Being the Oldest/BLOG

When I was growing up I use to ask God why do I have to be the oldest? Why didn’t I have a big sister or brother to lean on and talk too? Why do I have to look out for my siblings and set the example? Why do my parents always look to MEEEEEEEEEE to make sure they’re okay if they weren’t around ? I hated the responsibility of  looking after them. I just hated that as the oldest. HATED IT! UGH

Now that I’m 4 months away from being 50.. I SEE WHY GOD MADE ME THE OLDEST. Even though I’m opinionated. I realize that I’m wired differently. I have always looked at the bigger picture. I can see set backs, benefits, consequences, greatness, trouble… I see it all. Where my siblings may look at the NOW. Yes, even though we are all different, I see that my personality bring a balance to us as siblings.

While they call me BOSSY, I can sit back and not speak a word. Sometimes even as adults when we have debates and our parents tell us to SHUT THE HELL UP… I am the oldest and they DO listen to me. Still till this day.. Its just amazing how I can see why God made me the oldest.

If one sibling is mad at the other, they always want to know what I THINK. And some times, I’m like figure it out on your own, why do yall always want and need MY opinion? They say because I give good advice and  peacemaker of the family. While that is true, I’m leaning to cut back on my opinion. I’m learning that being quiet sometimes is best. Being the oldest and being quiet about something is when my siblings REALLY WORK IT OUT. Because they don’t know how I feel about the situation. ((LOL)) And I think they have a need to please me, especially when it comes to getting along. They know I don’t play that staying mad days and days. NO WAY!!! Not in this family. Not as me being the OLDEST. They know I will drive to their homes, and make them talk about it.

When it comes to the family functions which we have quite often.. I’m usually the one along with my baby sister who does the planning. My middle siblings just bring what we ask. Its funny because it has always been like that. My baby sister is always on the page with me. We plan everything. The middle two… just play along. LOL

What’s funny is, if we’re planning a function and I have to work, OMG they’ll have a fit! They act like they cannot function without me being there. My mom will call me, my dad, nieces, siblings wanting to know why I cant come.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE MY SIBLINGS.. GOD HANDPICKED THEM JUST FOR ME!! I am the oldest and I get it now! Thank you Jesus.

LaCrease

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My Second Oldest Sister

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My Brother

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My baby Sister

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I AM LaCrease, and I don’t have to do anything else!

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My Don’t Care Button Is Broken/BLOG

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I don’t remember if I asked God to give me a “DON’T CARE” button, but I sure have one now and I’M LOVING IT!

In my late 20’s and early 30’s I could tell you how I felt about something, be right about it, and then BEG YOU NOT TO BE MAD AT ME FOR SAYING IT. Even though I meant it, I HATED the fact that someone was mad at me. I hated going to bed mad at someone, or someone being mad at me. I QUICKLY LEARNED that not everyone grew up forgiving like I was. I believe with all my heart it stems from my childhood.

Growing up, my siblings and I would get into arguments and debates, we had to finish out the argument, hug, kiss and make up ON THE SPOT! We couldn’t let a moment pass without saying I’m sorry. We were never allowed to fist fight at all, and I believe that’s the reason why we’re so very close to this day. I realized at some point in my late 30’s early 40’s that was the reason why I had a hard time saying what I meant and felt to someone, without feeling guilty about it later. I found out that when you say what you mean to some people, they don’t want to hear your truth, so they get mad at you for saying it, but blame it on the way it was present. I thought, maybe I worded what I meant wrong. But I soon come to realize that people are going to get mad at you just because you told them the truth!

Another thing I realize about myself. If someone comes to me and tell me their story, or their truth about a situation I may NOT have anything to say. I learned that I don’t have to comment on everything. I can just be a listener. If someone have a problem with me, Ill listen to it, and if its IMPORTANT… I’ll address it. But if NOT … Ill keep it moving. I learned that!! Its so fun not to have a comment about EVERYTHING. Especially when people expect for you to react and have something to say. My boo works HOMICIDE..I had to learned how to keep it moving! People are so use to ME.. LACREASE having a word, but sometimes I don’t. They feel that since I’m quiet about something… I’M NOT ON THEIR SIDE. LOL LOL People are so funny. I’m so glad that I have learned this about myself, and its okay.

People will HATE the fact that you’re not the same person you USE to be when you knew them. This is why my connection to people is ABOUT  BUSINESS, TRUTH AND HONESTY. I know what I’m getting from you, and you know what you’re getting from me. I use to be so mentally tied into people that it was CRAZY! I love hard… I’m sorry. I do my own thing now, if we talk, we TALK.. if we don’t, we DON’T. If we’re  use to going to functions together all the time, and I tell you that I want to stay home and chill… THAT’S WHAT THE HELL THAT MEAN. I don’t care if you’re mad. I don’t give a dayum! I’m not calling or texting you asking if you’re mad at me like I use to do. I don’t care. If you cant face my truth oh well.. SEE YA ON JUDGEMENT DAY!

I’m a different LACREASE… I do my OWN thing. If I change my mind about something, dammit that’s what the hell it is. I’m not tied or contracted into any friendships. And who ever don’t like it.. PUSH CARTS AND WAIT FOR A CHECK!

When you can come to conclusions about YOUR  PEACE  and YOUR  TRUTH…   OH WELL TO THOSE WHO “FEEL SOME TYPE OF WAY about it!”

I AM La’Crease…and I don’t have to do anything else!

