2011 has been a year of LESSON’S LEARNED for me. Its only April and what I’ve learned about people and situations just blows me away. Its so scary and spooky that I ignored so much. Am I dumb? LOL Naw, just had to face reality of what’s REAL. One thing that bothers me…….and that’s when people take what I meant for good and turn it around to fit their own selfish motives. I’m not one for BS at all, I don’t play like that. I have no problem cutting you off, if you cross me and I find out. I just wanna know what’s the motive? Like, for real this is me….LaCrease…. you don’t even have to be like that with me.
I can’t wait till Me and Neisha move to Atlanta. I’m so ready to get outta this GHETTO!!! I’m so sick of Detroit with these depressed people, who cant stand to see a smiling face. People who can’t appreciate a compliment without taking it to another level. Always having something NEGATIVE to say about EVERYTHING. People all up in your business, seeing that you’re not trying to discuss yours. But as soon as I BITE HEADS OFF and spit them out over my business and my life, people don’t have anything to say to me, well that’s all good too boo. So many people are so stressed, and depressed, that they do whatever they can to pull you in that BS, and lately its been working, and today was the last day for it.
I have never really been the person to worry or get stressed out like that over stuff, cause I understand that as soon as those issues pass, more are on the way. I never want to transfer my negativity to the next person. I know God has me in good spirits much of my life, no matter what I’m going through. It took a long time to get to this place, its not going to be easy to knock me out of my square. I’m a fighter of happiness. I’m a Youth Leader, I have to be up. But daily I feel my coat being pulled down by unexpected people………..even family members. And I’m not use to this and it really, really, really, really bothers me. If I’m out of my “lane” then I need to get back in it, because I’m “bossy’ and don’t listen. Then if I’m in my “lane” I need to come out of it, and socialize more, because it seems as if I’m acting “funny”. LOL If I didn’t know God and wasn’t so strong, people would have “thatgurltheycallCree” all ova the place. But I’m too strong for that….. and it aint happening. I’m the baddest chick!!!! God made me, and he is who I follow. Let me get off this mess, I’m back in my square tonight and here is where I belong. 🙂
Whew….baby I saw this guy I use to date today at my job. Oh he was so good to me. It was really good seeing him. He caught me off guard and ran up on me * with his beautiful demeanor * and tried to take my ring off my finger. LOL It was so cute, because I wear it on my wedding finger. I use to love seeing his BLACK SKIN on my LIGHT SKIN…. such a turn on. He really liked me during the many years we use to see each other, and I really liked him the same. Whew Cree……Let me get off this subject too. LOL LOL LOL.
I finally set a date to move to Atlanta!!!! My best friend said to me you are going to move there, but why is it that you can set dates for everything else in your life, but you haven’t set a date to move to Atlanta? I thought about that and something hit me instantly and I was like OMG…….. I got off the phone with her and my date is set. NOBODY KNOWS, and when I get there, the whole Atlanta will know Cree has touched down to turn the city out!!! I’m going to make it big there, I feel it, I know it. I’m coming to Atlanta to turn it out and to grace to city with my personality and my gifts. I’m practicing here in Detroit so that when I touch down, I will be the best person I can be. I don’t know what God will have me doing, but its going to compliment who I am. I have not even began to live my life, the best is yet to come.
Here are a few Scriptures that one of my favorite people ( Paul) wrote of the bible wrote. He said in 1 Corinthians 9 24 Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! 25 All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize. 26 So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing. 27 I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.
3 Replies to “2011 Year of Lessons Learned…”
Omg! I was talking to my mom about how people in detroit are depressed.I hv been finding myself getting into it with unexpected people to and I feel so out of character. I too feel like detroit is not my destiny. This post really mde me think about some things! Thanks!
Wow gurl I thought I was by myself. Im even finding myself thinking about things that happened wayyyyyyy to long, listening to people all their mess ( talking about the same old drama) that gets depressing sometimes. And you know I understand that Atlanta have thier issues too, but I am saying that when I get there, my whole attitude about LIFE is going to change because I NEED IT TOO. You know? Im feeling as if Im losing my way around here, and I dont like that at all. Its time for a whole new atmosphere. Im not the one to be depressed because everybody is living in that state. But its also hard to find yourself not in it. I have been praying like crazy lately gurl.
Yes I totally feel you! Keep praying and moving toward ur dreams!!!