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Cree’s Ramblings/BLOG

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Hey Family!!! I have lots to talk about tonight!! Lets jump right into it.

I’m a thinker, and this is one I’ve been thinking about for a while. Years ago when I was a young gurl before the age of 14, my dad always told ME.. that I had a sister out there. She was his step mothers  SISTER. It was a huge secret back in the day because at the time he was young and still at home, and if his dad knew this, he would have kicked him out of the house FOR GOOD. So the gurl had the baby, but it was a secret who the father was until later on in the gurls life when people started to talk.

For me…. I always wanted to meet her. I’m very close with my siblings and to find out that I have a sister out there was like heaven for me. I thought about her all the time. Asking my dad questions he didn’t want to answer sometimes. But one day he got a knock on the door.. and it was HER. Not only did she come for answers, but it was also told to her that her mom was raped by my uncle((( by marriage))) , and that it was a possibility that she was his child. My cousins (( his daughters)) wanted a blood test to know either way, but that never happened and it kinda devastated me.

One day she called and said that she was coming to Detroit to visit her family and that she wanted to meet up with me and my siblings at my dad’s house. We finally had the meet I PRAYED TO GOD FOR. I got to see her face to face, stare at her, hug her and just Thank God for that moment. But when she left, we didn’t communicate much at all, and when my uncle who she felt was her dad.. passed away…. she made it known that she felt HE was her dad. I was good with that part. Because I Thanked God for us meeting. God gave me exactly what I asked for… and that was to meet her face to face. But I expected more. I wanted to have a blood test taken, and if she was my Sister start a relationship with her,  my niece and nephews. I feel that I was “short changed” in a way. She decided not to take the test , and I had to be good with that choice she made. Its funny, how God will give you the desires of your heart, but he never reviled  the outcome. Thing is, he comforted me during those days after the meet. I cant be mad at him for how things turned out, because he gave me what I asked for… A MEET. There will always be a “what if” in the back of my mind  when I see her post on FB. I love her and Thank God all the time that I got a chance to meet her. 🙂  🙂  🙂  🙂

Which brings me to Tyler Perry.. another person who I always wanted to meet since I was introduced to Madea. I love me some Tyler Perry and the work that he brings to life on stage and on the screen. But since meeting my sister and having HIGH EXPECTATIONS… I’m good. Not that I don’t want to meet him, I want him to want to meet ME. I’m just not good with expecting something so great to happen (( a friendship with him and my sister as well)) and it not happen. If its God’s will.. it shall be. Other than that I’m Okay. I’m going to sit back and let God do this… I’m out of it. It feels natural that way 🙂 🙂 🙂

I AM La’Crease (( I don’t have to do anything else))

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My DREAM OF SAVING SOULS /BLOG

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Tuesday Morning June 23, 2015 I had a dream.

I had a dream that I was in this building with lots of rooms and people. In every room it had only a HUGE MIRROR.

I WAS IN CHARGE, like in all of my SPIRITUAL dreams.

We were surrounded by MIRRORS. Instead of looking at the person, I was looking in the mirror at the person I was telling to “wake up”as I was pointing to where the EXIT doors were. I knew the world was coming to and end, and if they didn’t listen to me, their faces would BURST INTO A BIG BALL OF FIRE, which meant they DIED.

I wanted people to LIVE (( which meant)) getting out of the building. But they were in another ((mind set)) and felt why was it necessary to leave…. in the first place?  Instead of them focusing on leaving, they chose to put all their ENERGY in wondering…. WHY  I WANTED THEM TO EXIT SO BADLY.

Some people were looking at me like I was crazy and didn’t listen. For some reason they wasn’t comprehending that Jesus was on his way, and it was their last chance to be saved. Instead they chose to wonder why I was telling them to EXIT.

As time went on, I was so deep into telling people where the EXIT signs where, that as this one person I was talking to FACE BURST INTO A BALL OF FLAMES… I was too close and mines caught on fire too. I was dying. In my DREAM… it was like I came to myself (( knew I was dreaming)) and told God that I wanted to LIVE. I told him that I wanted to ((wake up from my death)) and go back into the building to tell the other people where the EXIT signs were. Well, God listened to me, and he permitted me to go back into this  BUILDING with lots of mirrors, rooms and people to tell the them one again where the EXIT signs were.

When I got back into my dream…  I looked into the mirror to tell this other person where the EXIT signs were, and saw that MY FACE was covered with a WHITE TOWEL. I could still hear my voice, it was my body, but my face was covered. My face was burned up so bad that God put a WHITE TOWEL over it. I remember not caring at all, because all I wanted to do was tell people about the EXITS. After telling so many people and going room to room, I heard GOD SAY TO ME LOUD AND CLEAR……now its time FOR YOU….. TO HEAD FOR THE EXIT. I heard him, and I got out of the now….. BURNING BUILDING. All who didn’t listen to me…. perished.

I AM LaCrease (( I don’t have to do anything else))

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Let me share this dream I had . Me and my daughter was walking down this block and all of a sudden it started getting dark and spooky. My first reaction was to be scared. But then I remember in the bible about things to come and those who don’t know God wont be able to understand what’s happening. So I remembered the word. My daughter looked at me she knew what time it was too, so I grabbed her hand and said come on Neisha lets get across the street, that’s the only way we are going to be saved! It was like that side was safe, and the side we were on turned into Hell! It looked as if it was lighting, and storming, put it this way…………the end of the world had came.

