Month: March 2009

Hey!

Its been a minute since Ive posted. Everything is going fine. I\’m not feeling all myself today. Cant even finger point whats no right. But I think I know what it is, its nothing bad……….just a gurls life.

I have a face book page…….Lacrease Walker. I\’m loving facebook, its so cool.

My gurl Anita Baker is having her yearly concert here in Detroit July 31, and I am so there, along with about 50 other faithful fans from all over. I am a part of 2 fan groups * very mature folks* and they are some ride of dies for Anita. That\’s why I love them. If only I can find those kind in Tyler Perry. People who love and respect the artist, but don\’t lose themselves in them. I have a life, and I love it. I\’m sitting in the 3rd row from the stage. Wish it was front row again, but it didn\’t give us the Orchestra Pitt option this time. But its all good. All good. I\’m taking my camera. I reserved a rental car for that weekend. I have folks that I have to pick up from the airport, and the bus station. I have to work that Thursday because I\’m taking my gurls group to Cedarpointe August 15. I\’m very excited about this Summer as you can see.

Didn\’t have much to say today. Had to sit for a minute early at this computer and just Thank God for everything. Sometimes I just wonder how I\’m doing all that I\’m doing? Its God. I know its him.

Lacrease

Ok yall,

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Be Blessed

Lacrease

Hey!

Whats up yall? Me, been chilling!!! I mean for real. I was off work for the last few days and its been the bomb.

I keep thinking about a new Truck. I wish that one day I would wake up and there will be a 4 door green or black truck waiting on me with a big YELLOW bow around it. I think about this all the time as if it was going to happen. I do. And I don\’t know why. I feel it. I don\’t know how its going to get here or happen. lollllllllllllllllll that\’s the funny part about it. I can dream can\’t I?

I was up till about 7 am this morning completing Progress Reports for my gurls group Raisingurls To Women. When the program starts, I want to know what areas would the parents like to see progress in their daughters. And those will be my target areas. With kids, parenting comes so natural for me. I wish that I had a husband back then so that I could have had at least 2 more children. I love kids, and I know so much about them, yep even the younger generation. I pride myself in learning about kids. I appreciate them and I can relate to them all. Can you imagine how it feels when your 22 year old daughter tells you, that they appreciate the whoppings they got growing up because it molded them to be the person they are today? My family and friends all say that I was too hard on her, but now they see why I was the way I was with her.

Me, Neisha, and my mom is flying to Atlanta next year. My mom has never been, and Neisha wants to go back * she loves it there too*. We plan to stay 5-7 days. I love planning and guess what? I already have the hotel we are staying, days we will be there, flight prices and times, truck rental, and activities. Now my sisters are planning to go and be with us, oh this would be so great. I hope they don\’t change their minds.

A good friend of mines movie has hit the stores. You can pick up your copy @ Walmart!!!!!!!!! His name is Tim Alexander and his movie is called *Diary of a Tired Black Man*. Please visit this link and see for yourself what this movie/documentary is all about. I\’m a regular on his message board. Here is the link.

Diary of a Tired Black Man – The Movie – Main \”Tired Black Man\” Discussion Group

My coworker came back to work on Tuesday, but I didn\’t get a chance to see her and work with her until Thursday. I was off Tues and Wednesday. She said that if it wasn\’t for her 4 year old daughter, she wouldn\’t make it. She said that she feels its all her fault, and that it was lonely at home all she would think about is her daughter who is no longer here. So it was time for her to come back. We have shown her lots of love and my prayer is that she finds forgiveness in her heart for her ex boyfriend.

Well, I\’m about to do some work concerning my gurls. And I will be back later for Raisingurls To Women -4.

Be Blessed

Lacrease

I believe in manners. I believe in respect. I believe that when you walk pass someone, walk in front of them, you are to say * excuse me*. When you see someone you haven\’t seen that day, when you make eye contact with someone you are to say *Hello*.

I wrote down a list of rules that I expect from my gurls, and I expect for them to follow them. One of them is for us to get in the practice to call each other Miss. in front of their real names. Its respectable, it says a lot and in the long run it will get them far.

