Jealousy………… ((((((((((Blog))))))))))
Friday night my 2 sisters and I went out to dinner at Applebees…. we sat for 5 hours talking and catching up on our lives. We were having many conversations but the one that stood out the most was the fact that we’re not jealous when it comes to being in a relationship. For me I was never a jealous person until I met my daughters father. Before him I was never insecure. I knew I was pretty, had a great family, nice personality… but when I met him and having to deal with all the women. It made me a bitter person. It took me years to get over him and over the way the relationship made me feel. Over the years I met some pretty good men, that always made me feel so loved and so wonderful. I never had to deal with jealousy again.
The reason why I’m writing this is to say to my Sisters out there. Know you’re beautiful. Know that you are loved by God no matter how a man make you feel. Know that if you have to be in a relationship that makes you have to always look over your shoulders because of other women, or have to fight or go back and forth…. please don’t waste anytime getting help, or leaving that relationship. What woman in their right mind want to feel jealous and insecure of another woman? Women these days lose themselves in a marriage or in a unmarried relationship. You have to still love your life and enjoy it.
Let me say this too…. Sisters, you have to do your part in making your man feel secure. When you start trying to make him jealous, then one day down the line, it just maybe you….. who gets jealous . That’s a dangerous game to play. Find ways to entertain yourselves while he’s not around. Visit family and friends….. Don’t build your life around him…. that when he wants and needs a break, you find yourself whining and bored. Many women push themselves away from their family and friends when they get married or enter a relationship. Never do that. You never want to look up and have no one….but him. Down the line it makes him uncomfortable, and he’ll have to always find ways to entertain you. That’s not fair. Build your own life, and at the end of the day… Â go home to the LOVE OF YOUR LIFE.
Be Blessed!
Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya AngelouÂ
21 Day Challenge Update- R&B Divas ((((((Blog)))))))
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Angie Stone got on my nerves tonight on R&B Divas. She was out of order to call that gurl on stage like that when she KNOWSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS how she feels about singing right now. That is so disrespectful to her art as an entertainer, and as a person and friend.
When I was having my Teen group meetings, I knew the personality of all my gurls. I knew who would answer my questions, who would shy away, who would talk too long, who would want to help me every week, and so on. True enough as a leader it is my job to help get them out of their comfort zones, but I also believe that its a way of doing it. Putting people on the spot making them beg and plead for you to PLEASE take the spot light off them, is so wrong. I would have turned all of Angie’s tables over at that party, trying to put me on the spot like that * jp*. She pissed me off. I don’t like being put on the spot, and it bothered me to see LaTavia on it. That gurl begged her, swearing to God and everything for mercy…. ooooo that bothers me.
Some folks in my life feel that since I have such a huge personality that I feel like doing stuff all the time. I like to sit back in the corner with my hat over my face too. When the waitress come to the table.. I don’t like to be the one doing the talking to set the atmosphere. I like to bury my head in the menu like everybody else when they’re asked what will they be ordering. I like to chill too.. and people who know me.. KNOW THAT.. SO….. for Angie to do that while that gurl clearly had on her ” not right now, don’t go there look” on her face…. was wrong… Um um that wasn’t right.
Angie only did it because the gurl showed up late for her Birthday Party. She didn’t look like she wanted to be there any oleway. Who could blame her, when she’s feeling that she’s NOT READY TO PERFORM YET.. What is so hard about that to understand? If that was me.. I would have gave Angie Stone the look of JUDGEMENT DAY HOUR… I don’t play that. At some point you FALL BACK. Enough of that, because I’m getting mad.
Day 14 of the 21 May Challenge and I lost a total of 7 pounds!!!!! That time flew by. I love the change in my eating. I love not having the Pepsi’s… I love how I see a few of my issues with food. I sat down today and paid attention as I ate breakfast and dinner. I GET FULL FAST… I was full after a few minutes into my meal. BUT GET THIS…… I HAVE IGNORED that full feeling.. because I HAVE TOLD MYSELF FOR SO MANY YEARS….. ” YOU JUST STARTED EATING”… how could you be full? I have ignored that warning for so long that I have stretched my stomach overeating. WOW ISN’T THAT A HUGE GREAT BREAKTHROUGH? SO guess what I did when I got full? I got up and put the rest down the garbage disposal. I did hesitate, because guess why? I’m SO USE TO EATING EVERYTHING ON MY PLATE. WOW WOW WOW Something we all learned as a kid.
Okay! So, now that I know that……can’t wait until tomorrow, where I will monitor it again. I have to learn to stop eating whenever I feel full, no matter how much I’ve eaten. I can always grab an apple, or a fruit in between meals IF I FEEL HUNGRY again. I have to learn that. I HAVE TOO. I also learned that what ever I put on my plate the first time, I WILL EAT IT UP… That’s gonna stop. I have to learn portion control. I HAVE TOO. So now I have to be mindful of my portions. I hardly ever go back for seconds, because I’m so busy filling up the first time. This explains why I get full fast when I eat spaghetti.. and everything else I eat.. …..hmmmm. Wow!
