Hey,

Thank you Lord for waking me up this morning and starting me on my way. I\’m so grateful for your loving ways that shines on me and ables me to go out into the world and spread what you put inside me. Lord, you know I had a hard time dealing with customers the years that I have been at my job, and you knew how badly I wanted to change and be the person I am to my own family and friends. Lord can I say that I am there without sounding arrogant? Because each day I go to work I\’m always so full of you, and always ready to learn from others. I finally understand that whenever a person decides to come through my line its my job to make sure that they are taken care of and they leave my line in good Spirits, and with the best hospitality. I understand Lord that I m a Leader, that I SET THE ATMOSPHERE in my line. I do my best daily to make sure that I am representing you by smiling, communicating kind words, hugs and even helping them out when they fall short. I realize that every where I go, I always get the best, best, service in the world and my way of repaying it back, is to be that same blessing to my customers. AND I\’M LOVING IT!

Sometimes I feel my work is almost up at Walmart, but whenever Lord you say its the time, I will have my purse in hand and my car in drive. So thank you for showing me……ME. And for teaching me patience, and loving kindness to YOUR people. MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS! I love you!

Ok, blog time.

I always never blog about Stars unless its Tyler Perry, because I\’m really not into them like that. Yes, I am a music FANATIC, but I like to blog about other things.

But this here……. I gotta comment on.

Beyonce got married sometime this year. She knew she was coming out with another CD at the end of this year. After all those years of being boyfriend and gurlfriend with Jay Z, I\’m just trying to understand why she felt it was a * secret* whether or not she wanted to tell if they got married or not. First let me say this. Regular people, next door people, neighbors, co workers don\’t have a problem saying. * Oh I\’m getting married, or we just got married*. What is so great about Beyonce that she has to keep *her stuff a secret*? If any thing she would be setting an example of being together for those many years and decided marriage is the right thing to do.

Then some would argue, * well she\’s not a role mode, nor is she trying to be*. Yeah you-re right about that. And let me say this too. Anytime you are a public figure, understand that you will be asked questions, and the more you keep it * private* the next time your big *AHA MOMENT* comes to shine, that question is going to come right back up. Ain\’t nobody in their right mind, gonna sit up and let you talk about your NEW CD and they not ask you the simple question * Do you get married?*. And see I knew it, I knew knew knew it. I hate to see the press eat people up for something as simple as this. All of us knew she got married, but dang do she realize how stupid she looks and sound not admitting to * such joy*.

Mary J. Blige is my gurl. She got married. She told people she was married, Now this is the meat of my subject. WHAT OTHER QUESTION IS BEYONCE SCARED OF BEING ASKED AFTER ANSWERING THE ARE YOU MARRIED ONE? I mean dang, do people go around asking Mary J. Blige, ummmmmmmmmm what did you and your husband do last night? No real people don\’t ask anything after that. Beyonce have fans that love her, everybody ain\’t out to get you boo. I wish they would get that outta their heads. People do love people. And every time I turn to a music station. Beyonce is posted. Every time I turn on the radio I hear her, every time I turn on my computer she\’s there, every time I go to the cosmetics aisle there she. and she\’s is in all the magazines. AND THEN WHEN SOMEONE ASK ARE YOU MARRIED…………………ITS A SECRET. Let it be known that you don\’t answer ANYTHING inside of your marriage. That part is totally off limits to the people. I agree. Marriage is a good thing, that shouldn\’t be a secret. It just kills me when the press constantly drill her about it and she just looks stupid in the face. Being a Star is a choice. Beyonce can decided right now today that she wants her privacy over fame, and that would HAVE TO SIT WELL with her fans because its her choice. The more she tries to keep it a secret the more the public, and press hold it over her head. Is that right to do that? Nope…………… but I\’m tired of hearing about it. Tell it and move on!!

Tyler Perry was asked at his Studio Opening about his date, and he told the interviewer, you know I don\’t discuss my private life. In other words he wasn\’t going to have any communication about who she is.

