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August 21, 2017August 21, 2017

Sharing Your Deepest Secret To Help Someone/BLOG

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I know a lot of people, and sometimes when they share life their lessons with me, I most times will share a similar story about what I’ve been though. Opening up about some of the things a person has went through can be painful. But its always helpful that the person you’re sharing them with can relate.

I remember a time when this young gurl came through my line when I was working as a cashier. She was pregnant, and when I asked her when was her baby due, she told me that she was going to have an abortion soon. I was horrified! I was horrified because when my baby was just 3 months old, I found myself pregnant again at 19 with my second baby, and in my mind there was NO WAY EVER, I was going to have that baby. I told my first daughter father, and he told me that what ever I wanted to do he would support me. I didn’t tell my family because I didn’t want them to talk me into having it, because I knew they would. In my mind I felt embarrassed, and I felt that I wouldn’t be able to take care and handle 2 kids. So, I had an abortion and never told ANYONE.

There I was in my early 40’s talking a young gurl out of having an abortion something I wouldn’t let anyone talk me out of. I told her that I felt the same way at her age. I felt that I couldn’t take care of another baby and that it wasn’t even up for debate. But, she let me talk to her. I told her, look, you CAN take care of this baby, it seems as if you cant right now, but had I depended on God a little bit more, I would have my baby in my life . I told her that the person I am today.. I HATE that I had an abortion. Back then I didn’t know that I could make it, but now I know that I could have. I begged her to please have her baby, because I knew it would bring her joy the moment she laid eyes on her/him. I didn’t know what her final decision would be, but I know she heard and listened to me well.

One day I was having lunch in the Subway inside of the store. This young lady came up to me with a baby in the stroller and said with a huge smile, do you remember me? I looked at her and said, you look familiar, but I don’t. She said I’m the gurl you talked into having my baby, and here he is! I just burst out crying. I was so emotional. She said THANK YOU SO MUCH for talking me into having my baby, she said now every time I look at him, I feel bad for having that thought. She said he brings me joy and makes me happy, said I don’t know what would I do without him. I was so happy and very emotional. I told her how hard it was for me to share my story with her, because I was ashamed for so many years, but I didn’t want her to turn out like me. To live with regret years later wondering what sex my baby was, how would he/she fit into my life today, and the biggest thing, KNOWING NOW, that I COULD have made it with God by my side. She said because of you, my baby is here. She was so happy and so grateful for that talk we had. She was a complete stranger. Wow, I wonder where they are today.

Sometimes we have to give up our deep buried secrets to help someone. I wanted to take my secret to the grave with me, but God wouldn’t let me. What I went through I didn’t want her to experience. I was in my early 40’s, and had healed from it. I was at a place in my life where I could talk about it, and wanted to share it with someone to help them. Thank you Jesus! Thank you!

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January 2, 2016January 2, 2016

Conversations with The Lord/BLOG

Happy New Year!

One of my prayers is to have more conversations with The Lord. Sometimes we get tied up in our own lives and we forget to have that special time with HIM.

Since I was a young gurl, I’ve always heard the voice of the Lord. I’m always amazed at the things he tells me about PEOPLE and SITUATIONS ahead of time. A lot of times I don’t understand why he tells me things, but as time passes… I ALWAYS GET IT! That alone blows my mind.

A few days ago, the cable in my building and surrounding areas went out for hours. So, I called the cable company to find out how long would it be before its restored. After holding on FOREVER, I was okay with the time frame that was told to me. That evening it was restored.

No more than 5 hours of being restored, it went off again while I was watching Tiny House around 1:20 am. I don’t watch TV much at all, so when I do turn it on, I want to watch it. I decided to go to sleep. The next day it still wasn’t on, so I decided to chat with a LIVE online representative about the service. He told me that they were having problems and that it would be restored in a few more hours. It was restored an hour earlier than predicted.