We had to cross this big street that seem as if it was taking forever to get across. Once we got there, we saw lots of people, some were looking crazy some just was plain lost. So for some reason, I was in charge, I spoke up and said to the people. LOOK, LISTEN EVERYBODY, the world is coming to an end!! I said if you want to live you have to wake up!! In my own mind inside of the dream I knew that I wanted to live, so in order to live I had planned on waking up out of the dream, I just wanted to make sure that they knew what to do, since some of them didn’t know what was going on, I knew that I had a way out. So I said LOOK YALL, WAKE UP. I looked at Neisha and said boo, you wake up first, I couldn’t wake up without her going first. People were waking up because a bubble would burst in the spot that they were standing in. So I said Neisha go head and wake up. I looked at her and then saw a bubble. I told everybody wake up if you want to live, and THEN I BUBBLED OUT. (LOL)

 

 

I woke up out of my dream.

 

I looked around my house, I got up, walked around, and couldn’t stop thinking if those other people woke up. It was on my mind so tough. I couldn’t believe that I had a dream like this. So, I laid down and said I need to go back to this dream to see if those people left. I laid down went back to sleep, and guess what? God let me go BACK to see if those other people were there. I pop back in the dream like a bubble. It was only a few people left. I said WHY DIDNT YALL POP OUT?????????????

 

They looked at me and said: WE CANT WAKE UP.

I felt so bad for them, so bad. There was no way for me to help them, they had to pop out themselves. All I could say to them was well IM OUT!! Then I woke up out of the dream.

 

Deep? I’m always thinking about this dream, its one of the few I remember.

 

I love you all!

Lacrease

It was this  black lady who wore all black, something like a Levi pant and jacket outfit. She was always smiling, but EVIL as HELL. She had built this very large, what looked to be  an old school film projector that my teacher used at school back in the day.  This thing had wheels on it and did everything she told it to do. Everybody  was scared of the Power this woman had. She had terrorized the whole neighborhood, and was going block to block at any given time and was commanding this thing to shoot fire balls out on people. I was sooo scared in my dream I didnt know what to do. I remember peeping out my door and window just to see if her and this machine was going to come our way.

I was in the house with all my family members, we were together just in case we got killed. Somehow she got into my house and she kept looking at me. She said * Im about to do the paper work on you cause youre about to DIE*. She was staring at me, doing this dance and saying over and over again, that she was going to get her machine to set me on fire. She made me go outside but my family had to stay behind and watch me die looking out of the window. She was standing at a desk outside, still doing *paperwork* on me when I bust out and said. *Thats okay, you can kill me, but when God comes Im going to watch you burn in HELL!!! I said Im going to wake up again, but you are going to burn forever!! She was sooooo mad at me, but I kept talking and thinking that she was going to kill me anyway, so I should tell her how I felt. I looked down the street and here was her machine coming up the block. OMG I was so scared. I just kept on saying my peace to her, still she was doing her dances and telling me that I was about to die!!! I started praying and asking God to forgive me for all my sins, I told him that I loved him and my family and that I wanted to be with him forever.

 I felt peace.

 Then….. I looked up to the machine and she told it to KILL ME!!!! I fell to the ground,  I felt heat but only a little bit…………. then I died.

 As I was laying there in front of my house on the  side walk, all of a sudden this tall, HANDSOME, thick thigh , big stomach * like I like em man* PICKED ME UP off the ground and KISSED ME! When he did that I woke up. I was ALIVE!!! He had me hanging over his shoulders and he took me into the house with my family. He sat me on the couch and the lady that wanted me dead walked in. She couldnt see me at all but I could see her. Somehow she knew that once he kissed me and I was ALIVE, that she couldnt do anything with me  OR MY FAMILY EVER AGAIN. She was MAD too, because she wanted me dead. I was sitting on the couch watching it all go down.  He said a few words to her and she left. He told me that he was an Angel, and the way he looked at me, our vibe, and connection was strong. I knew right then and there that I was going to be his wife. Then I woke up…… I couldnt go back to sleep because that dream was so powerful. It felt so real. I was alive and she didnt have power over me anymore. My family was there they were so happy. I don’t know what this dream mean, but  I DO know its Spiritual. If someone who knows about dreams could comment or post, PLEASE DO SO!! PLEASE PLEASE! 

 Thanks for reading

Lacrease

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GOD Chose MEEEEEEEEEE…. CREEEEE?/BLOG

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Hello Family 🙂

Today I was laying in the bed thinking about how God works in my life. Its so unreal, makes me smile and LAUGH at the same time. When I was 19, I was so in LOVE with my daughter’s father. God told me that I LOVED that man, more than I LOVED him. I was devastated when God said that to me one day as I was washing dishes. Because for some reason, I felt it may have been true… not on purpose… but maybe a fact. I didn’t like that one bit, and I MADE SURE I DIDN’T LOVE ANY MAN like that EVER again. I know how to LOVE.. because I learned it from my parents and growing up with close siblings. So after God revealed that to me, I continued to show men LOVE… because its in me. While they thought I LOVED them so hard (((  but I was just loving how I was taught))).. they ALL were disappointed, sad, and in a state of disbelief when the relationship was over, and I walked away like a car tore up in a accident, with no scratches on my body. That’s one thing about me that I LOVE….. I can walk away and never look back… all while STILL LOVING you at the same time… but in a “out of your life” way.

