Short Term Goals……………………Crees Blog Entry

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Ever since the end of Dec 2013, I’ve been making chances in my life.. that some people just can’t seem to get with… OH WELL. This train is moving.
 
 
Already I am seeing changes. Someone told me once, we know what we need to do to change, the problem comes in with doing it. And boy is this the truth. But I’m so proud of myself for really saying ” Okay La’Crease, this is your year”. Not only that… but I’m doing it.
 
 
Bishop TD Jakes is doing a 4 weeks series on Transformation… and its FIYAH. I know I should be at my own Church on Sunday mornings, but I’m addicted to his teachings. He speaks to me. Not only that, but he speaks to what’s going on in my life at this time. Today was week 2, and if you want you can catch it on his website. I have notes, and homework… YES HOMEWORK.
 
 
Here are TO ME the most important of my notes
  • write- the vision
  • build – according to patterns
  • invest- in what is truly you, to what I am about
 
 
Bishop asks…. What turns you on? He says Urges are temporary impulses, it makes withdraws and NOT deposits….. Instincts makes deposits * I LOVE THIS PART*
 
 
HOMEWORK- What is the will of God concerning me? Who am I? What is my truth? What makes me happy? What makes me alive?
I finally know my answers. Someone ask me these same questions, and I really didn’t know. But I do now. So I’m happy.
 
 
In other news. I L O V E POP.. And I know for a fact I could put away a 20 ounce plus a day. Around the 28th of Dec.. I made a decision to cut the pop out. Since I know this is a process. I have decided to only drink it 3 times a MONTH * trust me this is a small number compared to what I’m use too* I get to chose the occasion. So far this month I have had one drink of pop and I let it get very watery…that’s also a plus for me. I love strong pop. Well anyway…I ask my daughter how is it that she gets so much done, and stay so Focused. She said mommy I write down short term goals. She said I do this with everything in my life. I write short term goals, and long term goals, and she says she focus on doing them.
 
 
Now, I’m the kind of person who can plan a Women’s retreat for 2015 AND DO IT.. I CAN PLAN to have movie day, dinner, concert and DO IT. I can sit here and plan my homeless dinner out for the next 2 years, menu and all…. AND DO IT. I’m a GREAT PLANNER. If I tell you I can’t do something, trust me.. I really can’t. But if I agree to do something because I know I can… then its a done deal. So, after talking to Nesha about that. I went home, came up with a 6 month weight loss plan and how much I plan to lose in a month, and what I plan to do as far as making it happen. It was a done deal in my mind. See, that’s the thing about me… I NEVER FOCUS ON MYSELF, ALWAYS ON OTHERS. And even though its ALWAYS, ALWAYS ALWAYS SPIRITUAL with them… still… its NEVER about ME.
 
 
When I started cutting down on my eating, walking in my building, drinking water, and NOT POP….I am 2 pounds away from my goal weight for JANUARY and its only the 13th. My goal weight is 9 lbs. I am so proud of myself. I’m almost embarrassed that I don’t set short goals…. I’m always going for the “LONG TERM GOALS”. IM EXCELLENT AT them… never even thought about short term goals.
 
 
July 1, 2014.. I’m giving myself a photo shoot….I can’t wait!!!
 
 
Be Blessed
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Cree’s Ramblings…….Crees Blog Entry

DSCN1207Okay…. I guess I’ll do some ramblings today.