The next day, I was going through some movies and decided to watch King of Kings, when the Lord spoke to me. He said “La’Crease, your cable is going out again, but after that, it’ll be on for good.” His voice was so clear! I said.. Oh okay, so its going out again? He said yes, then once its restored it’ll be on for good.

I took a nap that evening before work and when I woke up to get dressed, even though my TV stays off, I notice the lights on the cable box was OFF again!!!! I went on to work, but when I got in around 8 am.. it was still off. Now I’m frustrated because this has never happened before. This time when I called I told them that I wanted a refund for War Room a movie which I rented and didn’t get a chance to see it for a second time before it expired, and also a credit for the NOW 2 days it was off. I was DONE! Forgetting everything God had spoken to me. What really had me on fire was when she said.. after we discuss the nature of my call, that she was going to introduce me to a better package than the one I have. Before I knew it I said.. ” I can’t even see and enjoy the package I do have!!!” I said maam, my cable has been in and out for 3 days!!! Oh she felt my wrath! She told me that my cable would be restored in a few hours. Just before hanging up, I got so irritated with the issue, that I said to her…..Thank you, you’ve been real helpful, and hung up in her face while she was still talking. I felt bad because that’s not me anymore to hang up on people, and to get that upset over something that I have no control over and surely not her. So, as I was watching a Christian movie, I really felt convicted after thinking about it.

After I had calmed down… God said to me.. La’Crease why did you call Comcast? I said because I’m tired of my cable going out. He said BUT.. didn’t I tell you that your service was going to go out and be restored again for good? I said yes. He said then why did you leave that woman wounded like that? OH MY GOODNESS I FELT SO BAD. OH THE GUILT. I could actually VISION the woman feeling some type of way after hanging up on her. I can VISION how I made her feel. I can VISION her talking trying to help ME, but feeling low after hanging up on her. I can VISION her telling family and coworkers how rude I was to her.

I shouldn’t have never called. God told me what was going to happen. I don’t know what kind of day that lady was having. She could have lost her mom or anyone. She could have been trying to have a good day after the anniversary of her daughters death or anything… I DON’T KNOW. WE NEVER KNOW WHAT THE NEXT PERSON IS GOING THROUGH! Even though I ‘m making up these scenarios , God told me about my cable, and I spoke to this woman like it was her fault. I repented. I felt so bad afterwards. You can’t do people wrong! God does not like that, and will punish you for it. I wish that I could talk to her again to apologize for the way I spoke to her. She was nice to me, and I was so mean. My cable was on in 12 hours, didn’t matter to me anymore, I just wanted to make what I did wrong-RIGHT!. I haven’t had any problems out of my cable since.. just like THE LORD SAID! I’m starting to think my cable was off just so that I could LEARN THIS LESSON OF HOW TO TREAT OTHERS… ESPECIALLY when I have DIRECT CONVERSATIONS WITH HIM. SMH @MYSELF. LESSON LEARNED!

I AM La’Crease ((I don’t have to do ANYTHING else))

May 6, 2015

GOD Chose MEEEEEEEEEE…. CREEEEE?/BLOG

Hello Family 🙂

Today I was laying in the bed thinking about how God works in my life. Its so unreal, makes me smile and LAUGH at the same time. When I was 19, I was so in LOVE with my daughter’s father. God told me that I LOVED that man, more than I LOVED him. I was devastated when God said that to me one day as I was washing dishes. Because for some reason, I felt it may have been true… not on purpose… but maybe a fact. I didn’t like that one bit, and I MADE SURE I DIDN’T LOVE ANY MAN like that EVER again. I know how to LOVE.. because I learned it from my parents and growing up with close siblings. So after God revealed that to me, I continued to show men LOVE… because its in me. While they thought I LOVED them so hard ((( but I was just loving how I was taught))).. they ALL were disappointed, sad, and in a state of disbelief when the relationship was over, and I walked away like a car tore up in a accident, with no scratches on my body. That’s one thing about me that I LOVE….. I can walk away and never look back… all while STILL LOVING you at the same time… but in a “out of your life” way.

