake up everyday and have to come up with new stories and new conversations. As I watch the show and study the person doing the “catfishing”…. I can’t help but notice that there is always something going on with them. It could be loneliness, abandonment issues, attention, boredom and the list goes on. Sometimes they get so caught up in the lies they tend to believe it themselves. I also noticed that many of them never intended for the “catfishing” to go on so long. My thing is this…. what fun or “feeling” does someone get from this? Its time consuming, and not only that, but they become a person that’s not even REAL. How could that person leave the house and go on with life as normal and be connected to someone in the world as another person ?
That’s sick to me! SICK! SICK! SICK!

These people study their catfish on line, either on a BLOG  FB, Twitter, Instagram and other social outlets. They know everything about them and will do anything to stay connected. Some use God’s name and Scriptures or whatever is important to that person to keep their attention. Its so sad how long they will allow themselves to LIVE THE LIE. Hurting other people is so wrong. I just hope that the catfish would get help and figure out what ever it is that’s in them that causes them to put time and energy into deceiving others. You are SICK! STOP IT!

Be Blessed

I AM La’Crease

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Being OUTSPOKEN… A WRONG AND RIGHT TIME/BLOG

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I was talking to a friend last night, and our phone call conversation trigger several thoughts about being OUTSPOKEN at the wrong time. This is a subject that’s very serious to me, and I speak in COMPLETE BOLDNESS when it comes to it. I touched on this in the last blog entry…. but this one.. I’m going in.

Everyone who knows me know that when you call me, email, text, or we talk FACE TO FACE…I’m going to give you the real. I don’t add sugar to my conversations, ONLY salt.  I’m not going to short cut you, or baby you. I can feel when you’re leaving something out, and I can tell when you’re adding to it.I ask a lot of QUESTIONS… you already know. Many people come to me for advice because I can see the bigger picture. I use Godly Wisdom, and not worldly tickles. I’m not her. Period.

If I feel you’re holding back the complete truth, I’m going to shut down the conversation completely, and keep it moving. I will NOT hold a conversation with anyone, who doesn’t tell the full story…. it’s a waste of my time. I will never again hold 1 and 2 hour conversations just to listen * especially if the story is stupid and doesn’t need to be told* just because you want me to listen and not comment. FIND ANOTHER FRIEND FOR THAT. FIND A FRIEND WHO WILL LISTEN ONLY.. IM NOT HER…… AT ALL… PERIOD. I don’t have time to say.. “yeah, um um, I understand, right, yes, okay… all through the conversation without any input. I refuse to spend that kinda time on those conversations…. phone a friend who will. I’m not mad or anything… I’m just not that friend. PERIOD.

Listen.. as Christians we have to learn when to speak and when to fall back. When to stay in our own lanes, and when its okay to share lanes. Its very ignorant to be “OUTSPOKEN” on the wrong things. Its very ignorant to tell a friend… those shoes are ugly, where you get that ugly red hat from? Why you have on those pants, the style is ugly. When are you going to comb your hair? What time are you getting in the tub… I smell something? But then…. when its time to pay a bill and negotiate with someone.. you can’t do it. When you need to tell someone to stay out of your room, you can’t tell them. When you need a neighbor to turn down their music you can’t knock on their door. When you need to get pass someone and you can’t say excuse me, you rather wait until they notice you’re standing there. When you need to ask for a loan and SCARED of hearing NO.. or I DON’T HAVE IT. Instead of being able to ask these things… the excuse is ALWAYS…. “I don’t want nobody telling me NO… and If I say it, its going to come out wrong”. What is that? That’s stupid as hell to me. You can open your mouth and put your 2 cents into everybody else’s conversation, but don’t know how to work your own lane.

You can tell someone what their job is, and what they need to do, when they need to do it and why…. but you can’t knock on a neighbors door and tell them the’re too loud watching a Football game? That &&&& is retarded to me!!  You rather tell a friend their shoes are ugly…. IN THE NAME OF BEING HONEST. * because/whether they asked.. OR NOT”… but wont use that same honestly…. to knock on someone’s door and ask them to turn down their TV because its too loud.

