A Phone Call I Had To Make/ BLOG

Last Monday I called my daughter’s dad and told him how much I loved the fact that he and Neisha are so close. He has 2 kids, Neisha the oldest, and a son 15, by his now separated wife. I never thought a day would exist to see them as close as they are. She loves that man, and he loves her. They are BEST FRIENDS. She told me that she has 2 Best Friends as her parents.

I’m so happy about the amount of time they spend together, they go out of town together, they go to dinner and lunch all the time, he even goes to her job just to take her lunch. I told her that when she was younger and we’d get into it, he had to have prayed to God that one day he wouldn’t have to communicate with me in order to be close to her. LOL LOL That when she was old enough, he could build his own relationship with her. And that’s exactly what happened. He told me that he loved me and that he is so proud of the way that I raised her. I told him I loved him too, and that I was so happy that he is the Father of my only child.

One thing that’s for sure, and we both tell her all the time. Whatever you do.. make sure you marry a decent man who loves and respect you. A man who doesn’t fight, or mental abuse you, because you know your dad loves you with everything in him, and he will NOT tolerate anything less.

I wrote this to say… sometimes you have to make a phone call to those who are important, to tell them how you love and appreciate them. Things change, and people change. If anything ever happen to me or him, we both know that we LOVE each other and that whatever happened in the past between us is over and done with.

Thank you Jesus for LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING. 🙂

I AM La’Crease

March 31, 2015

POSITIVE QUOTATIONS/HAPPY PHOTOS/BLOG

Happiness is not a state to arrive at, but a manner of traveling. Margaret Lee Runback.

If you observe a really happy man, you will find that he is happy in the course of living life 24 crowded hours each day. W. Bryan Wolfe

God has editing rights over our prayers. He will … edit them, correct them, bring them in line with His will and then hand them back to us to be re-submitted. Stephen Crotts

Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomfort. Arnold Bennett

I AM La’Crease

March 26, 2015March 31, 2015

Yesterday 3/19…. I was scrolling through my FB timeline and came across this Woman Pastor * won’t say her name* and her post about her lovely step daughter who had just purchased a new truck, not only brand new… but she purchased it herself! Now for those who have been reading my post for years know when it comes to our children doing well… I AM THE MOST PROUD.

I started Raisingurls to Women in my home in 2006 and have helped groomed many young teens over the 8 years to become the women they are today. So, when I read her post.. I was so geeked.. saying to myself YESSSS YOUNG GURL YESS! As the Leader I am.. I have always admired other GREAT LEADERS. Even though I don’t get to comment on her post or others on FB as much as I would love.. I ENJOY reading success stories of those under them as well. This is why I have my Raisingurls to Women site and THIS ONE to upgrade the success of my gurls as they become women. I follow them on FB and see them all the time. They look up to me, they listen to me and I have to ALWAYS make sure that I’m not nutting up on people BUT representing God at ALL times.

Going back to the post. My comment to her was YES!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! I see that you and your family are doing well, I would love to know how your congregation is doing as well. SHE WENT OFF ON ME!!!!

I have seen a few times where she INDIRECTLY went off on people on FB who she knew was reading her page. I asked that question on her FB page because as a LEADER.. I am always INTERESTED in how others under that Leadership are doing. This is why I always update stories 9 years later on my Raisingurls. I was their Leader for a while. I’m doing fine, and I’m GLAD to see that they’ve ALL GRADUATE FROM HIGH SCHOOL, a few with children..one married, and the others GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE. It interest me in that area. It tells a lot for me, and who I am as a LEADER. I was just looking for feed back from other leaders such as herself. If I didn’t know God.. she would have left a sour taste in my mouth for The Church, Women, and Leaders. But my skin is TOUGH.. the oldest of 4. I’m good! LOL That was the reason why I asked her that question. I have been following her FB page for 4 years.. she is AWESOME. I admire her. She’s a GREAT LEADER and SPEAK WITH BOLDNESS.. just as myself . I’ve never inboxed her, spoken with her over the phone, or met her. We don’t talk PERIOD! So when she posted 3 comments on her page that her daughter is a Virgin, she’s in college full time, then she started saying that she could post anything on her FB page she wanted, and started on herself on how successful she was, and that if I wanted her to coach me she could, other than that sit back and watch her family as closely as I have been. She wrote 3 different post from my question above. I was like WHOA! What type of people does she mess with? How many people/women have turned on her? What type of people are in her circle? She went completely into left field…. I WAS HEATED.. AND READY TO GET WITH HER….DETROIT MICHIGAN MURDER CAPITOL OF THE WORLD STYLE!

