Higher Is Waiting Question 4/BLOG

 

Recall a time in your childhood when a friend or relative helped to change you in a important way?

My Aunt Wana! She’s my mom’s only sibling and baby Sister. When she use to pick us up and take us to her house or we’ll go to one of her friends house. We would be in the room playing , and no matter how much fun they were having she would always cut off from them and come peep in the room and ask us ” Are yall okay?” She wouldn’t depend on the normal “YES”, she would look us ALL in our eyes to make sure that we were really Okay. She wasn’t leaving that room, until she was satisfied with the desire results she came for.

In my kid mind, I saw that they were having so much fun. They were playing cards,  music, dancing, drinking, eating, laughing and talking to each other. I couldn’t understand then, why she use to come check up on us so many times. But she knew. She knew what could happen in a few minutes, she knew that someone could be hurt and she couldn’t see them. She knew that kids say everything is fine, when something else could be going on. To her, it didn’t matter how much fun she was having, she took a break from her fun to make sure we were okay. That stuck with me to this day.

When my daughter was a kid and had company, I would do the very same thing. I dont care how much laughing I was doing with my friends, I had to make sure the kids was okay. I had to look them in their eyes to make sure no one is crying for help and I over looked it. I had to know before I close that door and go back to my friends that these kids were alright.

That changed me in a important way, because it lets me know that no matter how busy God seem to a person, he ALWAYS check in on his kids! US! We are never alone, and he always watches over us no matter what. He will never leave us to do what we want without checking in. When it seems as if he’s not around, he is always PRESENT!

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Higher Is Waiting Question 3/BLOG

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How do you “hear” God?

I hear God by KNOWING that the words spoken in my mind/soul/heart are NOT words I would say myself.

The best way for me to explain this is by stories of my Life Lessons.

One day I was at the red light, on the over pass, on my way to work, when I heard God say.. LaCrease pray RIGHT NOW as if today was your last day living. He said PRAY NOW. At first I thought I was tripping, because it was with urgency and he said before the light turn green. I remember saying.. God right now? He said pray NOW. I remember saying Lord Thank you for my life, my family that you hand picked for me. Forgive me for all my Sins, known and unknown. I told him that I wanted to LIVE with him forever. Then….. the light turned green and I was about to enter I-94. As I was driving, I’m thinking okay what is God up too, what is going on? He knows I ask a lot of questions and think a lot. I’m wondering if I was about to die, I didn’t know what was happening, but I PRAYED just as he told me.

I’m driving and JUST LIKE THAT… I started thinking about something else, and forgot all about the prayer I just prayed.

Just as I turned the radio on, and continued to drive to work.. all I saw was BRIGHT RED LIGHTS in front of me. People were breaking hard in front of me. I didn’t know what was going on to cause this all of a sudden STOP. The truck in front of me was blocking my view so I had to rely on him when to stop breaking. All of a sudden, he swerved over to the left, and that’s when I was able to see what he was seeing. When he swerved over I was RIGHT THERE about to run in the back of another TRUCK/SUV HARD!!!! When I say HARD… There was NO WAY in this world I would have survived that accident.  NO WAY!!!! I WAS DEAD!!! The truck that swerved over to the left  allowed me to see that HE was about to run into the back of another SUV truck. Once I saw what he saw, not only was I BREAKING REALLY HARD.. but I didn’t have enough time to stop, so I to had to swerve to the left.. THANK GOD NO OTHER CAR WAS THERE.

I would have DIED.. The impact would have crushed the front end of my car so badly, that it would have blew my chest out. It gave me a headache so badly. It never went away that day. My breaks took a beating too. LOL I went to work feeling so Thankful, I couldn’t stop thinking about God and HOW I HEARD HIS VOICE. This is one of the many stories I share with people all the time. You have to tune into that still voice.

Questions Taken Out Of Tyler Perry’s New Book – Higher Is Waiting

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Higher Is Waiting Question 2/BLOG

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Surrendering doesn’t mean giving up or not caring. It means trusting and allowing things to be tended by God. When have you done this in your life? What happened?

When I moved back home from Atlanta.

