Month: January 2009

Thank you Lord for waking me up this morning. Thank you. Today is a new day to learn different things, and you know I\’m loving it. Lord you remember when I use to say *when I get grown can\’t nobody tell me nothing*. LOL And one day you said to me * Lacrease, you still have ME to answer too*? I will NEVER forget that. LOL That was back then when I was doing *ME*. But 25 years later…… I SO GET IT NOW. LOL I have a lot of friends, especially people that Ive known for years and years and years. People who knew me when I was *off the hook*. They have seen how God has completely changed my life around. I Thank God for that every time I think of it. WOW! Today I want to do something different in my blog, last year sometime I was reading a blog entry on Multiply where this person blogged *Words of Wisdom* to their family and friends, but at the same time people who were reading even if it wasn\’t for them………. WE GOT THE MESSAGE TOO!! There are a lot of people going through hard times, some people just don\’t know that God wants to take care of them. He wants us to live a life that\’s pleasing to him. 1 Thessalonians 4:1-3 (Contemporary English Version) 1 Thessalonians 4 A Life That Pleases God 1Finally, my dear friends, since you belong to the Lord Jesus, we beg and urge you to live as we taught you. Then you will please God. You are already living that way, but try even harder. 2Remember the instructions we gave you as followers of the Lord Jesus.

Words of Wisdom

Let me tell you why I love your teachings about Christ. Not once did I EVER hear you do a sermon starting out talking about OTHERS. You always told Testimonies about YOU. People can visualize them when they are told by people who lived them. You always back up your testimonies with Scripture. When you share stories from your life * not briefs* we see them for ourselves, and that\’s what separate you from OTHERS.

I\’m 41 years old and just recently God revealed to me that I must pray for you, that I can\’t go on holding on to these child hood feelings. He told me that you had a lot of things from your past that you hadn\’t began to deal with. I know that I am the oldest and what I talk about reflects my other siblings. Recently God told me that when I begin to speak positively about you, so will they. Well it was hard, but one day I woke up and felt so differently about everything. I know it was God, because it sure wasn\’t me. I\’ll never *spit* ( discuss the past) on you again, and its a JOY through God to see my siblings feeling the same way.When God gave me the OK to speak to m y siblings about this, it was RIGHT ON TIME, THEY GOT IT!! THEY GOT IT!!! I realize that its an HONOR to be in your presence, because of all the things you\’ve been through as a child, we turned out the way we did. I love you!!! I never, ever, ever, ever realize that my siblings do look up to me, and I realize what God said in his word. PROVERBS 21: 21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit. Its a good feeling to have a positive conversation about you. The good thing about this is, this happened all THIS MONTH. And I Thank God.

When you prayed to God at an young age* 14-15* for this certain person. God gave him to you years and years and years and years LATER. You wanted one child……….. a gurl, he wanted one………. a boy. You both debated about it years and years. You didn\’t want to be pregnant 2 times. So guess what God did? He gave you twins, one for him and one for you. Didn\’t see that in your forecast did you? Everything you asked God he GAVE you. Now, let me say this. You\’re not 14-15 anymore, in fact you re almost 40. God didn\’t bring you both this far to drop you off. Know that when you call Lacrease for advice, please understand one thing about ME. I\’m going to place Scriptures in your ear. You are so blessed in your marriage that you don\’t have to work a day in your life. Your husband made a way ONLY through God. Your husband LOVES you, and you truly love him. If spending time with each other is all that\’s standing in the way of you and him, YOU BETTA WORK IT OUT with him. Be more understanding of what direction he\’s taking. Watch and see, when you and he start traveling like you want, ain\’t nothing gonna be able to stop you. Hold ON GURL! I am soooooooooooo ooooooo proud of you. OMG I love you gurl. Work it out gurl. Talk it out, continue to pray, and go to God, you know you are truly his GURL! I\’m watching you. I learn from you. You are a Woman of Wisdom.

Stand back and notice. Everything that comes out of your mouth is always about someone else. Don\’t you know ITS THEM TODAY, BUT IT CAN BE YOU TOMORROW? When you talk about people, and voice your OPINION * cause what you are saying is not in the bible…..its an opinion* you set yourself up for hardship down the way in your life. Rather it come back on YOUR CHILDREN, your family member, or even yourself. You have got to stop that. Even though you are sweet as pie, I hate to see you coming sometimes. And you know ME, I\’m going to tell you that you are wrong. See whats going to happen is, when you finally grow up and come out of your ways, you are going to constantly be reminded of your ways from either something you won\’t be able to get over, or others reminding you of how you USE to be. Trust me I KNOW! Stop and pay attention to the things that come out of your mouth, just listen to yourself for once.

