Day: July 7, 2014

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Sitting here thinking about MEN… (((((BLOG))))))

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I guess I’ve been in a writing mood lately.

Just sitting here thinking . I hate when men think they know me just because I show myself “friendly” smile with them and laugh. Maybe buy them water, or a fruit or something, (((because of the weather or just being nice))) then I keep it moving. Women these days have made it so easy for a man to come along and tell them anything. So when they meet me…. they feel its the same way. They feel that I’m giving them a hard time when I don’t show interest  just because I bought them something. This is how I am. You can’t make me laugh, tell me how many properties you have, and where you work to make me do flips over you. The more I make it clear that I DON’T WANT TO MARRY YOU, I DON’T SEE YOU IN A SEXUAL WAY, I DON’T WANT ANYMORE KIDS, and I DON’T SEE YOU THAT WAY…. the more they feel that they have to try harder. It becomes a challenge to some men. They come up with different “tricks” and conversation to try their best to get you on the page that they’re on. Just let me be friendly. I don’t want anything from you. All it does it turn me off. And when La’Crease Walker gets turned off….. I will NO LONGER look at you with that smile in my eyes. And to be honest, most likely… I’ll be praying not to IGNORE you. Just fall back.

I’ve learned in the past about myself is that when I gave my body to men, they had the POWER. Not in a bad way, but I became submissive, and I don’t want to be that way with just a boyfriend.. I want to be that way with my HUSBAND. I have so much POWER when I don’t give my body to a man. Set the conversations and the atmosphere SISTERS. No man have POWER over my mind or my body as long as I say NO….

Women.. know your worth. Anytime a man whats your body…. there must be some GOOD to it. Put it on ice, save it, work on your mind and your life. A man can have any conversation with you, lie, be honest and lie again, but they haven’t gained NOT ONE SINGLE THING FROM YOU.

Be Blessed

Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou

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Hell to the Neva Naw/The QUEEN of planning/Meeting Soon (((((Blog)))))

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After having Nesha, people always and to this day ask me… do I want anymore children? My answer is Hell to the Neva Naw. I don’t care how long his money is, how sweet a person he is, how bad he wants one with me, nor the fact that he doesn’t have any. I can’t even IMAGINE a LOVE that strong to make me change my mind. I can’t even IMAGINE loving a man so deeply that I would change my mind about having one with him. I be dogone if I stay home and raise kids while he work 80 hours a week. Some women would love to give birth again even after having grown adult children. At this point in my life, I want to enjoy my husband. I want to travel and stay in different hotels, take cruises and even host parties. Nesha’s dad is the ONLY man who child I have and WILL carry. Why am I even writing about this….. I don’t even talk about it in person. But IJS.

* photo Nesha her dad and brother*

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My brother is having his first baby at 41. Yesss, and we love his girlfriend. I think that he may marry her, she is sweet as pie. She’s a young gurl too only 25… see that’s what those MEN OF MONEY AND POWER want.. a young gurl to carry his baby. Well, go head baaaaby.. its your life. I aint mad at you. LOL LOL LOL He has the money to take care of them both…. did I mention that she has twins all through her family, and for 3 months she is HUGE!! We’ll know this month when she has her doctors appointment. And guess what? She asked me to throw her a baby shower. The QUEEN of planning. Yes… I’m honored. So, now I get to see whats going on with a Wedding ( Sep 2015) and how its planned ( will be interning ) and I get to throw the Baby Shower of my brother. So… I’m getting my experience in for real.

Have you wanted something so badly to come true that you can taste it? You prayed and prayed on it, and you know God is going to let it come to past, that you think about it so deeply then you just let it go… ONLY BECAUSE YOU KNOW ITS GOING TO HAPPEN SOON? That’s how I’m feeling right now. I’m so excited… every time I think about it.. I get this butterfly feeling in my heart. God has been working behind the scene all this time to make this come true. I can’t wait to see this person face to face… eye contact.. facial expression… everything in my thoughts and dreams. Father God in the name of Jesus that time is almost here.. THANK YOU IN ADVANCE!

Alright people… on my way to bed.. have a long day tomorrow……Oh yeah and  ESPECIALLY this weekend. Yesss!

Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou

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