Then my boo* wink* writes a letter to his fans the following day. * Thank you*. Saying that something negative was going on and that he would tell us about it in a few days. So now I\’m saying to myself. I really really really really really hope its not about those 4 black writers. Because if anything in his life is PRIVATE………………………….. THAT SHOULD BE!!! That is NONE OF OUR BUSINESS! Let that ride out in court. Cause to me, when he sends out an email explaining his part of the story, those writers are going to be reading, their Lawyers, and the message board members are going to be reading, and Tyler knowssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss how big his support is. Before you know it, it will be a mess. I see it coming. This is a very sensitive and serious matter, that should NEVER NEVER EVER EVER be in the heads of TYLER\’S FANS! I just really hope that someone close to him tell him that he should just be quiet about it. Tyler is a famous person, I know sometimes people attack him. And so, I think that its important in his mind to * tell his side of the story* so that he can clear his name up with us fans. But to me as a FAN OF HIS, its not important. This is HIS business. This is really really heavy stuff. The last thing I want to see is Tyler fans all against 4 black writers. We will never fully understand the whole thing, why brief us on it. I dont want fans to take Tyler\’s side, and diss the writers. I so don\’t want to know about this story, this is what you call PRIVATE. Tyler has the power to be quiet about it, or write about it. Like my bestfriend always say * the sun ain\’t gon always shine on you*. I\’m going to pray on this because he really needs to not even mention this his fans.

NOW THAT\’S * PRIVATE*

Whew, I\’m gone to bed gotta get up in the morning.

Cree

Hey!

Thank you Lord for such a wonderful day. Work went well. When I got off I went over to my sisters house with her and her fiance, and then my other sister came over, then her husband, and we sat and laughed for a good while. I forgot my coworker was suppose to come over to take another gurl her Birthday money. I am Vice President of our Birthday Club at work. Guess Imma have to take to her tomorrow.

Thursday I went into the office to talk to my Asst Manager about hours that have been cut in the store. For 2 weeks my co worker didn\’t have ANY hours , she\’s been there for about 7 years. The store has only been there for about 8. How does it come to this? I felt so bad for her, because she said she had to sell her food stamps in order to pay her rent. It pissed me off!! The less store hours they give out, the better the chance for a bonus. For the last 9 months we have gotten 3- $450.00 bonuses. Yeah, that\’s good. But now the big money is up for grabs, and if we do good now, in Dec we will get $450.00, and then in Feb we\’ll get another $1100.00 a piece like year before last. I understand management don\’t want to be asked * well what happened you guys have been getting bonuses for the last 4 months* if we don\’t make it this quarter? Then the killa part about it is. The pay week we are to get our bonus, they cut short allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll employees hours, making your * bonus* check look and feel like a * regular*one. I\’m so sick of these scamming bosses. I can\’t wait to walk * God\’s Red Carpet* on Judgment Day to Paradise, I\’m not giving no eye contact to non of these greedy, selfish, scheming, underpaying, fake people. I\’m sick of them.

So I went into the office and told my Asst manager who is over the front end that I needed to talk to her about my hours. Ive been at my job for 5 years and I have never in my life gotten 16 hours in one week. See this is the main reason why I go to work and not socialize and smile up in management face. Because when I need to go to one of them for STRAIGHT UP LACREASE business, they know I\’m on the real tip. All that fake, ha ha he he stuff, I\’m not even standing for it. I love my Asst manager, I really do, plus she\’s a Christian woman and she carries herself accordingly …….. always. But her * by the book* ways has pissed me off. She tried to explained to me how the computer generates the hours according to the sales in each store. I\’m so glad that I keep restraining myself when she was talking…….I have a habit of over talking someone especially when I need to make a point. I\’m looking at her eye to eye saying to myself, SHUT UP WITH THIS MESS! I was very calm, I said to her, you can show me all these computer print outs stuff all day, I\’m still trying to understand how an employee of 5-7 years get 0 hours a week, and 16 hours. Before she took over the front end, we had another manger which was only a month ago. He was giving out hours left and right. He worked with you, he used * common sense* when he scheduled. And that\’s why we always had coverage on the front end.