I LOVE GOD MORE THAN ANYTHING… and just because I show you the LOVE and LOYALTY you may not have experienced from someone else outside of your family… doesn’t  mean LACREASE WALKER won’t walk away like I never knew you…. because I CAN….in a way that will make you ask yourself… “Did she even LOVE me in the first place?” And that answer is…Yes I did/do.

Okay, I got off track. I was so in LOVE with my daughter’s father, that it took me forever to get over him. That was one of the hardest things to do. Back then, there was no social media where you can read up on other stories and then come to the conclusion that this man is not the one for you. We didn’t have access to other women who was going through the same thing to connect with. We had to learn on our own. I was secretive, so a lot of things I went though alone. I didn’t know that SEX was the connection that kept me going back to him. When I cut off sex, I was able to move on. Took me years and years, and years to realize that. But here is the part that got me laughing and talking to God about. He is using MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE…. to talk to the broken women who are going through the same thing in this time and day. SO MANY women email me, talk to me in person, send text and other messages about the same thing. At first I was like… “Ok God, why are these ladies coming to me… I had a hard time back in the day trying to get over the LOVE I had for my daughter’s dad?” He said because you are over that, and you are the one who can reach these women. WOW WHAT AN HONOR…. When I think back on those times.. I don’t feel qualified AT ALL!! MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE??????? God are serious? Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? CREE?????? I was so broken, hurt, ashamed, embarrassed, depressed, lost, had an abortion, MEAN AND EVIL… any and everything you can think of.. and GOD SENDS ME TO HELP THESE WOMEN?????????? MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?

I must say… GOD KNOWS BEST…. because I have spoken with SO, SO, SO , SO, SO many women about relationships, hurt and things associated… that this is truly apart of my calling. I am helping these women to find themselves, and to get back to God. Women are a magnet to me when it comes to this area of their lives…. and I love it. I’ve been there. I know the pain. I know the hurt. I know the thoughts and the cries at night. I know it all. I just want to say THANK YOU LORD FOR CHOOSING ME! I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD AND SEND YOUR DAUGHTERS BACK TO YOU, SO THAT YOU CAN SEND THE MAN DESIGNED JUST FOR THEM!!!

I AM La’Crease ((( I don’t have to do anything else)))

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You Never Know Who You’re Talking To/BLOG

Hey Family!!! A few days ago, I was on break with one of my FAVORITE COWORKERS… I just love that gurl. When she took off her shoe and began to unwrap  the bandage that was on her foot. I asked her why did she have that on…. she said I got shot. I asked her if it was personal, if so that was cool not to talk about it. But when she said its not personal,  up until recently she was able to share her story with me. I WAS HORRIFIED OF THE STORY SHE TOLD . Here it is.

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FLINT, MI – Police believe the suspect in Wednesday morning’s triple homicide thought the surviving victim in the quadruple shooting was dead when he fled the scene,officials said today.

J Mills, 20, of Detroit, suffered two gunshot wounds that shattered her pelvis and was beaten and strangled after three others were killed inside a Flint home, said Genesee County Prosecutor David Leyton.

The woman was left unconscious, but survived and got out of the house through a window before getting help and providing police with a description of the suspect and an account of what happened, Leyton said.

“She’s very brave. She’s also very badly hurt,” Leyton said. “She’s been a lot of help.”

The woman is still being treated for her injuries and is in stable condition.

Triple homicide suspect chargedView full size(Griffin Moores | MLive.com)Genesee County Prosecutor David Leyton announces charges against a Detroit man suspected in the Wednesday triple homicide in Flint, Mich. on Thursday July 19, 2012.

The four victims were shot around 3:30 a.m. Wednesday inside a home on Tacken and Frazer streets.

James Paul Simpkins, 20, of Detroit, was arrested a short time later and charged Thursday with three counts of open murder, one count of assault with intent to murder and felony firearm.

Family members haveidentified one of the victims as Anthony Simpkins, who was the suspect’s brother.

Officials have not yet released names of the other victims, one of which is believed to be Mills’ sister.

Leyton said Simpkins called 911 after fleeing the scene and told dispatchers he was assaulted and that his brother and another person were killed.

After receiving a suspect description and searching the area, police found Simpkins walking toward them and picked him up near Miller Road and Barney Avenue, later receiving more information implicating him in the city’s first triple homicide since 2009.

“He tried to pass off a story of something else that had happened,” Leyton said. “We believe he thought (Mills) was dead when he left… Good police work allowed authorities to determine who was the shooter.”

Simpkins is accused of opening fire after being enraged when one of the victims taunted him and called him crazy.

“They all knew each other and were partying with drugs and alcohol when the violence erupted,” Leyton said.

One of the victims had recently moved to Flint and the rest of the group, all from Detroit, were visiting, he said.

The three slayings and two more that occurred earlier this week have frustrated residents and city leaders after a number of new crime-fighting effortsincluding altered patrol techniques, technology upgrades and manpower help from state police were just put in place.