As Christians.. we have to learn how to talk to people. The only reason why you feel its not going to “come out right” is because you catch attitude from people when they get mad at you for being in their business when you wasn’t invited. So now that its your business and its time for you to be a Boss, you can’t. We have to learn how to look at people in a non confrontational manner when speaking to them about an issue that would other wise cause conflict. We have to learn how to use voice control and direct eye contact with others. We have to usher in a Spirit of Peace when we speak. We have to go to God and ask him to calm us down before we ask a question or deliver a message to someone who may not take it well. This is a part of growing up, getting off milk and eating meat. You cannot be afraid “it won’t come out right”.. but at the same time… claiming how outspoken you are. Stop speaking when not asked., stop being so opinionated on things that doesn’t matter. Learn to pay attention to how things come on * a friend told me this*…. many times when you need an answer or something done, you need to learn how not to offend, so that the person can get it. That’s the whole key….. for them to GET IT. Stop feeling as if you have to say everything since its true….. when its not your story, important or necessary to say. Ask God to calm your storm before going to someone if you feel its going to lead to an argument or debate. Take YOU out of the situation and get things done people!!!

I know “outspoken” people who will tell you how dirty your car is….. but scared to ask the cashier for more ketchup because 1 isn’t enough. SMH!!!! 

If we all told what we know of one another, there would not be four friends in the world- Blaise Pascal

Be Blessed!

Flirting/BLOG

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These last few weeks has truly been amazing for me.. Spiritually. That’s another blog.

Living alone has really forced me to pay close attention to ME. I’m really in tuned with myself, things I never paid attention to when I was raising my daughter… I guess because it was all about her. But looking back on my life and this is so funny to me.. So, so, so, so, so, so funny. And I’ll tell you why in a few, but when you learn your likes and dislikes you are building Character. There are things you will simply not deal with, and I so love that about myself. I don’t comply with things I don’t want to deal with. But let me share what I learned about myself…. and I wish I knew why.

There are these contractors that work in the building, they’re the nicest group of men you ever want to meet. They don’t have attitudes or anything. Well the Boss/Leader likes me.. and I like him too. Not only that, but several of his people are attracted to me as well. And he knows it. LOL I love to flirt and talk “junk” to him… but I am firm on my won’ts and don’ts.

I looked back on my life and realize that through the years.. I have dated members of management at my job. I’m always attracted to the Leader. I wonder why? I wonder if its something I’m putting out there and I’m not aware of it, or is it something in both of us that attracts each other. In this situation I will never flirt with his people, but I LOVE THE ATTENTION. LOL Its funny because I know it will never go further than flirting…. I’m just not a woman easy to catch like that.

When I’m walking to my car, the men working in the apartments will whistle at me and its so funny looking up at the windows and finding out who it is, only for them to blow me kisses. LOL They have never tried to come to my apartment or say anything out of the way… I love that about them. Even though I don’t flirt with them… I enjoy them flirting with me… because its always when the Boss is not looking. Men crack me up. I don’t even think the Boss knows my name. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA… see little stuff like that… I love discovering about myself. He doesn’t even know my name. LOL When I see him Monday… I’m going to ask him.

But also let me say this too. I’m very friendly and approachable. I don’t walk around with my face twisted, and mouth turned up. I’m always smiling and in a good mood. If I’m going through something.. I’ll leave that at home. I NEVER take it out on anyone. I do get quiet when something is bothering me, but I never transfer my Spirit onto another person. I make eye contact with people that cross my path. I smile and show myself friendly. And by me saying that… I believe that’s what attracts these men. Everywhere I go. I try to think positive and it shows on my face. Men like that.. they don’t want to be around a woman who always look mean and have something smart to say. Men don’t like that. I don’t like that in a man. Looking all mean and DISCONNECTED… get out of my face with that.

Anyway… women discover some things about yourself. I promise I love myself more and more everyday.

Be Blessed!

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My Funny Parents/DIVORCE/LOVE

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This morning I took my parents to run some errands. I love riding with them.. they have debates and lil scraps that are sooooooo funny. My momma be tearing my daddy up. LOL LOL But baby when he’s had enough, he come back on her.  LOL Funny thing, when I’m with them its like having precious cargo with me. I have to be very careful of driving, even though I’m a careful driver anyway… its still something about having them in the car. When I’m with them.. we hit about 40 stores… because everybody likes to shop at their own personal favorites. LOL We had a bad storm yesterday and 2 of the stores were closed because they had no power. We always end the day with KFC…. I LOVE IT….. the memories we are creating without even REALIZING.
 
