When my now 38 year old daughter was in elementary I loved kids so much that I worked at her elementary school from Preschool to her 4th grade.
I would work as a teacher assistant, and also the playground and gym when the teachers were on lunch. I loved how kids would run up to me and give me hugs, and tell me that I was their play mom because not only was I motherly but I listened to them. I heard everything they said.
One of the gurls would always look sad. She was well dressed and her hair was always done. She was one of my favorites. When she entered the playground she came straight to me. I could tell that something was going on with her. So one day I asked her. What’s wrong sweetie? She told me that her adoptive mother beat her. She would get in trouble a lot and this went on for a while. I would listen to her daily. I was shocked. But for the life of me the person I am today can’t understand why didn’t I do more to help her. I think about her all the time now. I wonder if she’s still alive, if she ever gotten the help she needed. Is she Okay mentally? Does she have a family?
I feel that I failed her. I feel like I was so wrapped up in the love I showed the kids that I didn’t do anything to help her. I don’t remember if I asked her if she told her teacher or others. I just remember that I didn’t help.
This stays on my mind a lot as we see so many kids abused these days. Back then there were no cellphones and no internet yet. Please share your thoughts.
I would love to see her today, hug her and tell her how sorry I am that I didn’t do more to help her. ❤️❤️❤️
What’s something you believe everyone should know.
I want everyone to know that Jesus is going to crack the sky. Pray, REPENT, Believe and know that it’s going to happen. Be ready. Don’t have so much fun here that you don’t think about what’s to come. Be ready and watch.
It’s well-known that Simone Biles was raised away from her mother due to her mother’s struggle with drug addiction. In a recent interview, her mother was questioned about having Simone’s contact number. She confirmed she did but chose not to initiate contact, opting to wait for Simone to reach out when ready. This decision was met with criticism by some, given that her mother’s addiction was the cause of their estrangement. Nonetheless, I Pray, Simone reaches out to her mother. It’s my wish that she finds it in her heart to forgive and inquire about her mother’s life and the battles she faced that led to drug dependency.
I understand that our parents have their own challenges, some of which they never overcome. Perhaps they lack strength or a supportive network. These challenges can drive a wedge between us and our loved ones. By making an effort to comprehend their upbringing, we might start to grasp their choices. While we may not concur, their experiences remain their truth. I hope that in having this dialogue, Simone and her mother can start healing and forge a strong mother-daughter bond.
Sunday night 11-14-21 I had plans to watch Adele One night Only.
I was sleepy when it came on and only got a chance to see her perform 2 songs before I turned it off. I absolutely love her singing. She’s beautiful and she’s interesting. She’s a person who LOOKS like she has a story to tell. And SHE DID!
I love going to concerts, music is everything to me. I LOVE LIVE performances, but when it comes to watching a concert on TV, it just doesn’t give me what I need. So, my plan was to watch the show, but fast forward to the songs I knew.
The next night, I turned it on and watched it from the beginning. I really enjoyed the open conversation she had with Oprah, it gave me a glimpse of who she is, and I loved it. She opened with Hello, which gave me a chance to check out the atmosphere of the concert. It was BEAUTIFUL. When she sung “Easy on Me” a new song that I have never heard of…. It made me cry. The lyrics. I remember asking myself, where is this coming from? I had only planned to find my favorite songs. But the going down of the sun and how the drone circled around, set the atmosphere for me and I was all in.
When she got to “I Drink Wine, I was gone. I was crying so hard, like I was at a funeral of someone close. I couldn’t figure out why and what was happening to me. I was home alone, and embarrassing myself with my crying. These were those hard cries, where people bring you lots and lots and lots of tissue, and rub your back. It was that.
So, my daughter calls and ask what I was doing. I told her that I was watching the Adele concert, and I’m crying all through her performances. Then she asked, have you made it to the proposal part? I asked her what proposal? I can tell she wanted to ask, why are you crying then if you haven’t made it to that part. LOL I never knew about it. When it did come on, I was crying even worst. But what took me over the edge, when she sung a new song off her CD 30, Hold On, then Love is a Game. I CRIED through the whole performance. Never in a million years did I expect to do that. YES, IT WAS THAT GOOD!!!! YESSS! YES! YES!
After the show was over, I sat there and asked myself, What was that all about? I went deep into my mind to see if there was someone in my life that these lyrics are relating too? What’s causing me to cry like this? Yes, its the lyrics, but who is this person. I figured it out. My daughters dad.