But officials have repeatedly said police presence could not have possibly prevented what happened inside the Tacken Street home Wednesday morning.

“I don’t believe there’s any number of police officers that you could have stationed outside this house that would have prevented this crime,” Leyton said.

“The only thing that would have prevented this crime was not having a gun in the house.”

Simpkins is expected to be arraigned Friday. It was unclear whether he has retained a lawyer.

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Women Let’s Come To A Place/BLOG

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((( My friends TC, Kema & MG)))

I’m always thinking about the relationships between women, and how we can communication without being offended all of the time. I use to be a person of constant confusion. Always the one arguing and debating with someone out of the group. When I debated I went hard, non stop, making examples and proving points.

Today 2015, I don’t have time for that.  I will shut down an argument before a person could finish a sentence. Looking back, I didn’t have peace within myself. I was always in my own way, always had to prove someone wrong, always wanted to be right. UGH… so glad God had me to step out of my own picture so that I can see it from a distance. Now, don’t get me wrong… this Virgo can go toe to toe in a nice respectful debate * I raised a Lawyer* it doesn’t have a hold of me anymore. I don’t have to go hours. I can say what I have to say and be quiet. OMG I love that about myself now. Its so fun to be quiet. Ask the question.. and leave it alone. But the point I’m making is… Women have to come to a place where we can say  what we have to say in a respectful tone, and keep it moving. We’re so quick to fly off the handle.

One of my coworkers came into work late last night. As she was talking to a group of people, another coworker asked her a question. Not sure how it was asked, or how it was received, but the ladies got into a heated argument. It was way out of character for them both, so as I as exiting the restroom, the gurl who was asked a question was in there too. I asked her what happened out there? She looked at me with tears in her eyes, she said I lost my grandfather today, and the hard part about it is.. I never seen my grandma go crazy like that. It was so sad seeing her this way, she burst out crying. She said you know I never get into it with anyone, she said I hold a lot in, but this is bothering me because I loved my grandparents and its sad to see my grandma this way. I gave her a hug. Told her this is why you got into it with the other young lady. I said that was not you or her at all. After comforting her, I asked if it was alright if I shared that information with the other gurl so that they can clear things up. She said yes, and as soon as I talked with the other gurl, she went right to her immediately and they talked.

LIFE LESSON: Sometimes we need to communicate whats going on with us. Especially if we’re going to stay in the presence of others. Sometimes its hard to open up to others about personal matters, but its the PEACE TO UNDERSTANDING. All is well with the ladies. Amen!

I AM La’Crease ((( I don’t need to do anything else)))

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THANKS FOR THE LOVE/BLOG

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Hey Family!!!

Just stopped by to show some love!!! Thanks for always stopping by to view my page. Feels good to know people are reading, and I hope to spread some of this LOVE ..God gave me with you.

I’ll be back later on this week to catch up!!! Remember FAMILY IS EVERYTHING!

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@Tylerperry Detroit, Michigan Show… 4/3/15… Madea On The Run!!!/BLOG

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Friday Night April 3, I went with my Sister #samemomma #samedaddy IMG_2134  to see Madea On The Run! ( photo of her that night)

WE went to Steve’s Soul Food on Franklin.. before the play. We left there about 7:15 to head over to the Fox. I forgot that Kat Williams, Kurt Franklin and Tyler Perry was in Detroit that weekend. Not only was it rainy, but it was jammed packed downtown. I live 5 minutes from the Fox Theatre.. probably not even that far without the railroad construction. Parking in the Fox garage was $15.00 not bad…. if you want to hurry up and get home after the play. FullSizeRender (39)I was surprised to see that they had opened the side door and let folks into the auditorium . That was surely a plus, which meant we didn’t have to walk around to the front in the rain.

Once we got in… my sister got a drink and we headed to our seats. I love that looooooooong walk to the front of the stage. FullSizeRender (37)People looking at you, saying to themselves…. “I wish we were sitting that close”, or “I know they’re happy”, and the #1 saying…. “next time we’re getting our seats early so that we can sit in the front.” LOL I know the feeling. One year some friends wanted to go to a play and made me “plant manager” of getting the tickets. People took so long getting their money up, that we sat so far in the back. I said never again! I will ask only people who I know have money on hand, waiting to get Tyler Perry tickets will have you sitting on the roof. Not thatgurltheycallCree! Those days of buying play tickets and concert tickets 1 or more days later than when they went on sale is LONG OVER for me. If I’m going to pay to see anybody, I’m going to have good seats.

As we took our looong walk to the second row from the stage (B) my Sister was smiling from ear to ear. I told her messing with me, you’ll have you the best seats EVERYTIME!!! We met some very nice people from our row. As a matter of fact, the gurl who sat next to my sister took and shared with me photos from the play. Me….. I’m a scardy cat. I could only take a few of my own… too scared I might get caught or told to put the camera up. I can hear the man now… “Ummm excuse me…. but Um…. Imma need you to put a your cellphone away… if not you can step to the rear of the coach * EXIT* signs. Not Cree! The gurl was snapping her head off too. As a matter of fact many people around me was. We sat on a row with all white people and about 3 blacks…. and they were snapping photos like they were at a wedding. I had my Sister cracking up… told her… not me… Security won’t be tapping me on the shoulder! LOL I don’t want no trouble. LOL But at the very end on curtain call when everyone were pulling out their phones.. I recorded the whole thing from my second row. Yeaaaa Cree.