I just sat there in shock and shook my head remembering a post I had written on my FB page March 10, 2015…..”Look at everything as positive, Until it proves itself negative.”SHE PROVED EXACTLY THAT!. Does she care? Nope probably not.. I DO.. and here’s why. I RESPECT LEADERS. I ADMIRE THEM.. I LEARN FROM THEM….I would never ever want to go off like she did to me IN FRONT OF HER CONGREGATION, FAMILY AND FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK. AND ON MY PAGE.. I DON’T PLAY THAT PERIOD!! I would never cripple another member of Christ.. especially on FB, in front of people who they influence everyday. WHAT?? NEVER THAT!!! That will 50/50 turn people away from God. OH NO NO!!!! NEVER NAW! People who admire them, people who respect them, people who report to them. I would never want that in front of my Raisingurls. HOW DOES THAT LOOK? What does your response say? A WHOLE LOT!!!!!!! I AM NOT YOUR ENEMY PASTOR!

As I sat there and talked myself out of going “Mack and Bewick” on her on FB…. I saw the big picture. God spoke to me * so glad I can hear his voice*. He said La’Crease don’t take her comment to heart. It wasn’t even about you. She gets lots of emails, phone calls, in boxes of how she brags. Women cling to her just because they think her anointing can “jump on them”. She’s been hurt by so many women family and friends that she doesn’t know how/who to trust. That these things has made her defensive and she’s very territory about everything she love and built. Every so often she has to make it known that she knows who the people are that hurt her, that talks about her, that talk about her family, she has to prove that she is strong…God-made, and nothing will stop her. PUBLICLY OR PRIVATE.She knows they are watching. She will let it be known. He said your comment…unleashed what she was due to say anyway to anyone/those * THEY KNOW WHO THEY ARE* who have a problem with her and anything she says or does. Under all of that is a woman who loves ME.., and want to see everyone succeed. I GOT THAT! I’LL PAY FOR IT!

After hearing that…. I decided to post a comment basically saying…Wait wait… I admire you as a leader…. I just wanted to know how your congregation is doing… which like I said before I always update my pages on how my Raisingurls are doing. Off course everything was erased. I always feel that GREAT LEADERS can always report great things about those who they influence. Another thing that really made me mad was that I never ever ever go back and forth with FB people. That is so childish to me. I have 2 sisters.. same mother same father, married and grew up in the same home. We weren’t allowed to fight and that’s the reason why we are close today. We never ever ever ever EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER get mad and stay mad with each other.. and we never, EVER, EVER, EVA FALL OUT with each other. So all my life my motto is… ” If I don’t get into it with MY SISTERS WHO I SEE EVERYDAY.. I WILL NEVER, EVER, EVER GET IN TO IT WITH ANOTHER WOMAN.. OR FB PEOPLE… NOT IN THIS LIFE.” I’ll disconnect from you first. I’m 2 years from 50…..In not spending the last days in FOOLISHNESS… back and forth with folks who I don’t know .. and don’t know me. I just can’t. My thought is this.. how bout we disconnect FOR NOW and hook back up on JUDGEMENT DAY? Getting into it with women.. is just not on my “TO DO LIST”.

Sad thing is… her Church folks were commenting saying that I was jealous. Her husband and daughter checked in. Aw… man. If I was having words with someone on my FB page.. I would hope a friend would in box me and say… CREE STOP IT!!!!! STOP IT NOW!!! Disconnect from this person and keep it moving. I DONT NEED ANYONE COMING TO MY OFFENSE AND ME… saying ‘ Thank you to other subliminal messages/postings pertaining directly to the original post.” . DO NOT RESPOND HARSHLY!!! DO NOT DO IT!!!! I would be so MAD.. to see others chime in on a post where they don’t even know this other party. Assuming that I was right! Assuming that I could never do no wrong! Assuming that its OKAY TO COMMENT ON SOMETHING THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THEM. As a LEADER I THINK THAT WAY. Because in the end.. LaCrease is going to find the peace with that person. But the ONLOOKERS AND COMMENTORS wont be so quick to get over it. So sad.

