Fingerpointing You………………………Crees Blog Entry

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As I sit here  thinking about the post I wrote about Dwayne Wade and Gabrielle Union.. it takes me back to my own personal relationships about cheating, and lies. The questions I had.

Every man I’ve ever given a second chance to… he cheated again. Sad thing about that.. these men are with different women now, some married and they’re still cheating. Now, there are some faithful men out there that love their wives dearly. And if they’re cheating, as long as his wife doesn’t detect it….. he’s not cheating. LOL I just wish that I could understand the thought process of a man before he thinks about doing it. What options does he weigh, what thoughts goes through his mind concerning her finding out? What would he say to her? What would be his reason that he tells her? Does he sees himself losing everything, or is that even a thought to him? Does he think about his family, or her feelings? What desire goes through his mind when he decide that its what he’s going to do anyway. What thought or feeling goes though his mind once the sexual act is over. And what drives him to do it again and again. Does he feel a sexual disconnection to his mate?

For a long time, I can remember calling over my friends every weekend just to drink and have a pity party. We dogged men coming and going. I use to date my daughters teacher when she was in preschool. Then when I started working there the following year, I found out that he was dating the teachers and the parents. * throws hands up… eyes closed* And didn’t I get into an argument with one of the ladies at the school, almost lost my job over this man? I cut dissed him ON SPOT. I made sure I went to work looking good everyday. I made him “SEXUALLY SICK” when ever he saw me. He couldn’t even function with me around. I had his mind gone. I can’t go for that type of behavior anymore. I LOVE ME. He knew he couldn’t tie my shoe if it was coming loose.

But you know…… I had to put away childish things. I couldn’t go on being angry with men because I chose cheaters. I realized that I was drawing these types of men to me. I had to change the way I looked at my relationships. I had to say NO… to the ones who didn’t fit into what I was looking for. So many times I got into relationships “just because they liked me”. These days….. I chose friendships and relationships wisely. They must have a relationship with God, they must be a person who goes to God before any family member and a friend.

Here is a song that I use to listen to when I was going through those relationships…. I love the words.. so honest and to the point.

Fonz
I don’t know what you goin thru lately
But you stressin it and it’s drivin me crazy
You wont even make love to me lately
Somebody told you they was havin my baby

Vee
I heard it all I was getting my nails done
She was braggin how your record when platinum
You were crushin on a leather couch
You were out there trickin with that chick all up in my house

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Vee
She knew it all even talked about your tattoo
Tell me how you gonna say it wasn’t bout you (wasn’t me)
Saying how you like to suck on toes
She knew all the things that you know that only I should know

Fonz
You played the role I was workin in the studio
Getting paid while you gave up the botty yo
Another brotha is getting all my time
You was out there trickin when I thought that shit was all mine all mine

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Fonz: Your thru with me
Vee: Im thru with you
Fonz: You lied to me
Vee: Never lied to you
Fonz: Stop blamin me
Vee: Im blamin you
Fonz: Stop gamin me
Vee: Whos gamin who
Fonz: So you say your thru with me
Vee: Im thru with you
Fonz: You lied to me
Vee: Never lied to you
Both: Better ask yourself if don’t matter baby why keep goin on

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Fonz: can’t work with you lying and creepin babe
Vee: I can’t work I can’t deal with your cheatin and leavin babe(I can’t deal)
Fonz: can’t be a fool for lovin babe
Vee: Save the drama im about to bounce babe
Cant work with you lying and creepin babe
Vee: I can’t work I can’t deal with your cheatin and leavin babe(I can’t deal)
Fonz: can’t be a fool for lovin babe
Vee: Save the drama im about to bounce babe

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Happy New Years!!!