I’ve been wanting to move there since I was 22 years old (( now 50)). I moved Sep 3, 2012 on my Birthday, NEVER telling anyone how much pain I was REALLY in concerning my leg and barely being able to walk. One day before moving to Atlanta, I woke up unable to walk from the pain in my left calf area. When I got there I went on a interview and barely made it up the flight of stairs. I knew then, that I would never be able to stand at a job for 8 hours. I knew that if I went back home, I could get well, and go back to my old job of 9 years, but I was determined to stay there and make it.  I was so depressed when I was there.  I knew it would get better, but when? I had been waiting my whole life to move there, only to get there and not be able to walk.

At this point, I had made up in my mind that I was going back home to Detroit. So, one day I went on line looking for apartments, when I came across this one  Downtown. I thought, I could never live there. I always wanted to live Downtown Detroit, but knew the rent was too high. But this one kept standing out to me, KNOWING I COULDN’T AFFORD IT!!! That’s when I heard God say, YOU WILL LIVE THERE! I knew it was him speaking because I know his voice, I wouldn’t TELL MYSELF THIS.  Simply because I already came to MY OWN CONCLUSION that I couldn’t afford it. I immediately made an appointment to see it, while I was still in Atlanta. I had money, but I didn’t have the strength to stay while in so much pain.

I drove home from Atlanta and had to move in with my daughter, which killed me as a MOTHER because I wanted her to enjoy her new place. But she welcomed me, and saw how much pain I was in. When I say she nursed me back to health, mentality and Spiritually….. She did that! Not only that, but her DOWNTOWN apartment was around the corner from the one I made an appointment with. Never knew that when God told me I would move there.

The day after I made it back to Detroit, I went to see the apartment and I HATED IT. Told God I will NEVER EVER MOVE THERE!!!!!! EVER!!!! NEVER!!!!! I hated everything about it. Only 1 of the 3 elevators were working. There were ” Under Construction” notices everywhere. The atmosphere was terrible. The apartment that I saw was nice, but it needed upgrading, it was not enough for me to move in. I did LOVE how they kept the grounds up. I loved the Downtown location, but I hated all the construction going on. I just couldn’t see the vision.

I went back to my daughter’s apartment and told her how I hated it and that I was DONE!!! Told her, I would NEVER EVER move over there. I was done with everything. I couldn’t walk, didn’t want to go back to my job of 9 years. I was DONE!!!! Then I caught a bad cold,  I was depressed and even got into the worst argument with my brother in all of our life. I cried everyday, all day, the moment my daughter left out for work. I cried and cried and cried and cried and cried and cried. I cried so much that I told God that if he gave me until a certain date (( cant remember it )) that I would stop, just allow me to keep crying. That day came… and I gave everything to GOD. Total Surrender!!

A few months later, my daughter was working to help a young lady find a apartment, without remembering the building I went to when I first came home, she told me she went to see one. I remember saying to her, “THAT’S THE SAME APARTMENT I LOOKED AT”. She said momma its nice over there, they’re doing repairs and the apartments are nice. She went on and on about how they looked.  The way she talked about this building made me want to see it again for myself. So, it made me wonder if I was just depressed and down at that time that I was over looking the potential of the building.

The very next day I made an appointment to see it again. I fell in LOVE. I don’t know how I over looked how well the building would look as it came together with the repairs. It was like I had a new set of eyes. I applied that same day! The lady called me 3 days later and told me to come and pick up my keys that was Dec of 2012. God told me that I would move there, and today I’ve been here for almost 5 years. Shortly after, I moved my parents DIRECTLY AROUND the corner. I stayed in my original apartment for 2 years, then they told me that when my lease was up that I could move into a BRAND NEW APARTMENT.

My APARTMENT IS BRAND NEW! ALL NEW EVERYTHING!!! I’M THE FIRST PERSON TO LIVE HERE WITH THIS UPGRADE. God told me that I would live here, even when I said NEVER and never thought about it again. When I gave up the control and trusted God that’s when I Surrendered. I’ve been at PEACE and happy ever since!!! I LOVE not only my apartment… but my DOWNTOWN LIVING! It happened just as God said it would. Thank you Lord! You gave me my hearts desire, forgetting that I prayed to live Downtown a long time ago. Thank you!