Its amazing how petty we can become when we feel someone is coming after us, our kids especially….when its not even like that. In her post she talked about how great her step daughter was doing. She’s beautiful too. Now.. had I took the post as bragging and sarcastic…. we could have had a pissing contest all day about how GREAT her step daughter is and my ONE AND ONLY CHILD/DAUGHTER . But God stopped me.. that’s how WOMEN OF GOD GET CAUGHT UP. They listen to the enemy one hot second and that’s how it changes everything. End up having to erase the post, and the part I hate… people asking questions after wards.. UGH…

Even though I wanted to let her know… sister… I am not jealous as someone on your FB page said… MY daughter graduated from Wayne State with HONORS .. working on her masters. Living in her own apartment Downtown, make so much money she gives it away. Work with Judges and PROSECUTORS at the Wayne County Prosecuting Office, meeting and working with many city leaders to strengthen our Youth. Working daily with Social Workers * INTERVIEWING AND HIRING THEM* . In charge of programs in the city to help those in need for food stamps and to help with Electric/Gas Bill payment plans. Board of Directors, worked in soup kitchens weekly.. too many things to even think about. So.. we could have pissed that thread out all day. Showed her photo and LOOKED IGNORANT AFTERWARDS FOR DOING IT.. People can see for themselves.

Her dad at her downtown apartment!

But that childish. I rather for a person to meet HER in person, find out what SHE DOES, and who SHE IS .. RATHER than to read about it on FB.. ANY DAY!ANY DAY! ANY DAY! ANY DAY! ANY DAY!

In closing… Here’s what I learned. When you’re a person of INFLUENCE.. and a LEADER… never get into a pissing contest with folks in front of them. You may have to apologize later for being wrong. But if you’re prideful and arrogant.. you will find that their PRESENCE IS THE ROAR/LOVE OF YOUR LIFE.

I also learned to never ever, ever EVER fall out, bicker with OTHER women… IT GOES AGAINST WHAT I TEACH MY RAISINGURLS , its petty, childish, ignorant and ungodly. I don’t do this with MYYYYYYY 2 SISTERS I lived and grew up with since they were born….I WONT DARE WASTE time and energy doing it with other women/people PERIOD! EVA.

Look at everything as positive, Until it proves itself negative.

I learned that people pay close attention at how you handle conflict, offense, problems, issues, and debates. If you’re a LEADER, you’re graded HARDER, you have to be mindful of who is watching, what are they learning from this. Am I showing them who I am? Do I have to work harder to gain that persons trust in me over my mistake? What did THEY take from this? Are their any enemies here, or just a misunderstanding? You cannot be a LEADER and nut up on folks just because you think they are coming after you, your family and those you LOVE.

In closing… If you want to know the Spirit of that person go to their FB page and look at what is on their mind.GO BACK YEARS IF YOU WANT.. SEE WHAT KIND OF PERSON THEY ARE. Look at what they write, what their mindset is. What keeps their attention. God, Peace, Money, Stuff/Things, LOVE, KINGDOM BUILDING, Inspiration, bickering, conflict, debates, TEST THE SPIRIT. You should know better than that.. to think I would come for your family… when I have both parents alive and married. all my siblings well and doing well. All my nieces and nephews are ALIVE AND well, graduated, and not in jail. All of my cousins are alive… 1st and 2nd sets! All of my aunts are ALIVE on both sides and my parents are in their 60’s.. and I only lost a uncle. I’m blessed.. and if I love AND RESPECT my family.. I love AND RESPECT yours too. God Bless You !

Be Blessed!

If you want to be a great leader, remember to treat all people with respect at all times. For one, because you never know when you’ll need their help. And two, because it’s a sign you respect people, which all great leaders do.

Simon Sinek

March 9, 2015March 9, 2015

Places Where My Scenes Take Place/BLOG

Hey Family! 🙂

I enjoy browsing the bedrooms, kitchens, living rooms, dining rooms and other rooms online. When I come up with stories that I write…. I have to vision a room where it takes places and it allows me to write FROM THERE. Here are some of my FAVORITE photos.

