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Change the atmosphere of that dysfunction …….. From the desk of Cree

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Yesterday when I was in Meijer, I met these 2 lovely young ladies who was stacking salad and other items in that area. I was instantly connected to them because they were friendly and very helpful. Somehow we got on the subject of their mothers. One gurl moved here from Indiana and said she missed her mother so much. But the other gurl went on about how she felt her mom didn’t show her love at all growing up, and that when she have her baby she’ll show her baby much LOVE. So, I said… Let me ask you this: To your knowledge what have YOUR mother been through as a child? She said… my mother was poor, she went through a lot growing up. And after she had me, she got on drugs, couldn’t keep a job, she shared many things with us.
 
 
I told her sometimes after a woman has been though a lot, she doesn’t KNOW HOW to build a relationship with her children, she doesn’t KNOW HOW to love you like you should be loved. Sometimes a woman don’t know where to start with building a relationship with her children. She could be so hurt and so far gone IN HER DYSFUNCTION, that she doesn’t even recognize that she’s wrong even after hearing it all of her life. I said but do you have any children? She said I’m pregnant now. I told her, well this is YOUR chance and time to CHANGE THE CYCLE. Change the atmosphere, change the story, change your story with your mom. Do things YOUR way, be different, think different.
 
 
I told her, in NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO way am I saying that YOUR MOM was right. * she wasn’t* … but I AM saying since you cannot change that….. YOU must change the atmosphere of that dysfunction. I told her and when you do… don’t rub it in your mothers face how much better of a mother YOU ARE, because when you think you’ve done everything so perfect and different from your mom…. you daughter/son will get grown and TELL YOU how she/he felt YOU COULD HAVE DONE BETTER. She got it. I planted a seed. My work was done. Thank you Lord for placing me at the right place at the right time.
 
 
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ID got me “messed up” LOL Crees Blog Entry

Today I posted on my FB page this story:
 
 
Yesterday me and Nesha was pulling out of Starbucks, when this black guy.. maybe in his early 50’s walked almost up to the car and asked me would I drop him off someplace. My face was twisted and disfigured…. like get away from my car.

First of all… I watch too much ID to even let him ask me a question. I WISH I WOULD let a stranger in the car with me, while he sit in the back and hold a gun/knife up to me and my daughter’s head. Before he approached me… my chances of living was 100%, when you let strangers in your car…. THAT YOU DON’T KNOW… your chances of living go to 50/50. That’s one area I WILL NOT COMPROMISE. I’ll give you money, directions, advice, even food…. but to get in my car… and create a new atmosphere….. NOT GON HAPPEN.. So, I say that to say….everybody does not have good intentions. Be safe, and pay attention to your surroundings. You cannot drop everybody off someplace… just because you’re going that way.

ID has really opened my eyes………with my TOO FRIENDLY SELF.

This is real life for me. I felt in the past, that I was a very naive person. Mainly because no one has done anything to me, and I didn’t have any bad stories to share. But my daughter is apart of this new generation where people her age and younger and doing so many bad things. She is very cautious about everything, and she has really taught me a thing or two. By her working for sevral Judges, sitting in on many court cases, and just by knowing many things in the system, she knows this stuff.
 
 
So I started watching the shows that she watches, plus I’ve always been a fan of mysteries, and crime solving. But after watching them everyday, through the night, it has really started to effect me. I DO NOT PLAY anymore. I am so cautious of people. I’m telling you those shows has really taught me about people. So, after I posted my stat on FB… my customer from Walmart sent me this video that had me SCREAMING LAUGHING… See I’m not crazy and I’m not alone. LOL Watch.

 

 

 
 
 
Be Blessed
 
 
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Why Women? Crees Blog Entry

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Why Women?
 
 
Why do some women… PRIDE themselves on knowing information about someone. Doing research, talking/listening, finding people who are close to the source for * personal* confirmation. EITHER TO JUST KNOW IT… OR TO SHARE IT WHENEVER THEY FEEL THE NEED TO “PULL IT OUT”.
 
