Feeling much better

I feel much better now that I got my last entry out * A letter to God*.

I know, I know its 4:31 am and I should be sleep. Neisha is gone back to school and I\’m just chilling. I mean for real. The weather here in Michigan is just off the hook. I be so glad when winter is over………dang. When it snows….. it snows!!! I\’m use to this weather but still, it wont clear up before another 4-6 covers it. Shoo in a minute 4-6 ain\’t gon mean nothing, it keeps snowing, and people are still out and about. Speaking of out and about. When we were little kids, when we were going to go shopping or someplace exciting, if it started raining just a little, my dad would say……Oh ….we\’ll go next time. And I\’ll be like * with my big mouth*, daddy its only *rainging… lol* a little bit. He would be like No! He would do this all the time. We would plan to go out to dinner, and if it thunder to hard, he\’d be like ….nope lets go tomorrow. And I said to myself, when I get grown no matter where I gotta go, who I\’m going to see, where I need to be, I\’m going!! Nothing or nobody is gonna stop me!!! Surely enough when I got grown, sleet snow, rain, sun, thunder lightning, nothing stops me from jumping in my car and being on my way. To me that\’s that box mentality. I\’m not a box gurl, and everyone knows that about me. As long as God okay me going I\’M THERE!!! TO this day, that mentality has stopped my dad from being all he could be. He limited himself because of situations that non of us can control. Now its a difference if the car broke down, or someone broke into our house and he wanted to stay close. But to say…… oh its yellow outside, lets go in the morning. lol That\’s crazy.

For a Christmas gift I bought me and Neisha tickets, * I paid some $$$* front row to see Chris Paul and the New Orleans Hornets this Sat night. She is so excited!!! We\’re going to take plenty of photos too. She got good grades from school, she so deserve it.

I went everywhere looking for the new Essence book with Tyler Perry on the cover. I called Barnes and Nobles on Friday and the lady told me to check back on Sat, I did…… and still no Essence. At work, we ha vent gotten them in. After wards I went to Barnes and Nobles and the lady said, aren\’t you the one who called the other day?Me ~> * I\’m like yes *. She smiled and said let me go and check for you. WE both went and NO Essence. Well, tomorrow we\’ll have them at my job, I\’m off but I\’m going to pick up The family that preys, and The Marriage Counselor. Whew, Tyler owes me a Meet and Greet. I AINT PLAYING! I\’m ride or die all day for my BRO!!!

Anita Baker, Halle Berry, and Tyler Perry are going to be at the BET wards this year. Yall know Imma pass out right? lol . I hear Anita is going to sing, I hope so. People love Anita. There are so many people saying her name in their raps and songs. I want to see Notorious!! I want to see how this movie came together. I\’m not feeling the people they chose, but we\’ll see how it came together.

January 20! Its on and poppin! Obama!!! I will be glued to the TV. Dang….. who knows how to record on VCR? I don\’t! When I bought my flat screen, and called Com cast to bring me a DVR box, I didn\’t know that you can record your movies. I was still using VCR\”s? lol I have cable hooked up on 5 TV\’s and my nerd behind didn\’t know about recording from their box. I called them and asked them why didn\’t they give me one when they came out to hook up my DVR box? They said cause I didn\’t ask for one. I said who would want to record their programs for $3.00 A MONTH MORE??? Then she says, well if we come out you have to have a $20.00 money order, but if you pick it up from the office its free. I said well I still don\’t know how to hook it up!!! People know they be on tweak mode. Then they send me this other cable box for the switch over in Feb, and guess where its at? On my bedroom floor looking stupid? Shoo I duno how to hook that thang up. Then they KEEP on calling, saying Ms Walker, have you hooked up your cable box? In my mind I said GURL BYE!! I dunno what I\’m doing. lolll

Income TAX day bring yo behind on!!! Whew, Jan 16 ain\’t coming fast enough. Normally I\’ll wait to about March to get my taxes done. But this year Cree is pressed!!! I need to get these light and gas bill down. Goodness my bill is $810.00. My lights and gas are on the same bill. I don\’t like shut off notices and all I want to do is get this bill PAID OFF!! I want a new truck, I don\’t see a dime of the money to get it, but I know its coming. I feel it. I FEEL IT!!

Well, I\’m closing. I had planned on going to the movies tomorrow alone. I don\’t want to call my friends to go with me, I\’m doing me for a while. But I dunno, I may wait till Wednesday. Take care.

Lacrease

*Feed your Faith, and your Doubt will starve to Death*.