I know in the beginning its going to be hard to call others of the same age by Miss. Nell, Miss Chanell, Miss Reka, Miss Tyra, Miss Robin, Miss Ranika to name a few. But its going to work in my group.

Now aways young gurls and boys are calling grownups by their real names without using last names or Ms. in front of it. I feel its disrespectful. The first time I met Anita Baker, my mouth wouldn\’t let me say * Hi Anita*. The first thing I remembered was Ms. Anita, how are you? At some point in your life it shouldn\’t even feel right.

To reinforce this rule. We are going to stand in a circle and with a ball, we\’re going to take turns passing the ball to each other and who ever has the ball, they are to say their names using Miss. * your name here*. I will also participate.

These same gurls will grow up, find jobs and will automatically know how to address another person. I believe this to be a very important part of growing up.

Be Blessed

Lacrease

Hey!!!

As some of you know I will be starting back up my young gurls group in my home next month called * Raisingurls To Women*. My home will be a place for young gurls to come and talk about the things, and issues that goes on in their lives. We as a group will be able to discuss, and brain storm those issues and come up with solutions.

One of our many topics will be *Integrity*.

Last Saturday March 7, I worked the shift 11:30-3:30. I was ringing up my last customers when the customer before them, came walking back to me real fast. I looked at him before he even got to my register and said * What\’s wrong Sir*? He said I left my wallet. So , I looked in the area where people place their checkbooks and said, * Oh here it is*. He looked at my name badge and said * Lacrease, you have no idea what this means to me*! He said Thank you, Thank you so much, I I said Oh, you\’re welcome, its nothing, its okay. He said No, you don\’t understand, * he got closer to me* he said there is $1000.00 in this wallet. He said, I have to give you something for it. I said NO, NO, NO, its okay, we can\’t accept any gifts * Walmart policy* especially money. He said, I have TOO! He reached in his wallet and handed me $ 10.00. I kept saying, No, No, its okay. I didn\’t want to take it, but he insisted.

At some point, I could see it in his eyes that he wanted to reward me in his own kinda way. Because he was very, very, grateful. Sometimes when people offer you something, you take it out of courtesy for that person. Some how they * need* for you to take their gift as a token of their appreciation. It made him feel as if he did the right thing. And I understand that. I truly do. Been there.

But here\’s where my issue come in.

I balled up the $10.00 bill and kept it in my hand. As I was ringing up the last customer for the day, I was deciding in my mind, if I was going to keep the money or turn it in.

Today………. it was something different about turning in that money. I didn\’t need it, as a matter of fact before I left home I placed $380.00 in my secret place, I had money on my credit card, and I had a $123.00 money order that I was going to cash back in to Walmart, because I didn\’t need it anymore. So, you see the money wasn\’t my issue. My issue was clearly that this man wanted ME to have what he gave to ME. He was happy and grateful that his wallet was returned to him as is, and to know that I took the money made his day. I had a problem with turning the money in to management, and giving up what was clearly giving to me by the kindness of one mans heart.

I had to think about this one. So, I walked to my locker and then punched out!!!! I still had the money tightly held in my hand. I reached in my pocket and switched the $10.00 bill to a dollar. As soon as I did it. I didn\’t feel right. I felt like okay Walmart didn\’t see that, but God did. I felt like throw-up. Ughhhhh I hated that feeling, it was a mess. I hated, hated, hated hated it!!! As I was walking to the podium, God said Lacrease, you know that\’s wrong. I saw what you did. You know I always take care of you, you don\’t need the money, its okay if you have to follow the guidelines of your job, and its okay that the man gave it to YOU, but what you are doing is not right. You should go into your pocket and switch that money back. He was really in my head.

No one was at the podium to give it to, so as I was getting a piece of paper to write down my name ,and where the money came from, I had already pulled out the $10.00 to give it to my manager who was then walking up.

She looked at me and said * Lacrease, what\’s wrong*? I said WHOOOOOOOOOO LET ME BREATHE, LET ME THINK FOR A SECOND. She was like what? I told her the story and she said, you know better, you know God. She said that $10.00 is not going to break you. I said I know, I know, I know that part. But that\’s not my issue. She said what is it? I said the principal of the fact is that this man gave this to ME. He wanted ME to have it, not Walmart! She said its okay, you did the right thing. And I\’m glad I did. I can type this message, and KNOW that I did the right thing. God knows it, and I know if for myself. If this situation was to ever come back up, it wont be a thought to me again, because I already know what God expects from me. This wont be a personal battle for me. I already know and understand the rules. This was only a test.

So now, my question will be to my gurls………… what would you do? And why?

I can\’t wait to impose this question. It\’s going to be our first * Group Discussion* question. We will have one every meeting on a different topic. I really want to see where their heads are on this. First I will explain to them the story, and then the rules. And afterwards I would ask them what would they do if this were their situation? Can\’t wait for this one.

Aiight, got more lessons to complete for the whole month of April 2009!

Be Blessed

Lacrease

I finally made it back to blog entry #3. And listening to Anita Baker singing Bridge Over Troubled Waters. If you\’ve read my other 2 entries you\’ll know where this blog entry is going. So if you need to, go back, read them and pick up here.

In my previous entry I was telling the story of how I learned to be loyal and faithful to my mother with the fun secrets we use to share. As I got older I carry that same faithfulness over into my own personal friendships. That\’s when I realized that everyone is NOT like me. I had a hard time with this because I thought that something was wrong with me. But then when I started to look at others back ground , versus my own, I saw that it was in fact different. But that\’s okay. Because I learned that I can\’t change anyone but myself.

I love God. I love everything about him. I love our friendship, I love how he tells me things, I love how he protects me. I can go on and on and on. When I was in my teens I remember falling so deep in love with God that it blew my mind. I loved how he loved all of us when we are BAD AS I DO NT KNOW WHAT! LOL I always had a connection with him, and since I\’m a grown woman its gotten stronger.

I love Neisha and especially my family. I love them because I know how to love. I got practice from my family growing up, and then I read it in God\’s word ( the bible) and yep, it lined right up with how I was treated by them and how I treated them. So guess what I did? I took that same love that I got from my family ( mom and dad lived in the home) and took it to the *streets* people whom I came in contact with. Some appreciated it, some don\’t get it.

All the time people ask me why you love Anita Baker so much. why you Love Tyler Perry so much, why you love NEISHA so much? Why why why? What the heck is wrong with being a loyal person to these people? If Anita Baker comes to town for a show, so what I want to go all 3 nights. That\’s what I like to do. I don\’t borrow money to go because I don\’t have too. I have my own car. I can do what I want. I love Tyler Perry. When his movie comes out I will make plans to see the movie that very first day , and probably again on Sunday with another group of friends. People say to me, you and Neisha are so close, what are you gonna do when she leave? I\’m going to KEEP LIVING!! WTH! Some think that I love these people so much that if something was to happen to them I would fall out and die!!! Which tells me that they don\’t know me well, and when I figure that part out I pretty much don\’t have anything else to say about it. I love my momma to pieces too, but I gotta enough sense and God in me to KNOW and UNDERSTAND that when he calls her home, I can go on.

God is #1 in my life. He is and he will always be. I\’m sorry that others cant love without feeling they\’re going overboard.

Every year in Detroit when Anita Baker does her concerts my friends come as far as Toronto. We all get together and have a ball the evening of the concert. I met a whole group of Maxwell fans who * I have nothing on* love and appreciate his music. This year we all plan to meet up at the last concert in * NY* for a meet and greet. As far as my Tyler Perry friends, I have none. When it comes to talking about Tyler I go to God * I love Tyler as a brother* and talk to him and most times Neisha. People have taken things wayyyyyyy to far when it comes to Tyler, so I keep it to myself………………which I found is so much better.

This is the kinda stuff I like to do. I love people. I\’m kind, I love to laugh and act silly. My daughter is finishing up school and them she will be on her own. I know I have raised her to the best of my ability, to send her out into the world to fly, and when God calls her home………. I\’ll know I had a wonderful life with her, I plan on seeing her again. I think ahead like that. I\’m grateful, and Thankful to God and I let him know that every time I think about it. I cant be selfish with his daughter.

People act like when you love and admire, and adore someone you are clingy to them or something. I do my own thang. I have my own arms. legs, feet, neck, head, mind, fingers. I do what makes Lacrease happy. I understand how life goes most times. because God always tells me things ahead of time.

I\’m not apologizing for the person I am. If you cant fit into my circle of love, then you will be removed. A lot of people have been removed from my life since July and I will not be LOOKING BACK!! EVER!

BE Blessed!

This blog entry will probaly be more personal than the ones Ive done before. This is my personal blog entry about me……Lacrease.

It goes back to when I was a young gurl. I was my mom\’s best friend * she had a few close friends*., but I was her number 1. She would tell me everything. I loved talking and listening to her. She had the best stories in the world. I loved hearing about how she grew up, and how she missed her dad. She could remember back as far as being a very little gurl.

I am the oldest of 4 and when she would tell me things about how she wanted to take me shopping, and how she couldn\’t wait till I got grown to do things with her. My mom loved me and I love me some * my momma*. Till this day, my dad, brother and 2 sisters tease me, that I\’m her favorite. Looking back I don\’t think that its so much that I\’m her favorite , but more so that we just have so much in common.

We had so many secrets. She would buy me candy and tell me not to tell anyone, and I\’d be so happy. When I got mad at her, it was like the devil wanted me to burst out and say real loud………. MOMMA BOUGHT ME SOME CANDY YESTERDAY!!!! Not to get back at my sisters and brother, but to tell HER secret. To put her out there. To make her feel like I was feeling at the time. I was a young gurl, I didn\’t know any better. But the funny part about this was……………….there was always this *voice* in the back of my mind that would reason with me. It would say …don\’t do your mom like that. She loves you. It would ask me how would you feel if she was to walk in this room and cry because you told one of her secrets? Those questions that this *voice* asked me would make me cry. I mean really cry hard, because I can actually visualize it as if it was a movie . I cried because of what the *voice* made me realize. I\’d be so happy that I didn\’t mention my momma\’s secret. O weeeeeee, I\’d be so happy, and so proud of myself. And guess what that did? It built an EVEN closer relationship with my momma because I was learning how to keep secrets. Even if it was about candy, secretly shopping, giving me extra money for school, and lots of attention. I was still learning how to keep them to myself. And the older I became the bigger the secrets.

One day VERY recently. Someone told me something, and I thought I\’d come home and share it with Neisha. * nothing bad* She\’s my gurl and we talk about everything. I came in, sat her down and told her the story. At the very end of ………………..she says…………. Ma, I already knew. I said WHAT? You already knew? I said why you didn\’t tell me? She said, I have a relationship with this person and I didn\’t feel a need to tell anyone. I was like WOW!!

Now that I\’m a mom and my daughter is 22, we are the very same way. WE are so close its crazy. My mom love to see me and my daughter together. It reminds her of us. We love to talk, debate * both Virgos*, laugh, go places and play all the time. We were both born Sept 3, exactly 19 years apart. She\’s my only child and I love her to pieces. People tried to plant seeds in my life about me and Neisha. They\’d say that since we are born on the same day and are so much alike, that we\’d fall out all the time. Nope. Never. I never watered that seed to watch it grow. Especially since me and my momma was/is very close. All I know is to bond and to be loyal. That\’s what this has taught me.

My next entry shows how my childhood period molded my life to the person I am today.

Lacrease

Hey Sweeties!! I miss you all. I know I have been MIA but so much has been going on when I get home at night its bedtime after reading my emails and chatting with family. But I\’m back and tonight I may post 2 or 3 different blogs.