 
Watching NeNe Leakes pull out Natalie Christopher Williams wife/gurlfriend is a prime example of wanting to put Kandi and Kenya “out there”. There is no way, Nene want the viewers to believe that Kandi’s record is squeaky clean. #sowhat People like this…. make sure that if you like someone, and find them to be cool good people… THESE TYPE OF PEOPLE will make sure they share with you what type of people YOU THINK they are…because in their minds…… they’re making sure you’re not being “deceived”. When in reality its not that serious….. but it is to the person who is telling the story to you. They cringe at the fact that YOU find this person to be good people.
 
 
Why will some women…… do anything in their power to let others know… that they were their for YOU… and you wasn’t there for them. Many times people will PRIDE THEMSELVES on making sure that they’re always there for YOU… RAIN, SLEET AND SNOW…..so when they need YOU… you better be there for them. Sad thing is… when Nene tried to make Porsha feel that she’s not a good friend, no matter what Porsha said to her about going through a rough divorce, trying to find a house, moving away from her mom and sister when they clearly wasn’t ready for her to move yet. Nene disregarded the fact that Porsha was having a hard time in her own life….. why would she expect for her to call her with so much going on? Why women fail to just fall back sometimes? I’m very close to my family, and when I’m going through something… ALL I WANT IS GOD. THEY KNOW THIS.. THEY RESPECT MY SPACE. No person can help me. And if you’re going through and you’ve always been there for me… and I share with you MY ISSUES and why I can’t be there for YOU…… FALL BACK.. Let me regroup. Let me get myself together.. I PROMISE to “do you” when I get through my own issue. Women need to STOP depending on PEOPLE SO MUCH to pick up THEIR pieces of their lives, just to hear their stories. I know how it goes…. I use to be the first to call a friend to tell them “what happened”. God was standing in the background begging me to talk to him about it. And when I realized that NOBODY OWES ME NOT ONE  OF THEIR EARS….. that’s when I turned to God.. and never turned back. Please get some where on your knees and face to seek God. Nene feelings were either “really hurt”….. because she realized that Porsha didn’t look at her as a “go to person”.. or she just wanted to run a guilt trip in her vulnerable state of mind.    I’m proud of Porsha.
One of my favorite songs

 
Be Blessed
 
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Brain juice…………Crees Blog Entry

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From the “Crazy mind of Cree”.
 
 
Just sitting up here thinking about how people will do everything in their power not to use their own brains.
When I was working at Walmart customers would come right in from off the streets and say ” Excuse me can you tell me what aisle is the cheese in”? Me: Yes, take this center aisle down and make a right. Customer: Well what side is it on, and do you know how much cream cheese cost”? And I would just look at them with a stupid look and say to myself… “You just aint gone use none of your brain juice today are you? So now I have to use mines up ON YOU…. myself, and customers… so at the end of the day I’m left with 2%, and you still at 98%. Now I have to go to bed early to recharge, while you stay up all night FULLY LOADED.
 
 
Being a Christian is hard work!!!
 
 
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God said La’Crease………………………Crees Blog Entry

100_4941Wednesday…… Christmas Day, I went downstairs to the convenience store that’s located in my building to buy a few things. When I gave the owner of the store my $50.00 bill, he said “Oh LaCrease I don’t have any change, I just gave it out”. He said well, get your things, and you can just bring it back tomorrow.

 

I just LOVE the older husband and wife who owns the store. They give credit to anyone who lives in the building, and I have needed them more than a time or two. He wrote down my total and I went to my apartment.

 

Thursday, I went back to pay my bill and to buy a few other things. I gave his wife the same $50 bill. When she gave me the change back…. she gave me 4-$20 bills and said ” I owe you $16.00 just one second”. So I’m standing there saying to myself… “Okay I thought I gave her a $50 bill, she thinks I gave her a $100.00”. Then I started doubting myself.. because all I had was 1-$100.00 bill and a $50 bill, I thought maybe I grabbed the wrong bill. Then God said No… LaCrease you didn’t grab the wrong one. Then Satan comes in…. and said LISTEN…. this is your last money for a WHILE… you just lost your job, and that money is your BLESSING… KEEP IT. He said you need personal items, and this LAST $150.00 goes toward your rent. You NEED this money. Then God said…. LISTEN…. That is NOT a BLESSING from ME……these people have been good to you since DAY ONE LACREASE * I love how he says my name*. He said.. if you take this money and you know its not yours, guilt will eat you up. He said now do you want to go back to your apartment and have to think about that EVERYDAY? Then EVERYTIME you come down to this store, you’ll have to look these people in the eye knowing you took their money. He said, anything you need I WILL SUPPLY.. you do NOT need this extra $50.00. He said speak up and give this money back to her….. you do NOT want to have to deal with me. I said Lord.. say no more. I gave her the money back, and they both kept thanking me. I said … you and your husband has been good to me.