This contemporary striped bedroom has glass doors that open out to a balcony with a view.

The photo above is from a scene *He Cried*. This is so perfect for the characters. Ahhh…. I am LOVING this view.

The headboard of this master bedroom is backlit and connects to the nightstands on either side.

The photo above is from a scene *Off Guard*.

Dark bedroom design with wood walls, wood flooring and dark wood furniture

The photo above is from a scene * Aunties House*

Be Blessed

I AM La’Crease

My one and only Daughter my Princess

March 9, 2015

Catfish the show….INTERNET STALKERS/BLOG

Hey Yall!

I’m a huge fan of Catfish the Show. I’m attracted to it because its so scary and it could happen to anyone! Its sad that people purposely live a life to deceive others over the internet. These people wake up everyday and have to come up with new stories and new conversations. As I watch the show and study the person doing the “catfishing”…. I can’t help but notice that there is always something going on with them. It could be loneliness, abandonment issues, attention, boredom and the list goes on. Sometimes they get so caught up in the lies they tend to believe it themselves. I also noticed that many of them never intended for the “catfishing” to go on so long. My thing is this…. what fun or “feeling” does someone get from this? Its time consuming, and not only that, but they become a person that’s not even REAL. How could that person leave the house and go on with life as normal and be connected to someone in the world as another person ?
That’s sick to me! SICK! SICK! SICK!

These people study their catfish on line, either on a BLOG FB, Twitter, Instagram and other social outlets. They know everything about them and will do anything to stay connected. Some use God’s name and Scriptures or whatever is important to that person to keep their attention. Its so sad how long they will allow themselves to LIVE THE LIE. Hurting other people is so wrong. I just hope that the catfish would get help and figure out what ever it is that’s in them that causes them to put time and energy into deceiving others. You are SICK! STOP IT!

Be Blessed

I AM La’Crease

March 5, 2015

Cree’s Ramblings/BLOG

Hey, Just getting off work…. I’m not even tired after 9 hours. Sometimes it takes a few hours for me to come down, then there are days when I come in and fall right to sleep. I have to watch EMPIRE, Little Women of LA, The MANNS, R&B Divas.. Catfish.. so many shows to catch up on from DVR. I’m off tonight so I’ll spend my day laying in bed catching up!! LOL I was just sitting here thinking about this tattletale woman at my job. I don’t get how people make themselves the snitch at a job. Want to tell what’s going on, when she don’t even know these people and what they do. It amazes me how a person can try with everything in them to “look” “perfect” in front of all the managers, so that when she run and tell them something, it would come from a person who has a “clean record”. Her face is the most twisted without a smile, non approachable.. and she knows nothing about the work or people she tells on. I caught her a few nights ago.. telling the manager on someone. Yalp.. the VIRGO in me asked her who was she telling on… called her right on out. She says oh not you… I’m saying to myself.. I KNOW NOT ME!!! Its one OF HER at every job. I guess. Anyway…

I was reading about the Monique and Lee Daniels “thingy” for the last few days and I must say I feel bad for Monique if she doesn’t get what is being said to her. I remember when she didn’t want to do the tour for the movie Precious. First of all… I’m still stuck on the little $50,000 she received for Precious. Maybe someone was in her ear after the movie was made about how low she was paid, and decided that she wouldn’t do press. That’s not a decent pay at all!!! I wonder if she’s being honest about that number. In that case, Mariah, Sherry, and Paula got paid $4.00. LOL Wow.. I think she knew what she was doing by telling the press what she was paid. I think that’s why she didn’t cooperate. Then if Lee Daniels was right about telling her that she was blackballed… she sure did put him out there. That was bold!!! Sometimes we have to step back and call out our own faults before we go pointing the finger at others. Little does she know… she really put herself out there with this back and forth with Lee Daniels. She will surely look like a trouble maker even if she isn’t one. Sometimes you gotta fall back…. well guess this wasn’t one of those times for her. Someone will always believe in you, with that said…. I wish her the best, and hope to see her on the screen soon.

Be Blessed

I AM La’Crease

March 4, 2015March 4, 2015

I’m a family gurl/BLOG

Hello Family!

