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Enjoying Peace in Your Life/ BLOG ENTRY

I’m at the age where I am enjoying being alone. I just absolutely love it. Sometimes, I feel selfish because I enjoy going to the park, going to have ice cream alone, taking rides Downtown Detroit, going out to eat . I’m just enjoying MY life right now.

My Best Friend of 4 is an empty nester for a year now, and sometimes she feels guilty for enjoying her Peace. She doesn’t have to think about what’s for dinner for the family or sneaking her favorite candy bar in her purse. She calls me happy only having the task of looking out for herself. Her adult children are doing well, and she just laugh at the Peace that was waiting for her all the time.

As we sit and think about where we are today versus 33 years ago when we met, we’ve been through a lot of ups and downs together. We deserve this, Peace! What’s our problem in thinking that we don’t? I’m laughing as I type this. Just today she called me feeling somewhat guilty for ordering herself a Tropical Smoothie meal, and I’m like gurl, you don’t have to worry about anyone else. GET THE SMOOTHIE MEAL!!!! LOL

I’m always reminding someone that I’m halfway through life, who has time to argue and debate about things that doesn’t matter? I don’t want to fall out with anyone. I don’t want to be mean to people, I don’t want to gossip and start trouble. Those days are over, I just CAN’T do it. I don’t have the energy. I want to smile with my eyes. I want to look people in the eye and speak as I walk pass. I want to encourage someone I don’t know. I want to always be mindful of others. Sometimes when I’m out, I’m so into what I’m doing, I’m mindful of others around me who may need me to pick up a baby shoe when the mother has too much in her hands. When a cane falls from an elderly person’s arm and need my assistance.

I’ve raised my daughter; she’s doing very well and that helps me to be happy and excited about living the rest of my life out in PEACE.

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My Beautiful Raisingurl/BLOG

Meet Tasia!
Yess  Tasia was ONE OF MY RAISINGURLS!!! She was one of my babies when she first joined my group of teens at my home.She had just started Junior High and was one of the last group of gurls I had before I moved into my apartment. She’s doing so well and I’m so proud of her. Her last post was this…I will cross that stage June 7th with a 4.0 GPA mark my words!!! 
 

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Crees Ramblings/BLOG

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Hey Family!!!

I’m here getting over a cold, haven’t had one in a long time, so I’m okay with it…. I guess. LOL

On Mothers Day, my baby daddy ** I love saying that** sent me a message and called…. something he always does.IMG_2336 But its so funny how long I’ve come  (((MENTALLY speaking)))  from  back in the day at age 18 when I met him.martonenecree I really really love him today, because of the relationship he has with our daughter. She loves that man. I talk to women all the time about the importance of making sure that they don’t run the fathers of their children away. Even if they have broken up, its important, and even more when they’re grown and need that adult/father/child advice on life. I’ll never stop talking about that. Now, I see why I went through so much, because God knew that one day when I was healed from it all, that I would talk to others about my experience till I’m blue in the face. And there is NEVER  a day where I am not doing just that.

 Last night at work, one of the Supervisors took me there. I’m a person that  does my work, anything asked… I’m doing it without any attitude, talking smart or eye rolling. Managers notice that. Why this one feel like, just because I make my job look easy, without complaints, minimum questions, with a smile on my face ALL NIGHT… that I want to do extra work that has nothing to do with me ? That burns me up. He made me so mad that I had to pull him to the side. And this is the reason why I don’t run behind, talk on a personal level, laugh and play with managers. Because just as they mean business…. LA’CREASE WALKER does too. The less I have to say about something that goes on, the more they want to know.. WHAT LACREASE THINK? Ummmm….. I think nothing, not going to empty my opinions and thoughts out to anyone on anything that has ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with me. #sostoplookingatme #waitingonaresponse #nothoughtsonthematter #asksomeoneelse #thankyou  MY FACE

So, Im trying to fix up my apartment room by room. FullSizeRender (57) FullSizeRender (56) FullSizeRender (55)I love it here, I’m going to video record as soon as they finish the lobby and the convenient store. I don’t think I will ever go back to living in a house again, UNLESS I’m married.

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Okay… I’m getting sleepy, off tonight.