I use to be able to eat a Big Mac Meal with fries and pop. For the last 5 years… all I can eat is a hamburger. N O W I K N O W WHY!!!!! I ignored it. The only thing that I’ve been drinking is WATER WATER WATER. Its not even like I’m drinking my water after each bite. I wait until I’m completely done eating before I take a drink. Which means I really get full fast.
Alright now, off to bed!
Be Blessed
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Sister Day, Husbands, and Laughs From the Desk of Cree
I had a great time with my Sisters at Red Lobster yesterday evening. We get together every month for dinner to catch up with each other. Then afterwards we ALWAYS end up at their favorite bar… Kwick’s for Karaoke.
I rode with my Sister Peedie. But before we left, she made a stop at home to check in on her husband, and to change clothes . He came out to the truck to greet me, I noticed that he had this “puppy dog” look on his face, that would kill him to admit….. he wanted to go with us. LOL I know him so well… I love, love , love my brother -n- law because he treats my sister so well. 
But my sister told me that when its time for our Sisters gathering, that’s our time. She said me and him are always out and about after work, going to dinner, movies, and shopping. She said this is my time to be with my Sisters. I got that. ……. I guess 🙂
All 9 of us met at 7pm and was seated. Just then my cousin Darcella came in with her husband Wood * who is really MY blood cousin*. (((
))) We didn’t know that she was bringing him * wood* with her. But it was cool. In the middle of dinner, someone suggested that we go to Karaoke afterwards. We all agreed and trailed each other. When we got in the car my sister Peedie called her husband and told him to come down to the bar, because wood wanted a guy to be with him. One of our other sisters called her husband down and he came too. But when my sister Peedie’s husband found out that wood was at the dinner, he was kinda disappointed and felt that my sister didn’t want HIM to come. He noticed that Darcella and Wood are ALWAYS TOGETHER NO MATTER WHAT, and wonder why my sister didn’t feel that way. We told him that it was a Sister gathering, we didn’t even know Wood was coming. She tried to get him to come to the bar, but he went to bed… sad….. ahhhhh. Well we had a GOOD TIME!!! LOL
I love, love, love my VIRGO brother-n- law Mark,
who my sister didn’t invite either. I love when he’s with us.. but end up spending it with his brother Deitrick* Haddon*
My point in all of this is… There was a time * in our teens and 20’s* when we (((Sisters))) would jump in our cars and hunt down our men and try to be with them. We all were PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS… tracking down all their whereabouts, friends, family members and phone numbers. We wanted to be with them even if they went to the store. We wanted to know when, where and why. We questioned who they were with, who was there, why they wanted to be there so bad, when were they coming home, and who did you meet while there.
Times has really changed. LOL LOL * I’m laughing so hard*. I WISH THE HELL I WOULD………. look for my husband or boo. I just don’t have that kinda time. I cant believe how much time and work I use to put into finding out what he was doing. LOL Realizing now, that was taking time from ME….. DOING ME… LOL. Every time the Sisters get together, their husbands want to come so bad… and since I don’t have one, I’m the one feeling bad for them and convince the Sisters to let them come with us. They have the best husbands… DRAMA FREE. But I’m learning to understand Sister time is Sister time, and Husband time is Husband time. I get it…. they just look so pitiful. LOL LOL
Thing is they know their wives are not doing anything wrong… they just feel that they should be able to come along and have guy talk at the other end of the table. But what the men don’t understand is……its not about them separating themselves at the end of the table…. the Sisters want to have Sisters Day without them being present PERIOD. LOL
Boy have times changed. LOL LOL * cracking up laughing*
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Life Lesson………….. Crees Blog Entry
*Me driving in the video one Summer * Without going into details.. For the last year and a half… I have been though a lot. Mainly with life changes nothing concerning my health, just life changing things to get me out of my comfort zone. My family is fine, and my daughter. It was ME… who needed to learn the LIFE LESSON.
I see things from a different eye. I’m not as sensitive. I feel so strong and so BOSSED UP. Where ever God is taking me… I know for a fact… that I have to be a Strong Woman of God. I am so strong, and so not into the mess and small talk. I am really proud of myself. I am really strong.
I’m so sick of Whining Wimpy Women… attention needing to be on them Women. I’m not dealing with a lot of stuff no more. I’m just NOT!! I’m not putting ANY ENERGY TO ANYONE OR ANYTHING that takes me out of my square.
So……. with that said…… Thank you Jesus for where you are taking me. Thank you for the Life Lesson and the Experience. Its been a bumpy ride…. but you know ME…. I DON’T/WON’T GIVE UP. 🙂Â
BE BLESSED
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Inside the crazy mind of Ms. Walker
A mother and father finds out that they’re expecting a baby
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everyone is excited
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they call up everyone and tell them of the good news
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later on in the pregnancy they  find out what sex the baby is
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the baby moves for the first time… and its pure excitement
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a baby shower is planned
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gifts are bought, food is served, games are played
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the labor begins
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lots of pain
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the baby is born and the pain is no longer remembered
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the first eye to contact with baby and parents are breath taking
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they promise to love and protect the baby
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Now, I could go on and on with the stages of life… but I’ll stop here for a reason. How does a mother and father go through these stages but someplace between the beginning and the growing years, they grow up to be disrespectful, killers, thieves and other things that are NOT good. I just sit back and wonder….WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT HAPPENED? I just don’t get it.