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Happy New Years to Everyone. This year for me, has been a tough one. Whew, Lord Jesus, all I could do was wave my hands in the air and THANK HIM ANYHOW. No matter how I was feeling, he always let me know he was there with a personal sign. To my friend who I love dearly, *who knows how to push my buttons*…. Thank you for be obedient to God, when he told you to tell me the things that was happening in my life that I couldn’t see. I kept those to myself…. NEVER shared it with anyone…. NOW I SEE…. NOW I SEE… NOW I SEE. Um um um…… I love you dearly boy, but I can’t stand you at the same time. LOL But…. all in all I made it through. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Lord. I’m looking forward to 2014 with all of my windows OPENED. Blessings.
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Disrespectful and Unacceptable……….Crees Blog Entry

ImageWhen I found out today that Dwayne Wade had a baby with another woman during the “taking a break” time… with Gabrielle …. it just hurt my heart. So many women and men, are just accepting anything just to keep from dealing with the fact that at some point their mate has SEXUALLY DISCONNECTED with them. Having sex with a person is one thing, but when you go out and have a baby, that means you didn’t wear protection, there is a chance for all kinds of diseases, and at some point you disconnected yourself with the relationship you had with that person.
 
 
A lot of times when people take a break from a relationship someone is either cheating, or cant decide if they want to marry. Or course there could be other reasons, not seeing each other much, a break down in communication but whatever the reason, if there ever was talk about “getting back together later on”, then there should NEVER be sex. But if you plan to “take a break” and both agree to see other people * a MAN would never agree to this* then both parties should ALWAYS wear protection. To ME…. if you want to take a break, and you start having SEX outside that break…. that means this woman was already on “deck”.
A man bringing home a baby outside of the relationship is DISRESPECTFUL AND UNACCEPTABLE to me. I don’t care of he says….”but we weren’t together”.
 
 
Here is a list of all the ISSUES of bringing a baby into the picture when you “take breaks” from a relationship will cause.
 
 
  • it takes money out of the home for the next 18 years plus college
  • have to deal with this baby mother WHENEVER SHE CALLS
  • dwayne will try hard EVERYDAY OF HIS LIFE to make sure that gabrielle is comfortable.
  • her self esteem WILL go down
  • she’ll have PEOPLE ON DECK AT ALL TIMES to cry and talk with because she’ll go through different emotions.
  • she’ll NEVER let him live it down. EVER….NEVER
  • she’ll be insecure when he’s out on the rode…
  • she’ll find herself wanting to see his texts, inboxes, and voice messages
  • she’ll find herself obsessed with trying to “catch him” to keep from feeling “played” again
  • she’ll have to look into the face of the baby and say to herself… this is NOT your fault beautiful baby….. for the way I may feel about you and this situation from time to time
  • she’ll have to listen closely to the mother of the child for “special instructions” concerning HER FIANCE’S baby
  • she’ll have to accept the fact that if the baby is sick, dwayne has to go and see about the baby….. with/without her
  • he’ll have to listen to her family and friends concerns and issues concerning the new baby
  • they both will have to face many questions WHENEVER they’re seen in public
  • she’ll have to deal with any drama that comes her way, because of this
  • she’ll forever be defensive in her interviews, she’ll feel it will show her strength * it won’t*
  • it will take years and years for her to ever trust him… if she does
I hope that this marriage can survive. Please don;t hurt her anymore.
 
 
Be Blessed
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Today, LaCrease Crees Blog Entry

godsgurlcreeToday, Lacrease, we believe God wants you to know that …

it’s time you remembered who you really are.

You are not your wallet, your job, your kids, your house. You are not your activities or your worries or the labels other people give you. Like an actor you play these roles, and like a good actor you sometimes forget who you really are. Time to wake up now, and remember that you are a being of immense power and breathtaking beauty created in the image of God.

God said La’Crease………………………Crees Blog Entry

100_4941Wednesday…… Christmas Day, I went downstairs to the convenience store that’s located in my building to buy a few things. When I gave the owner of the store my $50.00 bill, he said “Oh LaCrease I don’t have any change, I just gave it out”. He said well, get your things, and you can just bring it back tomorrow.