Today it was sooooooooooooo busy in our store and we were so short handed, they called up Dept managers, floor associates, CSM, and OUR STORE MANAGER WAS ON THE REGISTER RINGING UP CUSTOMERS IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CROWDED. The customer waited so long in line, when they got up to me, I had to work extra hard to get them friendly. What kinda MESS is that? We have cashiers at home wanting to work those hours and here we are pulling associates from other areas of the store just to get folks rung up. Then when those associates go back to their departments, they have a ton of work to catch up on. That ain\’t right. Me on the other hand, I love when its crowded. The time flies and I love the hype of getting them in and out. But its bad when a coworker tells you, hey……. I cant even pay my rent this month for the first time in my life working here. That kills me!! Espcially when the store is so crowded and cashiers are willing to work.

Back to me and my Asst managers talk. All while she was talking, I\’m looking her in the eye saying to myself. Is she dayum slow? She keep wanting to show me this tracking system on the computer and I told her I didn\’t want to see it. I just don\’t. I need to know why I\’m not getting 25 hours a week, and why since you\’re over the front end things changed? She didn\’t want to break down, so I waited until she finished and said………. I need to speak with someone higher. She said you can talk to ***, I said NOPE…………NO IN HOUSE!! *they are all friends and run together* She said well you can talk to such and such. I said fine! Since the lady wasn\’t there, when she comes to the store next week, I\’m going to talk to her. So I went back to my register, and don\’t you know about 2 hours later, she had my manager * CSM* to come tell me to please come back to her station. So I\’m walking to the back like dang wonder what she wants? I gets back there and she shows me the schedule and how it works. I\’m saying to myself, DAYUM DIDN\’T I TELL HER THAT I WANTED TO TALK TO SOMEONE ELSE? Did I * move some furniture* by saying that I wanted to talk to someone else about this? I\’m standing there looking like I\’m trying not to show rudeness on my face, because she really is a nice person and I like her a lot she has great management skills, but she uses no common sense in issues that she can handle without referring to her * by the book policy*. I\’m listening to her talk, and she shows me these hours that are available. Saturday is the day in questioning for extra hours because she has me off. I\’m available to work on Sat 10:30-4:00 on Saturdays. She shows me this 8:30-4:30 schedule, and says here are some extra hours. And I said to her how is it that people want extra hours and they are just sitting here in the computer not generated to anyone? I cant remember what her answer was, but it was DUMB! Didn\’t make any sense to me. I said well yeah I can take the hours * ummmmmm mighty funny hours came up after…..NOPE ….NO IN HOUSE MANAGERS*. Then she says, well you\’re not available those hours, she said in order to take them you would have to write your name with mines on the schedule to take them pass your availability. I said, well can you just give me the 10:30-4:00 she said no she couldn\’t split those up, I would have to work the shift in whole. I guess my facial expression started talking for me, cause when I looked at my watched and realized that I was 30 full minutes over for the day. I WAS REALLY TO GO! Now see next week when time goes in, they are going to make me leave .30 minutes early because of it. After she realized that I wasn\’t interested in that mess, she told me to think about it. I went home and thought about this:

I\’m use to being feed * meaning the hours I work*

I\’m not eating like I use to eat * meaning I\’m not getting enough hours.

Then she offer me *Macaroni and Cheese*. Well I\’m not going to except it because I don\’t eat cheese.* meaning the hours I\’m able to work on Saturdays*

How can she fully say she offered me hours * food* that I didn\’t take, when it doesn\’t fit into my schedule* macaroni and cheese?

You know you always have those people that says * well I did offer*. Yeah you did , but guess what? I DONT EAT MAC AND CHEESE!!! What you are offering I DON\’T EAT! So you are really doing NOTHING!