Questions Taken Out Of Tyler Perry’s New Book – Higher Is Waiting

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My time in ATLANTA/BLOG

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Hey Family

Im home from my trip to Atlanta. If you know me, you know I love Atlanta. I went for my daughter’s family reunion when I was 23 or 24 (( now 49))  and I fell in LOVE. I always said that I wanted to move there. Me and my cousin both kept saying it. This was during the time of the freak nik. When the college kids and others drove to Atlanta and had weekend parties. I remember that year having so much fun, that I came home told my 3 BFF’s about it, and we planned a trip on the spot and went 2 months later. In that trip we took my cousin and she stayed NEVER EVER to return. I hate I didn’t get a chance to see her this weekend when I went to their hotel for a moment.

I lOOOOOOVE to drive, so me and my daughter rented a truck, packed up and we hit I-75 straight to Atlanta. We left at 2:30 am, got there at 4:00 pm. We ran into a accident involving 2 trucks. We didn’t see the accident because it was raining, but so happens when the traffic stopped we were the 3rd car behind it. Funny thing… well not so funny, is that it really wasn’t an accident, the truck slid and to keep from going over, somehow the driver made his truck go side ways and BLOCKED OFF ALL LANES TO GET PASS!!! So we waited an hour and a half PLUS for crews to get there and move the truck out of the way. So that took us a wait.

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.. We made reservations to stay at one of my favorite places in Sandy Springs. I made reservations back in Feb, but had to cancel that date on June 12, because we were arriving one day later. I changed it, and that was final.

We  made it to Atlanta at 3:30 and on the reservation it said that if you are going to be later than 4 please call the hotel directly and tell the desk clerk. Well my daughter made the call and told her we would be there at 4. Before my daughter could get a word out, the lady said.. “we’re sold out”, and I didn’t see your name on guest list. My daughter knew I was going to be MAD! So she said momma talk to this lady she said we are not on the guest list. So, I grabbed the phone and said Hello, ((( in a low calm voice))) we made reservations in this hotel and I dont understand why you dont see my name in your system, when I have my EMAIL CONFIRMATION RIGHT HERE, AND THE DATE FOR TODAY. I can hear lies in her voice, and right now as I was driving, I’m PISSED…. I’m so mad, I’m about to cry because I drove straight for 12 plus hours and she’s telling me that she doesn’t see my reservation in her system when I clearly see it in my email. Then she says.. well you can call around to our other property to see if they have some available. That’s when my daughter said “why should we have to call around this is your fault?” I told her you know what? IM ON MY WAY! I was DONE  talking over the phone. I wanted to look her in her eyes.

We arrived at 4:00 on the dot!! Before I went in.. God had a pep talk with me because HE KNOW.. I will tear the place DOWN with my bare hands. I always try to have patience with people, before I nut up.

We walked in and she ALREADY KNOW its ME. MY face was twisted and I’m looking at her name badge.  She was on the phone with another property manager trying to get us a room over there. When I’m talking business, I always speak in a low, to the point, voice, with EYE CONTACT THAT WILL make a MAN nervous. I found out that for black people, folks (( blacks and white)) LOVE to say, she had an attitude, she harassed me, her voice was intimidating, she scared me, she cursed me out, she was yelling at me, so I had to learn how to speak when I’m angry, in order to get to the bottom of a situation. She kept saying that I wasn’t in her system, so when I showed her my reservation she looked at it and said.. “OH it says June 12, that was yesterday.. I SAID LOOK AT IT AGAIN.. IT SAYS JULY 12.. NOT JUNE! She looked at it again and said.. Oh. Which even pissed me off even more, because she TRIED to find fault in me, when she knew she was the one at fault.  She held on while the property manager at the other place wanted to speak to me. She gave me the phone and I told him upfront… LISTEN.. I dont live raggedy at home, and I’m not here in Atlanta to sleep in any ole neighborhood and hotel. He said okay maam, this place is not as nice as the one you’re at, but it is CLEAN.. and I do have a room for you. WE left, and went over to his property. When we saw that out house looking place I wanted to drag him in that back office and lock him in the building for 50 days, no water no food!!!! He knew by our conversations and the way We presented ourselves that We wasn’t going to stay in some renkedink hotel. NEVA!!!!  RAGGEDY!!!! I was pissed! 😡😡

Long story short (( cause I’m getting mad all over again)). WE left there and went to 3 hotels before we found one NOT sold out!! Anddddddd after sharing my story we got upgraded to a Suite for FREE. I was just sharing with the front desk clerk because I was frustrated, not even throwing hints for anything. It was deep into the 14th hour of driving and I was tired.