 

As I look back on it. You never know what you would do in certain situations. I know for a fact that had I been in a good place AT THAT TIME financially I wouldn’t need for God to speak to me… because I would give it back without a thought. But God knew I was broke, he know I had just lost my job, he knew * in my mind* that money could have helped me with personal needs.

 

Its amazing how the few minutes she told me to wait for the rest of the money…….. God used that time to talk to me. I look at stuff like that. Those minutes were needed. This is for everyone… when you’re faced with your last money, and you have to make a decision to do right or wrong… do right. Let me share with happened to me THE VERY NEXT DAY.

 

My daughter called me and asked would I go with her and her dad to see this home she was interested in purchasing. I told her YES!!! After we saw the home, she said “momma lets go to the movies to see “The Wolf of Wall Street”, we checked out show times and realized that we had an extra hour to burn before the movie starts. As we are riding, she says… lets go to Walmart. We went in… and she said… do you need anything? I said naw… I’m good. But as we walked around… I started seeing stuff I did need. LOL At some point, she said momma.. I know you need stuff, she said get what you need. I got soap, pads, toothpaste, bath wash, and some lip gloss. Then she said… anything else? I asked her when we got in the van… why do you always want to help me ALL THE TIME… I said I’m good. She said momma you have always taken care of me. Anything I wanted or needed and you had the money you got it for me. She said I’m happy to be in a position to do it. I can’t even put into words to describe when your child tells you this. She took me to the movies, and bought me popcorn and pop. I love my baby.

 

Later on that night… as I sat and thought about my day. I remembered what God told me IN THE STORE….. He said “I will supply all your needs”. WOW WOW WOW. AND HE DID. Thank you Jesus.

 

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Be Blessed

 

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The lady who almost lost 40 years of MEMORY….Cree’s Blog Entry

flat tireSoooo……… yesterday morning as I stood in line to get a money order, I wanted to smile…. but I didn’t because it was taking the manager a long time to come to the customer service line. Even then when he came, he looked at me…… God told me to smile…. I didn’t and I felt bad about it, because of what happened next. I didn’t even want to make eye contact with him once he came because there were people in front of me and it wasn’t my turn yet. But for some reason he kept looking at me. When the turn was MINES, we took care of business, and then he asked me if he could talk to me in his office.
My daughter was waiting on me so that we could both go to work, and when she saw me go into his office… she had to have wondered “what the what” is she doing talking to him? LOL He said to me… I know sometime ago, you came up to me and you said ” One day I want to work in your store… and when the time comes ….you’re going to hire me”. Yea I told him that…. I’m a pretty bold. Then he said… “well I pretty much have a full staff, but I need someone to work on the weekends, and some afternoons.” He said if you’re interested, what day can you come in to train? I was shocked everything was happening so soon. I told him that I could come right after my first job TODAY. He was happy and I was back there at 3 pm and I worked to 6 pm. As he was leaving yesterday he asked me if I could come back on Friday which was today. I did.. I trained for 2 hours.
As I was ringing up this one customer…. I noticed that she wasn’t “wrapped too tight”. She was an older woman… appeared to have been in her day VERY BEAUTIFUL. Had money, a good life, a husband who loved her, educated, with very educated children. A woman who drove nice cars, clothes and shoes to match. But LIFE caught up with her, because she was selfish, mean, stubborn, and thought more of her self than she was. And for many years God held up his umbrella of GRACE AND MERCY for her, knowing one way or another if she would change her ways. Well, it appeared she didn’t… and LIFE caught up with her and rung her neck…… causing everyone who comes in contact with her to “wear” her fragrance of BITTERNESS…..along with herself.
My trainer says to me… she doesn’t need help, she don’t want to do it herself. She said… she comes in here everyday and mistreats me. She said I will ring her up, you can go around and help her but I’m not. The lady was standing there, saying loudly and sarcastic… “I NEED HELP”!!! As I was unloading her things, I asked her “are you okay maam”. I talk to everyone this way, always asking are they okay, just in case they need help, or if I feel that something is wrong that they’re not saying. She was unbelievable. She talked smart to the lady behind her who was trying to help , she was unlike any thing I’ve seen before. She was really holding up the line… after she paid for her things. She was taking so long to move and by then everyone in line was “DONE WITH HER”. LOL LOL They wanted her out of the way. So to move the line faster, I asked her again are you okay? She looked at me and said REAL LOUD…. “I TOLD YOU I WAS OKAY. HOW MANY TIMES ARE YOU GOING TO ASK ME THAT?” I just looked at her, and I promise the HEAVENS OPENED AND I SAW WHITE LIGHTS…. .I WANTED TO SMACK 40 YEARS OFF HER MEMORY. Put up the DEUCE SIGN TO MY COWORKERS…. POP THE LOCK TO MY VAN, DRIVE HOME SIT ON THE COUCH WITH MY LEGS CROSSED EATING A BOWL OF CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM WITH PEANUTS ON TOP. To calm me the heck down.