We are very close to this day. I love him, and he loves me. We do NOT have a desire to get together at all. We don’t even talk on that level, we have both moved on. I was 18 when we met and he was 17. At that age, you don’t know anything about love. Her lyrics took me back to the days after our relationship was over, that I couldn’t express at the time how I felt because of all of the anger. Never knew they needed to resurface. She bought them to me. Peacefully. Respectfully. Beautifully. Lovingly.
Thank you Adele for a beautiful night. One Night Only.
Growing up, my 3 siblings and I weren’t allowed to fight. We had to argue it out, then make up right there on the spot with hugs and kisses, and we hated it.
Tisha, didn’t grow up with any sisters, and now I understand why she doesn’t get how it works with siblings. She expects for Kimmi to be her Sister, the one she never had, but she has to first know how to be one. With Sisters, you have to make up when there is a disagreement, not sit with others and allow them to talk about her. Not be afraid to call and say, I’m sorry. Tisha went right to monsters mom and made her feel it was Okay to mention Kimmi, knowing they didn’t get alone. No, noone should be able to talk about your sister to you. Tisha needs to understand also with Sisterhood, that when you fall out, you call each other, talk about it and make up. Kimmi said, “I don’t know what to say to you.”
Its also so sad that Tisha’s mom doesn’t like Kimmi, and she says Kimmi doesn’t know how to be a friend. What woman wants to be “sisters” with someone who mother doesn’t like them? Girl charge that friendship, sisterhood to the game. You have to know how to be a sister, before you can request one.
Martell Holt. As Melody call him (( cracking up))), did not want Melody to touch him in therapy. I think because it would have made him cry in front of the camera. You know how you are crying about something, and someone comes and says ” don’t cry”, and it makes you cry even harder? That’s what that was all about. LOL Its Okay Martell, you better hop on board with Melody and building property so that you can start to get some of that money back. One thing that I see for sure is that Melody wants to be cool with him, only if he can stop the blame game and pick up the kids on his week. I believe that they could still did business together to complement each other and their family. I didn’t agree with the kids singing that song at the listening party, but Melody said that she didn’t know they were being filmed.
Destiny. It’s something about her, cant place my finger on it. Seems like she wanted her marriage to be private, she didn’t trust Melody at all, as we can see. she probably hated the new season was going to start without her husband. But gurl its Okay, this is life and its apart of what we have to go through. Just don’t lay on the floor and die, keep it moving, build your business like you’ve been doing.
Marsau. I see right through that FIONE, sarcastic, way with words, man. Whatever he’s been doing that’s shady, it can hit his household, and he can still come out the fire without a burn.LOL He can get away with anything. Its all in the way he mold his wife. I love these two together tho, she loves him, and he loves her, but its something shady going on with him, and one thing I do know. Keep this show on the air, and pay attention. LOL
Tiffany. This new gurl…. NOT FEELING HER. One thing about sitting in the presence of other women and you’re the NEW PERSON. You are suppose to sit down, LISTEN, shut up, and then find out where you fit in. You don’t go running your mouth , saying who you met, and what somebody else was doing. You sit there, you observe, you find out which of the gurls personality fits yours, next time maybe sit next to them. But you do NOT come to the table running your mouth talking. That’s a NO-NO. You’ll have to pry my mouth open to ANY table, function, gathering, or anything I’m sitting at and don’t know anyone but the person who invited me. Even if I know of a person, you just sit there and listen. I don’t care what I heard about any of them. I HATE GOSSIP AND DRAMA, this gurl is not going to last long. I cant wait to see this weekend episode.
Growing up my parents always took me and my 3 siblings to Church. While my friends were outside playing, for some reason I enjoyed staying in the house. I loved to read books and magazines. But It was something about Jesus that made me want to know him better. Know him for myself. So, I started reading the Bible.
It was exciting getting to know the personality and Character of God. One day I came across the Scripture that read
Luke 12:53
“The father shall be divided against the son, and the son against the father; the mother against the daughter, and the daughter against the mother; the mother in law against her daughter in law, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.”
I was HORRIFIED!
I had never heard anyone of my friends talk back to their parents or even get mad at them in this way of the bible. We sure didn’t do it in my house. So, when I read it, it took me back because if those days were coming……. it wasn’t looking good for us. In my 14 year old mind, I couldn’t see how those days would come to pass. I remember God speaking to me saying, keep on living, you’ll see. Even though I believed it with all my heart, I kept saying, I love my mother and my father, who in their right minds would go against them.