I think you are one of the best managers that I have ever had the chance to work with. I love you because we can get our praise on at work, we don\’t care who is watching, we have cried together many and plenty of times. And sometimes you don\’t know why people get mad at you when you are only doing your work. In everything concerning what I HAVE WITNESS from you, you always are truthful, honest have integrity, and is always on time for work and take your job serious. I have watched you talk to others, and the reason why they get upset with you is because ITS NOT WHAT YOU SAY, ITS HOW YOU SAY IT. See you know God, you are a minister in training. I have worked with you for 6 years, and you are truly a child of God. If you just toned down your facial expression a little, and the tone in your voice, gurlllllllllll you\’ll be on point. I know you get frustrated sometimes with customers and your employees. But SIS, YOU WILL NOT reach people by the way your voice come across. Then it kills me to see you have to go back and apologize to those people because they\’ve pulled you in the office with the STORE MANAGER. I have told you this a few times, and you are doing a great job. God Bless You!

You have got to stop being so selfish. How can you sit at a table and begin to eat your food, when you KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW the person across from you is broke? Then when you see me go into my purse, you get silent with ME. How can you let a person be Hungary and you have money? Gurl don\’t you know your time could be moments away from hunger? Yea, you do have ME to help you, but you know I g
et all orders from God. If he doesn\’t drop it in my Spirit, you will miss out. Not because I see how you treat others, but because that may be your lesson learned. I really love and value our friendship. But I like to give, and it kills me to see how selfish you are. We are around each other all the time, and I try to live how God wants us too, but you just ain\’t getting boo. Its all good, cause I never give up on my friends. You are going to get it one day. Just pray that your day doesn\’t come. Being Hungary ain\’t no joke.

Paul is one of my favorite authors in the bible. One thing I never remember reading is he never said * you\’re not going to agree with this or that* but HERE IS THE WORD! GOD and his WORD never needs a RED CARPET ENTRANCE before a story is told. Anytime you have to do that, THEN WHAT YOU ARE SAYING CAN ONLY BE AN OPINION. God\’s word don\’t need an introduction. I hate when you grab one PIECE OF SCRIPTURE and put it in one of your OPINIONS. I HATE IT. I HATE IT. I HATE IT! If you are going to tell the story, TELL THE STORY. If you\’re going to post a Scripture POST THE WHOLE THING. UGH Stop trying to make your * Story* more readable by copying and pasting a PART of a Scripture.

Your daughter will be a grown woman soon, you are her dad. When you say one thing and do another ……it doesnt look good. If you dont stop doing what youre doing, when its your time to talk to her, she\’s going to remeMber everything SHE SAW you do. And why would she do as you ask? Why? I tell you all the time boo, you are too old to be still doing the same things. There comes a time when you have to say DANG….. IM TIRED of this MESS. Boys are going to knock on your door looking for your daughter, and guess what? Game reconize game right? Well, it\’ll be your turn. The way you do other fathers, daughters, is the same way youre daughter is going to be treated. You know God. I met you through him, you better get it together boo. Because once those boys start whispering her ear, aint nothing youre going to be able to tell her. There is always a message before the storm. You already know God, act like YOU DO.

Be Blessed Lacrease

Maybe its me. I\’ll take the blame, it don\’t * not doesn\’t* MATTER anyway.

Put it on me.

I\’m so sick of these \”Christians*, who love to sit back and say * Obama aint God, he ain\’t this and he ain\’t that. Watch this and watch that. People think he\’s this and he\’s that. I\’m sick of it. OF COURSE MR. OBAMA AINT GOD!!! Its up to us * Christians* to see to it that people don\’t idolize him as someone who has made it to the White House, Black, Educated, with a beautiful family. He\’ll be the first to tell you that he\’s NOT God. He only has a desire to please God to do try to bring about Change to what we\’ve been already experiencing. Accept it as face value. PUT NO TRUST IN MAN, and that goes without saying. If he messes up, OKAY he\’s not the first. Give this man a chance. Just like God is doing YOU, when you wake up to a new day…….. to * MESS UP……. once again.

When you hear of people AND STRANGERS speaking of Mr. Obama in a more than normal kinda way, make conversation with them, and bring them to God. Speak boldly, create a comfortable atmosphere to speak to them. Don\’t be so boxed into to the PEOPLE WHO AMEN your thoughts on it. GO OUT TO THE STREETS, TO THE PHONES, TO THE PEOPLE AND TALK TO THE LOST. What GOOD IN telling somebody who already knows that there is ONLY ONE GOD and he\’s not OBAMA!!! What kinda reward is that? Quit being so quick to jump to conclusions as to WHY people are so happy that we have a black President.

Some * Christians* want to believe * especially if they have their section of AMENS on hand* that others feel that MR. OBAMA will save the world. Where are you guys coming up with this? For a Christian why is it so EASY for you all to believe this is what others believe? And yes, if you find that people think that MR. OBAMA is GOD, than its your CHRISTIAN duty to steer them in the right direction. That\’s your job. I\’m sick of reading these blog from these *Christians* who clearly wants to separate themselves from THEM, just to be RIGHT!!!! Fix it! Go out into the streets and let them know that Yes Obama is ready for Change, but you are still WHO YOU ARE. God is still God. MR. Obama is still MR. OBAMA.