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So once the curtains opened… all you see is this BIG BEAUTIFUL SET… oh my goodness.. IMG_2096Tyler Perry has the best sets in the world. You can tell he puts his heart and soul into them. He makes you pay attention to EVERY DETAIL of the rooms. MY VIRGO ASS…. always have to leave the show mentally and go behind the scenes. I use to hate that about myself, but since I’m practicing as a Wedding Coordinator I UNDERSTAND WHY!!!! That’s how my mind is set up. To go directly behind the scenes to make sure everything is right. This is a behind the scene feature that I can’t turn myself off from and I get it now. When one of the Characters microphone went off * well never was on as he entered the set*, I’m sitting in my seat like “Oh my goodness”… (((not in panic)))… but in… OKAY let me see how he plays this until it comes on. LOL He did LOVELY… When he was talking to Aunt Bam, he made sure that he was close to her mic so that when he spoke he was heard. It came on after a few moments. Then Tyler Perry with his silly self… came right out ((( AS MADEA))) and mentioned it. LOL LOL Just like a VIRGO.. we aint gon hardly let that happen and NOT MENTION IT????? Oh no!!! Are you kidding me? LOL So that was funny. People were cracking up. IMG_2101

Once I finally turned my mind off (((as if I’m working this show behind the scenes)))… I was able to focus. Then Tyler ((( Madea))) moves the chair around to its *rightful place* as he stayed in Character… LOL That man cracks me up. People ask me all the time what is it about Tyler Perry that you LOVE adore so much? My answer… He is so funny to me. We are always on the same page with Life Lessons and how we word things. How we get things. For me its all about the Lessons. He can tell a story in a way that people “get it”. And I love that about him. To me… he is the male version of LaCrease. The way I see him… is how people see me when I speak. I see me in him and I love that.. because it tells me that people really do  listen and they really do get it.

No matter how long the show is (((( it was about 2 1/2 hours long))))… I always want to hear more from Madea. I LOVE when she talked about kids talking back. LOL I sat next to a young boy who was with his family. They appeared to be Chaldean.. it was a whole lot of them too. He had to be about 12. I don’t think this boy had a mouth… cause he WATCHED MADEA SO CLOSELY as if his teacher told him to come back word for word what Madea spoke on. LOL  He was glued to Tyler. He was amazed at everything. He didn’t miss a beat. He was fascinated. He was mesmerized at the set,  the performance,  the Transformation of Madea… LIVE. Then I started getting embarrassed because Aunt Bam talked about smoking weed, and it may have come off as glorified to the boy….. of course NOT TO ME. But I really wanted to know how did he take in those scenes when it was discussed. Even during the intermission, he was glued to the set, to the stage… he was taking something in…. wished I would have asked him. DANG!  MISSED OPPORTUNITY!!!! Guess I was too busy working (((mentally))) behind the scenes making sure that set didn’t fall over on my dayum head, LOL LOL Just playing!!! LOL FullSizeRender (36)

I LOVED THE SHOW!!! LOVE LOVE LOVED IT. One thing that was missing… IS A PROGRAM BOOK!!! Whats up with that Tyler? Everyone loves to take home a program book from a PLAY. That’s one of the highlights of the evening.  Thats very important to a play goer. I enjoyed the play dearly. But of course I’m a Tyler Perry RIDE OR DIE…  RAIN OR SHINE …baby * in my Monique voice* ….don’t take my word for it.. GO BLESS YOSELF.. when HE comes to your city! LOL

Alright here is a special treat. I taped the casting call at the end. THIS IS FROM MY SHOW FRIDAY APRIL 3, 2015.Um excuse me…. Did Tyler Perry wave at me @40 (((…. SURE DID… :))))!

P.S. Tyler Perry thick as HELL!!! OOO Weeee yesss.. now this is how a 40ish man should be looking. Look at those thighs.. and how he ran down those stairs! yessssGB YOU BETTA HANDLE THAT GURL! 🙂

I AM La’Crease

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Special……./BLOG

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Hey Family!

So this morning, I was downstairs of my apartment building admiring our brand new fitness center, the business area, 24- hour security area, the new ” man cave” that is currently being built in our lobby. Not only that, but our convenience store is expanding, and its looking good.

I sat in awe as I watched the workers work, when a resident who was sitting next to me got my attention by asking did I remember him from the other day. I told him yes I did. I remember that day clearly because we were on the elevator just he and I, when he told me that I had the sweetest Spirit that he’s have ever felt on a woman, and told me that every time he sees me that I’m always smiling and for me to always stay that way. But this morning, he told me that after seeing me that day he went home and prayed. He told God that I was beautiful and lovely and asked him was I the one for him. God told him No. That the man for me is still out there, tall and perfect for me. That he will LOVE everything about me, he said that God told him that I was Special. Very special. And that I had to be handled as such. God told him that I loved him very much and it takes someone special to understand me. WOW.. WOW… WOW!!!

