Month: October 2008

Hello,

Thank you Lord for allowing me to see another day. I\’m just sitting here thinking about Life.

I was sadden to hear about Jennifer Hudson\’s nephew this morning, who ever did this to her family needs to go to jail without a trial. That was low down, dirty, evil, and selfish. Me and my coworkers today were just outraged. What do you say to someone when they have lost 3 members of their family in one day? How do you look at them? This is why he must all turn to God. There is nobody on this earth who would be able to help me if this was my situation. No one. I\’ll probably be walking around like a zombie. I just hope Jennifer, and her family all get together and just listen for the word of God. At this time, I wouldn\’t want to hear anyone\’s voice but God. I would probably get somewhere quiet, to hear his voice. Because nothing or no one could help me. I wish I could just hug Jennifer and her sister. No words said, just let them cry, talk, what ever. This is really an evil and selfish act. I know I\’m rambling right now, but this is really on my mind. Lets all continue to pray for the whole family. God Bless Them NOW!

After this story broke I started to see how really naive I am about people and their actions. Sometimes when I hear the bad behavior of people, I push it in the back of mind because I want to believe the best for this person. But you know I just minus well face it, people are jealous, out cold, low down and dirty. Just flat out. People are lovers of themselves.

Today this *drama king* guy wanna be gurl came into our story and thought the cashier forgot to put somethings in his bag, and after all the cursing, and going off this * thang* did to our cashier, he went out to the car one final time to see did he over look it and found out * he did*. Then came back into the store and apologized to the cashier. And I\’m looking at him saying to myself……… you are going off on our cashier so bad, how can you build up all this HATE, saying all these * fighting* words and then have to come back and say * Man I\’m sorry*. The cashier is a guy. My question: How can you get this angry like that? What\’s really going on inside your mind that you can go off on someone like this?

Last night I was watching my *boo* Tyler Perry on TvOne with Cathy Hughes, and he mentioned that women have left panties, notes, and phone numbers on his gate at his last house. And I dunno why it bothers me when he tells that story, but I come to realize that there are people out there like that. I\’m starting to open my mind up to these kinda behavior, and paying attention. And see that makes it bad for people like me who don\’t act a fool, who are not stalkers. I\’m 41 years old * and look 27* and I WISH I WOULD run to Tyler Perry and jump on him, kiss him, jump on his back, and leave my panties somewhere where he can find them. Please……. I love LACREASE too much to embarrass myself like that. Don\’t nobody down here on this earth comes first, especially when it comes to ME embarrassing MYSELF!! LOL Seriously tho, people like to put on their clown outfits, get in the middle of the floor and act da fool.

I was watching Real Chance at Love last night, and this one gurl was off the hook!!! She was so stalkerish that Chance named her Stalker. LOL She was creepy too. See stuff like that makes me believe the Tyler Perry stories about women/people. We are living in a world of me, me, me and its plain to see. I feel so bad for people who live like that. They are never happy or satisfied.

Everyday of my life. I try to live it positive. I speak positive things to people, I encourage others. I smile to people all day everyday. That stuff is free. If I had to give out money to smile and be nice every time I got my check, of course I\’ll have to cut down on being friendly. but as for now…… I won\’t. So many people are down, so many people are so * geeked* on talking about our economy. Its like they want to say this is why this in my life…….. and that is why that is happening in my life. They use it as a crutch to stay down. It motivates me. Tyler said something last night that really had me outta my seat. He said something like… he drives off negativity when he was younger. I\’m the same way now. If things are going good, I get too relaxed, but if something is not going right, I gather all the strength in the world and I will rise!!! I have always been like that. I\’ll mess around and complete a * to do task* from 1990. ROFL!!!!

Well, I\’m outta here, bout to regroup and do some writing on paper. The photo above is of Maxwell My baby is BACK!

God Bless

Hecallmecree

Hey Peeps!!!

Wow what a wonderful week I had. Thank you Jesus for blessing me with all the things that ONLY you can Amen to happen for me !! Thank you.

First of all, lets keep Jennifer Hudson and her family in our prayers. I was so sad, and shock to hear about her family. I just can\’t imagine what she\’s going through. My mind won\’t even let me go there. I\’m so happy to know she is a praying woman, and that she knows where her help comes from. Jennifer we love you!!!!