Sooooooooooooo………my Sister’s DIVORCE is final and she encourages me to write about it. Especially my feelings about it. I loved my brother n law. I just hate they couldn’t work it out. Its funny how you could start off together on the same page… then end up on different sides of the street. He was driven by money and “stuff”…. she was driven by LOVE and spending time together. She has a MASTERS working for the city and they built 2 companies and 14-15 properties together. This has really taught me a lot. I will NEVER EVER marry a man who works day in and day out. I’m not driven by money…. “aha’s” and “look what I bought “, “look what I”m doing now”… and all that needing APPROVAL stuff. I just want to LOVE and be LOVED. I’ve always worked since I was 14… and yesss my HUSBAND will too. But doing too much will mess up a marriage because it can’t grow. Yes…. I’m afraid of that. While one person is doing one thing, another is doing something else. I don’t like that. Now, if me and my HUSBAND worked together side by side or in the same building…. that could work. But me working someplace, while he works  another from 6 am-10pm  … NOT GONE HAPPEN WITH MS CREE. Working too many hours apart in a marriage while one is driven on LOVE.. and the other on STUFF, topped with oo’s and ah’s won’t work for me. Then they end up “tolerating” each other because its “business” and too much to lose… to DIVORCE.  MY PERSONALITY doesn’t have time for that. Meeee… for the sake of the PEACE that I demand…. will walk away from EVERYTHING. He can have it ALL… its the ONLY THING THAT CAME MAKE HIM HAPPY ANYWAY. Here… go be happy with your “STUFF”.
 
 
 
Growing up in our household, we knew nothing but LOVE. We learned how to share, how to look out for each other. we weren’t allowed to fight. I find it amazing how  having so much LOVE in the home from both parents….. that ALL 3 OF MY SIBLINGS just want to be LOVED. My sister was wearing a $13,000 ring * and it was NICE too* she said if she ever gets married again… she only wants a matching wedding band. She didn’t have a wedding… this time she wants one. She didn’t go on a honey moon, this time she wants to go. I understand her because we grew up together.  I understand her mentality. I watched her live her life.. because we are close. I see the type of people that me and my siblings are. We want God in our lives, we want a PEACEFUL home, we want to work come home and spend time as a family, have friend time, movie and dinner time, trips… and of course do our own things separately with our friends. We don’t like arguing and nick picking. I can’t do that.
 
 
I want to be showered/ and to SHOWER HIM… with LOVE… KISSES, HUGS, TOUCHING, LOVE MAKING… AND FAMILY GATHERINGS…This is LIFE… if we’re going to LIVE it… LETS GET IT!!! I can go all over the place on this topic… later I will. But for now…. ITS ALL ABOUT LOVE.
BE BLESSED
 
 

My Personal Testimony Feedback ((should I publish))….. Blog

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Hey Family!!!

Recently I share with about 100 people my PERSONAL TESTIMONY that happened in the last 2 years. I DID NOT want to share it because it was so close to my heart and I really didn’t want to “go there”. But I’m glad I did. Wow.. never in a million years did I realize how many people were touched, encouraged and inspired by my story. God had been telling me to write down my story and share it… I just couldn’t. I have several books in me.. so when I read the response …. I was really blown away. I’m thinking about having it published on line.

Here are some of the many responses from my “Building My Faith On God’s Reputation”.
Hey Cree I’m trying to catch up with reading these chapters, I just finished this one and all I can say right now is OMG!!!! this is a POWERFUL life changing story. You are blessing my SOUL!!! and I’m learning a lot about my self through your story. WOW!!! Ok on to the next chapter. LOL

You were born for this. Your sharing will help so many.

love it zz. keep it coming everyday im blessed to start my day reading different blogs but yours do something special. im waiting on the book.

When I initially saw ur post I said dang that’s a lot of reading I have to get things done this morning but as I began to skim thru the beginning I was really drawn in and I ended up on my couch in the same spot until I read every word of ur testimony. Zee u r a very strong woman and I commend u for sharing ur trials and I’m sure there’s more it something I have always wanted to do myself, but until then I will continue to appreciate urs and knowing how good GOD is to all his children who follows him. I love u even more for this Zee keep it going.

it really helps in ways you will never understands especially when you take things so simple for granted.

I love this book…I mean post lol. I’m on to the 6th post. I love your affirmations!!!!

Thank you for including me in this, I am honored. I love you always in life.

Your testimony will certainly help others with the challenges they are facing day to day.

I’m reading the other chapter right now gurl this is funny !!! because I can picture you in my mind and your reaction, but at the same time it’s life changing and what a good TITLE for your book.

Can’t wait to read the next chapter Cree!! WOW!! You know you have a book in the making right???