I LOVE GOD MORE THAN ANYTHING… and just because I show you the LOVE and LOYALTY you may not have experienced from someone else outside of your family… doesn’t mean LACREASE WALKER won’t walk away like I never knew you…. because I CAN….in a way that will make you ask yourself… “Did she even LOVE me in the first place?” And that answer is…Yes I did/do.

Okay, I got off track. I was so in LOVE with my daughter’s father, that it took me forever to get over him. That was one of the hardest things to do. Back then, there was no social media where you can read up on other stories and then come to the conclusion that this man is not the one for you. We didn’t have access to other women who was going through the same thing to connect with. We had to learn on our own. I was secretive, so a lot of things I went though alone. I didn’t know that SEX was the connection that kept me going back to him. When I cut off sex, I was able to move on. Took me years and years, and years to realize that. But here is the part that got me laughing and talking to God about. He is using MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE…. to talk to the broken women who are going through the same thing in this time and day. SO MANY women email me, talk to me in person, send text and other messages about the same thing. At first I was like… “Ok God, why are these ladies coming to me… I had a hard time back in the day trying to get over the LOVE I had for my daughter’s dad?” He said because you are over that, and you are the one who can reach these women. WOW WHAT AN HONOR…. When I think back on those times.. I don’t feel qualified AT ALL!! MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE??????? God are serious? Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? CREE?????? I was so broken, hurt, ashamed, embarrassed, depressed, lost, had an abortion, MEAN AND EVIL… any and everything you can think of.. and GOD SENDS ME TO HELP THESE WOMEN?????????? MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?

I must say… GOD KNOWS BEST…. because I have spoken with SO, SO, SO , SO, SO many women about relationships, hurt and things associated… that this is truly apart of my calling. I am helping these women to find themselves, and to get back to God. Women are a magnet to me when it comes to this area of their lives…. and I love it. I’ve been there. I know the pain. I know the hurt. I know the thoughts and the cries at night. I know it all. I just want to say THANK YOU LORD FOR CHOOSING ME! I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD AND SEND YOUR DAUGHTERS BACK TO YOU, SO THAT YOU CAN SEND THE MAN DESIGNED JUST FOR THEM!!!

I AM La’Crease ((( I don’t have to do anything else)))

May 2, 2015May 2, 2015

Baltimore Mom/ My FB Post/ HULK/BLOG

Hey,

I was having heated debates with my friends on FB about the Baltimore Mom who “snatched” her son up because she didn’t want him out rioting. Many of them felt like “why is it news that she did that”, and that the Media had an agenda behind it, because they felt that had it been under other circumstances, she would have be arrested.

Well.. for me I didn’t agree. First of all, if it was a LAW and if she was breaking it, she would have been charged, no matter what the MEDIA reported. The MEDIA has nothing to do with the LAW. So if she was breaking the LAW she would have been charge or at least investigated. Why is it news? Well, its up to you how you see things. For me, I saw it as positive. There are so many “PUNK PARENTS” these days, that they let THE MEDIA… PLANT MANAGE AND SUPERVISE how they discipline their kids. For this case, TO ME…. the Baltimore Mom’s attitude about it, it was made it news. She didn’t have an attitude when she was doing interviews, she wasn’t offended by how others felt she should have handled it. And you knew not to get in her way that day when she met up with her SON. She was true to how she loved and raised him, and also how she felt about HER son rioting. She did say she was angry and that she would have done things differently. Give her that. I feel that when you stay true to what you believe people will pick up on that. Especially if you’re not rolling your eyes, having attitudes, or being defensive about it. When you are genuine sure about how you handled things, people are most likely to back off and RESPECT YOU EVEN MORE.