This week I discovered something about myself.

I\’m the kinda person who likes to get together with a group of people, and just have fun. As I got older I kinda slacked away from that kinda life because I wanted to be alone, because I was with people all the time. But now I\’m starting to want that kinda of life again…………..in a positive way. Back in the day, I would call over my gurls for some food, and hot topics on relationships. Then I would invite a handful of guys over to kinda get thoughts and opinions on how they are wired up. I loved that kinda atmosphere, we all got along, we respected each other points and views. I loved it. People always look to me to have gatherings like this, and now that I\’m older I\’m seeing that God wired me up for this kinda stuff because its apart of my journey of what I\’m suppose to be doing in my life.

The strange part is. I just realized this, even after allllllllllllllllllllllllll the gathers I hosted. I\’m just getting it @ 41 years old. Somehow I just got it. When I started my gurls group 2 years ago, I loved it, and always knew that I was suppose to be doing it. I ended the group when I know I shouldn\’t have, and on April 19, 2009 when I start it back up, it will be better and stronger. I\’m excited too.

In 2005 I started a group with 3 other ladies called Pearls of Wisdom. We all met on the Tyler Perry message board. We love us * and still do* some Tyler Perry. As we grew, drama followed, and recently just after our 2ND Reunion in ATL *where Tyler Perry lives* we fell apart for good. I\’m okay with it, maybe it was time to move on. But still I have this longing to apart of a group of POSITIVE women, whether its Youth, Church, Volunteer, Fan forums, just something. I have a strong positive influence on people and I want to use it for something good. I believe in moving people and getting things stirred up as a group. And its funny because I have been doing this all my life with family and friends, never knowing what this is all about.

I\’m apart of Anitabakersfanforum on yahoo, and adoringanitabaker site, and we are really a tight group of people. Then after I have been waiting along time for Maxwell to drop a CD or concert * its been over 7 years* I found this wonderful group of women who love and admire the work of Maxwell. I am really loving it. What I love most about everything is the Leadership of the group, and how they love Maxwell without anything in return. They love and respect the artist, and they have beena group for over 10 YEARS!!! I watch closely how the Leaders run the group. Maxwell knows them too and I really love how he admire and appreciates them. I have been a fan of Maxwell since his first CD came out, and I still cant figure out why Oct 19, 2008 was my first Maxwell Experience Concert!!!

Anywhoo………

What I\’m really getting at is this. I realized that I am attracted to group settings and one day as I was laying on the couch. God said to me that I would feed the homeless for Thanksgiving this year. First thing out of my mouth was YES LORD, I am doing it!!! I love the idea. He knows I have this strong connection with the homeless, and our Youth. So, I started thinking about what I was going to cook for them. I started thinking about String beans and potatoes, macaroni and cheese, cornbread, chicken, water, juice, pop, cakes and deserts for them. I told God that it was a done deal and that I would not only go out and buy food for 5 homeless people, but I would cook it too. Then he said to me…….. he said remember that day you and your friends went out to dinner, and when you walked in people were looking at you. And I said yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, he said well, that\’s the kinda effect you have on people, you have the voice to get things started, people listen to you. I\’m laying there amazed at what he made me remember. Then he said I want you to go to work tomorrow and get others to help you with this project. I\’m thinking to myself, dang, I can do this, its really nothing. He said, I know you can do it Lacrease , but I want others to see it and experience this with you. He made it clear to me, that he didn\’t want me to do this alone. So he said, go to work tomorrow and pitch it to a couple of your friends, and watch.

I did. When I told them what I wanted to do, and that I need their help, they responded in a way, that if I really sit down to think about it, I would probably cry.

This is what I did. I wrote out a menu. Here it is:

String Beans and white potatoes
Macaroni and Cheese
Corn Bread
White Bread
Chicken
Cooking Grease
Napkins
Plates * sectional*
Forks
Potato Salad
Water
Pop
Juice
Walmart Carrying Bags * for the food*
Sandwich bags
Cakes and Cookies
Eggs

I went to work and went to the * most popular* cashiers first. And I shared my vision, to feed the homeless on Thanksgiving * the day before* and that I have a list of things that I needed to make it happen. I want to take it to the streets myself. I don\’t want to go to a homeless shelter and pass food out because I\’m a hands on person. I see too many homeless people standing around the highways, and walking the streets and I want to take it to them and put a food bag in their hands myself. Once I got one person, and then another put their name by what they wanted to donate, and then another, and another, and another, and another, I had my paper filled up THAT VERY SAME DAY,way before my shift was over, all the food had names attached to them. I was speechless. I didn\’t want money at all, all I needed was my friends to commit to donating. That very day, my coworker was so excited about the project that she went out and bought the things she committed too and I have them here at home.