The new schedule comes out on Monday, I can\’t wait to see it! If its not looking right………. I\’m moving some furniture. That\’s all I\’m saying for now. I know how to get in touch with the BIG WIGS

Speaking of Big Wigs. I came home yesterday after dealing with that mess, to read 1000000 google alerts about Tyler Perry and 4 black writers of his being fired. So, I went to his message board to see if I could find posters who may have went or was invited to his Celebration! Ya ll know how I love Tyler Perry. Nothing! So, I said well I know Oprah is going to be There, and Sidney, and Gayle, Will, and and all his famous rich and famous Hollywood friends WHO WAS AT HIS PLAYS BACK IN 1999. I KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW some faithful fans of his are going to be there. Ive been READING HIS MESSAGE BOARD for 6 years so I\’m expecting TO READ some stage play back in the day fans to be invited. Got home and went to watch the footage of Tyler\’s Celebration and all I saw was famous people. Right now…………………………..I\’m SMH.

I\’m going to pray TONIGHT!

Cree

Have you heard of this song? *wink*

GOD’S GONNA CUT YOU DOWN

You can run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.

Go tell that long-tongued liar,
Go and tell that midnight rider,
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back-biter.
Tell ’em that God’s gonna cut ’em down.
Tell ’em that God’s gonna cut ’em down.

Well, my goodness gracious,
Let me tell you the news.
My head’s been wet with the midnight dew.
I’ve been down on bended knee,
Talkin’ to the man from Galilee.
He spoke to me in the voice so sweet,
I thought I heard the shuffle of the angel’s feet.
He called my name and my heart stood still,
When he said, “John, go do My will!”

Go tell that long-tongued liar,
Go and tell that midnight rider,
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back-biter.
Tell ’em that God’s gonna cut ’em down.
Tell ’em that God’s gonna cut ’em down.

You can run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.

Well, you may throw your rock,
And hide your hand.
Workin’ in the dark,
Against your fellow man
But as sure as God,
Made black and white.
What’s done in the dark,
Will be brought to the light.

You can run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.

Go tell that long-tongued liar,
Go and tell that midnight rider,
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back-biter.
Tell ’em that God’s gonna cut you down.
Tell ’em that God’s gonna cut you down.
Tell ’em that God’s gonna cut you down.

Okay, Okay, Okay Im ready to tell you *whats on my mind*. Yeah you were right I wanted to say something but didnt, felt the time wasnt right. Well Im ready now. The time has come. Im ready. This is me and you , me and you.

godlovesmealways@comcast.net

Cree

Wow, where do I start? First let me say Thank you Lord for waking me up another day. I have been feeling sick with a fever, headaches, coughing here and there, and plain ole not feeling well. I have called into work 3 days straight, and Thank you for me having the other days off because I truly don\’t know how I would have made it in.

Last night while I was laying on the couch, I just wanted this fever to be over with. I really needed you Lord, to come through for me because I was going back to work in the morning and I needed to be healed. You told me to put my hand over my head and to pray. You told me that I have always had power in my hands to heal, but since I always felt that the people on TV who lay hands on people and run around the Church are fake , I couldn\’t believe it for myself. I was obedient and did as I was told. I put my hand over my forehead, said a prayer and on the spot my fever was completely gone. Lord, you know me, and forgive me for this, but I wanted it to be gone so bad that I still couldn\’t believe it. I laid awake on the couch talking to you for hours last night, just laughing talking and listening to you. And not once did my fever come back. This morning, I was nervous to get up for work. I knew once my feet hit the floor and I got to walking around it was coming back. Nope. Got to work, started thinking about it, nope. Here is its 9:51pm, NOPE and I am FINE!!! This is the second time in 2 weeks that you told me to put my hands on my body and I was instantly healed. Did I talk about the TV preachers who lay hands soooooo much that now that I see the gift that I have, I can\’t believe it? Did I talk about them to much? What is going on?

