La’Crease’s Ramblings/BLOG

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Last night I was in bed thinking back on some of the things I did as a teenager and in my 20’s and early 30’s and some of those things shock me. But you know I was Thanking God that I have lived long enough to ask for forgiveness and to change my ways. Just think had I died in the mist of  that mess. Some people do. They don’t get a chance to ask God for forgiveness, because  they were still doing wrong before they died. To me that’s one of the hugest blessings, that you can receive. To live long enough to repent of your wrong doings.

When I was dating my daughters father, we would be upstairs in his room when his mother was at Church all day. We knew she didn’t want him to have company when she wasn’t home, but we, being teenagers did it anyway. Well, she use to come home and I’d be up stairs. Even though she never came up there, she would holler up the stairs to let him know she was home. That’s when we knew he had to either sneak me out of the house when her bedroom door was closed, or I had to jump out of his bedroom window and he’d catch me at the side door. LOL Yea….. thinking back on that.  The person I am today, FIRST of all, I would never be in another woman’s home without her consent, for NO REASON. For TWO, I’m not jumping out of nobody’s window!!! We both laugh about that to this day, and we’ve shared this with our daughter, who knows the person I am today and she CANNOT BELIEVE that I jumped out of a window. LOL LOL Me either!!!!

I remember another time, one night I had lots of company over playing cards and drinking with my friends. I knew my landlord was coming over the next morning to collect rent. I lived in an upstairs flat and my friend lived downstairs. I would often leave my door unlocked because it connected to hers and we had kids that loved to play together. Well, after I let my company out that night, I meant to lock my door. I was so drunk that next morning. I woke up to my landlord standing over me trying to get me to wake up!!! I had puke all over the bed and floor, I was HORRIFIED TO SEE HIM. When I share this story with people for a life lesson, they always ask… was he trying to do something to you? And the answer is NOPE, not at all. He was trying to wake me up, because my door was wide open.He thought something was seriously wrong with me. I learned a GREAT LESSON that day. I don’t ever remember getting that drunk again! I was done with that life!

A few nights ago, I had this craaazy dream that I was at my mothers house, a house that’s not in real life at all. But I went to go see her, and when I got up to her apartment, I looked out of the window at my car as I always do. After a few hours had passed, I looked out again and it was gone!!! I was horrified and crying at the same time. We went to look around and to see was it any broken glass anywhere and it wasn’t, So we went back in the house. I couldn’t stop looking out of the window hoping that it would be there, or that I would wake up. Well, after a few hours had passed, I looked out the window again and it was there! In the very same spot. I told my mother and we went to look in it. We were so surprised that it was very brand new in the inside. The car looked the same on the outside, but it was clean inside out. Brand new stereo system, new seats, it even had a sun roof, it was beautiful.I took it for a ride and everything. In the dream we found out that a group of guys were going around taking people’s cars and fixing them up brand new, just to be helpful. They had done many others the same way, be we didn’t know about it. I was happy that everything was nice and new, but hated the fact that I thought I wasn’t going to see it again. Wow, I have the craziest dreams~!!

Talk to yall later

Cree

 

 

 

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Daddy’s Little Gurl/BLOG

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Just a moment to share how important it is for a daughter to have both parents in her life. I grew up with both parents married before I was even born… and I’m the oldest. I never knew how important it really was.. until my daughter turned 12. Her dad was always in her life, and it became a joy to watch them talk, laugh and enjoy each other as she became an adult.

For the Christmas Holiday they went to Ohio, where he was born to enjoy family time. She stayed for 2 weeks, but he was back and forth. I love how she talks about him and the love they have for each other. They are so much alike its funny. He says she looks like me and built like me. I say she acts like him, talks like him, and loves to dress like him. Not to mention some days, she’s his twin!!! I can see him clear as day in her. He always speak well of me when they’re together sharing stories of our teenage years. That’s funny because I do the same thing when I’m with her. LOL

But there is one thing.. I tell her time and time again. Make sure that when you decide to get married and have a family that you chose a good man who loves you, and not for foolishness because YOUR DAD DOES NOT PLAY when it comes to you and his family. I tell her this all the time, and she knows this to be true. He may love his women.. but he’s not a fighter, he’s not into debates and arguments. He’s straight up and will not play about his 2 kids (son). He’ll want to meet him, grill him, look him in the eye and baaaaaaaaby have that talk with him. I told Nesha…  make sure he come correct….because your daddy… IS NOT HAVING IT… So.. please don’t bring trouble to his door step by way of a nothing man who mean you no good.

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That’s another main reason why I love their friendship/relationship because she knows he mean business.  She knows this. Even though she’s a classy gurl…. these men can be tricky. It also makes me smile knowing that her dad will make sure she’s okay…this is one area of her life….. that is out of my jurisdiction. Her dad has her back!!! She betta chose wisely. Because her dad loves her, treats her like a Princess, and adores her dearly . * Click on the photos for a closer view*

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Be Blessed!

Hell to the Neva Naw/The QUEEN of planning/Meeting Soon (((((Blog)))))

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After having Nesha, people always and to this day ask me… do I want anymore children? My answer is Hell to the Neva Naw. I don’t care how long his money is, how sweet a person he is, how bad he wants one with me, nor the fact that he doesn’t have any. I can’t even IMAGINE a LOVE that strong to make me change my mind. I can’t even IMAGINE loving a man so deeply that I would change my mind about having one with him. I be dogone if I stay home and raise kids while he work 80 hours a week. Some women would love to give birth again even after having grown adult children. At this point in my life, I want to enjoy my husband. I want to travel and stay in different hotels, take cruises and even host parties. Nesha’s dad is the ONLY man who child I have and WILL carry. Why am I even writing about this….. I don’t even talk about it in person. But IJS.

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My brother is having his first baby at 41. Yesss, and we love his girlfriend. I think that he may marry her, she is sweet as pie. She’s a young gurl too only 25… see that’s what those MEN OF MONEY AND POWER want.. a young gurl to carry his baby. Well, go head baaaaby.. its your life. I aint mad at you. LOL LOL LOL He has the money to take care of them both…. did I mention that she has twins all through her family, and for 3 months she is HUGE!! We’ll know this month when she has her doctors appointment. And guess what? She asked me to throw her a baby shower. The QUEEN of planning. Yes… I’m honored. So, now I get to see whats going on with a Wedding ( Sep 2015) and how its planned ( will be interning ) and I get to throw the Baby Shower of my brother. So… I’m getting my experience in for real.

Have you wanted something so badly to come true that you can taste it? You prayed and prayed on it, and you know God is going to let it come to past, that you think about it so deeply then you just let it go… ONLY BECAUSE YOU KNOW ITS GOING TO HAPPEN SOON? That’s how I’m feeling right now. I’m so excited… every time I think about it.. I get this butterfly feeling in my heart. God has been working behind the scene all this time to make this come true. I can’t wait to see this person face to face… eye contact.. facial expression… everything in my thoughts and dreams. Father God in the name of Jesus that time is almost here.. THANK YOU IN ADVANCE!

Alright people… on my way to bed.. have a long day tomorrow……Oh yeah and  ESPECIALLY this weekend. Yesss!

Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou