Inside the crazy mind of Ms. Walker

babies in shapes
A mother and father finds out that they’re expecting a baby
 
everyone is excited
 
they call up everyone and tell them of the good news
 
later on in the pregnancy they  find out what sex the baby is
 
the baby moves for the first time… and its pure excitement
 
a baby shower is planned
 
gifts are bought, food is served, games are played
 
the labor begins
 
lots of pain
 
the baby is born and the pain is no longer remembered
 
the first eye to contact with baby and parents are breath taking
 
they promise to love and protect the baby
 
 
 
Now, I could go on and on with the stages of life… but I’ll stop here for a reason. How does a mother and father go through these stages but someplace between the beginning and the growing years, they grow up to be disrespectful, killers, thieves and other things that are NOT good. I just sit back and wonder….WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED? I just don’t get it.
 
 
Be Blessed
 
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

King Solomon….. TRUTH….. Crees Blog Entry

So, its late, and I’m sitting here reading the Bible. I figured my “wondering mind” would pay more attention if I listened to the audible version on Ecclesiates.
I’m sitting here CRACKING UP.. God knows how to make me laugh.. when really I feel like “can’t even put it into words” right now. Here Solomon is the WISEST man of us all. And after building, doing, and drinking everything he could…. he still felt like… THIS IS meaningless. He said no matter what…. its like chasing the wind. No one is ever satisfied. Try to imagine HIM as it is read to you. Set up  the scene in your head.. Enjoy
 
 
Read it in DRAMATIC FORM AS YOU HEAR IT.
 
 

Ecclesiastes 2

New International Version (NIV)

Pleasures Are Meaningless

2 I said to myself, “Come now, I will test you with pleasure to find out what is good.” But that also proved to be meaningless. 2 “Laughter,” I said, “is madness. And what does pleasure accomplish?” 3 I tried cheering myself with wine, and embracing folly—my mind still guiding me with wisdom. I wanted to see what was good for people to do under the heavens during the few days of their lives.

4 I undertook great projects: I built houses for myself and planted vineyards. 5 I made gardens and parks and planted all kinds of fruit trees in them. 6 I made reservoirs to water groves of flourishing trees. 7 I bought male and female slaves and had other slaves who were born in my house. I also owned more herds and flocks than anyone in Jerusalem before me. 8 I amassed silver and gold for myself, and the treasure of kings and provinces. I acquired male and female singers, and a harem[a] as well—the delights of a man’s heart. 9 I became greater by far than anyone in Jerusalem before me. In all this my wisdom stayed with me.

10 I denied myself nothing my eyes desired;
I refused my heart no pleasure.
My heart took delight in all my labor,
and this was the reward for all my toil.
11 Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.

Wisdom and Folly Are Meaningless

12 Then I turned my thoughts to consider wisdom,
and also madness and folly.
What more can the king’s successor do
than what has already been done?
13 I saw that wisdom is better than folly,
just as light is better than darkness.
14 The wise have eyes in their heads,
while the fool walks in the darkness;
but I came to realize
that the same fate overtakes them both.

15 Then I said to myself,

“The fate of the fool will overtake me also.
What then do I gain by being wise?”
I said to myself,
“This too is meaningless.”
16 For the wise, like the fool, will not be long remembered;
the days have already come when both have been forgotten.
Like the fool, the wise too must die!

Toil Is Meaningless

17 So I hated life, because the work that is done under the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. 18 I hated all the things I had toiled for under the sun, because I must leave them to the one who comes after me. 19 And who knows whether that person will be wise or foolish? Yet they will have control over all the fruit of my toil into which I have poured my effort and skill under the sun. This too is meaningless. 20 So my heart began to despair over all my toilsome labor under the sun. 21 For a person may labor with wisdom, knowledge and skill, and then they must leave all they own to another who has not toiled for it. This too is meaningless and a great misfortune. 22 What do people get for all the toil and anxious striving with which they labor under the sun? 23 All their days their work is grief and pain; even at night their minds do not rest. This too is meaningless.

24 A person can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in their own toil. This too, I see, is from the hand of God, 25 for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment? 26 To the person who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Today’s Message

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January 20 2014

Today, God’s message for you is on treasures in heaven. Solomon makes the point in Ecclesiastes that you enter and depart this world with the same material possessions: nothing. Instead of spending life amassing wealth, which may be destroyed in an instant, think of what you can lay up for eternity: Strong relationships, good works motivated by a love for God and his people. Ponder today what the “true gold” in life may be.  

School House Rock…………………..Crees Blog Entry

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Growing up, I wasn’t a cartoon person like my sisters and brother. But I looked forward to seeing the School House Rock Commercials. They bring back so many memories. Believe it or not that’s how some of us learned our multiplications, nouns, adjectives, and so much more. Click on the link and walk down memory lane by singing some of the songs. So much fun.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
 
Be Blessed
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Short Term Goals……………………Crees Blog Entry

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Ever since the end of Dec 2013, I’ve been making chances in my life.. that some people just can’t seem to get with… OH WELL. This train is moving.
 
 
Already I am seeing changes. Someone told me once, we know what we need to do to change, the problem comes in with doing it. And boy is this the truth. But I’m so proud of myself for really saying ” Okay La’Crease, this is your year”. Not only that… but I’m doing it.
 
 
Bishop TD Jakes is doing a 4 weeks series on Transformation… and its FIYAH. I know I should be at my own Church on Sunday mornings, but I’m addicted to his teachings. He speaks to me. Not only that, but he speaks to what’s going on in my life at this time. Today was week 2, and if you want you can catch it on his website. I have notes, and homework… YES HOMEWORK.
 
 
Here are TO ME the most important of my notes
  • write- the vision
  • build – according to patterns
  • invest- in what is truly you, to what I am about
 
 
Bishop asks…. What turns you on? He says Urges are temporary impulses, it makes withdraws and NOT deposits….. Instincts makes deposits * I LOVE THIS PART*
 
 
HOMEWORK- What is the will of God concerning me? Who am I? What is my truth? What makes me happy? What makes me alive?
I finally know my answers. Someone ask me these same questions, and I really didn’t know. But I do now. So I’m happy.
 
 
In other news. I L O V E POP.. And I know for a fact I could put away a 20 ounce plus a day. Around the 28th of Dec.. I made a decision to cut the pop out. Since I know this is a process. I have decided to only drink it 3 times a MONTH * trust me this is a small number compared to what I’m use too* I get to chose the occasion. So far this month I have had one drink of pop and I let it get very watery…that’s also a plus for me. I love strong pop. Well anyway…I ask my daughter how is it that she gets so much done, and stay so Focused. She said mommy I write down short term goals. She said I do this with everything in my life. I write short term goals, and long term goals, and she says she focus on doing them.
 
 
Now, I’m the kind of person who can plan a Women’s retreat for 2015 AND DO IT.. I CAN PLAN to have movie day, dinner, concert and DO IT. I can sit here and plan my homeless dinner out for the next 2 years, menu and all…. AND DO IT. I’m a GREAT PLANNER. If I tell you I can’t do something, trust me.. I really can’t. But if I agree to do something because I know I can… then its a done deal. So, after talking to Nesha about that. I went home, came up with a 6 month weight loss plan and how much I plan to lose in a month, and what I plan to do as far as making it happen. It was a done deal in my mind. See, that’s the thing about me… I NEVER FOCUS ON MYSELF, ALWAYS ON OTHERS. And even though its ALWAYS, ALWAYS ALWAYS SPIRITUAL with them… still… its NEVER about ME.
 
 
When I started cutting down on my eating, walking in my building, drinking water, and NOT POP….I am 2 pounds away from my goal weight for JANUARY and its only the 13th. My goal weight is 9 lbs. I am so proud of myself. I’m almost embarrassed that I don’t set short goals…. I’m always going for the “LONG TERM GOALS”. IM EXCELLENT AT them… never even thought about short term goals.
 
 
July 1, 2014.. I’m giving myself a photo shoot….I can’t wait!!!
 
 
Be Blessed
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Brain juice…………Crees Blog Entry

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From the “Crazy mind of Cree”.
 
 
Just sitting up here thinking about how people will do everything in their power not to use their own brains.
When I was working at Walmart customers would come right in from off the streets and say ” Excuse me can you tell me what aisle is the cheese in”? Me: Yes, take this center aisle down and make a right. Customer: Well what side is it on, and do you know how much cream cheese cost”? And I would just look at them with a stupid look and say to myself… “You just aint gone use none of your brain juice today are you? So now I have to use mines up ON YOU…. myself, and customers… so at the end of the day I’m left with 2%, and you still at 98%. Now I have to go to bed early to recharge, while you stay up all night FULLY LOADED.
 
 
Being a Christian is hard work!!!
 
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

God always knows how to make me laugh………Crees Blog Entry

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When I was a teenager I always said that I wanted TWINS. I was always amazed how GOD would even think to make people who look alike, have many ways alike, but at the same time be 2 totally different people. That’s one of the questions I cant wait to ask him when I see him face to face. What made you want to do this? I’m just fascinated by it.
 
 
I remember when I was working at Walmart and a customer would make me so mad, that after a while I would just speak and keep it moving with the others because I just didn’t want to talk. While I was ringing up customers, I would hear God speak to me and say “look up” as soon as I looked up.. I would see TWIN adults, or twin kids. And I would just bust out laughing like a crazy woman… because he know how to make me smile and laugh. I don’t have enough fingers to count up the times he did this at that job. LOL Here is a video that just warmed my heart. Thank you Lord for making me smile… even when I don’t feel like it.

 
 
 Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Don’t Stay Too Long…….Crees Blog Entry

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In this entry…. I guess I’ll blog off the top of my head. 

Its been below zero here in Detroit at night, and reaching only 0 in the day time. We had so much snow to fall in the last few days that we were snowed in my parking lot. I did go out one day to start my van and to get it warmed up. I skipped a day, but went out this morning. I really couldn’t sleep this morning, had dreams about being stuck in the snow and not being able to take care of my business. After getting unstuck in my dream, it woke me completely up. I went in the bathroom to brush my teeth and to get myself ready to go outside to start my van. 

After leaving the bathroom…. I decided to log into Facebook to see what was going on, and to check my off the hook inbox messages. As I refreshed the page, I read a post from my hair stylist Janine. She said she lost her daughter Janae. OMG I just jumped up and ran in to the bathroom. I couldn’t think at all. I got an instant headache, and I didn’t even finish the rest. I’m so shocked at this news, and horrified at the same time. I totally disconnected myself with the news for being in shock, and started putting on my double layer clothes to go outside to tackle this cold, and my van. After that I went back to read the rest of her post, and I just cried. And cried and cried….and cried, and cried and cried. I’m just completely devastated over this news. 

Her mom has been doing my hair for almost 23 years…. Janae was only 24. Growing up I remember her being a sickly child, just recently she moved to Atlanta to attend College at one of the Universities and was doing well. During the end of last year she was rushed to the hospital for a bad headache. Her mom went to be with her, and shortly she was able to go home. She was on her FB saying she was having a good day, then she had not so great days. I just loved this little gurl. She smiled all day everyday. She was the sweetest gurl you could EVER EVER BE BLESSED with. I knew she had health issues all her life, but I never expected this. I’m going to miss her on my FB page. I can’t imagine what her mom * Janine* is going through. She loved her daughter… her only one. Father God in the name of Jesus… comfort her. *Tears* 

Then I went outside to start my van, took about 20 tries for it to come on. And when it did MY HEAT WAS OUT. I had the best heat and air in the world… all I need is for it to be on 1 and it was either blazing or cold. I couldn’t get out of my parking spot the snow was so high. I had to go back in the building to get shovel. When a neighbor saw me shoveling, he got right on his phone and called one of his friends in the building to DO IT FOR ME. Wow , I see him all the time, but don’t know his name. No matter what I do or where I go. God ALWAYS send people to help me. He came out in 5 minutes and shoveled me out of my spot. I was so happy. I hot tailed out of there, and went to the grocery store. Now, I have to find money I don’t even have to get this fixed. I just sat in the van and cried a little. Seem like I can’t take any more. I feel sometimes as if I’m about to go crazy. I didn’t even have money to pay the man a little something. I made a phone call and went to pick up some money for him, I took it to him and he was very happy. Thank you Lord for that. 

I came home from running errands, sat and cried again. After a while I got on my computer and read a message from Tyler Perry ” Don’t Stay Too Long” and cried again. It was right on time, and it gave me that strength I needed to be strong. To stand, even though I don’t feel like it. After reading the message and thinking about Janae.. I thought I’m Blessed to have my only child/daughter living, and even though my heat went out in my van… at least it started up. There were people outside who had to go out and buy a whole new battery. I didn’t. I apologized to God for seeming so ungrateful today. I made dinner and took a nap. This too shall pass. 

Here is the beautiful “right on time” email Tyler Perry sent out today. 

Hey Lacrease,

 

I haven’t written in a while so this is a little long, but it’s so worth your time to read.

 

I was in Wyoming recently and I was taking in the beauty of the place. I mean, I love it. As I was looking up at the mountains I saw an eagle flying above me. I had to stop and take in its majestic beauty. I had never seen a real life eagle. All I had heard about an eagle was in church when the pastor said that the eagle pushes its young out of the nest to teach it to fly. It really did move me watching this bird that had no doubt been pushed out of the nest and had learned to do what I was watching it do.

 

I got back to the cabin that evening and I started doing some research on eagles. I was so excited to read the story of how it learned to fly. Well, to my surprise, eagles pushing their young out of the nest is a myth. I was shocked. I know that I heard a preacher say that in church… now I ain’t gonna say that that pastor lied but I will say he didn’t do the research… LOL. So I did it on my own. I did find some interesting facts that got me thinking about life… mine and yours. It’s funny how God can speak through everything. Here’s what I found.

 

Eagles build the biggest nest of all birds. It’s huge, comfortable and deep. One of the most interesting things that I found was the way that the eagle gets its young chicks to fly out of the nest. For many weeks it brings food to the nest. The little eagles have no worries, they have all they need to survive. But when the adult eagle deems that it’s time for the young eagles to fly, things get uncomfortable.

Now the young eagle doesn’t know that it’s time to fly, but the wisdom and the bird’s eye view of the mother knows that it’s time for the chicks to leave the nest. So you know what she does? She doesn’t bring food to the babies anymore, and this is what I found fascinating. Many times she will fly around the nest with the food in her beak so that the young eagles will be tempted or so hungry that they are forced to fly out of the nest and take it out of her beak. Stay with me I’m going somewhere here.

 

As I thought about this, I thought about my life and how many times I was in a very comfortable space. I had all I needed. There was no need for me to go any further because I was comfortable. I wanted to stay there forever. You have to be careful when you get comfortable and stay too long. It’s easy to stop dreaming when your belly is full. You won’t feel the need to fly at all.

 

The truth is, as long as I was there in that really comfortable space, I wasn’t fulfilling my own destiny or my purpose. I wasn’t flying, I was content. Remember this, your greatest prayers are not usually answered in comfort. Think about it. I can really get deep into this with stories from my past but you’re probably tired of reading already… LOL… so I’ll try and wrap it up.

 

It took an uncomfortable situation or being hungry to make me get out and fly. Many times in life things are going well, but then everything that was so great changes and we wonder why. We wonder what happened. We are caught off guard. I am of the opinion that in those times God, who knows when it’s time for us to leave the nest, is allowing it to become uncomfortable so that we can move on to our next mission in life. Our next hope, our next dream, our next level.

 

After not realizing this for many years and resisting changes and going through hell, I’m glad to say that I have become so sensitive to when it’s time to move that I will move without having to have the turmoil. I’m telling you I was so stubborn that the house had to burn down for me to move. Now I know better. I’m aware of when it starts to happen, like things happen that don’t make any sense. People you have been friends with or in business with or otherwise for years just seem to go crazy and you don’t know why. What I’ve learned in those moments is that it is a time to fly. Business changes, jobs go away, friends break your heart, marriages end, relationships end, and most times all these things are signs that it’s time to take flight to your next level.

 

Nobody likes change, I get it, but don’t be angry or bitter when things change. Don’t be mad with people, especially when you know you did right by them and you did all you could do for the friendship or relationship. I’m sorry to tell you this my friend, but this moment was not about them it was all about you. I’m telling you if God has allowed you to become so uncomfortable in your situation, whatever it is, then its time for you to move! Don’t be afraid, just fly!

 

Last thing and then I’m done ;-). there is one part of the eagle story that I haven’t told you yet, and this is my favorite part. If those baby eagles get out of the nest and they are trying to fly and it’s not going well, then that same mother bird that provided for them while they were in the nest, that same eagle will fly under the baby eagle to keep it from falling, to keep it on course, and give it a sense of security. God’s got you, don’t be afraid! He won’t let you fall!

 

Now here’s the question: what situation in your life has become so uncomfortable that you feel like you’re being starved for what you need? Maybe its God’s way of telling you it’s time to fly! It’s time to fly for your own dreams and your own hopes and goals. Fly for true love and real hope. This is your moment to fly, in 2014. Make this the year that you leave the nest without fear.

 

 

Talk to me, I’m listening,

 

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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