Last night when I was up late talking and listening to you, I kept saying God, Imma be sleepy at work before lunch time. You said, no you\’re not, you\’re talking to me. I couldn\’t stop laughing, cause I know you, and I know you mean what you say. At work today I was not sleeping, and every time I think about how late I was up, it just spooks me out, cause right now its almost 10 pm and I\’m still not sleepy. I had only about 41/2 hours of sleep before working a 7 hour shift. plus being sick ain\’t no joke. I said to you, Lord, I hardly ever get sick, I said I know whenever I get this way, you are trying to get my attention. I said *what is it that you want me to see*? He said, remember when you and your 2 friends went to dinner last Sunday, and you walked into the restaurant, and everyone was looking at you? And I said yes, he said you have always had that kinda affect on people, and its time you start using it. With that said he gave me my first assignment, and right now I will not tell what it is, because I don\’t believe its good to speak prematurely, but around Thanksgiving time I will share all that he gave to me last night. All I can say is WOW WOW WOW! God is the balm!! Build a relationship with him now while you still have time. I slip a lot * not good*, but its a relationship like no other.

I surf the net a lot and I find a lot of things people say to be so negative. I really don\’t know where does all this negative energy come from. And you know when you are around others and you are this way, it can rub off on them as well. The same goes for a person who speaks positive things, they can easily influence others in their circle to be positive.

My sister was over to my house last night. Oh goodness we had a good talk. She is the kinda person that when she\’s not sure of the choice she has made she will ask others opinions. She loves to debate, we both do. I was telling her how to handle a situation without approaching it in a negative way. I gave her this example.

I said if you were invited to a dinner, and on the table were 10 foods laid out. There are 5 dishes on one side of the counter, and 5 on the other side of the counter. You then pile on your plate:

greens
corn on the cob
yams
barbecue
chicken and dressing
corn bread
potato salad
cake
banana pudding
the you get to #10 which is macaroni and cheese and you skip that one because you don\’t like cheese.

Now this is where the negative part comes in. Why would you go home call your friends and say to them. Yea, I went to this party tonight and all the food was good, but when I got to the macaroni and cheese I didn\’t get any because I don\’t like it. I hate cheese. You should have seen it gurl, it had cheese packed up all around the pan. Then they had the nerve to put extra cheese in it because this one lady couldn\’t stop talking about how cheesy it was. I even heard it was an off brand cheese. Ughhh, when I got to that dish I just wanted to throw out my whole plate. I don\’t see how people can eat cheese like that, it just looks like a big ole pan of yellow stuff. Then gurl you know what too, the handle of my spoon had a bit of cheese on it, and I got me another one. Imma have to stop going to places that serve macaroni and cheese because the smell gets in my nose and turns my stomach. Then as we were leaving this lady asked her daughter if she was going to take home some left over macaroni and cheese. The next function I go to, Imma make sure they don\’t serve that stankin mess.

And my question is? Is that all you got out of this dinner party? What did you like? Talk about the foods you did enjoy. Why mention the macaroni and cheese if you don\’t like it? Discuss how pretty the dinner set up was. Is that all you have to say about a dinner party with 99% of the foods you like? Why do the macaroni and cheese have to be the topic of discussion?

WE have got to watch what we say. I\’m the ring leader. I have to watch my words, they will become action. Everything starts with a thought. People are watching us, they are listening, they are learning. Always speak positive! * Im learning myself*

Cree

Click here if this video doesnt play.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ML_QydtOae8

Hey Family!

I miss blogging. Thank you Jesus for restoring my health. I had been feeling bad not weak or anything, just feeling funky with a fever and headache. I had been doing so good with my weight loss and working out daily faithfully. Feeling good, cut the pops, and ice cream. Been eating breakfast * which is a biggie for me* drinking lots of water, orange juice, and just doing my thang…… till this came along. I\’m feeling much much better, I didn\’t even want to come in my office, just lay on the couch. For the last 2 days I called off work * it killed me to do that*, and I\’m going to take one more day just to be safe. My stomach was really off the hook, I\’m thinking maybe it was something I ate. I dunno. But I\’m doing much better now and I\’m happy. With the loss of appetite and lots of working out, I have lost a total of 9-10 pounds.