TOO BE CONTINUED

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#VIRGO #VIRGOS VIRGOS!!!!! Cree’s Blog Entry!!!

blurrymeI use to be deep into signs in my 20’s, these days every now and then I’ll find myself reading something on line about Virgos. I find the things that people say about us to be so true….some folks need to #tryagain.

I found some interesting post on line *Virgo Woman by GaneshaSpeaks.com , I want to share them and respond. My comments are about me, but you can learn a lot about yourself or someone you know or date.

The Virgo women’s greatest assets are their intelligence, analytical minds and excellent memory. They are logical thinkers who would take any into account every detail before arriving at a decision. Therefore, they are good at settling disputes and make good business partners, analysts and strategists. I do remember a lot, but I take in so much from myself and others, that I don’t believe I remember a lot. But maybe its true for things I WANT TO REMEMBER. LOL Yes, I think about everything!!! That’s why I’m a great planner. I can plan something, and think of the smallest detail in making it happen. When I do my Feeding the Homeless projects, Sistergurls, Raisingurls, out of town trips, its planned so well, that when its over, it feels to ME…… that it NEVER HAPPENED. I love that about myself. I do lots of research, calling folks over the phone, talking in person, coming to a CLEAR UNDERSTANDING, making sure folks understand what I want, and when I want it. I write down everything and don’t miss a beat. LOL This is funny.

They do have a softer side to their personalities. Although they may appear as strong-minded individuals, there are emotional and need to be well taken care of. They have a habit over becoming overcritical but don’t hold that against them because they have the same attitude towards themselves. I agree!!!! My personality is VERY STRONG. I know it comes from my dad, because all of us *3 siblings* are too. We weren’t  allowed to fight at all … period growing up, so our only defense was to argue and debate it out. We are SOME POWERHOUSES!!! One day I’m going to record one of our debates, its so funny. We GO AT IT. We never get personal, we always stay on the subject at hand. LOL That’s a site to see!!!! Yes, I’m very emotional. When it comes to people being mistreated, homeless, hungry, bullied, children, abused….. I am THE PERSON WHO STANDS UP FOR THESE FOLKS!!! I’m a very popular person everywhere I go, BUT …. don’t expect for me to sit a the table with the RICH AND POWERFUL…. Ill be the one making phone calls to get people shelter, food, and assistance. THENNNNN I’ll go mingle. LOL

These women don’t get influenced easily as they wary of exposing their emotional vulnerability and possibility of getting hurt. Besides, one has to match their high standards to impress the perfection-seeking Virgo women. Hence, patience is the key if you want make a lasting impression on a Virgo woman’s mind. Yep, all day long!!!! I’m not geeked on how much money you have or make, your car, your home, your position at work…. I’m geeked on how you treat your parents, siblings, aunts, uncles, cousins, COWORKERS, and how well you communicate and greet others as soon as you make contact. Cause see God has treasures stored up for LaCrease in HEAVEN, ….that’s waiting for me. So, in order to impress me…. ON EARTH…… you have to care about PEOPLE. I cant stand or deal with ANY DRAMA…… he has to know what HE can do……. AND KEEP IT MOVING… my train * mind* is always moving!!!

