Day: May 25, 2008

I\’m here!!

I said to myself that I wasn\’t going to blog today, that I was going to chill , finish painting and read a book. But I\’m addicted to blogging as you can see.

Well the real reason why I\’m here is because after last night when I posted, I got to thinking about something. I can be selfish sometimes with myself. I like to be alone at times, I like to go to the movies alone sometimes, I like to take rides around the city alone, I like to shop alone, I like to go to the book store alone, and when people demand my time, I can act selfish.

I can\’t be that way.

Maybe people see something in me that I don\’t see. Maybe I give good advice, maybe I listen well, maybe I\’m honest and will tell them to truth, maybe I can comfort them, maybe I lead them to God, maybe that\’s my job on this earth. I will never understand why people call me for advice or need to talk to me. But one thing I do know is, God told me to pick up my phone tonight to talk to a friend. When I picked it up, she told me that her daughter *she\’s 9* dad had committed suicide and that his funeral will be this week. I felt like crying, tears were in my eyes. And here I am acting funky and stank with my gift to comfort. Everything comes from God, and I know this, and I got to regroup my self, and stop being so selfish. We talked for a long time , she said only a few people she can call and I was one of the 3. I haven\’t seen her in years. Tell me that aint God. I listened to her and she needed that. And it taught me something too. I need to be ashamed of myself. But you know what? I\’m glad she called, because none of this stuff is about Lacrease. I see that Lord.We are all here to help one another, and that\’s what I love doing.

Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed with phone calls and visits, that I\’m not getting a chance to know myself. I believe this is why I\’m feeling this way. I\’m still learning Lacrease, and who she is. But Lord, I know in the meantime, that I am to encourage the people you send my way, and not to be selfish and to myself. Thank you for telling me to answer the phone, my friend really needed me, and I got some healing out of it as well. I lost a boyfriend to suicide and I know what she\’s going through. Forgive me Lord and work on me.

Tonight, I want to say Lord, I\’m sorry, and please work on me in this area. Teach me Lord to have more patience and to understand that to be able to listen to a friend is a gift and to minister is also. I know Lord that you can take this away from me at anytime. This is who I am. Again, this is who I am!!! I need to understand that. You taught me everything I know good, and I am to share it with others. Please forgive me for being selfish. I need for you to work on me!!! In Jesus name. Amen!

Okay, lets have some fun!!

Last night and the night before me and Neisha was having our *mother daughter* talk as we do every night before going to bed. When she asked me to name all my favorite *Hollywood actors MALE*. It was so funny to do this because she knows me like a book, and she knows what I\’m attracted to as far as people and personality. So, starting tonight, and every night, I\’m going to kick this off in a blog my Top 10 male Hollywood actors and singers. This is going to be fun. I\’m going to write a brief story on why I love and admire them, and when it comes to the #1 person, I\’m going to write a full page on them. I have made a list of 5 white and 5 black.

Ready?

George Clooney and Tyrese

George Clooney~ This is one fione older man! When I first saw him, I was like danggggg he SEXY. I remember a long time ago I was working at a drug store and this lady came in and was telling me that she was going to California to visit someone in her family, and that she was going to the set of E.R. I was like wow, I love George Clooney. When that lady came back from her visit, she came up to my job and gave me a photo with her and George Clooney on the set. I have that photo to this day. George, you\’re on my Top 10 List of my *Hollywood Men

Tyrese~ I will never forget that Coco Cola Commercial he did. Boy he can sing! But wait, he took the cake when he did Baby Boy. Tyrese is one of the sexiest men in the game these days. You don\’t hear gossip or anything about him. I love his role in Baby boy because it reminds me of my younger days, and I can laugh at myself. I loved him in the Four Brothers. Um um um. I love the closeness of the brothers. Did I mention how fione he is!!

Aiight, check in tomorrow for the next Set of my Favorite Hollywood Men!

I\’m back!!

I\’m blogging a lot lately, it has really helped me to clear my head!! Goodness all those thoughts wont sit in my head any longer, they are out in the atmosphere.

I got up this morning and had my nephew come over and cut the grass. Whew it was high!! WE had so much rain, shoo I wasn\’t going to cut it just so that it could grow back in 1 hour. LOL But dang, it had gotten to high. I have a lot to do in the coming weeks. I had requested to have today off, because LaSonja was suppose to get married on this day, but she moved it up to June 1. So since it was already approved…….I\’m just chilling!!! My coworker called me from work and ask me can we open the BD list up to this lady who wants to join. I told her that it wouldn\’t bea good idea because it has already started, and guess what? Her BD is coming up next. Which mean I would have to tell the others that we have a new person. They\’ll look at me like…………you got us messed up!!! How you gon let another person join, and she comes in and her Birthday is next? LOL Gurl Bye!

One of my good friends was mad at me. I mean really mad at me. She use to live here in Detroit, now she lives in Chicago. She says that every time we talk on the phone, she will have my attention for a while, then…….all of a sudden she hears me typing on the computer. And she feels that I am disrespecting the fact that she\’s talking, and she has no time to waste, if I\’m not listening. Well, I get that part, and she\’s right.I\’m sorry if I can cook, talk on the phone with the cordless phone in my bra, ear piece in my ear, run to my car, paint, read, and push mute and talk to the person who is in the room with me. Don\’t get mad tho.. LOL EVERYBODY tells me the same thing. My phone rings all day.If I talk to everybody who calls me, then I wont be doing anything for myself. I talk to the same people about the same things, and still they want me to go over it over and over and over and over and over again. Now talk about a disrespect. Then when they see me doing well, they want to know the * secret*. How bout ain\’t none! How bout, if you had listen and watched me, instead of getting out all your stories out then you would know. I\’m talking about my other friend now. He calls and want to come over, and talk about his same issue over and over and over again. I\’m sorry. I gotta cook, and run my errands too……..how bout that?