This is really a big deal to me. And the great part about this, is that I\’m asking as many of my friends to join me and ESPECIALLY kids to come drive with us so that we can pass out the dinners. We are taking it to the streets and I want people to get hands on. Its nothing for me to jump in my car and go to the spots, but I want others to be apart of this. I am so excited. My family is too. They are helping me cook, all while we are preparing our own Thanksgiving dinner. This is something I have always wanted to do. When my daughter was little, we went to volunteer to feed the homeless and she has never forgotten it. She is very excited to do this. I even had so many people to donate that they started adding their names to the list to where others are already donating. YES!!! So maybe we can feed at least 15-20 people.

This is just a start for me. I even have a vision for Christmas. Its a solo project, I know I gotta learn to let others help me. But next year, I\’M GON SET IT ON FIRE!!! Now I see why I like to be apart of groups, and gathers because I know how much power we have once we pull together and do something positive.

I\’m going to video tape the whole process,and the ladies who are donating. WE are taking it to the streets with our daughters and sons. I will keep you all updated, this is going to be my dream.

I we
nt to see Maxwell last Sunday, and Anita Baker 2 nights ago!!! LOL Tell me I ain\’t bad!!! My Gerald Levert is no longer with us, and now I have Maxwell back. I\’m good. Her concert was off the chain as ever. WE were sitting in the second row, and she put on a show. I had a wonderful week. If Maxwell is coming to your city, please treat yourself to a wonderful loving concert.

I have a lot to share, but Neisha is calling me for our Sat night movie!!

I Love you all.

Watch this video below. Click on its link OKAY? LOL Its so cute and funny.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OBlgSz8sSM

Hey!

This is all I have for you all today. LOL

Click Below

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9e-Xx1oBqWs

Hello!

There\’s no doubt about me when it comes to music. I LOVE MUSIC! My parents played it all day when we were growing up, and sometimes I feel * crazy* for always wanting to go to concerts. But you know what? Good music is who I am flat out. It makes me feel good, the lyrics, the music, the crowd, the performer.

I went to see Maxwell last night here in Detroit at the Fox, and let me tell you, when I say Maxwell put on a show………..that\’s just what I mean. I have been waiting for him * just like Anita Baker* for over 7 years. I always said that if he had a concert that I was so there. My only regret is that I didn\’t buy Orchestra Pitt Seats. I bought tickets the minute they went on sale and got 4th row from the Pitt, and they were just good!! He sung all my favorite songs except 2 😦 but its all good, because I really really enjoyed myself. People were so excited to see him, he couldn\’t stop saying how much he didn\’t know how much people really missed him. He even said I don\’t even have a CD out and yall show me this much love. Well that\’s what you get for having good music. Tasteful lyrics. I love and admire how he went and got married and just wanted to live his life. Now he\’s back. He sung 3 new songs from his CD that he will release hopefully soon. Let me say this if anyone has never seen Maxwell please check out this clip from his present tour. If he comes to a city near you, treat yourself, your friend, your husband/boyfriend to some grown folks music without the riff Raff. Go see MAXWELL!

CLICK HERE——-> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8S3xoe6mkxQ

I know there are a lot of single women out here who are trying to make ends meet, going to school, working, raising kids, and trying to make sure the house is running smoothly. Let me say this to you all. Your time will come for pay offs. Just hold on just a little bit longer. I wrote this because when Neisha was growing up, even though I\’m close with my family. I had them to watch her when I needed, if money was low I could go to my family. I was going through my own trials with her dad. But then I didn\’t realize that he wasn\’t ready to be a father, especially when he wasn\’t at my house with us. So he didn\’t see all that required to raise a child and to take of the home. All he knew was partying and women. I was mad at him then, but Ive grown to except that\’s who he is. The part I didn\’t get tho was that, when he got married, he didn\’t come over to see Neisha as much as he did when he wasn\’t married. Maybe his wife didn\’t want him around me, maybe he didn\’t trust himself around me. What ever the reason he wasn\’t around as much as he should have been. Me and his wife had a few words a time or two, but really she just didn\’t know what I knew.