Guess what? I finally learned how to text. LOL I\’m so old fashion on some things, my daughter showed me how. Mann, back in the day, I had 3 phones in my house all for different people. LOL All I know how to do is dial the number and still I wonder what button to push to send it. Times has really changed I\’ll tell ya that. There was a time when you left the house, that was it. You had to wait till you get home to find out who called you. Even if you had a pager, you still had to get to a phone. I remember going in the house breaking my back tryna get to the called ID. Now, I don\’t even check messages till days later. That\’s bad.

Did you all see the Presidential Debate tonight? I learned a lot tonight about the Characters of Obama, and McClain. I just wish that Obama would * boss up* a little on McClain. McClain act like he didn\’t want to shake his hand, and after all 8 good points Obama had to say about him, still he wanted to act like since he\’s been around longer he knows more. Obama all the way! Good debate!

My mind is kinda all over the place. Ive got a lot to talk about but Neisha is calling me to watch a movie, plus I\’m rambling tonight. Well, I\’ll talk to you all tomorrow about several things. Mainly about staying positive. I dunno what\’s up with you tube. But here\’s a clip to the movie Dan in real life. This clip is sooooooooooooo funny, I play it all the time at home. Take care

Cree * Hecallmecree*

If the video doesn\’t play here is the link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byG7WFFLstA

Hey,

Its been a mintue since weve last talked. You wont beleive that has been reveiled to me. LOL You may laugh. You always say that I have something to say but never say it. Well I do have something to say this time, and its a trip that this just really came to me. All along you had a feeling what it was, but I didnt. Anyway, I really want you to email me when you get a chance. I wanted to post a video, but since youtube is acting up, here are the lryics to the song. You turned me on to it. So here it is.

GOD\’S GONNA CUT YOU DOWN

You can run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.

Go tell that long-tongued liar,
Go and tell that midnight rider,
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back-biter.
Tell \’em that God\’s gonna cut \’em down.
Tell \’em that God\’s gonna cut \’em down.

Well, my goodness gracious,
Let me tell you the news.
My head\’s been wet with the midnight dew.
I\’ve been down on bended knee,
Talkin\’ to the man from Galilee.
He spoke to me in the voice so sweet,
I thought I heard the shuffle of the angel\’s feet.
He called my name and my heart stood still,
When he said, \”John, go do My will!\”

Go tell that long-tongued liar,
Go and tell that midnight rider,
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back-biter.
Tell \’em that God\’s gonna cut \’em down.
Tell \’em that God\’s gonna cut \’em down.
[ Find more Lyrics at http://www.mp3lyrics.org/fmQ ]

You can run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.

Well, you may throw your rock,
And hide your hand.
Workin\’ in the dark,
Against your fellow man
But as sure as God,
Made black and white.
What\’s done in the dark,
Will be brought to the light.

You can run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Run on for a long time.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.
Sooner or later, gotta cut you down.

Go tell that long-tongued liar,
Go and tell that midnight rider,
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back-biter.
Tell \’em that God\’s gonna cut you down.
Tell \’em that God\’s gonna cut you down.
Tell \’em that God\’s gonna cut you down.

Cree

Godlovesmealways@comcast.net neshacrese@aol.com

Hey,

Lord Thank you for another day. Thank you for the peace of mind that you allowed me to see. With all the foolishness that I had in my life once upon a time, never did I know this kinda peace. Thank you Lord for telling me its okay to step out of my comfort zone, wow so much can be missed when you don\’t. Thank you for having me to * run late* for work this afternoon, I could have been in that really bad highway accident. Thank you for always looking out for me and my love ones.