I’m not a person who wear wigs often, never had a weave, or a sew in( photo taken today). But today I tried the clip in extensions…. AND IM LOVING THEM. You can’t tell thatgurltheycallCree nothing today baaaby * in my Madea voice*!!!!! LOL I do think I have a phobia about weave, even eye lashes . I don’t like extra “stuff” going on. I like to remove EVERYTHANG AT BED TIME. Even nails get on my nerve after a certain time. I’ll wear tips starting off, then I’ll have them removed at the shop and I’ll wear my own nails with acrylic on top. I wonder why I’m like this? I don’t like hair in my eyes either. if I put on my lashes * I wear them everyday* and if feels as if they’re hanging over my eyes….. Oh they have to come off. I wonder if I have anxiety. Wow and something else is a trip. EVERY TIME I get ready to leave out of MY OWN HOUSE… I have to use the bathroom… and I’m not talking #1 either. I know this may be too much information… but I’m in the season of learning and paying attention to MYSELF. So hopefully you’re learning something about yourselves too. LOL

As I sit here and wait for the Real Housewives of Atlanta come on…. I must say after watching Nene Leakes in her spin off show…. I really like her. I got to see her with her REAL friends, people who are apart of her life, and she really is the peace keeper in her circle. She was a different person and I like that. And even now, she doesn’t like drama and that can only come when you’re at peace with yourself. I hope that she has another show, and I can say that seeing her in a different light has caused me to stop jumping to conclusions about folks. I realized that RHOA are people they she may have known in the beginning, but also people who are not necessary apart of her everyday life. She’s come a long way, and I’m proud of her.

I watched Bishop TD Jakes on line this morning…..”The Instinct to Increase”… it was so good. He asked “Are you a baby sitter or a Teacher”? Do you baby sit your gifts God gave you? OOOOOO yeah that’s what I was saying? He said “You’ll never have increase if you’re control by FEARS”. AWESOME WORD…. now its time to APPLY IT!!

BE BLESSED

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Don’t Settle!!! Cree’s Blog Entry

IMG_1623Here are the notes I wrote down for today’s for Bishop T.D Jake’s Message called “Don’t Settle”.

  • God uses people that MOVE

  • Everybody Jesus called was busy

  • Romans 8:28 & Hebrew 11:1

  • Hope is an expected end

  • Abraham loved God, but he wanted to settle, saying maybe I misunderstood (HIM) God, maybe he meant this or that, maybe he didn’t say I will have a son. So he settled.

  • Covenant before circumcision, ( if its not helping me get there cut if off)

  • You don’t get saved so you can get right, if you were right, then you don’t need to be saved.

  • Change your name when you change your game

  • You can’t be who you were and be who you are at the same time

  • A house divided cannot stand ( will fall)

  • Get ya fight back Cree

  • I can’t make you believe it, but I can expose you to it

  • You go to Church to be FED not to be Acknowledged

  • Every conqueror has complications

  • As long as you see Church Leaders as “Heros” you will only see yourself as “Human”

  • Isaac will come out of me

Compassion Fatigue

I just have to blog about this day. I have to in order to remember it. If I’m all over the place don’t worry about it, because this is for me.
 
Went to work today, had a wonderful day. My job is hard mentality, dealing with so many different SPIRITS. If it wasn’t for God constantly in my ear, I don’t know where I would be…….and that’s real talk. Some of those people I just look at, because I cant believe sometimes how they don’t look out for the person behind them when they are digging in their purses, and cutting in front of each other, pushing the cart because its in the way. These people really get upset. Most of them come in with such heavy hearts, I can feel it when they come up to me. That’s why its so important to have a relationship with God, and to read our bibles. This is the only way I stand daily. If I allow every persons Spirit to come into me, I would be in trouble daily. I stand on God’s word, he makes me happy, he feels me with PEACE. He cracks me up when I don’t feel like laughing, he CHECKS me when I’m wrong. He loves me, and I feel so bad to see so many people who are living this life without him. Everyday its a struggle for them to smile, and some to even get out of bed. Not saying that I don’t, cause sometimes I DO. But I don’t stay in that place too long, because its a dead in there. I personally can’t function . But anyway…..
 