Sitting here enjoying my night off. Just thinking about how God will turn things around in your life. I’m so happy that I wrote down everything that I was going through, so now when I go back and read it, it makes me feel so good that I stayed in the race. I’m living each day with a different mind set. In 2013 I packed up and moved to Georgia. I wanted a new life, wanted to move into an apartment somewhere tucked near water and trees. Sorta like isolate myself. Boy did God have another plan for me. And even though I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE ATLANTA…. I’m so glad I moved back home. I’m a family gurl. Raised with both parents in the home, I’m VERY close with my brother and my 2 sisters, not to mention the love I have for my nieces and nephews. Thing is…. I can drive/fly to Atlanta anytime, and stay as long as I want. Wow… no one told me that. LOL Atlanta will always be my second home. But NOTHING beats this DOWNTOWN DETROIT LIVING!!! I’M IN LOVE 🙂

I get to spend lots of time with my parents. When I came home, I found a 7 floor Senior Apartment * they live separately in the same complex* that is directly around the corner from me. Yes! If I leave my apartment right now, I will be at theirs in 2 minutes. I take them * my siblings as well* to the grocery store, to their doctors appointments, to dinner and other outings. They need me and I need them. My daughter lives around the corner from me, and its funny because my brother does too. My street is my brothers SIDE STREET. My daughter street is MY SIDE STREET. Yea we all live downtown and around the corner from each other. Wow God… never seen that in my forecast. We always get together for dinner and birthdays and of course just because days. Family is everything. If you can get alone with your family you can get alone with ANYONE!

I Am … La’Crease

February 18, 2015February 18, 2015

I Don’t Have To Do Anything Else…. I Am La’Crease/BLOG

Hey!

I knew this day would come for me. For so long I tried to “fight” it, because I knew that it would require me to be a different person. Not even in a bad way, nothing like that. But in a way that changes the way I communicate with people. I was having this deep conversation with my mother one day, about how strong I come on when I’m expressing myself. I feel that I have to be that way, because I feel that people see me as nice, always in a good mood, friendly, and a Christian who don’t get mad or cuss people out. And more than once, I had to show these people…. I will TEAR THAT AZZ. And I don’t like that.

So, I’ve decided to change the way I communicate. When your dad, mom, sisters, brother and friends tell you that you come on too strong, at some point you have to listen to them. I have learned to tone it down, and ITS SO FUN.. OMGGG. I don’t feel the need to comment on everything. I don’t feel the need to have an opinion about everything. I can just sit back, listen to a conversation and have little to NOTHING to say about it. I’M JUST LOVING IT.

I ALWAYS – ALWAYS felt that I had to live up to what people expected from me. To be their free personal Therapist and give feed back. I’ve always had people sit on my couch and just let it all go. I enjoyed that because it helps me to understand people. To listen to them whenever they called, text, or see me in person. To tell me their story and have an opinion about it. I NOW realized that I don’t have to call my friends everyday and listen to whats going on in their lives. I realized that I don’t have to know whats going on with people, wondering how can I help them. I realized that I don’t have to text long messages to my friends to show them that I care about whats going on with them and their situations. I don’t have to ask 100 questions to show them I love them and interested in their stories. When I showed people that I cared by asking them questions about what we were talking about, they felt that I was being “all in”. HOW THE HELL DID I EVEN THINK THAT I HAD TO “BE THIS PERSON” TO FOLKS IN THE FIRST PLACE? I don’t know. People who know me, knows that I love them and I will always be here to listen…. but its not top priority in my life anymore. I’m done with that.

I realize that I Am LaCrease, I don’t have to do anything else. When I walk into a room people notice and feel my presence. When I speak everyone listens. When I give advice, people Thank me. When people see my face one time, they never forget me. Strangers pray for me on the spot, people adore me. God LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVES ME.. I don’t have to do anything else. My job is to show Love to people. I no longer feel that I have to devote hours and conversations to people just so that they know I care, love and feel apart of their world. If you know me, you know how I feel ANYWAY. I am a people person. You know my Character. You know my Personality. I am in search of me.. its my time.

I Am LaCrease, and I don’t have to do anything else.

Be Blessed!

