I finally made it back to blog entry #3. And listening to Anita Baker singing Bridge Over Troubled Waters. If you\’ve read my other 2 entries you\’ll know where this blog entry is going. So if you need to, go back, read them and pick up here.
In my previous entry I was telling the story of how I learned to be loyal and faithful to my mother with the fun secrets we use to share. As I got older I carry that same faithfulness over into my own personal friendships. That\’s when I realized that everyone is NOT like me. I had a hard time with this because I thought that something was wrong with me. But then when I started to look at others back ground , versus my own, I saw that it was in fact different. But that\’s okay. Because I learned that I can\’t change anyone but myself.
I love God. I love everything about him. I love our friendship, I love how he tells me things, I love how he protects me. I can go on and on and on. When I was in my teens I remember falling so deep in love with God that it blew my mind. I loved how he loved all of us when we are BAD AS I DO NT KNOW WHAT! LOL I always had a connection with him, and since I\’m a grown woman its gotten stronger.
I love Neisha and especially my family. I love them because I know how to love. I got practice from my family growing up, and then I read it in God\’s word ( the bible) and yep, it lined right up with how I was treated by them and how I treated them. So guess what I did? I took that same love that I got from my family ( mom and dad lived in the home) and took it to the *streets* people whom I came in contact with. Some appreciated it, some don\’t get it.
All the time people ask me why you love Anita Baker so much. why you Love Tyler Perry so much, why you love NEISHA so much? Why why why? What the heck is wrong with being a loyal person to these people? If Anita Baker comes to town for a show, so what I want to go all 3 nights. That\’s what I like to do. I don\’t borrow money to go because I don\’t have too. I have my own car. I can do what I want. I love Tyler Perry. When his movie comes out I will make plans to see the movie that very first day , and probably again on Sunday with another group of friends. People say to me, you and Neisha are so close, what are you gonna do when she leave? I\’m going to KEEP LIVING!! WTH! Some think that I love these people so much that if something was to happen to them I would fall out and die!!! Which tells me that they don\’t know me well, and when I figure that part out I pretty much don\’t have anything else to say about it. I love my momma to pieces too, but I gotta enough sense and God in me to KNOW and UNDERSTAND that when he calls her home, I can go on.
God is #1 in my life. He is and he will always be. I\’m sorry that others cant love without feeling they\’re going overboard.
Every year in Detroit when Anita Baker does her concerts my friends come as far as Toronto. We all get together and have a ball the evening of the concert. I met a whole group of Maxwell fans who * I have nothing on* love and appreciate his music. This year we all plan to meet up at the last concert in * NY* for a meet and greet. As far as my Tyler Perry friends, I have none. When it comes to talking about Tyler I go to God * I love Tyler as a brother* and talk to him and most times Neisha. People have taken things wayyyyyyy to far when it comes to Tyler, so I keep it to myself………………which I found is so much better.
This is the kinda stuff I like to do. I love people. I\’m kind, I love to laugh and act silly. My daughter is finishing up school and them she will be on her own. I know I have raised her to the best of my ability, to send her out into the world to fly, and when God calls her home………. I\’ll know I had a wonderful life with her, I plan on seeing her again. I think ahead like that. I\’m grateful, and Thankful to God and I let him know that every time I think about it. I cant be selfish with his daughter.
People act like when you love and admire, and adore someone you are clingy to them or something. I do my own thang. I have my own arms. legs, feet, neck, head, mind, fingers. I do what makes Lacrease happy. I understand how life goes most times. because God always tells me things ahead of time.
I\’m not apologizing for the person I am. If you cant fit into my circle of love, then you will be removed. A lot of people have been removed from my life since July and I will not be LOOKING BACK!! EVER!
BE Blessed!
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