Alright Cre’ “Multiply Style” Girl you are giving me so much life right now!

I love you twin. Thank you for loving me back!

Clutching my pearls… Mouth wide open… Eyes big as fifty cent pieces… I was on your blog today… I wanted to call you about starting my blog & to ask where have you been blogging “hanging out at” I’m in a terrible place right now and look at God…. You and I together again ON TIME at the right time… As only The Good Lord Will Have It. Mm… Mm… Mm…
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Thank you for including me on your VIP list. I have nothing but love for you honey. Mm mm mm

Wow! Thank u zee. I have a feeling I need to head and learn from what you R about to share. Thank u and I love you for this!!!!!

Thanks for adding me Cree, I know your testimony will bless me and all that you have added to this group, I’m truly looking forward to hearing your testimony, Let God use you Cree. I know I need to hear this. YOU ARE NOT ALONE MY DEAR!

Thanking the Lord for allowing me to be in the number to be Blessed By You. Fasting and Praying i knew the Lord was making room for something i’m ready 👣

Thanks for a portion of your testimony, I will be praying with and for you as you continue to pour our what GOD has asked you to deposit in us.

Thanks cuz, love the title “Building my Faith on God’s Reputation” and love you even more!

Thank you Cree Cree…. ive been praying for God to keep me grounded…. I love you!

Cree virgo’s are strong go getter folks…Its hard to depend on others…..we are normally the depender “the person You can lean on me..”type people”. May God give us the strength we will always need to survive and lean on Him….our heavenly father and always be Thankful/Grateful for close family and friends.Ham mercy….Hallelujah and Amen …we walk by faith and not by sight.

TO ALL MS. WALKER’S FRIENDS: Friendship is nothing to be taken lightly. Cree always listens to “our problems.” She is finally getting her just dues where we get to listen to her. I am so grateful that she is finally able to share some of the things she experienced. I apologize that I didn’t realize Cree was going through so much because I was too busy complaining about my problems. Let her testimony stand.

this reminds me of Paul when GOD took his sight. Before Paul became Paul his name was Saul and he was a legalistic believer. A pharisee or much like it. He was going to kill the spirit filled christian the new believers in Christ and sadly he thought he was doing the work of the lord but he wasn’t. So God took his sight and he couldn’t see for three days. On the third day GOD restored his sight and named him Paul and he is the biggest contributor to the bible to this day. There is a plan and a purpose for all things so be of good cheer. !

Lord I pray u be a Fence all around Lacrease Walker an everyone ready her testimony…. Give Crease strength like no other an fulfill each an Every dream an desire she has… u have always been there for ppl now set back an Let God take care of u …..I’m grateful to call u MY BIG SISTER U HAVE GIVEN AN SHOWN ME SO MUCH AN I BLESSED FOR THAT…..

Lacrease Walker girl I love you…you are my sister and friend…I can call you out the blue and your always anxious to hear what I have to say and you give me the alternative thinking… ( ok so let me ask you this) lol and I love it…thank you for inviting me and thank you for being you…you are one if gods rare gems….Allow him to use you baby…

Powerful sis! I totally understand about never being sick or having an affliction and then boom and staying focused to listen to the voice of the Lord instead of people! Awesome, anxiously awaiting the continuation! Love u, Be Blessed!

I learned the hard way quenching your spirit in a period of lack, depression, desperation, debt, lust, heartache and pain, turns you away from GOD as HE sits patiently saying, I AM the answer, I AM the way, the Truth and The LlFE, I AM who I AM.. Yet, we want it when we want and HE takes us through season(spiritual ones will define/ breakdown for you soon) in the flesh. I always new winter, spring, summer and fall. But spiritually we have seasons. When you are so consumed on what the world is offering, you are blinded to what GOD has offered to our spiritual life that we begin to wither away and die on the inside cause the mind to wonder, make it had to accept HIS, correct, HIS promises, HIS will and HIS way. We begin to try and figure out what He means for us by ourselves. I never stopped serving the people, spreading HIS word, but I was no longer applying it to myself. I did what I was suppose to on the outside but in the inside I had to die. I LOST everything, the man I thought I loved and loved me (not GOD choice but mine), the job I had and desired to keep, the house I brought but stopped keeping it up, the cars I stopped paying for,, my grandmother that I loved more than myself and anyone else, My friend because I became different, my family because I had changed. But GOD, slowly I had a wake up call and I’m still working on it today. Will tell you more as your testimony continue. Because I see the spiritual seasons in your test.