 

I just LOVE the older husband and wife who owns the store. They give credit to anyone who lives in the building, and I have needed them more than a time or two. He wrote down my total and I went to my apartment.

 

Thursday, I went back to pay my bill and to buy a few other things. I gave his wife the same $50 bill. When she gave me the change back…. she gave me 4-$20 bills and said ” I owe you $16.00 just one second”. So I’m standing there saying to myself… “Okay I thought I gave her a $50 bill, she thinks I gave her a $100.00”. Then I started doubting myself.. because all I had was 1-$100.00 bill and a $50 bill, I thought maybe I grabbed the wrong bill. Then God said No… LaCrease you didn’t grab the wrong one. Then Satan comes in…. and said LISTEN…. this is your last money for a WHILE… you just lost your job, and that money is your BLESSING… KEEP IT. He said you need personal items, and this LAST $150.00 goes toward your rent. You NEED this money. Then God said…. LISTEN…. That is NOT a BLESSING from ME……these people have been good to you since DAY ONE LACREASE * I love how he says my name*. He said.. if you take this money and you know its not yours, guilt will eat you up. He said now do you want to go back to your apartment and have to think about that EVERYDAY? Then EVERYTIME you come down to this store, you’ll have to look these people in the eye knowing you took their money. He said, anything you need I WILL SUPPLY.. you do NOT need this extra $50.00. He said speak up and give this money back to her….. you do NOT want to have to deal with me. I said Lord.. say no more. I gave her the money back, and they both kept thanking me. I said … you and your husband has been good to me.

 

As I look back on it. You never know what you would do in certain situations. I know for a fact that had I been in a good place AT THAT TIME financially I wouldn’t need for God to speak to me… because I would give it back without a thought. But God knew I was broke, he know I had just lost my job, he knew * in my mind* that money could have helped me with personal needs.

 

Its amazing how the few minutes she told me to wait for the rest of the money…….. God used that time to talk to me. I look at stuff like that. Those minutes were needed. This is for everyone… when you’re faced with your last money, and you have to make a decision to do right or wrong… do right. Let me share with happened to me THE VERY NEXT DAY.

 

My daughter called me and asked would I go with her and her dad to see this home she was interested in purchasing. I told her YES!!! After we saw the home, she said “momma lets go to the movies to see “The Wolf of Wall Street”, we checked out show times and realized that we had an extra hour to burn before the movie starts. As we are riding, she says… lets go to Walmart. We went in… and she said… do you need anything? I said naw… I’m good. But as we walked around… I started seeing stuff I did need. LOL At some point, she said momma.. I know you need stuff, she said get what you need. I got soap, pads, toothpaste, bath wash, and some lip gloss. Then she said… anything else? I asked her when we got in the van… why do you always want to help me ALL THE TIME… I said I’m good. She said momma you have always taken care of me. Anything I wanted or needed and you had the money you got it for me. She said I’m happy to be in a position to do it. I can’t even put into words to describe when your child tells you this. She took me to the movies, and bought me popcorn and pop. I love my baby.

 

Later on that night… as I sat and thought about my day. I remembered what God told me IN THE STORE….. He said “I will supply all your needs”. WOW WOW WOW. AND HE DID. Thank you Jesus.

 

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Be Blessed

 

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Question……………….Crees Blog Entry

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Someone on my FB page ask this question: Have you ever asked yourself; “Am I being a good role model to those whom admire me?” That’s a question everyone should ask themselves. Before I post anything on FB or Twitter, I ask myself.. what message will they get, am I angry right now, will I please God? I admit I can be quite VERBAL on Twitter, and I noticed that and for now on… I will take a few minutes to regroup myself from posting things that are done out MY EMOTIONS. People are paying attention to what you post. Whatever is in your post… it first came out of your heart.