I got off work today, had a few hours to get ready and be on the road to my Church Second Ebenezer to see Bishop TD Jakes. See, I like to do 1000 things before I leave the house, and I knew that in order to be there by 7, I had to cut down on those things to do and leave. But I messed around and got on the rode about 6:20. OMG Traffic was on the freeway exit, lines took forever to move, traffic was so thick it was unreal. There were so many people  parking their cars and walking a far distance. And those who wanted could ride the bus shuttle to the church. I never seen anything like it. Cars were parked blocks and blocks and blocks away, they were parking in businesses, and restaurants, on the street, it was really amazing on one hand, but on MY HAND…….. I was mad for playing myself like this. I know when we have our break through services, I have to leave the house at least 1 1/2  hours early to beat the traffic and fight for a good seat. Our Church seats 3000, there were so many people there we had a over flow of 3 rooms!!!! How is that possible? LOL Well, Imma say this, after thinking about it carefully and crying in the car ( yea I cried, cause I was mad at myself) I decided to stop and get me something to eat, and go home. I was disappointed and devastated  at the same time. I came home from work in way enough time to get dressed and go, but I’m always “pushing it”, and this is exactly what I get.
 
I got home, look at my  food I was turned off. Then I thought about it, I COULD PAY FOR IT ON PAY PER VIEW!!!!! I pulled out my credit card and ordered it. Just my luck for it to act up on me now. It came on, the choir was singing 2 long songs, I finally ate, and I was ready for Bishop. And soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon as he said his first word the  they were having difficulties. I was blazing, trying to be patient, the insides of me was on FIYAH. It seemed as Satan had beaten me. I refresh the page at least 40 times. All I could get was bits and pieces. I was so upset, after that long ride, long line, closed parking lost, cars parked everywhere, I was outdone. Tired from work, tired from the drive, and tired of trying to get this page to come back up. I read on line that they had the same issue last night, so I knew that I was in trouble. But…..just as soon as the tears flowed, and my frustrations grew, 10-15 minutes passed, and just as I said “that’s it…. I’m done trying”…. it came back up and NEVER went out. I knew Bishop would have a word for me, I just had to hear the word. I knew it, I knew it. I knew it. I can’t say it enough. The word came at the end when he said.. ” The Angels are coming for ME”. He talked about “Compassion Fatigue” and how I’m always showing compassion, and helping this person and that person, doing this and doing that, and watching everybody make it, and do their thang, and I’m happy for them, but at the same time suffering from Compassion Fatigue. I lost it on that part. That was it, after all the heat my body went through today, I felt a cold breeze when he said “The Angels are coming for ME”!!! Its gonna be my turn, I’m going to be happy, I’m going to do the things that I always dreamed of, being where I want to be. That was my break through. That sent me over for real. I’m so happy God saw how much and how badly I needed this word, I went through hell and high water tonight, but I got the word in my ear, and I’m holding on to that appointed time. I have enough strength to hold on. I can wait a little while longer. And I’m happy. Thank you Lord for that word tonight. Thank you 🙂
 
I come to realize that I know a lot of people. No matter where I go, somebody always recognize me from work, school and just by others. When I’m getting my nails and brows down, there are always people there who know me. I can go through the drive thru and the people say, heyyyyyyyyyyyy gurl did you work today? And I’m like huh? Then it comes to me. Sooooooo, many people come up to me all the time and I’m like why don’t I remember them? I realize the impression I leave and they remember me. That is such a blessing. They tell me how friendly I am, and how sweet I am, and its really good to hear that because I don’t always look how I feel. LOL That’s why God always tell me that we must represent HIM. Don’t pay me any attention……..see God through me, so this explains why I am always speaking on how important to smile, and show yourself friendly. My daily bread book says that ” Jesus is telling us that the way God knows we love Him is by how we treat people”. I just love that!!! I know God has to give me that push sometimes, and I know that since I already started something, I may as well keep it going. I would hate for people to see me on the streets and I’m acting mean, and ugly. How would that look for God? I have to really, really, really be careful, God has shown me that so many people watch me and its always good to just be ME…
 
Well, I’m off to bed….. I’m so sleepy. Good Night!
 
PS, IF THERES ANY MISTAKES ILL PROOF THEM TOMORROW. IM CROSS SIDED!