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Virgos will forgive more than once if they love you. But don’t think they won’t get fed up and leave you high and dry. Virgos has a DISS BUTTON… .that’s outta this world!!!! It may take a moment to push it… but TRUST AND BELIEVE… its there!!!

Virgos won’t like people with controlling personalities, and like Scorpio, they NEVER change to suit anyone! I know when to fall back, and when to speak up. I cant deal with people who control with their POWER. #notimpressed

Virgos love the smell of freshness aromas,candles,fresh laundry,perfume,and cologne. YESSS. I LOVE TO SMELL A MAN’S NECK 🙂

Virgo ladies do not date based on looks or money. So it is essential that you have a great sense of humor and a decent outlook on life. I’M silly and love to laugh. I love it.

I am very shy when I meet a guy. VERY… I like to listen and pay attention to everything. People always come to WRONG conclusions about me/us when they think they know us, but have NO IDEA.

For example. I live downtown, and in my apartment complex we have 24 hour security… one of the guys ask me to come here so that he can say something to me. He said… “I know you like me”… and since me and him are cool. It kinda shocked me. So instead of me making all of these facial expressions that would clearly SHUT HIM DOWN VIRGO STYLE… I asked him…. tell me… how did you come to that conclusion? He said the way you look at me when you come in the building, the way you talk to me, the way you smile at me, you have to always say something to me. He said the other day you licked your tongue out at me…. he said I noticed that too. I let him talk for about 10 minutes.

Then it was MY turn….

I said first of all boo * with a smile as always*….. I speak to EVERYONE who makes eye contact with me. I said noticed… when I talk to you as I enter the building….. I’m WALKING to the elevator and talking.

#2 I’m 15 years older than you

#3 I’m friendly to everyone.

#4 I call birds, dogs, cats, men, women………. BOO. Its not a personal word I use for people who I LIKE.

#5 When I licked my tongue out at you that day * God is my witness*, I was praying at the same time saying “God… I cant stand him”!!

We both laughed on that last one. It was truly what I was thinking and praying about. Because by him thinking I “liked” him, I was praying to God how much I cant stand him!!! HE always wants to know what I’m cooking, what I’m doing for the day when I leave the building, what’s in MY BAG…. what do I have on as far as perfume, when I’m coming back. UGH!!! Every time I leave the building he has to ask me a personal question and we HATE for people to be in our business too much. I guess he was calling himself “showing interest” in me. LOL LOL

So, now that we had that talk, we’re good friends. I understand him more, and he knows.. BOO BOO * IN MY KEKE WYATT SILLY VOICE*.. IM JUST BEING FRIENDLY. And all we talk about is his fiance and his new baby on the way. See what talking can do and NOT ASSUMING NO ONE WANTS TO MARRY YOU AND BE YOUR WIFE? * SUB*

My name is La’Crease Walker, and this VIRGO approve this message.

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Met a man today……

 
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Its Monday and it feels so much like a Saturday, maybe because a lot of places were closed today. 
 
 If you know me personally, you would know that I can/will talk to  just about anyone who looks sane. When I  was  a teen, I read in the New International Version (©1984)
Then Peter began to speak: “I now realize how true it is that God does not show favoritism…. I fell in love with that scripture because I knew that God didn’t have any favorite people in the world, and if I had done wrong, he still would love me. That reassured me that he loved me no matter what my current situation was in my mind, and at home.  It allowed me to open up more to people in terms of conversation. Because in school I laughed with the big dawgs, but I didn’t make noise or have an influence on others. It wasn’t until I started working when I knew  that “it was something about Lacrease”. Which brings me to this conversation.
 