February 15, 2015March 2, 2015

#FIFTY SHADES/ FIFTY SHADES OF GREY/ PART 2 OF MY STORY/BLOG

(Continued) #FIFTYSHADES

I realized what he was doing…..he was interviewing. I thought to myself…. “I know dayum well he aint the one doing the interviewing.” Now… I’m staring at him. He’s so dayum fine …he catches my eye. I found it hard to turn away. I was nervous. I can’t be interviewed by him because I know me… I’ll be nervous. Oh my GOD.. I thought to myself.. this is not happening to me. Not today. Not this time in my life. I have no control, I felt weak, and once he saw this in my eyes he would take me mentally to a whole new height.

So… I sat there. I tried to convince myself that he wasn’t the one to interview me, that maybe there were several interviewers. I had to have went over this in my head about 20 times. He kept looking at me, so I decided that I was leaving. Nope, I wasn’t about to be interviewed by this man. He was NOT going to intimidate me. Nope not today. Now…. I have this thing about me, if I catch the eye of someone attractive and for me…. its one of MY “ugly” days, then I will NEVER be intimidated no matter how good he looks or turn me on. Because in my mind, I’m thinking Ok Cree….he thinks you’re cute today, just wait till he sees you looking good. So, that kinda helps me.

But on this day………………… I was looking good!!! My face was MAC FLAWLESS… skin beautiful, eyes wish a brotha would look me into these marbles and not get caught up – lol, lips poppin, hair on point * no wigs or fake hair*, smile… SMILING, eye lashes batting… had on my all black outfit with my boots…. couldn’t tell me nothing before I left out of the house. As I sat there…. I made up my mind that I was leaving. Wasn’t going to put myself through this.. I’ve been down this STREET a time or two of being CHEMISTRY intimidated and not able to get out of it. I stood up, grabbed my purse… just then I remembered that I parked valet and didn’t have my keys. Dayum.. I said to myself and sat back down. I decided that I was going to stay. That I was going to get through this interview and have full control. I fought myself all while he was still interviewing. I know me…. I’ve been though this before. There aren’t many times a woman look into a mans eyes and become star gazed on first site. Its a feeling that paralyzes you. But I must admit its one of the sexiest minutes to be apart of. But dang…. why couldn’t this happen while at the grocery store, mall or restaurant somewhere…… NOT A INTERVIEW. SHAT!

He stands up and shakes the hand of the person he just interviewed and the person leaves. My heart is pounding as he’s walking towards me to get to the desk to ask “whose next”. We make eye contact and we speak at the same time. I knew he was coming for me. I was in trouble. He goes to the desk and the gurl points at me. “DAMMIT” I said in my mind… he IS the one going to interview me. I embraced myself as he walked towards me looking me DEAD in my eyes, trying to “download” my every thought in my head…..through my eyes. We smiled and its a wrap for me…. I already know. He walks toward me and says ” LaCrease Walker?”…. Yes, I said as I stood up to shake his hand. He walks in front of me and says lets go over to this table * the one he was at while doing the other interview*. I was so dayum nervous… I started to say… “YOU KNOW WHAT?” I’m good on this job, it was nice for you to call me. I’m outta here. But I didn’t.

He sat in the chair and I sat on the couch. There was also a table there, that he had all of my information on. I couldn’t turn my mind off of how FIONE he was as he looked at my resume. He looked good from afar, but up close OH MY GAWD!!!! I kept telling myself…GURL….. get it together. It was silence as he looked down. He knew what he was doing. He was loading up on me, when he came up from that paper and asked that first question… I knew he would take FULL CONTROL. As he asked me the first question… he sat back and had his way with me. Looking me so deep into my eyes, downloading everything about me. Reading me, taking mental notes. Just dogging MEEEEEEE.. LOL Just like in the movie during the interview scene. All I could do was try to stay focus. The chemistry was so deep..so alive. So in my face. Then he asked more questions. Still staring me in my eyes as I spoke…so sexy and so sensual. I felt my body reacting to his stares. I tried to redirect my thoughts, but he kept looking at me. I know my eyes started telling him what my thoughts were… I couldn’t even help it. LOL I was slipping away yall.