The next day… YOU KNOW THIS VIRGO jumped on the phone and called her manager about what happened…. he seemed to be her friend and asked me, was I going to be there the following week , he would have a room for me.. GTFOH! IM DONE WITH YALL!

But over all, we HAD A GREATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT TIME! YES WE DID!

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What Monique Didn’t Say/BLOG

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I NEVER ever curse in my blogs, but this one… THIS ONE RIGHT HERE…. I have to really express myself, to get MY POINT ACROSS.

I sat and watch the very fist clip of Monique going off on Oprah, Tyler Perry, and Lee Daniels on stage at least a good 15 times. Trying to figure out what I was missing about why she was feeling some kinda way. But let me go back a little. Back when the movie was playing or had been at the movies, I remember her telling a story about how all 3 of them pulled her to the side at different times to tell her the importance of promoting the movie. How she would be paid IN THE FUTURE for the fact that she was up for an Oscar. Not sure which one of these came first, the confrontation or the Oscar. At some point with the money she was being paid, and these power houses coming to her, she had to feel as if they didn’t know the full story, and if they did, she probably felt she didn’t want to hear any of it, being that she still didn’t get more money.

Now, I understand.

Monique said that she was paid $50,000 to do Precious. I don’t know how actresses are paid to do movies, I really don’t care because its not my field of interest, but Imma say this…. 50 thousand dollars aint it to me!!!!! I can leave my house RIGHT NOW come back in 2 hours and I’ll have a 10 dollar bill and 2 singles left, are  YOU kidding me? Let me just make that clear. Now, again I don’t know the going price for actresses, but if she signed on to do it, let it be done!

Now, lets get to BUSINESS!!!

I consider myself to be VERY popular at work. I’m a people person, full of laughs personality on 100, love to have fun, brutally HONEST…  I don’t put sugar on conversations, I’m a great LISTENER, I’m a sweet heart, and I love my work family. I KNOW… with everything in me, that If I said to all people on my shift, I’m throwing a 50th Birthday Party, we are all off on Sunday, I want you all to come out and celebrate with me. I KNOW 99 out of 100 people will be there. This is based off of integrity, honesty, realness, direct dealings, and my ability to PROMOTE MYSELF. So, I know, how business goes when it comes to putting your name on something. I say that to say.

So, Tyler and Oprah watched Precious before it was US released. And They LOVED IT!

They signed on to have THEIR NAMES as Producers, because we all know the other producers name doesn’t carry weight. When you’re dealing with BIG WIGS and they attach their names to ANYTHING, it will produce money. Oprah and Tyler are TWO of the biggest names in the game so you know how the outcome will be. By this time, Monique had already signed on the line for $50,00.  And she’s feeling some kinda way.

So, now its time to promote. Tyler and Oprah are producers, they made it very clear ITS NOT THEIR MOVIE,  that they won’t be receiving a dime, instead it goes to CHARITY!  But they wanted to promote it because they felt everyone should go out and support it. COOL!Nothing wrong with that!

At this time. Monique had to be feeling some kinda way, because SHE KNOWS and everyone sleeping in their graves know too, that with THEIR names attached this movie it’s going to do numbers. She knows that she got paid $50,000 FUNKY ASS DOLLARS, and now these folks  (( LIONSGATE ) want her to promote the movie with Oprah and Tyler WITH HER DAYUM MONEY.  So, Monique is saying to herself, yall want me to come off the couch with MY legs crossed, to fly here and there with the $50,000 yall gave me to do the MOVIE?  When this movie was going to DVD…YALL GOT ME MESSED UP!