But you know what? Its all my fault. Because I started off with my friends like that. I\’m a natural teacher and listener. That\’s who I am. Back when I got my own place my couch was a place where you could come and we\’d talk for hours. I cant do that any more. I\’m sorry. After a while, I get bored and be ready to hang up in the middle of a sentence.LOL I wouldn\’t dare do that tho.I\’m not needy or clingy. Seems like I attract people who always need to talk……..all the time. I dunno, its not a bad thing, I just can\’t handle all that anymore.

See, back in the day my door was open to everyone, you didn\’t have to call to come over, shoo it became overwhelming for me. I\’d look up and none of my house work was done, no food was cooking, the bathroom was nasty, the floors needed mopping. Naw, its a wrap for that stuff. Say what you gotta say, and lets DEPART for a minute.

I\’m sorry I need my space. When I get married. I swear my husband has to have his own space for the things he like. He has to have his own room for whateva. And the same with me. I gotta have a place where I can go to think and regroup myself. I have so many messages, and so many names on my caller ID that it\’s crazy.

The good part about it is, we made up. She didn\’t talk to me for over a month. But it was me who called her tonight #67 * Anonymous* so she picked up the phone. Guess I tricked her, she let me have it too. he he

I love my friends tho, I wouldn\’t trade them for anything in the world. When I get married whewwwwwwww, my list is going to be long. My friends WILL KILL ME, if I leave them out of my wedding. OMG! I really dread for that part to come, especially if we are working on a serious budget. Thinking about how many people I know, just gives me a headache. I\’m glad that I don\’t have to worry about that right now.

Speaking of getting married. I plan to continue to sustain from Sex until that day. My coworkers talk about me all the time at work, making jokes. They say I have cob webs. LOL I crack up. I tell them yeah I do, but when he knocks the dust off, it\’ll be a feeling better than the same ole thrill your getting!!! Shuts them up every time! This guy who I use to kick it with came through my line yesterday. LOOKING GOOD! OOOOWEEEEE. He gave me a big ole hug, saying gurl you don\’t look a day over the age we were at that time * 23 -24ish*. All this weight I\’ve gained. Boy Bye! LOL His son is going to College this year, and he\’s still married. That\’s a blessing! He\’s doing good too. It just reminds me that all the sex you\’re having with people who has no intentions on being with you, they go off and marry someone else. I could have save my stuff, KLINK KLINK and locked it down! Instead we left each other thinking about the past. We didn\’t say it, but of course we thought it. LOL

Me and my coworker was talking the other day, she has a favorite manager and I have one too. They don\’t play favoritism, but its fair to say that some managers vibe better with an employee than the next. My favorite manager is a Christian, and we understand each other. One day recently, her husband called up to the job to talk with her because he is a bank manager and his bank got robbed at gunpoint. She\’s a private person like me, and she knows that if she tells me ANYTHING, she don\’t have to worry about it getting back to anyone. Anyway, she was looking for me, the others knew something was going on but they didn\’t know what it was. When my other coworker* who don\’t care too much for my favorite manager* came and asked ME what was wrong with her, I didn\’t know that something had happened at that time. So I told her I didn\’t know what she was talking about. So, I went to her later and
asked her what\’s wrong? She told me and that was the end of that. Later on my coworker came back to me * guess cause I didn\’t run to her and tell her what happened* she said yeah I know you know what happened. I said gurl……….why would I tell you somebody else business? Gurl Bye! LOL We laughed, people are funny.

This coming up week is going to be a busy one. I have to work 9 hours a day. Plus I gotta get my brows, lashes and nails done for the wedding. I gotta go and buy me some shoes, and do my hair. I\’m going to finish painting my room tomorrow, and straighten up my business room. I have my Sister Pearls Linda and Cookie coming to Detroit to stay with me July 23 until we fly out to ATL on July 24. I want to do something nice for them the day I pick them up from the bus station. But then again I dunno, because we\’re getting up early the next day. Neisha is going to Cincinnati for a month in June instead of July now. Which is cool. Then I have a wedding on the 7th of June. OOOOO goodness. Oh yea and my Anita Baker friends are coming to Detroit. Me and my best friend Charlene is going to Las Vegas in Oct. She called me to day asking……. WHEN ARE WE BUYING OUR PLANE TICKETS??? LOL My sister is about to plan our 3rd trip to Florida Disney World! We go 4 trucks deep, rest in ATL and then ride on out. Last time we went was about 4 years ago, we stopped over in the suburbs of Atlanta, we went in the room and this bug was so big, we couldn\’t kill that thing for nothing in the world. The skin/scab/crust/back/wings/scale/ peeled off and took off running. All the ladies were RUNNING AND SCREAMING on the bed, and the men were looking like WTH Shoo none of us slept good that night. We got another room, and the next day my Sisters mentioned the bug to the front desk person, and we got the room for free anyway!! They told the lady, we live in Detroit we aint use to bugs like that! Baby, when daylight came we hot tailed out of ATL. I hate bugs, just today a ant was on me, I was screaming,jumping and hollering, and made a mistake and flipped the thang on to my daughter. She was screaming, I was screaming, Then we just laughed. ROFL. Il\’l jump out of your car if a bug get on me, I don\’t care if its moving or not. I\’m jumping out!!! LOL

Talk to you all later.

Have a Happy Memorial Day. and

Be Blessed

Cree!!!