Now to you * Christians* GET UP and go out into the world and DO YOUR JOBS!! Quit HIGH FIVING each other on this MR. OBAMA ISSUE!!!! YOU are equip to bring people to God. You all have the power within.

\”I\’d rather live among the homeless, old, poor, blind, hungry for the rest of my life, than to be in the company for 15 minutes of * Didn\’t we say it FIRST* Christians* with the mentality of a ball* Lacrease

Matthew 28:16-20 (New King James Version) The Great Commission

16 Then the eleven disciples went away into Galilee, to the mountain which Jesus had appointed for them. 17 When they saw Him, they worshiped Him; but some doubted. 18 And Jesus came and spoke to them, saying, “All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. 19 Go therefore[a] and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” Amen

Hey!!!

Thank you Jesus for a wonderful week. We now have our first black President of the United States!!! Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaa. And a beautiful first lady Mrs. Michelle Obama!!! Who would have thought this would happen? Now somewhere in the back of our minds, we knew eventually we would have a black President, but dang….. NOW?

Watching the Inauguration on Tuesday had me in about 17 crying spells all day. I believe with all my heart that we have a Leader for Change. But it doesn\’t stop there, we have a duty to do our part.We can\’t sit back and watch him *change the world*, we have to be willing to change ourselves. One man can\’t do it alone. We need to set goals, make plans, and change the way we see things. Its out the door for the former way of thinking and living.

This black older man was standing in the 20 items or less lane waiting for me to call the * next* person standing in (one) line. When this white guy walked past the line that I was pulling from, and walked up to my register. The black said very loudly to the white guy, * hey its only one line, you gotta get in the back of the line* and then went on to say some other things, in which he didn\’t have to say. The white guy apologized and said * down south we don\’t do it like this*. Meaning, if there are 2 lines open you can walk up and be served. So he got out of line and went and stood in another that wasn\’t 20 items or less. I was hoping that I would have to wait on the black older guy so that I can talk to him about how mean he was to that man. I called next and he was my customer.

You all have to know me to know that when I talk to my customers, even like this man who don\’t know me, I can communicate with people in a way that won\’t offend anyone. I smile and use direct eye contact, and speak in a way that doesn\’t sound confrontational. I started off with * Hello*. I smile and said didn\’t you watch President Obama last night? He smiled and said yes, * he knew where I was going. LOL I said now why you go off on that man like that? He started cracking up!!! He said I just told him that he was cutting in line. I said yea but the way you said it was mean. He said didn\’t you hear him when he said * we don\’t do that down south*!!! I said yea, if you took it as negative then you would feel that he\’s a racist. I said but if you look at it in a positive light, you will understand that he meant, they do things differently there, and that he apologize. Then he went on to tell me the story of when he was just a young boy * the man is in his 60\’s and jazzzzy!*. He said one day him and his dad was doing some work at this white family house, and the white mans son came out and said, dad who are the people out side? The man said to his son, * Oh just some niggers doing some work.* And the man has never forgotten that.

I knew right then and there, that I couldn\’t fix nor tamper with his testimony. I didn\’t want too. That\’s his history and I soooooo respect that. But then he said something interesting. He said I know Obama said this and he said that. But that\’s * yalls job*. Meaning the younger generations. He said \”I\’m too old to change\”. I said but Sir, you\’re still living, it\’s not too late for change. Change is for all of us. He didn\’t agree, but in fact I did learn a lot from him. We really enjoyed our conversations with each other, and I realized that my dad has the very same views.

This year I promise myself that I will recognize negative things and distance myself as much as possible. Normally I try to listen to them, and try to make them see things in a positive light, but you know some people love it. They don\’t want you telling them JACK!! I ain\’t mad at them tho, I\’m just moving right along. That\’s my 2009 motto. \”I\’m moving right along\”.

Be Blessed

Lacrease

Enjoy ~~~> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHhMPMZE8to

Thank you Jesus for another day!!! You always know how to calm my storms. Always. And I love you for it. Thank you!

I\’m trying to get into the habit of making out a * to do* things the night before I go to bed. I notice that when I do that, the next day I get things done. I\’ve been doing it off and on, but this time I\’m going to try to keep it up because I\’m really doing well, and its a good feeling to see those things that are complete scratched off.

First thing on my list today was to go and pick up my rental car. I was suppose to be at Hertz @ 10:00am. But at 8:57am they called me and told me that they didn\’t have any cars in, and that they were calling other Hertz\’s to see if they had any. For some reason I felt in my soul that I wasn\’t going to get this car. He told me that people were renting cars to go to Washington for the Inauguration Tuesday, and also the Auto show starts here in Downtown Detroit this weekend. I called them several times, but at the very end no luck for me. So I guess I\’m be driving my own car this weekend to the Pistons/New Orleans game and hotel.