Now let me say this, I believe with all my heart, that if Oprah and Tyler wouldn’t have signed on to promote it, she wouldn’t have a problem doing the promo’s. If they had any promo to do. Let me tell you why? Lee Daniels THOUGHT IT WAS GOING STRAIGHT TO DVD. He didn’t participate for the movie to go to the movies, and it wasn’t either, until OPRAH AND TYLER watched it. I need to say that for others to UNDERSTAND the mentality of Lee Daniels concerning this movie. This movie was NOT planned to go to Cannes at all PERIOD. I guess Lee felt that if Oprah and Tyler signed on to make the movie known and to skip DVD, that Monique should have jumped on it.  That she should have been “Grateful” that the movie was going to the movies, and that her performance was OSCAR WORTHY. Not with $50,000 SHE WOULDN’T.. ! HELL  NAW!

Now keep in mind that’s not towards Oprah and Tyler at all. Its against Lee Daniels and the power he had to make sure MONIQUE gets the money she deserves, SINCE now Oprah and Tyler has signed on! Also that MENTALITY would work with a new comer, a person trying to get exposure,  a person doing their first movie, but NOT with a seasoned actress and stand up like MONIQUE…. Um cuse me!

When she received a called to promote, she told them she was with her family and wanted to spend time with them. Even if that was true, or NOT,…  I understand that the studio doesn’t give traveling money to promote. Okay fine. Now,  do I believe Monique to be feeling some kinda way….. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! She felt if they signed on, LET THEM PROMOTE IT.. SHE KNEWWWWWWWWWW, how much she got paid and how much the MOVIE WAS GOING TO MAKE.

Monique did make mention that when Tyler summoned her to his dressing room, and clapped to his people to leave the room (( Tyler I love you, but that was funny)) she did throw shade about how that happened, but she wasn’t mad about that, she was mad cause their name went on the bill and the value of the movie went UP and they didn’t pay her more MONEY, knowing the studio WOULD MAKE A KILLIN

Okay! So, when recently Monique and her husband  talked about why she was upset with the 3, she started talking about how Oprah bought her family on her show a while back, and how she didn’t approve of it. While that may be the first thing that made her feel some kinda way about Oprah that’s not enough to go off. Monique was angry because Lee didn’t or couldn’t go back and re-negotiate that funky ass $50,000 she signed to when Tyler and Oprah came on board. and I’ll be mad too dammit. I’m mad and its not my MONEY OR BUSINESS!!! Lee funky ass should have made that  right with Monique.  Just because he was her friend!!! So what, it wasn’t going to be easy, so what, the studio wouldn’t give her more money. BUT HE SHOULD HAVE SAID LOOK FRIEND….. this movie is going to do numbers now since we have the backing of Tyler Perry and Oprah, I’m going in my pocket to make this FAIR with you. Did he have too.. NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE!!! NOPE AGAIN.. But Lee KNEW, why Monique wasn’t promoting the movie. He knew WHY she felt some kinda way. He knew that shit. And I know he talked about it TO SOMEBODY!!!

This is what he said that MESSED UP everything! Lee gets his ASS, on the phone and tells her shes been blackballed. Okay that’s one thing to feel that way, and to say it over the phone or in person ! But its another thing to get ON TV and make it come to LIFE. He made his statement real with ANYONE wanting or waiting to work with her. He bought that MESS to life when he mentioned it on TV, just to take the FOCUS OFF HIS ASS, for not saying what HE KNEW she was feeling about the  $50,000. He knew why she was PISSED.  But you see, in those interviews he didn’t mention the money, he didn’t because SHE DIDN’T! He opens his mouth and says…. she didn’t play the game. What is that suppose to mean? But the biggest reason why he was PISSED.. is because she didn’t mention his name when she won the Oscar. Oh, he was LIVID! All while he was mad, he tried to bring the STUDIO LIONSGATE into it by saying, you’re suppose to mention them. SHUT YO ASS UP LEE, you were mad because by saying YOUR name, your name would be heard and known. BECAUSE LIONSGATE IS LIONSGATE ANYWAY… BUT YO ASS AINT LEE DANIELS, IF YOU’RE NOT MENTIONED! Lets be clear!!! Especially when NO ONE knew yo ass.