Whenever he spoke about the company… that was my time to regroup my thoughts and get myself together. I kept having to have these inside pep talks with myself, because I didn’t know how much of these intense stares I could take. Just as I got myself together, there goes another question. A time for me to talk while he download my thoughts. THEN…… in the middle of me answering a question… he stops me and says… “Take off your coat”. To myself… I’m like “OH HELL to the N word NAW… um um you wont be seeing this beautiful shapely booty, my thick thighs and my waist line that carries it all. NOT TODAY!!! LOL LOL LOL I told him that I was fine. He insist. But the way he said it.. it wasn’t in a sexual way… or out of order…. NOT AT ALL… LET ME BE CLEAR…to him….. it only made sense to “get comfortable”… since I appeared to be ” NERVOUS” and the interview just started. I didn’t want to do it…. if I ever had a chance to get out of it…. IT WAS GONE NOW.

I stood up which the space between his chair and the couch I was sitting on… placed me right in front of him.. LIKE RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. I stood up and began taking off my coat… I tried to turn my head as I did it.. but our eyes locked and I PROMISE ON every TRUTH IN ME…. this man took off my coat for me!!!! His eyes told my coat to come off… AND IT OBEYED LOL LOL I had never in my life FELT SOMETHING SO INTENSE. When I took it off and sat it on the couch.. I felt like my breast, vagina, behind everything was EXPOSED! Its funny now looking back on it… but it wasn’t then. Shat…. I don’t even remember the interview after that. LOL

Whenever he spoke and shared things with me about the company, I reloaded trying to get “the POWER” back that he was “stealing” from me. LOL When it was my turn to answer the questions… my mind started failing me again.. worse every time. I starting thinking about kissing him, laying on the couch…all of this sexual stuff started coming to my mind. I’m saying to myself… “guuuuuuuuuurl if you don’t knock it off!!! I couldn’t even help it… I was under a spell. The way he was looking at me.. he knew what he was doing. I was so weak and he knew it. He controlled the whole atmosphere and he was loving it. FINALLY …. the interview was over. YES!!!! He said.. I’m going to set you up on for a second interview. I was happy about that. He told me what time to come back in 2 days. I got to my car sat in it….. and almost needed a cigarette. I don’t smoke cigarettes, weed, anything… don’t even drink.. but I needed a hit of something that day. I was in a daze all the way home. I kept hitting my wrist asking myself…. what the HELL JUST HAPPENED? The experience was GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAT!!! But dang….. not at a INTERVIEW!

I thought about that man all day and all night. I couldn’t even sleep the meet was that INTENSE. I had a plan for him.I was going to “get that ass back”. When I go back… I was going to be in CONTROL. I was not going to let him take over my mind, sexually and mentally again. I didn’t sleep for 2 days thinking about it. I remembered what he said…. he kept saying how he loved my bubbly personality. This time… I was going to be about BUSINESS . I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE that about myself. I can give you BUBBLY.. SMILES.. LAUGHS… COMMUNICATION…SEXY, everything… but when I put on my BUSINESS FACE…….YOU WILL NOT be able to figure me out… because I’m in control of MEEEEEEEEE. I LOOOOOOOVE that in myself.

The day and hour came for me to go back for a second interview… I walked up in there like I WAS PART OWNER.. LOL LOL * Sho the FORK did… Yalp had on my BUSINESS face like………..who WANTS TO SEE ME AND WHERE THEY AT? LOL LOL Guess who comes out to greet me.. looking BETTER THAN THE TWO DAYS BEFORE… GOOD GAWD…. um um ummmmm. One look into my eyes as we shook hands to greet……and he said….. “you don’t seem as bubbly as you did before”… I LAUGHED MY ASS OFF IN MY MIND. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA YESSSS ITS WORKING…. He said you’re okay? I said yessss… I’m good!!!! 🙂 I’m saying in my mind as we lock eyes… “what you want me to sit around here naked in the second interview too”? NOT GONE HAPPEN BOO. LOL LOL LOL I was so happy I had my POWER back. He was looking good though… but I was ready for him and his PARALYZING STARES. LOL He directs me to the same area we were in before. But this time I sat in the other chair that sits a table, the couch I was on and the chair he sat in. He leaves to get the person who wants to meet and interview me. They both come back, but only the guy who is doing the interviewing sits down and in the chair that handsome* sat in last time. We got to talking about the job, then about his friends, dogs, homeless people, being sick.. kids, everything. We WERE KICKING IT.. I was so comfortable… I felt so good. He was so cool.