After that phone call it really threw off my day. I had to regroup my trip. That\’s something I\’ve always told my daughter as she was growing up. Always have a Plan B. Never plan something without a back up, cause you never know what may come up.

I noticed on my list daily I keep writing * go to the movies*. LOL I still haven\’t been. After working, and being busy, I can\’t seem to find time. I still haven\’t seen * not easily broken*, and I\’ve got to see *NOTORIOUS*. I am slipping on my movies. My best friend wants to go Tuesday morning when her kids are in school. So that\’s cool.

I like to think a lot, and study people behavior. Its funny too because my daughter does the same thing. And I truly don\’t think we do it on purpose for any reason, I just like to know what makes people tick, and do the things they do. It comes so natural for us, that we sit and laugh at ourselves. I think this is the reason why I understand things about people. I understand that we are all different, and we all think differently. There are some people who don\’t get that. Even though I haven\’t been through all the lessons, and trials that people go through, I can surely understand that we must go through and come out with a lesson learned. I found out that what ever people don\’t understand they call *dumb* stupid, or ignorant. I use to be the main one. lol I know.

Its so cold here in Detroit, I almost let my mail pile up for a week. LOL Its a *crazy* -9. What kinda weather is that? This man came through my line late summer and said that we are in for a cold and snowy winter. Me, not wanting to hear that , said to myself * get outta here with that negative verdict*. lol Shoo, I wish I remembered that mans face so that I can shake his hand. Cause baaaaby, its freezing for no reason up in heere!!! Whew. When I\’m outside, I don\’t want to talk, or look at anything other than my mission. Its straight up * stupid* cold. I promise you, the weather is mad at somebody!! lol

I know I\’m rambling but, this guy I met at work one day called me yesterday at the job. I was really shocked. Oneday we were talking on the phone, and we started talking about people who we knew in the neighborhood we grew up in, and then he said I know you! I know you!!! I was like from where? He name the person and said that he use to go with her. It hit me. This person was staying with me at the time, and when she was going out with him. One day she introduced me to him. When he bought that to my remembrance I was immediately turned off . So I didn\’t call him again, at all. Its been over a year and he calls the job yesterday. He asked me what happened? I said nothing, we lost contact . Knowing I was lying. I didn\’t want to tell him that since he use to kick it with my friend, that I wasn\’t interested. It was at least 15 years ago when they went together. But still, I\’m not feeling that at all. He gave me his number, but I won\’t be calling. I wish I had the nerve to tell him why? When I think about it, that\’s the easy part, the hard part is, he\’s going to say, that was years ago, and that this person no longer lives in Detroit. I don\’t care if she moved to Europe. I\’m not feeling that.

No matter how many guys I meet, right now I have really 3 things on my mind. Raisingurls to Women, to shed some pounds, and some projects that I am working on. That\’s it. If love happens it happens. It will find me as Mr. Tyler Perry says.

Speaking of Mr. Perry. Ahmmmmmm * wink*. I was reading the Essence article The Talented Mr. Perry, and how he talks about the young people he has working for him that WAS calling him TP. lol I said to myself, dang I can\’t see myself calling him Mr. Perry. Maybe because I DON\’T work for him, which sets me outside that whole class of people, but I respect him to the utmost. I\’ve been a fan of his work for over 6 years, and he is Tyler to me. Of course I can call him Mr. Perry, it would\’nt seem strange. When I talk to people I always use Ms. Maam. or Sir anyway. It just comes out naturally. If I\’m reading their license I will say. Thank you Ms. Janice, or whatever their first name is. I speak to alllllllllll my coworkers using Ms. in front of their names. When we were growing up we never had to say Maam. But my mom had to when she was growing up, so did my dad. For some reason my mom didn\’t like it, and felt *Yes* was good enough. But my daughter says Yes Maam to EVERYBODY. She use Sir, and Maam. She is the most respectful person Ive ever known.

When Neisha was growing up, I had the hardest time teaching that gurl to say excuse me when walking pass someone. I use to raise the roof, cause I really hate rudeness. I have to serious pray about people being rude. I lose it. She would walk pass and not open her mouth. After several times of me getting with her, she IS a pro at it. I can\’t see how someone can walk pass you and NOT Speak. That\’s just deep to me. It should drop out of your mouth A-U-T-O-M-A-T-I-C-L-Y!!! I have co workers who would see you every day, and not open their mouth. That\’s deep to me. When I walk into anybody house, I greet them with a hug and kiss. Ain\’t nobody getting up here without showing me some LOVE. I even greet my coworkers with hugs, especially when we haven\’t seen each other in a while.

I\’m a very touchy feely kinda person. I just love people and their experiences. I can sit for hours listening and sharing testimonies. I learn so much from others. And no matter if I understand or not, I try not to Judge them. I told
my daughter today, that I wake up to LEARN SOMETHING NEW.

I can go on and on. So many thoughts rush me, I have a LOT to do tomorrow so I betta get off this computer and get some sleep.