What pissed me off about Lee was, after the OSCARS , he wanted to talk about her retaliation and her not cooperating. But that negro didn’t tell you NOT ONE TIME about that $50,000, and that he participated for the movie to go straight to DVD. And see people didn’t know the back story THEN, because Monique didn’t allow the dots to connect with us at that time. I saw all the interviews, but I still couldn’t understand for the life of me, why wasn’t she “Acting right” by promoting the movie.   I wondered why is she acting “childish” saying she’s busy and all this other subliminal stuff. And by NOT telling the WHOLE STORY,  she left the door open to work with Lee again, but this time she knew her worth!

So, EMPIRE came up.

Lee wanted to work with Monique again. He also wanted to make that PUNK ASS $50,000 RIGHT!!! I dont know if he wrote those emails or had them sent TO HER  for “show,” to say, I WANT TO WORK WITH YOU, knowing full well, by him mentioning those black balled statements  on TV that EMPIRE FOX didn’t want to have anything to do with her. And if Lee did go to FOX and say I want Monique for this role, did THEY SAY… NAW WE AINT MESSING WITH HER and went with Taraji?  Either way it WENT he has a way of clearing that flaming ass of his.

There is a LESSON to be learned in all of this. For one I know Tyler Perry and Oprah get it! KNOWING that your name carries WEIGHT. Make sure that before you put your name on ANYTHING,   that everyone is paid their due.!!!!!!! FLAT OUT!! Nothing wrong with supporting a movie, just know your name carries weight, because if an actor sign on to make $6.00 for a movie, and then here YALL  2 powerhouses COME that causes the value of the movie to go up, THEN make sure those people are getting paid well  before you attach your name. LETS ALL MAKE MONEY. If the studio cant agree to go back and renegotiate contracts.. OH WELL… then dont put your name to it. Because the actors will get cut out of the extra money.  So to avoid that, when the movie comes out, just say how much you loved it. Just make sure those people  are paid their worth. Oh they can’t because that’s NOT HOW IT GOES!!

I felt that Monique shouldn’t have said the d@@@ part in her stand up. I think that went too far, and I think she held her anger in too long about how she was feeling…. which of course would cause her to react that way.

I believe that she MAY have felt that Tyler and Oprah KNEW how much she got paid for her role, and because they loved the movie SO MUCH they decided to PROMOTE it ANYWAY.  Feeling that it may win an OSCAR. Even though they felt she was UNDERPAID. They went to her AT DIFFERENT TIMES and “TRIED TO MAKE IT RIGHT” by saying.. LOOK if you promote the movie, go to the premiere, and do the interviews, and EVERYTHING LIONSGATE ASK OF YOU ((( with that same ass  $50,000 you got paid, because they DON’T hand out allowances for that)))  IN THE END MONIQUE…. it will pay off. You will get calls and roles you’ve never dreamed of. They will pay you your worth and you’ll make more money than you ever had. But it didn’t work out that way… LEE DANIELS had already MESSED THAT UP, when he went on TV shows running his mouth! By putting the black balled story out there for not promoting the movie , and for being difficult to work with .. and Imma say this again… I CAN SPEND $50,000 IN 2 HOURS… THAT AINT NOTHING!

Tyler introduced it to HIS audience on Oct 5, 2009 to HIS fans, the movie premiered in US on November 6, 2009. 1.5 million DVDs sold in its first week of release. The movie was made for 10 million dollars, it made $63.6 MILLION DOLLARS…. and Monique received $50.000!!!

THAT’S WHY MONIQUE IS PISSED OFF!

My name is LACREASE AND I DONT HAVE TO DO ANYTHING ELSE!

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Cree’s Ramblings/BLOG

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Hey Family!!! I have lots to talk about tonight!! Lets jump right into it.

I’m a thinker, and this is one I’ve been thinking about for a while. Years ago when I was a young gurl before the age of 14, my dad always told ME.. that I had a sister out there. She was his step mothers  SISTER. It was a huge secret back in the day because at the time he was young and still at home, and if his dad knew this, he would have kicked him out of the house FOR GOOD. So the gurl had the baby, but it was a secret who the father was until later on in the gurls life when people started to talk.