When she had his second child. I couldn\’t believe more that she was happy. I was happy that Neisha had a sibling and I always wondered if they would be close. When her dad told me that he and his wife was moving to Atlanta about 4 years ago, I didn\’t know what her relationship with her dad would be like. Never knowing that he would get there, and soon come home to Detroit to stay. ……….. and without his wife and son. Its been about 7 months and he\’s still here. He has always been a private person, so who knows whats up with him. But its funny how Neisha and her dad are really close now that he lives here and his wife lives in Atlanta. But now I think about his Son being left behind…………..just as my daughter was. I made it through. I wonder how his wife is dealing with that. I wonder did she ever imagine her son without his dad. I wonder does she now know what Ive been through. I wonder if she ever want to talk to me. I wonder what does she tell her son. Whatever the deal. I hope someone read this and realize that in any situation, its THEM today, but it can be YOU tomorrow. Never get comfortable in anything. And always remember YOU CAN MAKE IT. God is alive. He can make a way even when OUR eyes see different. Sometimes we are so quick to think that its something we\’ve done. I realize in this situation, that Neisha\’s dad was never ready for children or a wife. And its okay………. it has to be. As for me and Neisha we are doing fine. Parents pray, pray pray for vision, direction, guidance, always be hopeful in everything. God has the last word. Please believe it. Don\’t just lay down and die. LIVE!!

Aight, I\’m gone for a mintue.

GBU

Cree

Hey!

Thank you Lord for a peaceful and humbling week.

My coworker is in the hospital. She was feeling weak at work on Tuesday and after work she drove herself to the hospital without even going home. Her blood pressure was high, but once they got that normal, she was still weak and her heartbeat was slow. So my gurl is in the hospital. I went to see her after work yesterday, she was happy to see me. After I come from the movies tomorrow I\’m going to see her again. Hopefully she\’ll be home tomorrow or Saturday. Its funny how we became friends. She use to make me so mad because she was so selfish at work. I use to tell her gurl you betta stop being like that. But I realized that once she realize that she could trust me and others she started to come around. I guess I\’m the same way. I think that\’s how we became friends cause I use to tell her about that all the time. LOL I owe her a dinner matter of fact, she\’s been so kind and giving. I\’m doing this project that I have always wanted to do. * will share soon, I PROMISE* and when I asked her to do something for me, first thing out of her mouth was…… My gas bill is $2000.00 I ain\’t doing that! I looked at her and said gurlllllllllllllll, you have money to take care of that, you better do this project for me. We laughed, and she did it for me. I\’m happy. everything is good.

Before I\’m off to bed, I want to write about Communication. People, we have to learn to communicate with one another better. It is so important. I cant stress that enough. We cant just wait for others to pick up the phone to call and say hi. I hate to hear people say, * why didn\’t you call me*? Okay my question is why didn\’t you do the same thing? If there are 8 people in your circle of friends, and you ha vent heard from 3 of them…. call and see whats up? I know me if I haven\’t heard from a certain person, I will pick up the phone and say hey boo whats up, how are you? Been okay, what cha been up too? Don\’t not call just because * you\’re not a phone person* or whatever. That\’s not fair. Communication is what broke up my on line friends. You have got to make an effort to call, visit, email the people you feel that are important to you. You can\’t sit back all the time and say * where you been?* If there are 10 people in a group, I will make it my business to have a personal relationship with each and every one of them. I may have more in common with others, but still I have my own personal relationship with them. Communication is Everything to me.

Well, I\’m going to bed, Tomorrow is the opening of *The Secret Life of Bees* and I can\’t wait. I\’m off and trust me I\’m going early before the *kids* come, because they talk to much int he movies. LOL I thought I was going to jail, when I went to see The family that preys*. I saw it 3 times opening weekend, and once that following Tuesday. Yeah Imma TP junky! LOL

Aiight, gotta get up early. Talk to you all lata.

Cree

Ps. I took that photo last week just after I was feeling betta.

Hey!

Just wanted to check in and say hello to you all. Yahoo been tripping but its all good. I am chilling this evening, so Ill check in tomorrow.