This guy came through my line today he had so many bottles of dishwashing liquid at least 10-15, so many bottles of baby oil, many bottles of mouth wash and toothpaste. Whatever he bought he had at least 6 or more of it. As I’m ringing him up, I wanted to ask him questions about why he was buying so many of one item. So, yall know the Cree in me asked. I said sir…….. there is a root to everything……..what motivates you to buy many of the same things. I locked eyes with him, and he said, I grew up in a foster home, going house to house, he said I was troubled. I went 2 weeks without food one time, and we always ran out of stuff for the house. He said when I was a teen, I got in a lot of trouble, and I promised myself that when I  get myself together my kids would have the best. He kinda shocked me when he spoke, he was a middle aged Africa man. He said that he wanted to make sure he didn’t run out of anything ever. He didn’t want his kids to ever see that kinda life and to never run out of anything. His story was so touching. He was so nice to share his testimony with me. I never knew that was going to come out of him. He has grandchildren now and he don’t ever want them to want for anything because of what he went through as a child. Is that a wow or what?
 
Now that explains why I pay my bills off every month. I don’t like to pay on my bills . When I was growing up we had our lights, gas, water and phone cut off all the time, many of them at the same time. I hated that. I couldn’t have friends over much, couldn’t talk on the phone or anything. Can you imagine that as a teen… NO PHONE? LOL I made a promise to myself that I would pay my bills when I got grown and guess you know I’m the Queen of paying my bills. I want my bills to be $0.00 every month. Its like I’m obsessed with that. I don’t want my utilities to get turned off at all. I don’t want to see shut off notices. And that’s why I heard God so clearly when he had my lights, gas, phone, cable and car turned off in my home over 10 years ago when he wanted to talk to me.  I didn’t have the money to pay it. He wanted to speak to me and he did, he knows how to get my attention.
 
Now I know why my mother stayed with my daddy years beyond her loving him. She wanted to leave him, but she stayed married because she didn’t want her kids raised without their father as she did. Her dad was stabbed and killed by his gurlfriend when I was no older than 3. She was devastated and made sure that we would grow up and know our dad for ourselves. And we did.
 
I wonder what Neisha will do more of. when she is done with school and start her family. Whatever it is, its all good. Thank you Jesus for allowing me to meet this man today, and for realizing some own personal ways of why I do the things I do.
 
My question to you…… What do you do more of, that you missed out on when you were growing up? Something to think about huh?
 
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“I’m not trying to win the approval of people,

The Apostle Paul was a Misfit who wrote in Galatians 1:10, “I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant.”

 

I’m sitting here thinking about how people are. They are just so funny ( not in a good way).

 

 There are so many people who need Ministering too. There use to be a time when I would listen to the same old stories from the same ole people. Always want me to help analyze their situation. I’m not doing that anymore. I get emails DAILY,  from people who ask me questions to help them in their personal lives. They really need to vent, and talk things out. Some  need me to pray for them. I LOVE doing that. This is who I am.

I’m not “shooting the breeze” with anyone of you who have been knowing me for 10 years or more, unless you really need me. I refuse to let anyone  in my square who wants to waste my time talking ABOUT NOTHING!!! That wears me out!!! You will never use my couch again HOMEBOY……….sorry. As soon as your relationships are over, here you come, so what do you want me to say and do? I don’t care if you bought 19 brand new Corvettes, and 1 pink monkey. I will NEVER open my door to see them, and stop blowing my phone up cause I’m not going to answer. Get “yo self” together and leave La’Crease alone. I’ve been listening to that same old story off and on, since the 12 years I met you in. UGHH…. You have used your time up with me, your therapy sessions are over!!! There are people who need my attention, and they will surely NOT get it, if you’re in my presence. I’m done!! It’s a wrap…. can’t do it, won’t do it. See ya on Judgement Day!!!

 

Yes, I’m going hard! GURL…..Stop talking about who did what to you in the past, is that the only way you know how to move forward? Is that your motivation for the good you do? You must enjoy being a victim. It must feel good, it helps you in some kinda way, if so that’s fine, but when you keep on putting it out in the atmosphere it looks a mess. Shut up with that!!! So, I guess that’s the lining of your conversations huh? Okay…… soon and soon enough…. you too will be DELETED!  You think you’re slick… haha its gonna kill you when you won’t know anything I do. If, I don’t know how to do anything else in this world, I know how to get rid of people who mean me NOTHING but evil thoughts, and in trouble with God. Start counting boo, cause your days are numbered as well!!!