Tuesday is almost here. THANK YOU JESUS!!

*Be Blessed*

here is a song thats playing in my mind LIKE CRAZY! I LOVE THIS SONG… OH MY GOODNESS!! THIS IS WHO I AM. CHECK IT OUT!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zY8qQNqzShs

I have one thing to say about today………..And I\’m moving right along!

Tuesday is almost here y\’all. I\’m just so excited Mr. Obama will be our first Black President. I know I\’m going to cry like a baby. I don\’t want to miss any festivities. BET is going to be on jam, so I gotta watch that. I\’m off work that day, and I\’m going to make a nice dinner and some deserts. I keep thinking about it, and I have to switch my thoughts, because this feeling is so wonderful. My Church is going to Washington next week. I would have love to went, but I think my chances are better on TV because of all the people who are going to be there. So I\’m good.

Dr. Martin Luther King has been on my mind too. I wish he could wake up just for that day, and then go back to his sleep. I love that man. I go to youtube and watch all his clips. When I was in ATL back in July, we went to the Museum, and I bought lots of stuff back. I wanted to buy this big book of nothing but history and photos, but didn\’t. So I went on line and as soon as I can get a hold of some extra money It\’s mines!

Today work was slow . Me and my coworker was standing around talking just as she was going on her break. While on her break she went to sit down in Subway and used her phone. Next thing we knew she let out these piercing screams that I never in my life want to hear again.They were loud and moanish. Oh God, that did something to me. We all looked around like who is that crying? Then she hit the floor, she had gotten a phone call that her aunt had passed away. Hearing her cry like that, make me cry and then I couldn\’t stop. I was just talking to her. I felt so bad, my eyes were so red, my heart went out to her. So I\’m asking that you all pray for her and her family. Her name is Leanna.

Sometimes I think back on my life and wonder what it would have been like to get married and THEN have children. I was so ignorant and so immature. I thought was bad. I was a lovable person, but evil as all out doors. I think I was just angry about life and didn\’t know how to handle things in a Godly manner. I want to be married now because I am willing to work at being with the person I love. My best friend and sister tell me all the time that its hard hard work. And when they both get frustrated with their husbands, they come to me. Because they know I\’m going to tell them the truth and redirect them back to HOME. My sister has been married for 14 years and my best friend for 12 years, and they really do love their husbands. But there is one problem that the 2 wives share. Their husbands spend too much time at work.

My sister husband have his own business * heating and cooling*, and my best friends husband is on the rode and home only about 8 days out of the month. And boy, boy, boy these men don\’t understand MY ROLE as a best friend and sister to these women. Some stuff I wont DARE share, but please believe, these men are one step away from * separation*. Of course these loving men want to make a good life for their families, and they are doing a great job at it, but it really is a serious matter when your husband is away, and every time you step out the house, you hear car horns blowing at you.

And see my best friend had to put me in her shoes, cause I look at it this way. As long as you have a husband who don\’t talk down on you, beat you, dog you, disrespect you, then you have it made. But I guess what since does it make to be married when you don\’t get a chance to see them and be with them as you like. So I looked at it this way, pray for your husbands. Pray that God change the situation. Don\’t just give up on it, pray about it, work on it. And what I\’m about to say my sound *weird* but its true. I live through them. When they call me and want to talk, I\’m alwayssssss available. But at the same time I need them to work it out. I need them to get through this. I\’m single and these may be some same issues I may go through. So I need them to make it happen * is that selfish*? I\’m happy through them. I LOVE their relationship with their husbands. And as long as they come to me…….. I\’m going to ship them right back to reality.

I read that they kick my gurl Deshawn Snow off the ATL Housewives. Ain\’t that something? Just because she ain\’t into gossiping and being messy. Everybody ain\’t into that mess. I don\’t like gossip and mess. I will cut you off, like a drunk in traffic. So if she\’s off the show because of that reason, then if I was the other Housewives, I would feel stupid. Cause that\’s saying……….she gotta go but ahm ahmmmmm……………… yall can stay. WOW!!!

Yesterday on my day off, I was on the horn* phone* making some serious calls. These people keep calling my cell phone for some guy about his bill. Then I ordered some things off line, and they charge me for it when I canceled it. Me and this lady * black* was going head up. She was trying to explain to me that it was canceled and that I had to wait a few more days before it could show up on my credit card statement. I said gurllllllll, its gone be another week if I do that. She was getting with me too * hehehe*. She kept saying it was on hold, not CHARGE. I said gurlllllllllllllllll if you say * hold* again!!!. I said if I had $300.00 on my card, and my cancelled order was $ 50.00 if it was on HOLD, then why does it say my balance is $250.00? We went back and forth. Then finally I got tired, this lady was budging. LOL WE made friends and talked with some sense, laughed at ourselves, and then hung up. Today I checked my account and it was FINALLY put back on my card.

Then…………….