God Bless You All

Lacrease

Hey,

Thank you Lord for waking me up this morning and starting me on my way. I\’m so grateful for your loving ways that shines on me and ables me to go out into the world and spread what you put inside me. Lord, you know I had a hard time dealing with customers the years that I have been at my job, and you knew how badly I wanted to change and be the person I am to my own family and friends. Lord can I say that I am there without sounding arrogant? Because each day I go to work I\’m always so full of you, and always ready to learn from others. I finally understand that whenever a person decides to come through my line its my job to make sure that they are taken care of and they leave my line in good Spirits, and with the best hospitality. I understand Lord that I m a Leader, that I SET THE ATMOSPHERE in my line. I do my best daily to make sure that I am representing you by smiling, communicating kind words, hugs and even helping them out when they fall short. I realize that every where I go, I always get the best, best, service in the world and my way of repaying it back, is to be that same blessing to my customers. AND I\’M LOVING IT!

Sometimes I feel my work is almost up at Walmart, but whenever Lord you say its the time, I will have my purse in hand and my car in drive. So thank you for showing me……ME. And for teaching me patience, and loving kindness to YOUR people. MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS! I love you!

Ok, blog time.

I always never blog about Stars unless its Tyler Perry, because I\’m really not into them like that. Yes, I am a music FANATIC, but I like to blog about other things.

But this here……. I gotta comment on.

Beyonce got married sometime this year. She knew she was coming out with another CD at the end of this year. After all those years of being boyfriend and gurlfriend with Jay Z, I\’m just trying to understand why she felt it was a * secret* whether or not she wanted to tell if they got married or not. First let me say this. Regular people, next door people, neighbors, co workers don\’t have a problem saying. * Oh I\’m getting married, or we just got married*. What is so great about Beyonce that she has to keep *her stuff a secret*? If any thing she would be setting an example of being together for those many years and decided marriage is the right thing to do.

Then some would argue, * well she\’s not a role mode, nor is she trying to be*. Yeah you-re right about that. And let me say this too. Anytime you are a public figure, understand that you will be asked questions, and the more you keep it * private* the next time your big *AHA MOMENT* comes to shine, that question is going to come right back up. Ain\’t nobody in their right mind, gonna sit up and let you talk about your NEW CD and they not ask you the simple question * Do you get married?*. And see I knew it, I knew knew knew it. I hate to see the press eat people up for something as simple as this. All of us knew she got married, but dang do she realize how stupid she looks and sound not admitting to * such joy*.

Mary J. Blige is my gurl. She got married. She told people she was married, Now this is the meat of my subject. WHAT OTHER QUESTION IS BEYONCE SCARED OF BEING ASKED AFTER ANSWERING THE ARE YOU MARRIED ONE? I mean dang, do people go around asking Mary J. Blige, ummmmmmmmmm what did you and your husband do last night? No real people don\’t ask anything after that. Beyonce have fans that love her, everybody ain\’t out to get you boo. I wish they would get that outta their heads. People do love people. And every time I turn to a music station. Beyonce is posted. Every time I turn on the radio I hear her, every time I turn on my computer she\’s there, every time I go to the cosmetics aisle there she. and she\’s is in all the magazines. AND THEN WHEN SOMEONE ASK ARE YOU MARRIED…………………ITS A SECRET. Let it be known that you don\’t answer ANYTHING inside of your marriage. That part is totally off limits to the people. I agree. Marriage is a good thing, that shouldn\’t be a secret. It just kills me when the press constantly drill her about it and she just looks stupid in the face. Being a Star is a choice. Beyonce can decided right now today that she wants her privacy over fame, and that would HAVE TO SIT WELL with her fans because its her choice. The more she tries to keep it a secret the more the public, and press hold it over her head. Is that right to do that? Nope…………… but I\’m tired of hearing about it. Tell it and move on!!

Tyler Perry was asked at his Studio Opening about his date, and he told the interviewer, you know I don\’t discuss my private life. In other words he wasn\’t going to have any communication about who she is.