I’m 52 years old, and Father God in the NAME OF JESUS. I have seen and heard it more times in my life than I care to mention. It saddens me. Don’t they know that their days on earth will be cut short? God gave us all parents or guardians for a reason, they are not to be disrespected. We are to love and cherish them. Even if we don’t agree with them all the time. I remember getting smart a time or two growing up, but the back hand smack was on my lips before I can get the last word out. ** Laughing**. There have been times when I didn’t agree with my parents even as a grown woman, but that does not warrant disrespect.
My daughter saw how I talked to and treated my parents. My daughter is 33 years and and she has never talked back to me. I RESPECT her, and she RESPECTS ME. Thank you Lord for the teachings in the Bible.
I’ll be so happy when this virus pass. I’ve had many different emotions about my life. This thing have me thinking if I want to stay at my current job. I’m off right now because of everything that’s going on, and its causing me to wonder if I even want to go back. This time off, is really good for me and I hope others are having life changing thoughts as well. Even if its not about a job, it could be spending more time with family, moving to another city, putting money up for times such as these, starting a business. I’m starting to feel good about my future and where I need and want to be, mentally, physically and especially Spiritually.
These last few days have left me crying and feeling depressed. At some point in the night, I had to stop and think… wait a minute…. God is in control. He’s the boss and plant manager of my life. This too shall pass. The bible didn’t say, this too shall pass, except the Coronavirus. I had to really think about that. Things are going just as God approved of them to go and there is nothing we can do, but to wait it out, pray several times a day for Peace, People and yes our President.
Once I/you come to the conclusion that God is in control, you’ll start to see things in a different light, his light, and for this, I can see again.
I know its been a while since I’ve written anything here. But I lost my MALE BEST FRIEND to a trucking accident. He was a local truck driver. He’s been since I met him over 22 years ago. He loved to drive state to state for 2-3 weeks at a time, but since he started having grand children he wanted to be home more to spend time with them, so he changed his shift to locally.
January 10, 2019, My sister called me. I was taking a nap. I saw that it was her and answered the phone. She asked me if I had seen anything on FB about my BFF Rodney dying in a trucking accident. I sat straight up in bed as my heart started beating fast, I told her No. She told me to get on line, and go to our brother ex wife page. It read RIP Rodney Adams, and I was SHOCKED!!! I was mad at her for posting it, I wanted her to take it down. I was in denial and didn’t want to believe it. I asked her where did she hear that from? She told me from someone she knew. So, I went to his mom’s page, his daughter, sons, BFF, his siblings and NOTHING. No one had said a word. I couldn’t cry because I didn’t believe it. Not MY BEST FRIEND!
As the night went on I was glued to all of their FB pages and finally his sister posted. I was devastated. I knew it was true then. Still I couldn’t cry because I had just spoken with him less than 2 weeks before. We worked different shifts and when we talked over the phone.. WE TALKED!!!!!. He always made me laugh with his stories. I use to call him just so that he could make me laugh.
I can’t believe that I wont see my friend anymore. His BFF Mike for over 45 years was calling him to say that his MOTHER had passed away, just to find out the HE (((Rodney))) had too on the SAME DAY.
There was a HUMAN WASTE spill on I-75 that was backed up for miles and miles and miles. After “cleaning up” the right lane only ((( they were STILL cleaning up the other lanes))) they had to open it up to release the traffic. Well…. all of the waste along that right lane wasn’t completely gotten up. A trailer truck carrying a camper slid in the right lane on the waste leaving part of the camper hanging out of the right lane. He got over as much as he could from on coming traffic. Then Rodney comes along driving his truck, SLID in the waste as well and slammed right into the back of the man and his trailer. The driver was okay had a few injuries. The family said the first responders prayed with Rodney as he was pinned to his truck. He was in and out, after the prayer they told the family that he complained of his legs hurting. As soon as the jaws of life pulled him out, he died INSTANTLY.
The days after as it sunk in, I have crying spells daily. Even to this day. I think about him calling me all the time as he drove.
His family put him away beautifully. I miss my silly friend. He loved people, and LOVED HIS FAMILY. They said that so many times at his service, how he loved his Facetime LIVES, his family, especially his grandkids, family barbecues, Prince and his Superfriends. They are made up about 7-8 friends who went to high school together.
One thing I am grateful for…. his relationship with God. He LOVED GOD. They had the best relationship I can say this myself. I can’t wait to see him again.
Here is a song that his sister and her husband sung at his service. It happens to be one of my favorite songs from a CD I purchased years and years ago.
lIVING lIFE lESSONS 