For me…. I always wanted to meet her. I’m very close with my siblings and to find out that I have a sister out there was like heaven for me. I thought about her all the time. Asking my dad questions he didn’t want to answer sometimes. But one day he got a knock on the door.. and it was HER. Not only did she come for answers, but it was also told to her that her mom was raped by my uncle((( by marriage))) , and that it was a possibility that she was his child. My cousins (( his daughters)) wanted a blood test to know either way, but that never happened and it kinda devastated me.

One day she called and said that she was coming to Detroit to visit her family and that she wanted to meet up with me and my siblings at my dad’s house. We finally had the meet I PRAYED TO GOD FOR. I got to see her face to face, stare at her, hug her and just Thank God for that moment. But when she left, we didn’t communicate much at all, and when my uncle who she felt was her dad.. passed away…. she made it known that she felt HE was her dad. I was good with that part. Because I Thanked God for us meeting. God gave me exactly what I asked for… and that was to meet her face to face. But I expected more. I wanted to have a blood test taken, and if she was my Sister start a relationship with her,  my niece and nephews. I feel that I was “short changed” in a way. She decided not to take the test , and I had to be good with that choice she made. Its funny, how God will give you the desires of your heart, but he never reviled  the outcome. Thing is, he comforted me during those days after the meet. I cant be mad at him for how things turned out, because he gave me what I asked for… A MEET. There will always be a “what if” in the back of my mind  when I see her post on FB. I love her and Thank God all the time that I got a chance to meet her. 🙂  🙂  🙂  🙂

Which brings me to Tyler Perry.. another person who I always wanted to meet since I was introduced to Madea. I love me some Tyler Perry and the work that he brings to life on stage and on the screen. But since meeting my sister and having HIGH EXPECTATIONS… I’m good. Not that I don’t want to meet him, I want him to want to meet ME. I’m just not good with expecting something so great to happen (( a friendship with him and my sister as well)) and it not happen. If its God’s will.. it shall be. Other than that I’m Okay. I’m going to sit back and let God do this… I’m out of it. It feels natural that way 🙂 🙂 🙂

I AM La’Crease (( I don’t have to do anything else))

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Why You Mad?? My @tylerperry Response/BLOG

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Hey Family!!!! 🙂 🙂

Tyler Perry wrote-May 27, 2015

I was talking to a friend of mine the other day, and she was explaining to me how disappointed she was in people and the things that they do and have done to her. She went on and on about how upset and heartbroken she was, and has been, about some of her family and friends. She talked about how they hurt her and how she wished they would change and be better people. She wanted them to be different than the people they were.

Halfway through this complaint-a-thon, I asked her to take a walk with me in the backyard. Now, you have to know this particular friend of mine. She hates the heat, and it was a hot day. I said, “come on” so she reluctantly came with me.

We got outside and it was steaming hot. I could see that she was uncomfortable. Nevertheless, we kept walking around my backyard. As she was still complaining about people, I asked her what she thought of my grass. Mind you, in order to appreciate the grass you had to stand in the direct sunlight. She said “Wow, I love your grass. It’s beautiful, but it’s hot right here. Let’s cool off under that oak tree over there.”

So, as she started to walk to the tree I said, “No no, let’s stay here in the grass and cool off.”

She turned to me quickly and said, “We can’t cool off on this grass.”

Right then, I said to her, “But you just said the grass was beautiful.”

“I did” she replied. Then, I asked her, “Why won’t you stay here?” She said, because she was hot and the grass couldn’t cool her off. So, we walked over to the oak tree and sat there.

She said, “Now you see? This is what I needed.”

Then I asked her this question. “The grass was beautiful. You loved it. Why didn’t you get mad with the grass because it couldn’t provide the shade you wanted?

She was confused, so I went on to explain myself. “People in this world, whether they were created a certain way or became that way through life’s circumstances, are who they are. Stop wishing they will be someone else.”