 

Sisters & Friends/Celebs/BLOG

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Hey,

Omg its freezing here in Detroit. Its so cold. Goodness, I can’t stand the winter time. I love how pretty the snow is especially at night. But the drive, the accidents, scraping the ice and snow off the cars in the morning, and the stuck in the snow part…. I can’t. It seems to be never ending. Even though we’re use to it, its irritating as I don’t know what!  

This evening me and my 2 sisters went out on our Sister Dates. We make it priority that we link up at least once or twice a month. Its so very important for communication and to keep in touch. We all have grown kids and its good to know how things are with them as well. We always go to Applebees our favorite Sister spot we sit at the table argue and debate like we usually do. Laugh and talk. We sit for hours… tonight was ONLY 4 hours. Yes, we have a lot to talk about in that time. I was sharing with my group on FB how important for Sisters and Friends to link up for these outings. I feel its just as important as going to work. It keeps communication open and it brings us even closer. I really hope that Sisters are connecting for these types of dinner dates. I love my Sisters dearly, we grew up together, and its important for us to share in each other lives. 

Yesterday LOL LOL As I was walking into work…I saw this woman… she was leaving. I stopped her and said  ” you look familiar” . She looked at me with this smile… and ME WITH MY… HONEST, SERIOUS, TRUTHFUL AND NAIVE self.. asked her what was her name.  LOL And if you know me.. you know I be looking serious. * My Virgo self* FullSizeRender (16)LOL never dawned on me.. that THIS IS MY NEW JOB NOW AND I WILL SEE CELEBS EVERYDAY. When she told me her name… it hit me.. that CREE gurl you’re at work. You can’t be asking these people those types of questions. Thing is.. I’m not star struck at all.. PERIOD. Not one ounce of me. God put us all down “here”… and I take that part to heart with celebs or anyone else on earth. I’m just so honest, it was me being me and seeing a familiar person thinking I knew her. So for now on, I have to remember that.. and I WILL… TRUST AND BELIEVE.  As the day went on… there were MORE. LOL

On my way to bed… make sure you’re spending time with your siblings. Make it important in your life to find the time, do what you can.

Good Night and Be Blessed!

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My Funny Parents/DIVORCE/LOVE

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This morning I took my parents to run some errands. I love riding with them.. they have debates and lil scraps that are sooooooo funny. My momma be tearing my daddy up. LOL LOL But baby when he’s had enough, he come back on her.  LOL Funny thing, when I’m with them its like having precious cargo with me. I have to be very careful of driving, even though I’m a careful driver anyway… its still something about having them in the car. When I’m with them.. we hit about 40 stores… because everybody likes to shop at their own personal favorites. LOL We had a bad storm yesterday and 2 of the stores were closed because they had no power. We always end the day with KFC…. I LOVE IT….. the memories we are creating without even REALIZING.
 
Sooooooooooooo………my Sister’s DIVORCE is final and she encourages me to write about it. Especially my feelings about it. I loved my brother n law. I just hate they couldn’t work it out. Its funny how you could start off together on the same page… then end up on different sides of the street. He was driven by money and “stuff”…. she was driven by LOVE and spending time together. She has a MASTERS working for the city and they built 2 companies and 14-15 properties together. This has really taught me a lot. I will NEVER EVER marry a man who works day in and day out. I’m not driven by money…. “aha’s” and “look what I bought “, “look what I”m doing now”… and all that needing APPROVAL stuff. I just want to LOVE and be LOVED. I’ve always worked since I was 14… and yesss my HUSBAND will too. But doing too much will mess up a marriage because it can’t grow. Yes…. I’m afraid of that. While one person is doing one thing, another is doing something else. I don’t like that. Now, if me and my HUSBAND worked together side by side or in the same building…. that could work. But me working someplace, while he works  another from 6 am-10pm  … NOT GONE HAPPEN WITH MS CREE. Working too many hours apart in a marriage while one is driven on LOVE.. and the other on STUFF, topped with oo’s and ah’s won’t work for me. Then they end up “tolerating” each other because its “business” and too much to lose… to DIVORCE.  MY PERSONALITY doesn’t have time for that. Meeee… for the sake of the PEACE that I demand…. will walk away from EVERYTHING. He can have it ALL… its the ONLY THING THAT CAME MAKE HIM HAPPY ANYWAY. Here… go be happy with your “STUFF”.
 
 
 
Growing up in our household, we knew nothing but LOVE. We learned how to share, how to look out for each other. we weren’t allowed to fight. I find it amazing how  having so much LOVE in the home from both parents….. that ALL 3 OF MY SIBLINGS just want to be LOVED. My sister was wearing a $13,000 ring * and it was NICE too* she said if she ever gets married again… she only wants a matching wedding band. She didn’t have a wedding… this time she wants one. She didn’t go on a honey moon, this time she wants to go. I understand her because we grew up together.  I understand her mentality. I watched her live her life.. because we are close. I see the type of people that me and my siblings are. We want God in our lives, we want a PEACEFUL home, we want to work come home and spend time as a family, have friend time, movie and dinner time, trips… and of course do our own things separately with our friends. We don’t like arguing and nick picking. I can’t do that.
 
 
I want to be showered/ and to SHOWER HIM… with LOVE… KISSES, HUGS, TOUCHING, LOVE MAKING… AND FAMILY GATHERINGS…This is LIFE… if we’re going to LIVE it… LETS GET IT!!! I can go all over the place on this topic… later I will. But for now…. ITS ALL ABOUT LOVE.
BE BLESSED