I just sat there like wow. I knew that it takes a special man to “get me”. And its so cute that he asked God was I the one for him. Awwww. Well, I’m glad that he obeyed God because people think just because folks are nice and friendly to them, they’re the one. No, no, no.. and yess its going to take someone SPECIAL to hook up with this SPECIAL woman. I do know this… when that man first lay eyes on me, HE will know.

LIFE LESSON:  16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. Matthew 5:16

Women wait on God. I know it may be hard sometimes with all the men that we meet daily and with all the sex that we feel our bodies are craving. Hold out. When a man (((total stranger))) can feel your Spirit, and have no idea what kind of relationship you have with God, and can tell you how Special you are. When  GOD HAS ALREADY SPOKEN THIS VERY SAME WORD to you…. you know its confirmation. Stay in the race…

Know your worth.

I AM La’Crease

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#FIFTY SHADES/ FIFTY SHADES OF GREY/ PART 2 OF MY STORY/BLOG

LET ME IN 50 SHADES

(Continued) #FIFTYSHADES

 I realized what he was doing…..he was interviewing. I thought to myself…. “I know dayum well he aint the one doing the interviewing.” Now… I’m staring at him. He’s so dayum fine …he catches my eye. I found it hard to turn away. I was nervous. I can’t be interviewed by him because I know me… I’ll be nervous. Oh my GOD.. I thought to myself.. this is not happening to me. Not today. Not this time in my life. I have no control, I felt weak, and once he saw this in my eyes he would take me mentally to a whole new height.

So… I sat there. I tried to convince  myself that he wasn’t the one to interview me, that maybe there were several interviewers. I had to have went over this in my head about 20 times. He kept looking at me, so I decided that I was leaving. Nope, I wasn’t about to be interviewed by this man. He was NOT going to intimidate me. Nope not today. Now…. I have this thing about me, if I catch the eye of someone attractive and for me…. its one of MY “ugly” days, then I will NEVER be intimidated no matter how good he looks or turn me on. Because in my mind, I’m thinking Ok Cree….he thinks you’re cute today, just wait till he sees you looking good. So, that kinda helps me.

But on this day………………… I was looking good!!! My face was MAC FLAWLESS… skin beautiful, eyes *wish a brotha would look me into these marbles and not get caught up – lol*, lips poppin, hair on point * no wigs or fake hair*, smile… SMILING, eye lashes batting… had on my all black outfit with my boots…. couldn’t tell me nothing before I left out of the house. As I sat there…. I made up my mind that I was leaving. Wasn’t going to put myself through this.. I’ve been down this STREET a time or two of being CHEMISTRY intimidated and not able to get out of it. I stood up, grabbed my purse… just then I remembered that I parked valet and didn’t have my keys. Dayum.. I said to myself and sat back down. I decided that I was going to stay. That I was going to get through this interview and have full control. I fought myself all while he was still interviewing. I know me…. I’ve been though this before. There aren’t many times a woman look into a mans eyes and become star gazed on first site. Its a feeling that paralyzes you. But I must admit its one of the sexiest minutes to be apart of. But dang…. why couldn’t this happen while at the grocery store, mall or restaurant somewhere…… NOT A INTERVIEW. SHAT!

He stands up and shakes the hand of the person he just interviewed and the person leaves. My heart is pounding as he’s walking towards me to get to the desk to ask “whose next”. We make eye contact and we speak at the same time. I knew he was coming for me. I was in trouble. He goes to the desk and the gurl points at me. “DAMMIT” I said in my mind… he IS the one going to interview me. I embraced myself as he walked towards me looking me DEAD in my eyes, trying to “download” my every thought in my head…..through my eyes. We smiled and its a wrap for me…. I already know. He walks toward me and says ” LaCrease Walker?”…. Yes, I said as I stood up to shake his hand. He walks in front of me and says lets go over to this table * the one he was at while doing the other interview*. I was so dayum nervous… I started to say… “YOU KNOW WHAT?” I’m good on this job, it was nice for you to call me. I’m outta here. But I didn’t.

He sat in the chair and I sat on the couch. There was also a table there, that he had all of my information on. I couldn’t turn my mind off of how FIONE he was as he looked at my resume. He looked good from afar, but up close OH MY GAWD!!!! I kept telling myself…GURL….. get it together. It was silence as he looked down. He knew what he was doing. He was loading up on me, when he came up from that paper and asked that first question… I knew he would take FULL CONTROL. As he asked me the first question… he sat back and had his way with me. Looking me so deep into my eyes, downloading everything about me. Reading me, taking mental notes. Just dogging MEEEEEEE.. LOL Just like in the movie during the interview scene. All I could do was try to stay focus. The chemistry was so deep..so alive. So in my face. Then he asked more questions. Still staring me in my eyes as I spoke…so sexy and so sensual. I felt my body reacting to his stares. I tried to redirect my thoughts, but he kept looking at me. I know my eyes started telling him what my thoughts were… I couldn’t even help it. LOL I was slipping away yall.