Ok I had to buy a new computer, my other one was good, but my CD compartment was broke. I like to pop in a movie at the computer sometimes and watch a movie. I couldn\’t do it and it get on my nerves. First I bought the 20\’ monitor, then I said oh well minus well buy the tower. So I had my brother to come and hook it all up for me, then my printer went out . That\’s just like something to go out when you get something else new. So a few days ago I replaced that. Then I looked around and decided that I wanted my office painted. So when my daughter came home from school one weekend, I took her and my mom with me to shop for paint. Now keep in mind I cant match for JACK. I never was the kind who knew how to match a pair of boots with a pair of jeans. My color is all off. LOL We picked out some paint went home that same night and painted my office.

The very next day I got up went into the office and was like….dang its pretty but its dark and dingy. It could be 12pm and I would need to turn on the lights. I didn\’t like that mess. But after all that hard work Neisha help me to do painting, that following week when she came home…… I told her I had a confession. I told her that I didn\’t like the color * it was a light tan-ish brown*. She said well what do you want to do? I said……….paint it over. She looked at me and said COOL, lets go get the paint. I was sooo happy she didn\’t mind painting over. I was worry about her feeling as tho I didn\’t appreciate all her hard work. We bought some primer and then we went to work. I love my room now. Its sooooo pretty. Its a Lavender color very light and friendly. I bought a clock, a file cabinet, a 7 drawer tower to fit all my goodies, like DVD,s note books, folders., photo albums. I hung some photos on the wall, re did my computer desk over. Its really really nice in here. I\’m happy. Everything you name…………………this room has it. I\’m happy.

My fellow cashier coworker lost her 2 year old daughter Feb 20, 2009. Ah its so sad. Below is the copy and paste from the newspaper.

The private funeral was last Friday. I feel so bad for my co worker * wont say her name*. She is one of the sweetest people you could ever meet. And I just hate that this happened to her. Her aunt also is a cashier at my store. I know that when there are trials there is something to learn from them. Her boyfriend was very nice and very handsome. I would tease her and say your boyfriend knows he fine. We don\’t know how everything went down, but one thing is for sure God sure knows how to get our attention. Our kids are on loan from God and all while they are in our presence we have to remember that. So when ever he comes for them, we can already accept it in our hearts. I cant wait for her to return from her leave of absence. I prayed and cried for her, even though I can\’t imagine what she\’s going through, the thought drives me insane. I cant wait to hug her and talk to her. Nothing preachy, just words to massage her mind a little. God bless her.

Why people don\’t like rules? Why? I was working the 20 items or less lane TODAY when this man just walked passed everybody and walked up to my register…….while I was still ringing another customer. Now in the express lane there are 2 registers next to each other. Instead of building 2 lanes for 2 registers with all the traffic that come in that area. WALMART decided * very good idea* to have only one line and we call next, and pull from that one line. Well, this (thing) man walks up and stands there with his merchandise. I looked up at him and said, Sir as I pointed to the sign that said ONE LINE, there is only one line and we pull from there. At the same time the other cashier who is working the express with me told him too. Well he goes back for a minute , thinks about it * lol* comes back * while I was still ringing the same customer* and says I WAS NEXT ANYWAY, SO I\’M STANDING RIGHT HERE, AND YES IVE READ YOUR RULES. Now see back in the day * bout 2 years ago* Id been mad. Cause for one that\’s disrespectful to just say the hell with the rules. IM DOING ME…. but it was kinda funny. I laugh at these people. I promise you they be on tweak mode . So, I\’m looking at this dumo, like okay, go head and stand there, ain\’t gon argue with you. He knows I\’m pissed a little, so guess what yall? The man in front of me leaves a bag. So that means what? Yep, I have to leave Stupdo there, and chase after this man, even if I have to run to his car and chase after him on feet, to his house, and then to put the groceries up. So now guess where ignanto is? Standing there at my register waiting on ME! God just always have something to say when he KNOWS I want to **get the gotters**. All while I was walking back to my register, I wanted to fall or somet
hing, just so that it would take me longer to get back to him, had he had is honoree self in that *one line* he would have been through. When I got back guess what he wanted to do?…….. talk. Boy BYE! It was funny tho. LOL

You find out who your real friends are,\”. \”Take mental notes and keep it moving.\” Halle Berry

God Bless You All!

Cree