Then…………here HE comes…. didn’t he PARK his FIONE self on the couch between me and the interviewer… sat and stared at me THE WHOLE TIME. I’m saying to myself.. GOD MAKE HIM LEAVE!!!!! I cant take it. He watched my every move, heard every word I said.. analyzed me, captivated me, sexually intimidated me, took off my clothes without ONE touch, downloaded all my thoughts, made me apart of his atmosphere, and took all MY POWER away. I tried to ignore his presence… I tried to pretend he wasn’t there. I tried to believe this wasn’t happening to me. I tried to stop looking at him. He was loving it. He knew exactly what he was doing. I had no control. The guy who was doing the interview was so into his story and life.. he had no idea I “left the building”. LOL I was at Mr. “House”. LOL I couldn’t stop looking over at him. I was a mess. He got me. He got me good. After that… didn’t even matter. I was butt naked again.. in his presence. I just let myself go. What the hell I thought to myself… he won! My thoughts took over and my nipples got hard. My vagina walls started doing the Harlem shake, flips, cart wheels… and whatever thoughts came to mind….. my body REACTED. AT one point… I tried hard to get back FOCUSED…. but it was like little kids in my head with markers, crayons, pencils and ink pens… coloring and scribble scrabbling all over my thoughts. What ever conversation I tried to muster up.. I couldn’t because the kids in my head…. scribble scrabble on my thoughts. HE got me.. h Then came time for paper work. We had to get in the elevator ALONE together.. and oh boy…. NOT THE ELEVATOR…. so personal… so sensual. The chemistry…… can’t even explain. I will say… that I LOVED the experience.. I LOVED how I felt… I LOVED the attraction and chemistry between us… but it was the wrong setting.

Please go see Fifty Shades of Grey… if you love my story… you’ll LOVE that movie… So sexy and inviting. 🙂 Listen to another of my FAVORITE SONGS from the SOUNDTRACK… Oh.. I love this song.

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A Phone Call I Had To Make/ BLOG

One thing that’s for sure, and we both tell her all the time. Whatever you do.. make sure you marry a decent man who loves and respect you. A man who doesn’t fight, or mental abuse you, because you know your dad loves you with everything in him, and he will NOT tolerate anything less.

Thank you Jesus for LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING. 🙂

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POSITIVE QUOTATIONS/HAPPY PHOTOS/BLOG

Happiness is not a state to arrive at, but a manner of traveling. Margaret Lee Runback.

If you observe a really happy man, you will find that he is happy in the course of living life 24 crowded hours each day. W. Bryan Wolfe

God has editing rights over our prayers. He will … edit them, correct them, bring them in line with His will and then hand them back to us to be re-submitted. Stephen Crotts

Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomfort. Arnold Bennett

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Crees Ramblings!!! 3/26/15

I have got to start with last nights HAHN… baby when I tell you Veronica is the woman that lives inside of me if I was a BAD PERSON… she is the one!

Fork outta here with that!!!

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Leaders Be Mindful/BLOG

Places Where My Scenes Take Place/BLOG

Hey Family! 🙂

I enjoy browsing the bedrooms, kitchens, living rooms, dining rooms and other rooms online. When I come up with stories that I write…. I have to vision a room where it takes places and it allows me to write FROM THERE. Here are some of my FAVORITE photos.

Catfish the show….INTERNET STALKERS/BLOG

Hey Yall!

Be Blessed

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Cree’s Ramblings/BLOG

Be Blessed

I AM La’Crease

I’m a family gurl/BLOG

Hello Family!

I Am … La’Crease

I Don’t Have To Do Anything Else…. I Am La’Crease/BLOG

Hey!

I Am LaCrease, and I don’t have to do anything else.

Be Blessed!

#FIFTY SHADES/ FIFTY SHADES OF GREY/ PART 2 OF MY STORY/BLOG

(Continued) #FIFTYSHADES

Please go see Fifty Shades of Grey… if you love my story… you’ll LOVE that movie… So sexy and inviting. 🙂 Listen to another of my FAVORITE SONGS from the SOUNDTRACK… Oh.. I love this song.

Be Blessed!

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