 

 Everyday, I see why I have to “ride solo”. I see why people have done things to me that is UNACCEPTABLE, and that was God’s way of removing them from my life. I see why, I see why, I see why. God is picking people up outta my life and removing them. Here I was sitting here wondering “why are you taking my friends away God? I SEE WHY… GOOD BYE!! TOO needy, TOO time-consuming, TOO Drama Queenish. SEE ALL YALL!! I’m about to go hard in Ministry, and I’m not stopping to put on NO BAND-AIDS, betta have one in your “backpack”. I’m not baby sitting EGOS any longer. 

 

People I have been knowing forever is mad at me because I won’t sit up on the phone and listen to idle mess anymore. And then when I give them a Godly solution, they don’t want to hear that. OH WELL, I gotsta go!!! If you  feel God can’t help you, …..what can I do? I don’t have time!!!! Goodness, why do it have to come to this? Things, issues, and situations change. We are not 14 and 15 anymore. I’m not doing it!!! Nope!

 

The Apostle Paul was a Misfit who wrote in Galatians 1:10, “I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant.”

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From the mind of Lacrease…… for those who can handle it (1)

babycreeToday is one of those days where Im quiet trying to figure out where my head is about life. Got up this morning was suppose to go and work out, but me and Neisha went to bed around 5ish lol we were so sleepy. We had a plan. We said that we were going to set our phones @8am, go to the gym get on the treadmill for 30 minutes, then go to the grocery store. Come home and go back to sleep for a few hours. So we slept on the couch to keep from sleeping hard. Dont you know when that phone went off, we looked at each other and went back to sleep. LOL We were sleeeepy!!! I got up about 12, and I havent been back to sleep  yet, but its 1:24 am and Im there!!!

I have a relationship with God that when he speaks to me I know his voice. Lately I have been really peed off by the media and how they really dog out Tyler Perry, Tameka Raymond, and now my Tweeter gurl Shaunie O Neal. It bothers me so bad, people dont know what others are going through. And I know this comes with the success. But why do people have to be so mean, and so into their business. If people take shots at celebrities who they don’t see, just imagine what they do to those who they do see. It’s really a shame and ignorant to Judge people so harshly as they do. Some of the articles Ive read,  I know it has to be sad for God. And you know….. Im guilty myself.

 Yesterday I was so angry at this guy on Twitter that I posted something to him very mean, then I blocked him. Someone else read it and reposted something to me. At that point I knew that I was out-of-order. I made a promise to myself that I wouldnt post anything negative to anyone, just because I don’t like what they’ve said about someone. Im tired I can’t and dont have the time to post to everyone who doesnt see what I see in a Tyler Perry movie, or who constantly diss Tameka Raymond for divorce. I can’t do that any longer. I have so many things in my life that I can spend that time on, and if the post bothers me Im just going to click out of the window no matter how bad I want to post. Im finding myself acting JUST LIKE THEM…….. and thats a NO NO!!! OH NO. I will not behave that way again. Im not proud of some of the things that Ive posted, I can’t take it back, but I can show myself some respect, and self-control by moving on. So thats a what Im going to work on with God’s help. 

Last night I had a dream that the guy who molested me was out of jail, sitting next to me on a bench. I noticed that it was him and I just looked at him. He’s a very dark-skinned man, but he seem lighter this time. He’s always had white teeth, in the dream he kept smiling at me saying… its been a while do you remember back in the day. And I was soooo nervous, I tried to ignore him. But he kept looking at me asking me questions about in the past and smiling just like a sexual predator UGHHHHHHH. I don’t ever had to worry about him because he’s locked up for GOOD!

Then FLASH FORWARD TO REAL LIFE, a long time friend told me that she married  the guy who raped me when I was 17. Yes she MARRIED HIM!!!! MARRIED HIM! MARRIED!  She doesnt know what he did to me. All I need is for him and her to come thru my line one day and I will probaly walk off my shift. He would remeber, but she wont have a clue. Ughhhh the site of him will make me turn purple probaly. He’s locked up  and will be home soon.  VERY SOON SMH

 Can you handle this….. I can’t 😦

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