UPS comes and deliver this outfit I bought on line. I opens it up, tried it on and it didn\’t fit. I\’m saying to myself dang………….what else Credog? So yall know I\’m mad right? Then I start doing my exercises really tough then. I\’m on my 4th day of exercises and I\’m pissed about that cute outfit. Then guess what? I start having these clouds on the top of my head of me eating some chocolate cake? Ain\’t that *tweak mode* thoughts? Huh! Here I have at least 45 outfits and cant wear nothing!!! Huh Jesus come down here and help your gurl.

I cant wait to get back like this~~~~~>

Under this weight is the real Lacrease, and there is so much of me to learn about.

Well, let me get off here, so that I can be ready for work tomorrow and get ready for my big weekend with the Pistons!!!

Be Blessed

Cree

I feel much better now that I got my last entry out * A letter to God*.

I know, I know its 4:31 am and I should be sleep. Neisha is gone back to school and I\’m just chilling. I mean for real. The weather here in Michigan is just off the hook. I be so glad when winter is over………dang. When it snows….. it snows!!! I\’m use to this weather but still, it wont clear up before another 4-6 covers it. Shoo in a minute 4-6 ain\’t gon mean nothing, it keeps snowing, and people are still out and about. Speaking of out and about. When we were little kids, when we were going to go shopping or someplace exciting, if it started raining just a little, my dad would say……Oh ….we\’ll go next time. And I\’ll be like * with my big mouth*, daddy its only *rainging… lol* a little bit. He would be like No! He would do this all the time. We would plan to go out to dinner, and if it thunder to hard, he\’d be like ….nope lets go tomorrow. And I said to myself, when I get grown no matter where I gotta go, who I\’m going to see, where I need to be, I\’m going!! Nothing or nobody is gonna stop me!!! Surely enough when I got grown, sleet snow, rain, sun, thunder lightning, nothing stops me from jumping in my car and being on my way. To me that\’s that box mentality. I\’m not a box gurl, and everyone knows that about me. As long as God okay me going I\’M THERE!!! TO this day, that mentality has stopped my dad from being all he could be. He limited himself because of situations that non of us can control. Now its a difference if the car broke down, or someone broke into our house and he wanted to stay close. But to say…… oh its yellow outside, lets go in the morning. lol That\’s crazy.

For a Christmas gift I bought me and Neisha tickets, * I paid some $$$* front row to see Chris Paul and the New Orleans Hornets this Sat night. She is so excited!!! We\’re going to take plenty of photos too. She got good grades from school, she so deserve it.

I went everywhere looking for the new Essence book with Tyler Perry on the cover. I called Barnes and Nobles on Friday and the lady told me to check back on Sat, I did…… and still no Essence. At work, we ha vent gotten them in. After wards I went to Barnes and Nobles and the lady said, aren\’t you the one who called the other day?Me ~> * I\’m like yes *. She smiled and said let me go and check for you. WE both went and NO Essence. Well, tomorrow we\’ll have them at my job, I\’m off but I\’m going to pick up The family that preys, and The Marriage Counselor. Whew, Tyler owes me a Meet and Greet. I AINT PLAYING! I\’m ride or die all day for my BRO!!!

Anita Baker, Halle Berry, and Tyler Perry are going to be at the BET wards this year. Yall know Imma pass out right? lol . I hear Anita is going to sing, I hope so. People love Anita. There are so many people saying her name in their raps and songs. I want to see Notorious!! I want to see how this movie came together. I\’m not feeling the people they chose, but we\’ll see how it came together.

January 20! Its on and poppin! Obama!!! I will be glued to the TV. Dang….. who knows how to record on VCR? I don\’t! When I bought my flat screen, and called Com cast to bring me a DVR box, I didn\’t know that you can record your movies. I was still using VCR\”s? lol I have cable hooked up on 5 TV\’s and my nerd behind didn\’t know about recording from their box. I called them and asked them why didn\’t they give me one when they came out to hook up my DVR box? They said cause I didn\’t ask for one. I said who would want to record their programs for $3.00 A MONTH MORE??? Then she says, well if we come out you have to have a $20.00 money order, but if you pick it up from the office its free. I said well I still don\’t know how to hook it up!!! People know they be on tweak mode. Then they send me this other cable box for the switch over in Feb, and guess where its at? On my bedroom floor looking stupid? Shoo I duno how to hook that thang up. Then they KEEP on calling, saying Ms Walker, have you hooked up your cable box? In my mind I said GURL BYE!! I dunno what I\’m doing. lolll

Income TAX day bring yo behind on!!! Whew, Jan 16 ain\’t coming fast enough. Normally I\’ll wait to about March to get my taxes done. But this year Cree is pressed!!! I need to get these light and gas bill down. Goodness my bill is $810.00. My lights and gas are on the same bill. I don\’t like shut off notices and all I want to do is get this bill PAID OFF!! I want a new truck, I don\’t see a dime of the money to get it, but I know its coming. I feel it. I FEEL IT!!