Guess what? I lost 5 pds!!! Yea Creedog! LOL I have been doing the Dr. Phil weight loss race on his web site, and focusing on the 7 keys * I have his book* and I found out some things about myself and was made conscience of them. Im an emotional eater. I eat when things are good in my life. When things are on my mind or Im stressed about something, I lose my appetite. I caught myself last week wanting something to snack on and realized that I was eating off emotions. I was told to set a goal of how many pounds I wanted to focus on losing, and I posted 2, and end up losing 5. LOL Thats so funny to me, because every since Tyler Perry said he gets up at 5 am to work out, I was like shooooo Cree aint gon do that, but dang I can at least * when I do get up* excercise. I found me some really great excercises to do daily, and I was so sore for these last coupla days I didnt want to do anything but lay in my bed. Today my body feels much better. Im feeling so good right now.

Yesterday, me and my 2 co workers went to the movies, and then out to dinner. I really had a good time. We laughed and talk for the whole day. Our main conversation was about when men are up front and honest to the woman as far as where he stand in the relationship. If a man tells you that he is not ready to be in a relationship, but tells you that he wants to have sex, then its up to the woman to decide if thats what she wants. I think that it takes a real man to tell a woman how he feels. If a woman decides that she wants to have sex with him, then she must understand that with sex comes feelings. If she gets emotional involved with him, then she will be in lots of trouble trying to shake the feeling of falling in love. Because he has already told how what to expect from him……..sex and thats it. I tell my teens sex is the easiest thing in the world to get, try to get something thats hard. Sex is free. You can get that anywhere. Go for a long lasting, God given relationship with your husband……..not a sex partner. I dont care how good he looks, how much money he has, how good his loving is, that means nothing if you don\’t have Love.

I use to have gurls nite out at my house, where we would sit around and talk about relationships and I would invite a few of my male friends over to balance out the conversations. I really miss those. I had about 4 or 5 of them. This time Im thinking about renting a room in The Motor City Casino and have it there over night. Kinda like a sleep over, NO DRINKS, goodness…………. when you tell women that you want to get together and have talks, they want men and drinks there. Thats why I havent done anything in about 4 years with the women. With my teens when I threw them a hotel party all they wanted was music, and snacks. lol. Im seriously thinking about throwing one. I mean seriously.

Whew I can barely keep my eyes open. Im gone to bed. Talk to you all later.

Hecallmecree

Hey,

What a day I had to day. Lord Thank you for letting me see another one. Thank you for my sanity, Thank you for showing me how to deal with all the people you bring my way daily. Thank you for the 5 years at Walmart that you had to teach me how to deal with people and their many personalities and Spirits. I\’m a work * under construction* Someone said to me: \”stop letting people get under your skin\”. I have heard that voice over, and over, and over in my head, and that\’s what helped me to get through. There are things that push my button, but see now I recognize the foolishness and I\’ll cut it off there.

Today I wasn\’t feeling to well. I think I was running a temperature. I need some rest that\’s what that is. I will be getting some tonight. I need to go and iron my clothes for work, but heck I\’ll do it in the morning.