Then my boo* wink* writes a letter to his fans the following day. * Thank you*. Saying that something negative was going on and that he would tell us about it in a few days. So now I\’m saying to myself. I really really really really really hope its not about those 4 black writers. Because if anything in his life is PRIVATE………………………….. THAT SHOULD BE!!! That is NONE OF OUR BUSINESS! Let that ride out in court. Cause to me, when he sends out an email explaining his part of the story, those writers are going to be reading, their Lawyers, and the message board members are going to be reading, and Tyler knowssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss how big his support is. Before you know it, it will be a mess. I see it coming. This is a very sensitive and serious matter, that should NEVER NEVER EVER EVER be in the heads of TYLER\’S FANS! I just really hope that someone close to him tell him that he should just be quiet about it. Tyler is a famous person, I know sometimes people attack him. And so, I think that its important in his mind to * tell his side of the story* so that he can clear his name up with us fans. But to me as a FAN OF HIS, its not important. This is HIS business. This is really really heavy stuff. The last thing I want to see is Tyler fans all against 4 black writers. We will never fully understand the whole thing, why brief us on it. I dont want fans to take Tyler\’s side, and diss the writers. I so don\’t want to know about this story, this is what you call PRIVATE. Tyler has the power to be quiet about it, or write about it. Like my bestfriend always say * the sun ain\’t gon always shine on you*. I\’m going to pray on this because he really needs to not even mention this his fans.

NOW THAT\’S * PRIVATE*

Whew, I\’m gone to bed gotta get up in the morning.

Cree

Hey!

Thank you Lord for such a wonderful day. Work went well. When I got off I went over to my sisters house with her and her fiance, and then my other sister came over, then her husband, and we sat and laughed for a good while. I forgot my coworker was suppose to come over to take another gurl her Birthday money. I am Vice President of our Birthday Club at work. Guess Imma have to take to her tomorrow.

Thursday I went into the office to talk to my Asst Manager about hours that have been cut in the store. For 2 weeks my co worker didn\’t have ANY hours , she\’s been there for about 7 years. The store has only been there for about 8. How does it come to this? I felt so bad for her, because she said she had to sell her food stamps in order to pay her rent. It pissed me off!! The less store hours they give out, the better the chance for a bonus. For the last 9 months we have gotten 3- $450.00 bonuses. Yeah, that\’s good. But now the big money is up for grabs, and if we do good now, in Dec we will get $450.00, and then in Feb we\’ll get another $1100.00 a piece like year before last. I understand management don\’t want to be asked * well what happened you guys have been getting bonuses for the last 4 months* if we don\’t make it this quarter? Then the killa part about it is. The pay week we are to get our bonus, they cut short allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll employees hours, making your * bonus* check look and feel like a * regular*one. I\’m so sick of these scamming bosses. I can\’t wait to walk * God\’s Red Carpet* on Judgment Day to Paradise, I\’m not giving no eye contact to non of these greedy, selfish, scheming, underpaying, fake people. I\’m sick of them.

So I went into the office and told my Asst manager who is over the front end that I needed to talk to her about my hours. Ive been at my job for 5 years and I have never in my life gotten 16 hours in one week. See this is the main reason why I go to work and not socialize and smile up in management face. Because when I need to go to one of them for STRAIGHT UP LACREASE business, they know I\’m on the real tip. All that fake, ha ha he he stuff, I\’m not even standing for it. I love my Asst manager, I really do, plus she\’s a Christian woman and she carries herself accordingly …….. always. But her * by the book* ways has pissed me off. She tried to explained to me how the computer generates the hours according to the sales in each store. I\’m so glad that I keep restraining myself when she was talking…….I have a habit of over talking someone especially when I need to make a point. I\’m looking at her eye to eye saying to myself, SHUT UP WITH THIS MESS! I was very calm, I said to her, you can show me all these computer print outs stuff all day, I\’m still trying to understand how an employee of 5-7 years get 0 hours a week, and 16 hours. Before she took over the front end, we had another manger which was only a month ago. He was giving out hours left and right. He worked with you, he used * common sense* when he scheduled. And that\’s why we always had coverage on the front end.

Today it was sooooooooooooo busy in our store and we were so short handed, they called up Dept managers, floor associates, CSM, and OUR STORE MANAGER WAS ON THE REGISTER RINGING UP CUSTOMERS IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CROWDED. The customer waited so long in line, when they got up to me, I had to work extra hard to get them friendly. What kinda MESS is that? We have cashiers at home wanting to work those hours and here we are pulling associates from other areas of the store just to get folks rung up. Then when those associates go back to their departments, they have a ton of work to catch up on. That ain\’t right. Me on the other hand, I love when its crowded. The time flies and I love the hype of getting them in and out. But its bad when a coworker tells you, hey……. I cant even pay my rent this month for the first time in my life working here. That kills me!! Espcially when the store is so crowded and cashiers are willing to work.

