January 03, 2006

Thank you Lord for another day. Another day for having my arms, legs, feet, hands, lips, teeth, toes etc. Thank you I see what you have done for me and I appreciate it.

Where do I start? Men be cracking me up. Let me just say that. This evening I let this guy who I met at my job ( a customer) come over to visit me. He is very tall 6’7 thick, dark, handsome brother who graduated from Central Michigan University with a BA. I mean this guy has got it going on. I am an addict for tall men okay?? Tyler Perry where are you? For real tho. I love a man with a big stomach, goatee, and pretty teeth. I tell my friends all the time, when I get a man and he his a big stomach, if he lose his stomach IM DISSING HIM! Flat out. He gots to roll up out! ( Not for real, but its something that he must have)

N. E. WAYSSSSSSSSSSS ( rolling my eyes) I let him come over, and by him being so tall and dark and thick, his whole atmosphere just did something to me when he walked through that door smelling so good. He didnt know it, but I did. Well, we sat down and watch the Pistons beat Orlando………we are 25-4 YEAHHHHHHHA YEAHHHHHHHA.

So we sat there watched the game he cracked some nuts and we talked and laughed a little bit. Well, before he came over last night we were having a conversation about his ex gurlfriend who upped and left him 2 years ago, and recently she called him from NY and said that she wanted to see him and talk to him. He let her come here last week and he bought her to  my job and I met her. She wants to rekindle the relationship but he is skeptical because she up and left him for another man. Well, we talked about that subject for a long time last night. She will be back next month maybe for good. Well, tonight that was on my mind. I am attracted to him and all, but I cannot put my self in a situation where I know that he wants to get back with her, so the best thing for me to do is be his friend and not to take it any further.

When he came over tonight, it seemed to me that he wanted to have sex. So my thing is okay, what is it about me that you feel that you can initiate  this? I mean I didn’t sit near you, I didn’t touch you, what is  it about me that makes you feel that you can say okay WHATS UP? I just dont get that, and he just dont know that turned me off. It dont take much to turn CREDOG off especially in the early stages of a friendship. He gave me his number a long time ago, and I wanted to call him but I didnt. I like him and everything , but he cant be coming on me like that.

Do men respect women who sleep with them in the first night? Do they try women to see where their head is at? I cant wait to see what happens next. This is why Im forming a teens group to talk to young gurls about everyyyyyyyyythang their moms can’t. I mean for real, cause had that me back in the day and he was over, it would have been on and poppin for real. There would have been no way I would have said NO~ TO A MAN WHO FITS THE PERFECT DESCRIPTION OF MY DREAM HUSBAND. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WAYYYYYYYY he WOULD HAVE LEFT WITH A PART OF ME. roflllll

But Lorddddddddddddddd, whewwwwwww had it been for what Ive been through. For the wisdom and knowledge you have blessed me with, your daughter would have been good as got. tonight. FOR REAL.!!!!!!!!!

OK YALL I GOTTA GO THINK. THIS IS NOT A GOOD NIGHT FOR ME IN THIS DEPARTMENT. Im not having regrets at all, but its just that fact that this brother is fine, good conversation, good job, everything going on.

Oh did I mention that he is 26 and Im……………….well 38???