Well, I\’m closing. I had planned on going to the movies tomorrow alone. I don\’t want to call my friends to go with me, I\’m doing me for a while. But I dunno, I may wait till Wednesday. Take care.

Lacrease

*Feed your Faith, and your Doubt will starve to Death*.

*Waving*

Have you ever felt like something was missing in your life, but you just couldn\’t figure out what it was? Have you ever walked around for days maybe a week and not know what was wrong with you?

That\’s what I was going through last week, and maybe the week before that.

For the last week or so I have been feeling * dead*. Feeling as if something was missing in my life. I didn\’t want to eat to much * something I love to do* , didn\’t feel like talking, I didn\’t feel like doing my hair, getting my brows done, or even getting my nails done * my daughter was even paying for them*. I didn\’t feel like cooking, going shopping with my daughter to buy a outfit for the Piston game were going to Sat night, I didn\’t even feel like going to get my gurls shirts * Raisingurls to Women* done at the T shirt shop. Didn\’t feel like going shopping for me a new outfit, didn\’t even feel like going to buy me and new pair of gym shoes * my daughter was buying me*. My gurls called and wanted to go out to dinner yesterday, I didn\’t feel like doing that either. I have been just moping around the house, hoping that what ever was going on with me would JUST PASS. Just go away. When my sister called to see if I was going to see my dad at his place, I didn\’t want to do that either. My best friend called and wanted to go see TD Jake\’s new movie * Not easily broken*, I didn\’t want to go and see that either, and *I always go opening weekend for my peeps* Met 2 nice looking men last week, didn\’t even call them. Went grocery shopping, hated to do that too.

Yesterday, I sat down on the couch and said Lord what is wrong with me? Why am I feeling this way? I\’m not sick, I just feel dead. I feel like crap. I want to live, that\’s not an issue at all. I\’m just not feeling like Lacrease. So, I sat there thinking, Ive been to this place before. I know this feeling. If I can just figure out what is it? If I could just sit here for a few more minutes, it\’ll come to me. There it hit me. It hit me. As bad as I wanted to cry when I realized what it was, all I could do is say God its you. Its you that my soul is craving. You are that void that is left in my heart to fill. I miss you. I haven\’t been talking to you, and praying as I should. I love you, and I need you. Please stop me if I ever go this long without spending that time **you know how we do it* that I\’m use to having with you. How did I go this long? What was I doing in this ole mixed up world that I neglected our friendship/daughter dad time? What was so important? Is that how we are suppose to feel when we are away from you? LORD please don\’t ever let me go that long again.I hated that feeling. I HATED IT. I HATED IT. I never want to visit that lonely place again without you. I was walking around like a zombie! I don\’t like being disconnected from you like that. My soul was crying out for you. I\’m use to you being in my life. I miss the talks.

Last night I pulled out my book called A woman and her Lord, and I read and stopped and laughed, and read, and stopped and talked, and thought, and cried. I felt so much better when I went to bed. When I got off work tonight I went home cooked, got comfy and pulled out my other book When Godly people do ungodly things. My soul is full of food of you. Before I knew it , it was almost 3 am this morning. I feel brand new. I\’m so full right now, and there\’s so much more of you. There is no end to your greatness. I have to have your attention and Love daily. I crave it, you spoiled me with it. You live in me and I must have a relationship. Lets make it stronger, lets do it how I\’m USE TO HAVING YOU. And that\’s daily!!! Lord, I love you, Thank you for showing me YOU.

Lacrease

Growing up I always tried to hang around the popular kids. It was just always something about them. Thinking back I don\’t think I like it because everyone wanted to be around them, but I think I was more amazed at how they got people to do things for them, and with them.

As I got older I paid a lot of attention to the person who was in charge. I could be at a seminar, and instead of JUST listening to the speaker, I would be looking at the *behind the scenes* people who are actually RUNNING the show. I would glance around the room and figure out whose who, and then ask myself………… how can I someday be down? I would wonder how did they get these people to believe in THIS SEMINAR? How do they know that the people working for them are not fake and two faced? How did they pack this place? How did they find people who are willing to work on the same team with the same goals?

Tonight I was watching Bishop Eddie Long for bible class on Streamingfaith.com. I listened to his message, but I watched him closely almost like I was studying him. When it was offering time, he went over to his musicians and watched them play. At some point in him watching them, he did this hand motion for THEM to go higher, and THEY DID IT. AHHH I was amazed. I love how people pay attention to their Leader. They know him, they know what he likes and what he dislikes. It was amazing because he had been standing over them for sometime, and it seemed as if they were looking around the Church, and just doing their jobs, but when he motioned for them to go higher, they all knew what time it was, and they ALL went higher.

Same with my Pastor, he has this certain look on his face and his leaders all know what time it is. They all know what that look means. My Pastor is so funny. I know its just me, but I can\’t help it, while people are doing this and doing that, I\’m studying the Leader. I want to see how he/she runs their operation.