Wow taken aback….you made me tear up….thanks for allowing me to be apart of this.

Lacrease Walker i truly understand where your coming from in that place as we speak only being led by the voice of The Lord and trying to stay i his presence so he can lead and when i called you i was led to do so that being said when you was in your human nature side he the Lord sent someone in the spirit to encourage you and to remind you that He The Lord is Faithful, God Bless you and I Love you looking forward to reading more to God be the Glory.

That PRIDE thing can get in the way every time. Try the Spirit by the Spirit…I understand this is your journey but if it had been me with all that I had been though to get to the place God wanted me to be. When obstacles came increase faith followed , isolation and shutting down would not be an option for me. You very well know God uses others as vessels to give you the desires of your heart according to his will.
On my spiritual journey I’m learning to increase the relationship but it’s also important to TRUST him, no I mean truly trust him and his will. Thanks for sharing were you was thinking then. I’m interested to know if you had to do it all over what would be different? Love Monica

This is so uplifting reading your story. You really should consider putting it in a book. Also, you have that personality that when people meet you, you are liked. That is how I felt when I first met you. I told Tasha that you are a “people person” and that you were very outgoing and you had a beautiful spirit about you. Looking forward to reading the posts.

That is great and I am glad you are thinking about it. I truly feel it would help many people that are facing different challenges in life. Reading your posts just confirms that we may make plans but God’s plans are the best. I thought I would be in Texas by now and God said no, I have something better for you and I am trusting him.

Cree you know GOD uses us all to be so that others can become you have always been a writer i remember you trying to get me to pen pal. lol and put that with the encourager you have always been it really shows how faith works im grateful for you test which you pass and are able to deliver a testimony to allow someone to read and be free and deliver in their storms and testimony enjoying being bless by this.now im waiting on your books.
I wish u would have just put this in a book sis, cause I feel like u teasing me with the page a day. Though I must admit that I am enjoying it. I LOVE to curl up at the corner of the sofa and read!!

Hey Zee, God is so awesome, keep up the good work. I love you.

We have helped each other and i can really relate because when im doing bad or going through something i to keep it to myself, i don’t like to ask people for help even when i need it ,and it’s funny how everybody think im so strong and got it together, but baby i have wet my pillow many nights lol!!! And not to mention me getting down on my knees asking for strength and guidance. its making me tear up just think about it. And dang i forgot to blockRubie Phillips Knott lol

You are successful! Just like Miss Renee Bates said. You came through it, and your spirit is intact. I am going to share one of my testimonies here. I’ve shared it on my FB page, and ppl have gotten a lot from it. I’m a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. At one point, I was going to take my life, but God stepped in and began a healing in me that is still going on. I’m still here!!!! I didn’t take my life, and I believe God let me live so that I could share my story to reach other survivors. Here is the link. It’s never too late to start your life over, even if you think your life is not worth living

You’ve been a blessing by sharing your story. We have spoken but this before many times but I will say it again we were going through very similar situations yet we thought we were the only one going through. For those reading who often wonder why I call Cree twin that is one reason. The other is from the very first time we ever laid eyes on each other we connected. She knew what I was thinking without me saying a word and I knew what she was thinking. This happened on our very first time meeting. Cree reminded me that there are no accidents in life. I know this is long but allow me to explain. I met Cree online on a message board. We were on at the same time viewing the same thread and had just gone to the same concert and sat a couple of rows apart. We didn’t meet at the concert but we met online and stayed in touch and she’s been my twin ever since. We don’t see each other often we don’t talk often but I have no doubt that Cree is a true friend and I can talk to her about anything and I have. I share things with her that I’ve never shared with others without hesitation. She’s just that kind of person. Without a doubt it was God who allowed us to cross paths and become “twins”. I know this is long but I want others to know God is amazing and he works in mysterious ways for sure. Keep watching and waiting on Him. Be blessed everyone.
Girl i remember when u said u hear God’s voice like he was sitting right next to u having a conversation, I’m glad u were obedient and listen to him and prayed when u did. I had a similar story to yours I was on my way to walmart on getting on the freeway which I really don’t like to drive this particular morning I was very sleepy, but I got up got dressed warmed up my car and headed off, It was a light snow the kind u don’t see until u see it got on 94 as soon as I got on I spinned all the way on black ice around facing oncoming traffic, I was so scared I said Lord please turn me the right way so I can get to this job, I swear to u the radio station change itself to Jesus will work it out, I turned the car around without any problems then the other cars came flying pass me I eventually got to that job praising his name shaking and all