When it came to the rioting, I posted how I felt about that… and some people were mad at me. Here is that post….“I hate to see whats going on in Baltimore. This is their own neighborhoods that they’re stealing and burning. Now I see why God said Vengeance is mines. He can take care of anything better than we can…we anger to fast. After the destruction will come consequences. No buses, no stores, no groceries, no pharmacies, nothing. So sad people don’t see further than right now.” When I wrote… we anger to fast.. Oh boy what I say that for? LOL Only 2 friends come for me when it comes to these types of post. And I was ready for them! I understand ANGER.. I DO. But I also understand CONSEQUENCES… I hate facing those… with a passion. When you’re angry and you do things before you think them though, you pay for that either now or later. All I was saying is, when its all over said and done. Who will take your grandparents to the store to buy grocery’s when there is no car, and not a store to walk too? Where are they going to get their prescriptions from, when the next CVS, WALGREENS is 20 minutes away? What about the gurl who was just about to move and needed her check before she lost her job at CVS? People don’t care when their mad. At some point in your life you have to learn how to handle ANGER. Its hard, yes it is, but you’ll pay consequences for your actions if you don’t. Sons and Daughters are in jail because either their parents didn’t teach them about ANGER and consequences, they were taught and still did things their way, or they just didn’t care. So now, the parents have to suffer, if they have children, they will have to suffer, their siblings, nieces, nephews, and grandparents. Everyone pays. So, my post was to show that you have to think things all the way through before you start to do things that will effect you later. They didn’t see it that way. They felt that since I have influence, and use FB as a podium to write about important issues that I should have used that time and energy to write about charges to the officers involved in the case. And let me say this.. I AM FOR ACCOUNTABILITY for those involved… remember …I RAISED A LAWYER…. but if my post wasn’t about that, then fall back. I’m not a person who writes things ahead of the process. I like to watch, read and gather more information before I write. I’m not going to post every 7 minutes my feelings and thoughts just because I’m watching CNN. Oh well.. I’m the Boss of my FB page!

Last week, I was standing in line to deposit a check into my account. I was with my Sisters who were waiting patiently in the truck. The line was so long, and after a while I was getting irritated because the teller had to keep leaving her booth to get answers from a supervisor about the customer at the counter. After about 30 plus minutes , I had it. I was about to go into Incredible Hulk mode, I CAN FEEL THE GREEN MONSTER RISING UP IN ME. Now, I know why I have always had a connection to him as a child. LOL LOL I want to be nice and sweet, but that ANGER is something else. Let me explain. I have a lot of patience with people and situations, because God gave me this great gift of Understanding.. but BAAAABY.. every now and then….. I will cut lose. What happens is.. my leg starts shaking, my body gets hot, I have to hold my head in my hand to look away from the situation. I have this urge to have a OUTBURST. As I got older I learned how to pray to control it. I know once I have this outburst… I’m going to want to turn over something ( I have never) , not to mention scream out…… “HURRY-UPS.”. “WHATS TAKING SO LONG?”, “GET SOMEBODY ELSE OVER HERE TO HELP”, “WHY ARE YOU SO SLOW?” So, what I do is pray, pray, pray, I say God please, please, please, please, please, please don’t let me have an outburst. Lord, please help me not to say anything, to stay calm. Please Lord, let this heat in my body go down. Lord, help me right now to calm down. I’m a Christian woman I don’t want to nut up.. I KNOW THAT THERE WILL BE CONSEQUENCES IF I DO. Let me show you step by step.

have this outburst and people are staring at me ((( hate attention)))
the manager is called and Im asked to calm down
I am asked to leave since I didn’t calm down , and I STILL DONT GET MY BUSINESS TAKING CARE OF
if Im too out of order, then the POLICE may be called on me
I will have to go elsewhere to be served

As people we have to think everything through before we do things. I personally don’t like to pay for consequences. God calmed me down, and when it was my turn, me and the teller were so cool. We talked and even laughed as she took care of me. I was so happy that I LET GOD COME INTO MY HEART AT THAT TIME AND CALM ME DOWN… no telling what would have happened and what I would have said, if I hadn’t. Thank God for Jesus!