I learned that if I’m angry about something, If I just give myself about 20 minutes to calm down… then what I was going to post I WONT EVEN POST ANYMORE. I LOVE that about God. But if you want to be seen, heard, or even felt, your EMOTIONS will override God’s voice, and your stats will always be full of ANGER AND RAGE, UNNECESSARY BRAGGING, AND IGNORANT CONVERSATIONS. If you don’t believe me….. scroll down and check your last 10 stats. Remember people are on FB for either one or two things, to be Spiritually Fed, or to be Nosey. Just know we ALL have BAD days.. we ALL go through… we ALL get mad and angry….. but the person who can control their EMOTIONS are the ones who are most ADMIRED.

Be Blessed

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

God wants me to know…….Crees Blog Entry

ilovecreeToday, Lacrease, we believe God wants you to know that …

you need to maintain a balance between your needs and others’ needs.

Yes, it’s not an easy balance to keep, but try you must. Give too much, drain yourself, and there is nothing left only bitter space. Give too little, become a cork, and you block the flow of God’s love through you. Keep on balancing.

 

This is the truth. I am truly balancing. It was hard for me in the beginning but I’m finding it FUN to do things for myself. I am NOT GOD…..just like I have to go to him….. I will be directing all others to do the same. Oh yes….. there will be CHANGES.

 

This song is for ME…

 

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Pages of my Diary………………………… Crees Blog Entry

DSCN1329Pages of my Diary…. June 5-6 2001 12:19 am

Hello God

What’s going on Boo? Well thank you for being by my side just like you promised. Ill never forget that….. I love you!

Woke up this morning Anna *neighbor* car out of gas in front of the house. Her brother came with some gas. So she and Neishia * daughter* was tight.

Stayed up made dinner early. I ate at 10:30 this morning. Went to sleep until time to get Neishia. scan0001

Rodney* boyfriend at the time* called and told me he was coming over, He came, then Marto * baby daddy* pulled up and gave Neishia $55.00 for her hair. So tomorrow I’m going to get her a perm and shampoo. She have a 1/2 day tomorrow and Wednesday they take finals. So we’ll start on her hair tomorrow. martonenecree

Work was tight today. ….finished at 11:35 or so. Rodney at first couldn’t get his car started just like Anna. He was looking cute so was Marto. They shook hands and spoke.

Ralph * boss at that time* called again with his mess. Didn’t pay him much attention, things are fine today. Called Janine* my hair stylist of 23 years* and Tuesday 10:30 is my app day * for hair* So. I need to make out a schedule for this weekend and next.janine hair dresser

Sat- check ( bank), eyes nails, meijer
Subject to change!

Creasy!

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Sometimes you just gotta laugh…………Crees Blog Entry

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I always hear this slide across the floor that seems as if  the man who lives over me is moving furniture around. So, everyday I sat here and tried to figure out who changes their furniture around everyday……. all day????? I kept trying to think of what in the world is this person moving around? I thought about every thing.
This one day last week… I couldn’t take it anymore, so I went upstairs to the next floor and knocked on his door. I had to fix my face to be friendly, because I didn’t want him to detect that I had an attitude * which I did in my mind*. After knocking on his door a few times, he answered ……and  that’s when I  said…. Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy how are you? I live directly under you, and I keep hearing this sliding across the floor like somebody is moving furniture or something. He says with a nice smile and friendly face…. No… I’m not moving. So, I gets a peep around his house as I stayed in the doorway in the hall.Then I REALIZED THAT THIS CLOWN ANSWERED THE DOOR SITTING IN A CHAIR * who does that*?. I looked down at the chair and it had 4 WHEELS ON IT…. I SAID DO YOU SCOOT AROUND IN THAT CHAIR * MY OUTSPOKEN SELF* HE was like OH YEAHHHHHH… it must be this chair. I looked at him like BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOY…. if you don’t get your chubby butt up and stop scooting around … I’mma choke YOU!!!!!!! He had nerves to be  using one of those chairs you would see  in offices . He doesn’t get up to walk… this fool scoots all day. I said um ummmmmmmmm… there is no carpet on these floors boo, that noise is irritating… He got my hint… we’re good now. * smh* LOL LOL Its funny now , but it wasn’t last week.
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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