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Cry baby…………..Cree’s Blog Entry
I’m sitting here crying like a baby…. I’m such a cry baby. Take a look. Click the link below
http://www.ksat.com/news/airman-returns-to-sa-surprises-son-at-basketball-game/-/478452/23972126/-/e2ewrfz/-/index.html
Be Blessed
Brain juice…………Crees Blog Entry
From the “Crazy mind of Cree”.
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Just sitting up here thinking about how people will do everything in their power not to use their own brains.
When I was working at Walmart customers would come right in from off the streets and say ” Excuse me can you tell me what aisle is the cheese in”? Me: Yes, take this center aisle down and make a right. Customer: Well what side is it on, and do you know how much cream cheese cost”? And I would just look at them with a stupid look and say to myself… “You just aint gone use none of your brain juice today are you? So now I have to use mines up ON YOU…. myself, and customers… so at the end of the day I’m left with 2%, and you still at 98%. Now I have to go to bed early to recharge, while you stay up all night FULLY LOADED.
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Fingerpointing You………………………Crees Blog Entry
As I sit here  thinking about the post I wrote about Dwayne Wade and Gabrielle Union.. it takes me back to my own personal relationships about cheating, and lies. The questions I had.
Every man I’ve ever given a second chance to… he cheated again. Sad thing about that.. these men are with different women now, some married and they’re still cheating. Now, there are some faithful men out there that love their wives dearly. And if they’re cheating, as long as his wife doesn’t detect it….. he’s not cheating. LOL I just wish that I could understand the thought process of a man before he thinks about doing it. What options does he weigh, what thoughts goes through his mind concerning her finding out? What would he say to her? What would be his reason that he tells her? Does he sees himself losing everything, or is that even a thought to him? Does he think about his family, or her feelings? What desire goes through his mind when he decide that its what he’s going to do anyway. What thought or feeling goes though his mind once the sexual act is over. And what drives him to do it again and again. Does he feel a sexual disconnection to his mate?
For a long time, I can remember calling over my friends every weekend just to drink and have a pity party. We dogged men coming and going. I use to date my daughters teacher when she was in preschool. Then when I started working there the following year, I found out that he was dating the teachers and the parents. * throws hands up… eyes closed* And didn’t I get into an argument with one of the ladies at the school, almost lost my job over this man? I cut dissed him ON SPOT. I made sure I went to work looking good everyday. I made him “SEXUALLY SICK” when ever he saw me. He couldn’t even function with me around. I had his mind gone. I can’t go for that type of behavior anymore. I LOVE ME. He knew he couldn’t tie my shoe if it was coming loose.
But you know…… I had to put away childish things. I couldn’t go on being angry with men because I chose cheaters. I realized that I was drawing these types of men to me. I had to change the way I looked at my relationships. I had to say NO… to the ones who didn’t fit into what I was looking for. So many times I got into relationships “just because they liked me”. These days….. I chose friendships and relationships wisely. They must have a relationship with God, they must be a person who goes to God before any family member and a friend.
Here is a song that I use to listen to when I was going through those relationships…. I love the words.. so honest and to the point.
Fonz
I don’t know what you goin thru lately
But you stressin it and it’s drivin me crazy
You wont even make love to me lately
Somebody told you they was havin my baby
Vee
I heard it all I was getting my nails done
She was braggin how your record when platinum
You were crushin on a leather couch
You were out there trickin with that chick all up in my house
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Vee
She knew it all even talked about your tattoo
Tell me how you gonna say it wasn’t bout you (wasn’t me)
Saying how you like to suck on toes
She knew all the things that you know that only I should know
Fonz
You played the role I was workin in the studio
Getting paid while you gave up the botty yo
Another brotha is getting all my time
You was out there trickin when I thought that shit was all mine all mine
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Fonz: Your thru with me
Vee: Im thru with you
Fonz: You lied to me
Vee: Never lied to you
Fonz: Stop blamin me
Vee: Im blamin you
Fonz: Stop gamin me
Vee: Whos gamin who
Fonz: So you say your thru with me
Vee: Im thru with you
Fonz: You lied to me
Vee: Never lied to you
Both: Better ask yourself if don’t matter baby why keep goin on
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Fonz: can’t work with you lying and creepin babe
Vee: I can’t work I can’t deal with your cheatin and leavin babe(I can’t deal)
Fonz: can’t be a fool for lovin babe
Vee: Save the drama im about to bounce babe
Cant work with you lying and creepin babe
Vee: I can’t work I can’t deal with your cheatin and leavin babe(I can’t deal)
Fonz: can’t be a fool for lovin babe
Vee: Save the drama im about to bounce babe
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Inside the mind of cree 