It was so nice to read your story. I had a bit of the same issues as you when it came to sharing my testimony but What God has shown me and consistently shows me to this day is that sharing your story isn’t about you. Yea, it’s your story but it helps you as well as others who hear. I don’t like giving my testimony because I don’t want people to judge certain people in my story and I also don’t want people to feel pity for me. I also want people to see how God provides in the ways of this world. Cause some people just get so stuck in that all Christians should be poor mentality but if we are all poor and homeless who will help the homeless. I, like you, feel like a story should end with the Blesses of God so that people will see him how I see him. What I think we often miss is we are looking for the material things to be the blessing when the blessing is really those moments of comfort and security that he offered when we were down and without a clue on how to get back up. You may not be in a place that looks blessed to the outside world but the fact that you are closer and more secure in a relationship with the provider of blesses you have no need to worry because knowing him means those blessings are going to follow after you without you even having to try. Thank God, For you and your words I know he will continue to bless you.

Sooo agree be blessing to others connect more with god know in doing so you may lose many friends but will see your true when more you connect .do according to his plan for your life not men he speak to us all in different way no his voice listen thanks for your story Cree love you a much

 

 zz im so blessed by many things you have shared.i relate to some things because i have either been there or are there or maybe going there and it helps to know that someone else can relate.there are 3 kind of ppl in the world and you have describe all of them 1.the one that is going in a storm 2.the one that is in the storm. 3 the one that out of the storm.either way we experience the storm choosing to share your storm and the out come is a choice and you must be confident in where you are in life,i appreciate you for your honestly i remember those events you shared and never knew because you smiled through your pain(reminds me of me)that’s the Virgo in us and it hurts to let ppl know we in need not just of money but everything, You help me to realize things i know it was conformation thanks for sharing and adding me i know it was meant for me to read this.i got up every morning looking for it.lbvs.we have been friends for many years and even when we dont see or talk   

 

I agree you’re story is a success, you learned, grew, and kept going forward. You gave and still are giving hope, education and more to others. You are always helping others, feeding the homeless, helping young girls or just an inspiration for people to know that they are not alone and there is light at the end of the tunnel.  

 

Your life story have so much to do with having faith in God through the difficult challenges along with the good one! Also it show how you have self doubt and fear at some point but you always held on to the faith in God no matter what you were going through! I am learning from your story that sometimes God has to slow us down to see what he has in stored for us whether we like it or not.

 

 I laughed so hard!!! I was at work, Lacrease, and the lady next to me HAD to ask what I was laughing so hard about! Yeah, you were heated   I read all 4 parts today, and I’m so blown away! I can relate to what you went through, too.

 

Every living cell in my body wants to move to LA. I went there to try to find a job, and NOTHING came of it. I stayed there about a month, and then came on back home. I figured it just wasn’t the right time.
I got a job here at a doctors’ office, and for the most part, I’m happy here. There is always that nagging about wanting to go back to LA, though. Every time I think about going back, I hear something (God) say don’t leave before the miracle. So I stay. I have no idea what I’m waiting for, but that voice is loud and clear about staying here. I despise Cincinnati, but that voice is unmistakable!
And I don’t know if you knew this or not, but about 9 years ago, I lost everything I owned in an apt fire. At the time of the fire, I thought it was the worst thing that could have ever happened to me. I was wrong. It ended up being a blessing in disguise for me. I disobeyed God before, and I so paid for it! So I am soooo there with you when you’re telling your testimony! So there! I used to think that the fire was just a fire. But I realize since I didn’t obey God, it was really like an eviction! A holy eviction LOL!
You keep listening to Him. You know He’s not going to steer you wrong. I love your relationship with God. It really gives me pause, and makes me stop to listen to Him. When I think about your story, I hear my story as well. Thank you so much for sharing this with us all. You have no idea how many ppl you are going to touch with your story.

 

 I am so intrigued by this story…as much as you write I still hate when it ends…can’t wait for part 5..

 

 

 

yes you two have truly blessed me to beable to just share more and to look deeper within me and rewrite the contents within me instead of just living and letting people read the cover. you know the saying “that you can’t judge a book by its cover” from this day forward i will be writing i was always told to do so . God Bless you Ladies. World Changers

 

 

The Bible talks about God preparing a table in the presence of our enemies. I don’t expect them to say a lot of nice things about me, but they are there. Watch me eat.-Tyler Perry