Hey,
Today was a very good day for me. I woke up this morning Thank you Lord feeling so good. What was on my mind is behind me, and I am moving on. * And were moving right along* are my words for this season. I\’m not stopping the bus is rolling!! LOL
Yesterday was my off day, even though I wanted to get out of bed, *something told me to watch Creflo Dollar*. When he was done teaching, I had a new spark in me to get back to my Teen Ministry. I mean I had never felt this feeling in a long long long time, matter of fact in almost 2 years. I got up, put on my clothes and went to the book store. I am so excited, I won\’t say much because I don\’t like to speak premature but I have that spark again and I\’m so happy.
Today I did good about letting others talk without adding my own story to theirs. It was so funny, cause I\’m friendly and I talk to anyone. All while I was talking to this lady, I had this desire to tell her about my story. LOL Its so funny to me, because God showed me that I do this, and I\’m learning to just let others talk. I\’m not trying to be a *topper*, God knows I\’m not. I believe its a figure of self control, patience, and obedience. It was so cool letting someone finish up a conversation without me adding * Lacrease to it*. LOL I want to ask God so bad, how many times have I done that? Oh goodness I don\’t want to know. Also I\’m learning that if a conversation run out that\’s cool. I don\’t have to always feel to have to keep one going. Oh Lord, help your daughter. I\’m learning everything is really okay.
One thing I\’m going to teach my gurls is Loyalty. How to be a friend without talking about them to others, and how to diffuse a conversation with someone who is talking about your friend. I just think its so uncool to have a conversation about your friend that if they knew they would be upset or hurt. Which brings me to this. I have a friend who just really, I mean really hurt me dearly. I have no desire to ever ever ever ever ever in my life speak to them. And even though we don\’t live in the same city, it doesnt make it easier, but Im worried that I havent forgiven them in my heart. I love her, and miss talking to her kids, but I wonder have I forgiven this person. My sister says No, but I feel as I have. I ask myself how do I go from talking to this person one day, to not having a desire to ever see them or talk to them again the next day. I feel bad that I feel this way. But I even feel bader that they feel the way they do. In my mind Im done with it, ready to move on, and thats the bottom line. But at the same time, I want to know that I have forgiven her. There were others who Im also upset with, but I was the closes to her, so it matter much. How do I know is a question I must search my heart to answer.
Just finished perming my hair, whew weeeeeeee, my hair was on tweak mode. LOL Gotta go to work in the morning for 4 hours, and then Im going back to the book store to get this Teen book I need. I cant wait till tomorrow gotta treat myself too. My best friend BD was Monday, and my mom is making her a Banana Pudding she loooooooves it. She\’s going to be so happy. Well Im sleepy, Im eyes are closing.
Talk to yall later
Creedog
Inside the mind of cree 