Whenever he spoke about the company… that was my time to regroup my thoughts and get myself together. I kept having to have these inside pep talks with myself, because I didn’t know how much of these intense stares I could take. Just as I got myself together, there goes another question. A time for me to talk while he download my thoughts. THEN…… in the middle of me answering a question… he stops me and says… “Take off your coat”. To myself… I’m like “OH HELL to the N word NAW… um um you wont be seeing this beautiful shapely booty, my thick thighs and my waist line that carries it all. NOT TODAY!!! LOL LOL LOL I told him that I was fine. He insist. But the way he said it.. it wasn’t in a sexual way… or out of order…. NOT AT ALL… LET ME BE CLEAR…to him….. it only made sense to “get comfortable”… since I appeared to be ” NERVOUS” and the interview just started. I didn’t  want to do it…. if I ever had a chance to get out of it…. IT WAS GONE NOW.

I stood up which the space between his chair and the couch I was sitting on… placed me right in front of him.. LIKE RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. I stood up and began taking off my coat… I tried to turn my head as I did it.. but our eyes locked and I PROMISE ON every TRUTH IN ME…. this man took off my coat for me!!!! His eyes told my coat to come off… AND IT OBEYED LOL LOL I had never in my life FELT SOMETHING SO INTENSE. When I took it off and sat it on the couch.. I felt like my breast, vagina, behind everything was EXPOSED! Its funny now looking back on it… but it wasn’t then. Shat…. I don’t even remember the interview after that. LOL

Whenever he spoke and shared things with me about the company, I reloaded trying to get “the POWER” back that he  was “stealing” from me. LOL  When it was my turn to answer the questions… my mind started failing me again.. worse every time. I starting thinking about kissing him, laying on the couch…all of this sexual stuff started coming to my mind. I’m saying to myself… “guuuuuuuuuurl if you don’t knock it off!!!  I couldn’t even help it… I was under a spell. The way he was looking at me.. he knew what he was doing. I was so weak and he knew it. He controlled the whole atmosphere and he was loving it. FINALLY …. the interview was over. YES!!!! He said.. I’m going to set you up on for a second interview. I was happy about that. He told me what time to come back in 2 days. I got to my car sat in it….. and almost needed a cigarette. I don’t smoke cigarettes, weed, anything… don’t even drink.. but I needed a hit of something that day. I was in a daze all the way home. I kept hitting my wrist asking myself…. what the HELL JUST HAPPENED? The experience was GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAT!!! But dang….. not at a INTERVIEW!

I thought about that man all day and all night. I couldn’t even sleep the meet was that INTENSE. I had a plan for him.I was going to “get that ass back”. When I go back… I was going to be in CONTROL. I was not going to let him take over my mind, sexually and mentally again. I didn’t sleep for 2 days thinking about it. I remembered what he said…. he kept saying how he loved my bubbly personality. This time… I was going to be about BUSINESS . I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE that about myself. I can give you BUBBLY.. SMILES.. LAUGHS… COMMUNICATION…SEXY, everything… but when I put on my BUSINESS FACE…….YOU WILL NOT be able to figure me out… because I’m in control of MEEEEEEEEE. I LOOOOOOOVE  that in myself.

The day and hour came for me to go back for a second interview… I walked up in there like  I WAS PART OWNER.. LOL LOL * Sho the FORK did*… Yalp had on my BUSINESS face like………..who WANTS TO SEE ME AND WHERE THEY AT? LOL LOL Guess who comes out to greet me.. looking BETTER THAN THE TWO DAYS BEFORE… GOOD GAWD…. um um ummmmm. One look into my eyes  as we shook hands to greet……and he said….. “you don’t seem as bubbly as you did before”… I LAUGHED MY ASS OFF IN MY MIND. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA YESSSS ITS WORKING…. He said you’re okay? I said yessss… I’m good!!!! 🙂  I’m saying in my mind as we lock eyes… “what you want me to sit around here naked in the second interview too”? NOT GONE HAPPEN BOO. LOL  LOL LOL I was so happy I had my POWER back. He was looking good though… but I was ready for him and his PARALYZING STARES. LOL He directs me to the same area we were in before. But this time I sat in the other chair that sits a table, the couch I was on and the chair he sat in. He leaves to get the person who wants to meet and interview me. They both come back, but only the guy who is doing the interviewing sits down and in the chair that *handsome* sat in last time. We got to talking about the job, then about his friends, dogs, homeless people, being sick.. kids, everything. We WERE KICKING IT.. I was so comfortable… I felt so good. He was so cool.

Then…………here HE comes…. didn’t he PARK his FIONE self on the couch between me and the interviewer… sat and stared at me THE WHOLE TIME. I’m saying to myself.. GOD MAKE HIM LEAVE!!!!! I cant take it. He watched my every move, heard every word I said.. analyzed me, captivated me, sexually intimidated me, took off my clothes without ONE touch, downloaded all my thoughts, made me apart of his atmosphere, and took all MY POWER away. I tried to ignore his presence… I tried to pretend he wasn’t there. I tried to believe this wasn’t happening to me. I tried to stop looking at him. He was loving it. He knew exactly what he was doing. I had no control. The guy who was doing the interview was so into his story and life.. he had no idea I “left the building”. LOL I was at Mr. “House”. LOL I couldn’t stop looking over at him. I was a mess. He got me. He got me good. After that… didn’t even matter. I was butt naked again.. in his presence. I just let myself go. What the hell I thought to myself… he won! My thoughts took over and my nipples got hard. My vagina walls started doing the Harlem shake, flips, cart wheels… and whatever thoughts came to mind….. my body REACTED. AT one point… I tried hard to get back FOCUSED…. but it was like little kids in my head with markers, crayons, pencils and ink pens… coloring and scribble scrabbling all over my thoughts. What ever conversation I tried to muster up.. I couldn’t because the kids in my head…. scribble scrabble on my thoughts. HE got me.. h Then came time for paper work. We had to get in the elevator ALONE together.. and oh boy…. NOT THE ELEVATOR…. so personal… so sensual. The chemistry…… can’t even explain. I will say… that I LOVED  the experience.. I LOVED how I felt… I LOVED the attraction and chemistry between us… but it was the wrong setting.

