In my OWN lane…..Crees Blog

Black Woman Running in a RaceI got the memo from GOD HIMSELF

in my hands

there are several lanes in my life

filled with people who are connected to me in some way

we all want different things

once we make it to THIS ONE destination.

The bell sound and we all run

running in my lane

I BELIEVE with all my heart the MEMO GOD GAVE TO ME

shall come to pass.

I run,

NEVER looking in or around me

at the other runners

I’m not distracted because I am in my OWN lane

everyone else has their lane

but for some reason they’re all looking at ME now.

I don’t see them

because I am looking AHEAD

in my own lane.

They continue to run

but something seem hard to them

they’re tired of running

the race is too long

but still they want to finish

I’m feeling good enjoying my race

never at all having the urge to look away

to the side, or behind

never even once.

The race is taking longer than I expected

but still I run

one by one, by one, by one

they’re starting to believe they can’t finish the race

they need a “driver” to take them to their destination

they figure, if she’s going …we’ll get there!

because they see… ….mines looks promising,

only because I BELIEVE

and they sense and see that… I BELIEVE

they figure “why run a race I cant see and believe

when SHE WILL SURELY GET US THERE BY HER FAITH”?

So they leave their lanes

to run in my MINES

so busy running the race before ME

I ignore the fact that they’ve abandoned their lane

for mines

they seem to be “cheerleaders”

“friends” “sisters” all running

with me

when all the time they’re behind me

expecting to finish this race by my legs.

IN MY LANE….NOT THERE’S

trying to run in the same lane as I.

I got another MEMO from GOD

as I run this race

saying….

“you have people in your lane

trying to piggy back off you,

and I’ve always told you that

everybody can’t go where you’re going”.

turn around

behind you, LOOK…. in your own lane

you will see that everyone

who “claimed” they’re to meet

at the same destination

are all in your lane

holding on to your coat tail

trying to ride with you.

So, one by one

I ripped them away from me

disconnecting them like a radio dropped in water

Days pass, weeks pass, months pass, a year has passed

and no sign of the runners

I am in the race all alone

others have fell short

I cry, then I smile

I can see my destination clear as day

but one

by one

by one

by one

they try their best to get back in the race

THIS TIME… IM THE BADDEST CHICK

I can see ALL lanes

those coming, those running

this time I’m looking for distracters

I see them ALL in my rear view

a prayer sends them on their way

I’m still running

and there are more DISTRACTIONS

its amazing the view I see

when I open my eyes

Still running

I’m in my own lane

I’m still running….

I am still in the race.

 

Cree

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Running the race

Lord, Thank you for living to see another day. Today was a quiet day, I wasnt feeling well at all this morning, I laid in bed till 1:55pm. Whew, to all the men, Thank God yall don’t go through what we go through its nothing nice. I’m looking rough today. Just didn’t feel like anything. Gotta work in the a.m thats cool.

 

 I’m going back on a 30 day fast tomorrow. I have too. I’ll be in and out. I’m rambling right now, feel like some kids are scribbling in my head cause my mind is all over the place. LOL I started writing out my testimony from April till now this week, I will be able to get back on it, right now I’m all over the place physically. I have some things coming up. We are getting ready to kick off donations for Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving in Oct.  My best friend Charlene is helping me, and with her we are gonna do the thing. Praise God. My group Sistergurls are having a Meet and Greet  Nov 6, 2010. Thats going to be NICE!!! I’m getting things together for that. I even have a Sistergurl who is coming from out-of-town to be with us….. and she’s staying with me. Yeaaaa

 

Wow so much has happened, and its all good. Still tripping on how God ties things together. God really loves me. I know he loves us all, but this is MY STORY. One thing about me, I may kick and fight, but when I get by myself, and get to talking to God he always reveals things to me. I may not be able to chew on everything at once, but he knows when to give me more. It’s really funny, looking back on it. He told me so many things in advance, and I still don’t know how I got to this place. You know God loves you when he tells you things in advance and it comes to pass. It was already told to people, written down and I had proof. I’m happy about that. Real happy. Lord, give me the patience to write it all down for myself. 

 

Last night I wrote a very personal story that happened to me years ago, and I shared it on my Sistergurls site. I still can’t believe that I did that. See my coworkers and lot of my friends don’t even know about this page. I shared it here before. I know when I go to work tomorrow people are going to ask me questions, then maybe they will wonder why they never knew that. While, I was writing it, I was going back and forth with God about it. Whew, I didn’t want to do it. He said LaCrease you have to be transparent. Too many people need to hear this story. How, oh that did something to me. I feel like I had to share something so personal to my IMMEDIATE family and friends. Wow, still can’t believe I post it. There is a counter on Sistergurls page, and its going up and up and up. My heart beats. I feel like they can see everything going on inside of me now. But you know what? I did it. And that’s all that matter. Here is that blog post. http://sistergurlsmyblog.wordpress.com/2010/09/19/forgive-77-times/

 

I can feel God moving in me.  He is at work . I have all winter to prepare for my race. LOL Whew that went over some people’s head but its alllllllright baby. It’s alright!! This is going to be so hard, but it has to be done. I have to do it. I have too. I want too. 

To my brother… I LOVE YOU!! I LOVE YOU!! I LOVE YOU!!!! Thank you f or saving my LIFE… through CHRIST JESUS.

 

Good Night and Be Blessed.

CREE