When my store manager Ms. Debbie comes in @ 7am. For some reason I always look at my watch to see if she\’s on time, and then I always study her face to see what she\’s looking at. She always comes in and looks around the store and she is walking to her office. I study her to a tee. In my mind I\’m like………….momma is here and she\’s checking the store to see if her kids cleaned up last night, stocked the shelves, cleaned the floors, and put the carts are in their place. And when she see\’s something that displeases her, it shows in her face she\’ll jump on her walkie and let it be known. LOL

And for all of what I\’ve learned, and WILL ALWAYS WANT AND CONTINUE to learn. I am that Leader today. In many ways. First of all starting with Neisha. Had I been having all those wild parties, and hanging out drinking all night. Ain\’t no telling what my daughter would be doing now. When God told me enough was enough. He didn\’t have to tell me twice. At my job. When my line is 15 people deep, and those people are saying to themselves, I ain\’t coming here any more these are are ridiculous. When they are saying to each other, when is this line going to move, when they are whispering, what is taking so long. As a Leader when its my turn to service them one on one. I know its my chance to WIN them back. As a Leader its my job to give them ME, to make them smile again, and to Thank them for shopping @ Walmart. To make them feel valued. When they chose to get in line, they chose me, and this is what I know. They are looking for me to be friendly, to have a warm spirit, and to show appreciation for them shopping with us today. I understand that. I lovingly give them that. And lastly to apologize for the long lines * if any*.

I realize that I have this same effect on people. I can go to work tomorrow and say to 30 people. Look January 17, 2009 lets all meet @ Red Lobster @ 5;00 pm for dinner. Before they say yes to me. They\’re going to go over in their heads.

• Is Lacrease *good people*?
• Is she trust worthy of showing up?
• Would this be a good experience with her?

And based on the person that THEY PERSONALLY know me to be, that\’s how they are going to base their answer upon showing up.

Another thing that\’s VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY important to me. At work, I speak to everyone. I\’m just friendly like that. But my personal circle of friends is 2. Margie, and Debra are my #1 gurls. When we talk, we talk deep. We talk about God, love, relationships, taking trips, men, everything. When we talk, we don\’t worry about anything getting out. We never share our information with others. We are friends, and that\’s probably what connected us. The fact that we\’re so private.

One day I want to meet Tyler Perry. I want to walk around with him in his world all day and watch how he does things. I want to be under his * umbrella* with his staff and watch him lead. He is one of the best. I\’m still praying for that day. … With God all things are possible!

Lacrease

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Hey Yall!!!

Ok, why I missed everyone? I really did. My job was been working ya gurl like Madea * craaaaaaaaaaaazy*!! But you know today I was working and my line was so long that it really didn\’t make any sense. I mean it was so long had the district manager or owners of Walmart had walked in, * All the managers would have been fired*. LOL It was just that busy. Now you probably say, isn\’t that a good thing? Well, NO, because they cut the cashiers hours sooo badly that it was about 3 cashiers and the rest * 2 or 3 of them* floor associates who work in departments. So that means that if the floor associates were working the registers, then NO ONE was on the floor to assist the customers. Customers faces were a mile long * LOL*. I went over 3 hours without my first break, and when I finally got my break it was time for lunch. And when I got back from lunch it was time for my last break, which left me 50 minutes to work and then it was time to punch out.

See the part that kills me about my job is that. When its busy like it was today, its fun to work. But if you work one minute over your SCHEDULE time, then the last day of the pay period you name will be at the podium before you start telling you that you have to leave that day THOSE EXACT MINUTES YOU STAYED OVER!!! And see I don\’t like that. They played me one time when I first started. I was staying over helping them out and making the customers happy. And for all those minutes I stayed over, they made me leave early. For example if I\’m scheduled to work Sat Jan 3, 2009 10-4 and I stayed over .30 to get the lines down. On Friday of next week if I scheduled to work 7-4. I would have to punch out at 3:30 inside of that pay period. I don\’t like that. So I have to put my * niceness* away and tell the customers * Sorry my line is closed*.

I getting ready for my gurls group to start back up in my home the second week of April. Lately I have been brainstorming activities and hopefully I can get a *famous person* to come out to speak to them this year. This person that I would like to ask they would love them. So we\’ll see.

I had a lot to post, but shoo I\’m starting to itch. LOL Which means I must be getting sleepy. Oh yea,

Tyra Banks and Tyler Perry\’s *kids* are getting married!!! Eva Pigford * ANTM and Lance Gross *Tyler Perry\’s House of Payne* get engaged on Christmas Eve. They make a wonderful couple. I just love them together. I wonder how they must be feeling? GOOD BECAUSE ITS A GOOD THING! CONGRATULATIONS LANCE AND EVA!!!

Well yall, I\’m out gotta go back to work tomorrow. I\’m going to get into some heavy conversations tomorrow. I have many to discuss too.

Take care!