Today these 2 older white ladies came through my line. They had separate orders. The first lady\’s order came up to $2 and some change, after I told her the total, she was fumbling in her purse. So while she did that I decided to grab her 2 bags off the spinner and walk them around and put them in her basket. So when I put them in the cart, I looked up at her. She seemed to be mumbling something, so I said to her * ma\’am are you alright*? She said, I feel like I\’m going to faint. so I looked at her and something * God* told me to hold her hand. As soon as I grabbed her hand she FELL OUT! OMG She was a tall, but small framed lady, but she felt like dead weight. I called over a manager who was walking by, to help me get this lady, she was heavy. Yall know I wanted to cry right? But I had to boss my game up and be there for this lady. So we were hollering out * Code White*, it took 3 of us to keep this lady from falling and hitting the ground. Just as we all got a hold of her, she came back. My coworker got got her a chair, and we helped her to sit down. Her friend couldn\’t believe it. She said that they have been friends for 60 years. LOOK AT GOD! AINT THAT A BLESSING?. The EMS came and she didn\’t want to go to the hospital, yall know how older people are, shooo, young ones too. But she was the driver, ain\’t that something? So she agreed to go with the EMS, and we found out that the pharmacist is her son-n law. So that worked out perfectly. I hope that everything will be okay with her. They were so cool too. Let me tell you, my coworkers are the bomb!!! When something like that happens, every body stop drop and roll for out customers. It ain\’t even about being noisy, they went and got her a wet towel, orange juice, water, chair all inside of seconds. My store manager will run, I mean run to make sure everything is okay. I really love how they handle things in time of an emergency. And don\’t let a child come up missing, shoooo we shut the store doors DOWN! I know some are saying, well that\’s what you are suppose to do when things happen to the customer. And yes that\’s true, and let me say WE TAKE CARE OF OUR CUSTOMERS!! After this was all over, I realize that this experience was something I personally needed. I\’m such a cry baby, and this was my first in my face kinda stuff. A person falling out in your arms…….come on now that\’s major! So I needed to Boss up, and really be hands on in a situation like this. So thank you Lord for the opportunity to help someone today. I really love your people! Thank you!

Huhhh, guess what? I broke up with my boyfriend of 22 years today! Its over, I\’m so through with him. He doesn\’t love me, and not one day has he shown me real love. After I love him, he laugh at me, and so today was the last straw. I told him to get out of my life!!! He is officially dead in my book, and I can show him better than I can tell him. His name is Yep, food!! I realize that *he don\’t love me*. I have done all my exercises
today, plus drank my 40 ounces of water.I\’m too beautiful for all this weight. I can\’t do it anymore. I\’m tired. Enough talking about it, Imma be about it!

I told you all yesterday that I am learning to step out of my norm of things. Once upon a time I use to be the party gurl. I had parties at my house every weekend. One party my sisters friend woke up the next day laying in my drive way. The person I am today, would call the police on myself for just a person stretch outside till the break of dawn. But you know you live and you learn. Guess the point I\’m making is, 2 of my coworkers are coming over Sunday afternoon for a gurls day in. We are going to get something to eat, and come back to my house to chat and laugh. I don\’t like people at my house ,especially co workers. * I know I gotta get out of that trust mess*. People see you at work, and they are dying to see what your home life is like. Imma laid back kinda gurl, and I love and nice, clean home and plenty of peace. a part of losing weight is coming out of your comfort zone. And boy am I!!!! So yall pray for Cree! LOL

I was about 32 or 33 when I started driving and got my license. I was scared!!! Oh my goodness. I had met this guy who was a Virgo like me. We were so much alike, it killed our friendship. That was back when I didn\’t have any control over my mouth. He would come over all shob * my word* and smelling good. But he always wanted me to drive. I didn\’t know how to drive and he knew it. He would always throw up in my face, dang I wish you could drive so that you could drive me around. He wasn\’t saying it in a * lazy* way, but in a way that he was feeling me and wanted his * gurl* to drive. He felt strongly that it was so sexy for a woman to drive her man around. I felt terrible. Cause Imma bonnie and Clyde kinda silly chick, and I couldn\’t meet his standards in that area.

After a while we couldn\’t get past first base, he was reading me and I was reading him and he was moving too fast, wanted to marry me and N E WAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, we departed. WE were still cool after that. But guess you know your gurl went and learned how to drive, got her license and was like WHERE HE AT? LOL ROFL! Shoo. now you can\’t tell me nothing!! I\’m the baddest chick in drive especially highway driving! What cha say?? LOL Now I can\’t wait to drive my man around. All I do is highway driving everywhere I go. I love to drive and its all because of him.

I\’m continuing my Chemistry blog entries, by playing one of my favorite videos, and its #20 on my iPod.

Im gone for the night.

Be Blessed

Cree