Back to me and my Asst managers talk. All while she was talking, I\’m looking her in the eye saying to myself. Is she dayum slow? She keep wanting to show me this tracking system on the computer and I told her I didn\’t want to see it. I just don\’t. I need to know why I\’m not getting 25 hours a week, and why since you\’re over the front end things changed? She didn\’t want to break down, so I waited until she finished and said………. I need to speak with someone higher. She said you can talk to ***, I said NOPE…………NO IN HOUSE!! *they are all friends and run together* She said well you can talk to such and such. I said fine! Since the lady wasn\’t there, when she comes to the store next week, I\’m going to talk to her. So I went back to my register, and don\’t you know about 2 hours later, she had my manager * CSM* to come tell me to please come back to her station. So I\’m walking to the back like dang wonder what she wants? I gets back there and she shows me the schedule and how it works. I\’m saying to myself, DAYUM DIDN\’T I TELL HER THAT I WANTED TO TALK TO SOMEONE ELSE? Did I * move some furniture* by saying that I wanted to talk to someone else about this? I\’m standing there looking like I\’m trying not to show rudeness on my face, because she really is a nice person and I like her a lot she has great management skills, but she uses no common sense in issues that she can handle without referring to her * by the book policy*. I\’m listening to her talk, and she shows me these hours that are available. Saturday is the day in questioning for extra hours because she has me off. I\’m available to work on Sat 10:30-4:00 on Saturdays. She shows me this 8:30-4:30 schedule, and says here are some extra hours. And I said to her how is it that people want extra hours and they are just sitting here in the computer not generated to anyone? I cant remember what her answer was, but it was DUMB! Didn\’t make any sense to me. I said well yeah I can take the hours * ummmmmm mighty funny hours came up after…..NOPE ….NO IN HOUSE MANAGERS*. Then she says, well you\’re not available those hours, she said in order to take them you would have to write your name with mines on the schedule to take them pass your availability. I said, well can you just give me the 10:30-4:00 she said no she couldn\’t split those up, I would have to work the shift in whole. I guess my facial expression started talking for me, cause when I looked at my watched and realized that I was 30 full minutes over for the day. I WAS REALLY TO GO! Now see next week when time goes in, they are going to make me leave .30 minutes early because of it. After she realized that I wasn\’t interested in that mess, she told me to think about it. I went home and thought about this:

I\’m use to being feed * meaning the hours I work*

I\’m not eating like I use to eat * meaning I\’m not getting enough hours.

Then she offer me *Macaroni and Cheese*. Well I\’m not going to except it because I don\’t eat cheese.* meaning the hours I\’m able to work on Saturdays*

How can she fully say she offered me hours * food* that I didn\’t take, when it doesn\’t fit into my schedule* macaroni and cheese?

You know you always have those people that says * well I did offer*. Yeah you did , but guess what? I DONT EAT MAC AND CHEESE!!! What you are offering I DON\’T EAT! So you are really doing NOTHING!

The new schedule comes out on Monday, I can\’t wait to see it! If its not looking right………. I\’m moving some furniture. That\’s all I\’m saying for now. I know how to get in touch with the BIG WIGS

Speaking of Big Wigs. I came home yesterday after dealing with that mess, to read 1000000 google alerts about Tyler Perry and 4 black writers of his being fired. So, I went to his message board to see if I could find posters who may have went or was invited to his Celebration! Ya ll know how I love Tyler Perry. Nothing! So, I said well I know Oprah is going to be There, and Sidney, and Gayle, Will, and and all his famous rich and famous Hollywood friends WHO WAS AT HIS PLAYS BACK IN 1999. I KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW some faithful fans of his are going to be there. Ive been READING HIS MESSAGE BOARD for 6 years so I\’m expecting TO READ some stage play back in the day fans to be invited. Got home and went to watch the footage of Tyler\’s Celebration and all I saw was famous people. Right now…………………………..I\’m SMH.

I\’m going to pray TONIGHT!