I AM La’Crease (( I don’t have to do anything else)))

April 9, 2015

Special……./BLOG

Hey Family!

So this morning, I was downstairs of my apartment building admiring our brand new fitness center, the business area, 24- hour security area, the new ” man cave” that is currently being built in our lobby. Not only that, but our convenience store is expanding, and its looking good.

I sat in awe as I watched the workers work, when a resident who was sitting next to me got my attention by asking did I remember him from the other day. I told him yes I did. I remember that day clearly because we were on the elevator just he and I, when he told me that I had the sweetest Spirit that he’s have ever felt on a woman, and told me that every time he sees me that I’m always smiling and for me to always stay that way. But this morning, he told me that after seeing me that day he went home and prayed. He told God that I was beautiful and lovely and asked him was I the one for him. God told him No. That the man for me is still out there, tall and perfect for me. That he will LOVE everything about me, he said that God told him that I was Special. Very special. And that I had to be handled as such. God told him that I loved him very much and it takes someone special to understand me. WOW.. WOW… WOW!!!

I just sat there like wow. I knew that it takes a special man to “get me”. And its so cute that he asked God was I the one for him. Awwww. Well, I’m glad that he obeyed God because people think just because folks are nice and friendly to them, they’re the one. No, no, no.. and yess its going to take someone SPECIAL to hook up with this SPECIAL woman. I do know this… when that man first lay eyes on me, HE will know.

LIFE LESSON: 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. Matthew 5:16

Women wait on God. I know it may be hard sometimes with all the men that we meet daily and with all the sex that we feel our bodies are craving. Hold out. When a man (((total stranger))) can feel your Spirit, and have no idea what kind of relationship you have with God, and can tell you how Special you are. When GOD HAS ALREADY SPOKEN THIS VERY SAME WORD to you…. you know its confirmation. Stay in the race…

Know your worth.

I AM La’Crease

October 13, 2014October 13, 2014

Dear Husband/BLOG

Dear Husband,

Today was a good day. I watched Football, made chicken and fries…. nothing big. I did my hair and lashes… preparing for the week and whatever it brings.

For the last 2 years its been rough on me. Wow, never in a million years did I see my life today in this forecast. But I can’t ignore the fact that God has still kept me living and wanting for anything. If you only knew my story …. I’m still holding on to God’s hand, because there is more. And If I just stay focus on him… this all will come to pass. I’m looking forward to that sunny day.

Having Faith for these last few years…. whewwwww….. um um um…. has been a ride. But what keeps me in the race, is that I know God’s track record when it comes to my life. Sometimes I get so down in my Spirit.. that I have to pray the thoughts away. I would hate for him to Bless me in the way that he does * HUGE*.. then have flash backs of when I wanted to give up on him and everything else. I want to enjoy my Blessings knowing I waited and didn’t faint.

Your Loving Wife

April 29, 2014

The ( My) storm is passing over From the Desk of Cree

I’ve been though so much these last two years
So, so, so, so, so much
I’m stripped naked of everything
Never thought I’d see the storms let up
I am absolutely naked before God
I have no more tears to cry
My Faith in God is why I can sit here and write this
Ears have not heard my Testimony, not even family
When time come to tell it, all will know
God is still in control
I’m so glad the storm is passing over
Hallelujah

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

February 5, 2014

FAITH Crees Blog Entry

Just checking in…. going through a little bit right now. But TRUST AND BELEIVE… I HAVE FAITH.. MUCH FAITH.

BE BLESSED

December 22, 2013

Consider……. Crees Blog Entry

James 1:2-8 (New International Version)

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,^[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. ⁵ If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. ⁶ But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. ⁷ That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. ⁸ Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

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