I said, “The next time you get upset with someone because they can’t do, or can’t be what you want them to be, remember the grass. Never get mad at a blade of grass because it’s not a tree. Appreciate the grass for what it is. Let it provide to you what it can, but don’t expect more. Your life will get so much easier when you start letting people be who they are and stop expecting them to give you what they don’t have or don’t know how to give. Just like that grass couldn’t provide shade because it wasn’t made to, some people are not made to give you what you’re asking for. So, stop looking for it. You will be shocked at how much peace you find when you really get this.”

And the last thing I said to her was this. “You wouldn’t be so frustrated with people who are like the grass if you had more people who are like trees in your life.”

I could really go deep into this, but I gotta go back to work. Talk to me. What do you think?

Love y’all. Talk soon

My Response:

I love Tyler Perry’s messages because they always make ME think. I wake up everyday to learn a new lesson, I may not get it sometimes, but trust me.. I FILE EVERYTHING IN THE BACK OF MY MIND, BECAUSE I KNOW ONE DAY, ONE DAY.. IM GOING TO NEED TO PULL IT OUT, EXAMINE IT, AND FINALLY GET THE LESSON.

In this lesson, it took me a long time to get how people were. I use to get mad at people for not acting the way I felt they should act, and I would be done with them. I learned that you have to meet people where they are!!! In this life you’re going to meet a lot of people,  we all have different personalities. When we meet someone ((( IN PERSON))), they are exactly who they act out. That’s who they are…. and its okay… BUT CAN YOU DIG IT? I learned that I didn’t have to stay in that persons life because they didn’t act how I felt they should have. I don’t have to be their enemy, or be angry/mad with them either. There is always a lesson and reason why we come face to face with people who do things differently and act differently. Some people try to put a size 10 shoe on a 5 feet. Meaning, you can’t make people fit into what you feel they should be. Take them for face value,  get the lesson you need from them, and KEEP IT MOVING. I’m so glad that I came to a place in my life where I can get along with ANYONE…. its so crazy because in my 20’s and early 30’s…. Um Um…. NOPE! LOL In my late 40’s…… listen… I come to your life for LIFE LESSONS… not to talk on the phone all day, not to gossip, but to exchange stories and life experiences that we may have that can heal us together, or even make us laugh.

For Example: My Sister Peedie…IMG_2134 is always late for EVERYTHING. It use to BURN me up when we would all meet over to our parents house for pizza and laughs, she would plan the party for 5.. but always be there after 6. She does this  for every function we have. If I say the gathering is at 4, she’ll blow my phone up asking me what time am I leaving, that way she would know how long she has to BS before leaving out her house. LOL.. I use to be MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD at her. On fire. I use to wish that just one time, she would be on time. When God bought me to really examine this situation that bothered me so much… it BLESSED ME. He said.. your sister has been doing this for as long as you can remember. This is who she is. She won’t be on time, stop looking for her to be. This is your sister and how she does things. Get over it. Then I thought its OKAY.. ITS OKAY…. its funny now, because we make jokes and laugh about how late she’s going to be. I get it. I can’t make her to be a person on time, she’s always been this way. This is apart of her personality. ((( She’s always on time for work tho))) LOL LOL  I no longer “wish” she would be on time… I Thank God that she always shows up  ALIVE AND WELL

Now let me add this… I can call that SAME SISTER…. ask her for $20.00, she’ll bring me $40.00. One day I needed to borrow $20.00 she put a $100.00 BILL in my hand, we were talking so much, when she left, I realized what it was. If you call her for money SHE IS ALWAYS THERE. If you need a ride, she’s there ** late of course lol **, if you need to talk, she’s always there. If you need a favor or anything… she’s there. She always have it and if she don’t she’ll get it for you. God had to me to see that. I learned to look FOR STRENGTHS IN OTHER AREAS of a person, instead of focusing on their weakness. She wont be on time for anything, but if you EVER EVER EVER NEED HER… SHE IS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME AND ANYBODY ELSE!!!! So, after thinking about it…. ITS OKAY… IT REALLY IS OKAY.. that she’s not a person to be on time, because she has so many other things about her that I LOVE. I LOVE MY BABY SISTER.

I AM La’Crease ((I don’t have to do anything else))

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