Please go see Fifty Shades of Grey… if you love my story… you’ll LOVE that movie… So sexy and inviting. 🙂 Listen to another of my FAVORITE SONGS from the SOUNDTRACK… Oh.. I love this song.

Be Blessed!

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Being OUTSPOKEN… A WRONG AND RIGHT TIME/BLOG

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I was talking to a friend last night, and our phone call conversation trigger several thoughts about being OUTSPOKEN at the wrong time. This is a subject that’s very serious to me, and I speak in COMPLETE BOLDNESS when it comes to it. I touched on this in the last blog entry…. but this one.. I’m going in.

Everyone who knows me know that when you call me, email, text, or we talk FACE TO FACE…I’m going to give you the real. I don’t add sugar to my conversations, ONLY salt.  I’m not going to short cut you, or baby you. I can feel when you’re leaving something out, and I can tell when you’re adding to it.I ask a lot of QUESTIONS… you already know. Many people come to me for advice because I can see the bigger picture. I use Godly Wisdom, and not worldly tickles. I’m not her. Period.

If I feel you’re holding back the complete truth, I’m going to shut down the conversation completely, and keep it moving. I will NOT hold a conversation with anyone, who doesn’t tell the full story…. it’s a waste of my time. I will never again hold 1 and 2 hour conversations just to listen * especially if the story is stupid and doesn’t need to be told* just because you want me to listen and not comment. FIND ANOTHER FRIEND FOR THAT. FIND A FRIEND WHO WILL LISTEN ONLY.. IM NOT HER…… AT ALL… PERIOD. I don’t have time to say.. “yeah, um um, I understand, right, yes, okay… all through the conversation without any input. I refuse to spend that kinda time on those conversations…. phone a friend who will. I’m not mad or anything… I’m just not that friend. PERIOD.

Listen.. as Christians we have to learn when to speak and when to fall back. When to stay in our own lanes, and when its okay to share lanes. Its very ignorant to be “OUTSPOKEN” on the wrong things. Its very ignorant to tell a friend… those shoes are ugly, where you get that ugly red hat from? Why you have on those pants, the style is ugly. When are you going to comb your hair? What time are you getting in the tub… I smell something? But then…. when its time to pay a bill and negotiate with someone.. you can’t do it. When you need to tell someone to stay out of your room, you can’t tell them. When you need a neighbor to turn down their music you can’t knock on their door. When you need to get pass someone and you can’t say excuse me, you rather wait until they notice you’re standing there. When you need to ask for a loan and SCARED of hearing NO.. or I DON’T HAVE IT. Instead of being able to ask these things… the excuse is ALWAYS…. “I don’t want nobody telling me NO… and If I say it, its going to come out wrong”. What is that? That’s stupid as hell to me. You can open your mouth and put your 2 cents into everybody else’s conversation, but don’t know how to work your own lane.

You can tell someone what their job is, and what they need to do, when they need to do it and why…. but you can’t knock on a neighbors door and tell them the’re too loud watching a Football game? That &&&& is retarded to me!!  You rather tell a friend their shoes are ugly…. IN THE NAME OF BEING HONEST. * because/whether they asked.. OR NOT”… but wont use that same honestly…. to knock on someone’s door and ask them to turn down their TV because its too loud.

As Christians.. we have to learn how to talk to people. The only reason why you feel its not going to “come out right” is because you catch attitude from people when they get mad at you for being in their business when you wasn’t invited. So now that its your business and its time for you to be a Boss, you can’t. We have to learn how to look at people in a non confrontational manner when speaking to them about an issue that would other wise cause conflict. We have to learn how to use voice control and direct eye contact with others. We have to usher in a Spirit of Peace when we speak. We have to go to God and ask him to calm us down before we ask a question or deliver a message to someone who may not take it well. This is a part of growing up, getting off milk and eating meat. You cannot be afraid “it won’t come out right”.. but at the same time… claiming how outspoken you are. Stop speaking when not asked., stop being so opinionated on things that doesn’t matter. Learn to pay attention to how things come on * a friend told me this*…. many times when you need an answer or something done, you need to learn how not to offend, so that the person can get it. That’s the whole key….. for them to GET IT. Stop feeling as if you have to say everything since its true….. when its not your story, important or necessary to say. Ask God to calm your storm before going to someone if you feel its going to lead to an argument or debate. Take YOU out of the situation and get things done people!!!

I know “outspoken” people who will tell you how dirty your car is….. but scared to ask the cashier for more ketchup because 1 isn’t enough. SMH!!!! 

If we all told what we know of one another, there would not be four friends in the world- Blaise Pascal

Be Blessed!

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