I AM La’Crease (((  I don’t have to do anything else)))

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GOD Chose MEEEEEEEEEE…. CREEEEE?/BLOG

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Hello Family 🙂

Today I was laying in the bed thinking about how God works in my life. Its so unreal, makes me smile and LAUGH at the same time. When I was 19, I was so in LOVE with my daughter’s father. God told me that I LOVED that man, more than I LOVED him. I was devastated when God said that to me one day as I was washing dishes. Because for some reason, I felt it may have been true… not on purpose… but maybe a fact. I didn’t like that one bit, and I MADE SURE I DIDN’T LOVE ANY MAN like that EVER again. I know how to LOVE.. because I learned it from my parents and growing up with close siblings. So after God revealed that to me, I continued to show men LOVE… because its in me. While they thought I LOVED them so hard (((  but I was just loving how I was taught))).. they ALL were disappointed, sad, and in a state of disbelief when the relationship was over, and I walked away like a car tore up in a accident, with no scratches on my body. That’s one thing about me that I LOVE….. I can walk away and never look back… all while STILL LOVING you at the same time… but in a “out of your life” way.

I LOVE GOD MORE THAN ANYTHING… and just because I show you the LOVE and LOYALTY you may not have experienced from someone else outside of your family… doesn’t  mean LACREASE WALKER won’t walk away like I never knew you…. because I CAN….in a way that will make you ask yourself… “Did she even LOVE me in the first place?” And that answer is…Yes I did/do.

Okay, I got off track. I was so in LOVE with my daughter’s father, that it took me forever to get over him. That was one of the hardest things to do. Back then, there was no social media where you can read up on other stories and then come to the conclusion that this man is not the one for you. We didn’t have access to other women who was going through the same thing to connect with. We had to learn on our own. I was secretive, so a lot of things I went though alone. I didn’t know that SEX was the connection that kept me going back to him. When I cut off sex, I was able to move on. Took me years and years, and years to realize that. But here is the part that got me laughing and talking to God about. He is using MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE…. to talk to the broken women who are going through the same thing in this time and day. SO MANY women email me, talk to me in person, send text and other messages about the same thing. At first I was like… “Ok God, why are these ladies coming to me… I had a hard time back in the day trying to get over the LOVE I had for my daughter’s dad?” He said because you are over that, and you are the one who can reach these women. WOW WHAT AN HONOR…. When I think back on those times.. I don’t feel qualified AT ALL!! MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE??????? God are serious? Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? CREE?????? I was so broken, hurt, ashamed, embarrassed, depressed, lost, had an abortion, MEAN AND EVIL… any and everything you can think of.. and GOD SENDS ME TO HELP THESE WOMEN?????????? MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?

I must say… GOD KNOWS BEST…. because I have spoken with SO, SO, SO , SO, SO many women about relationships, hurt and things associated… that this is truly apart of my calling. I am helping these women to find themselves, and to get back to God. Women are a magnet to me when it comes to this area of their lives…. and I love it. I’ve been there. I know the pain. I know the hurt. I know the thoughts and the cries at night. I know it all. I just want to say THANK YOU LORD FOR CHOOSING ME! I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD AND SEND YOUR DAUGHTERS BACK TO YOU, SO THAT YOU CAN SEND THE MAN DESIGNED JUST FOR THEM!!!

I AM La’Crease ((( I don’t have to do anything else)))

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A Phone Call I Had To Make/ BLOG

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Last Monday I called my daughter’s dad and told him how much I loved the fact that he and Neisha are so  close. He has 2 kids, Neisha the oldest, and a son 15, by his now separated wife. I never thought a day would exist to see them as close as they are. She loves that man, and he loves her. They are BEST FRIENDS. She told me that she has 2 Best Friends as her parents.

 I’m so happy about the amount of time they spend together, they go out of town together, they go to dinner and lunch all the time, he even goes to her job just to take her lunch. I told her that when she was younger and we’d get into it, he had to have prayed to God that one day he wouldn’t have to communicate with me in order to be close to her. LOL LOL That when she was old enough, he could build his own relationship with her. And that’s exactly what happened. He told me that he loved me and that he is so proud of the way that I raised her. I told him I loved him too, and that I was so happy that he is the Father of my only child.

One thing that’s for sure, and we both tell her all the time. Whatever you do.. make sure you marry a decent man who loves and respect you. A man who doesn’t fight, or mental abuse you, because you know your dad loves you with everything in him, and he will NOT tolerate anything less.

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I wrote this to say… sometimes you have to make a phone call to those who are important, to tell them how you love and appreciate them. Things change, and people change. If anything ever happen to me or him, we both know that we LOVE each other and that whatever happened in the past between us is over and done with.

Thank you Jesus for LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING. 🙂

I AM La’Crease

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