God said La’Crease………………………Crees Blog Entry
Wednesday…… Christmas Day, I went downstairs to the convenience store that’s located in my building to buy a few things. When I gave the owner of the store my $50.00 bill, he said “Oh LaCrease I don’t have any change, I just gave it out”. He said well, get your things, and you can just bring it back tomorrow.
I just LOVE the older husband and wife who owns the store. They give credit to anyone who lives in the building, and I have needed them more than a time or two. He wrote down my total and I went to my apartment.
Thursday, I went back to pay my bill and to buy a few other things. I gave his wife the same $50 bill. When she gave me the change back…. she gave me 4-$20 bills and said ” I owe you $16.00 just one second”. So I’m standing there saying to myself… “Okay I thought I gave her a $50 bill, she thinks I gave her a $100.00”. Then I started doubting myself.. because all I had was 1-$100.00 bill and a $50 bill, I thought maybe I grabbed the wrong bill. Then God said No… LaCrease you didn’t grab the wrong one. Then Satan comes in…. and said LISTEN…. this is your last money for a WHILE… you just lost your job, and that money is your BLESSING… KEEP IT. He said you need personal items, and this LAST $150.00 goes toward your rent. You NEED this money. Then God said…. LISTEN…. That is NOT a BLESSING from ME……these people have been good to you since DAY ONE LACREASE * I love how he says my name*. He said.. if you take this money and you know its not yours, guilt will eat you up. He said now do you want to go back to your apartment and have to think about that EVERYDAY? Then EVERYTIME you come down to this store, you’ll have to look these people in the eye knowing you took their money. He said, anything you need I WILL SUPPLY.. you do NOT need this extra $50.00. He said speak up and give this money back to her….. you do NOT want to have to deal with me. I said Lord.. say no more. I gave her the money back, and they both kept thanking me. I said … you and your husband has been good to me.
As I look back on it. You never know what you would do in certain situations. I know for a fact that had I been in a good place AT THAT TIME financially I wouldn’t need for God to speak to me… because I would give it back without a thought. But God knew I was broke, he know I had just lost my job, he knew * in my mind* that money could have helped me with personal needs.
Its amazing how the few minutes she told me to wait for the rest of the money…….. God used that time to talk to me. I look at stuff like that. Those minutes were needed. This is for everyone… when you’re faced with your last money, and you have to make a decision to do right or wrong… do right. Let me share with happened to me THE VERY NEXT DAY.
My daughter called me and asked would I go with her and her dad to see this home she was interested in purchasing. I told her YES!!! After we saw the home, she said “momma lets go to the movies to see “The Wolf of Wall Street”, we checked out show times and realized that we had an extra hour to burn before the movie starts. As we are riding, she says… lets go to Walmart. We went in… and she said… do you need anything? I said naw… I’m good. But as we walked around… I started seeing stuff I did need. LOL At some point, she said momma.. I know you need stuff, she said get what you need. I got soap, pads, toothpaste, bath wash, and some lip gloss. Then she said… anything else? I asked her when we got in the van… why do you always want to help me ALL THE TIME… I said I’m good. She said momma you have always taken care of me. Anything I wanted or needed and you had the money you got it for me. She said I’m happy to be in a position to do it. I can’t even put into words to describe when your child tells you this. She took me to the movies, and bought me popcorn and pop. I love my baby.
Later on that night… as I sat and thought about my day. I remembered what God told me IN THE STORE….. He said “I will supply all your needs”. WOW WOW WOW. AND HE DID. Thank you Jesus.
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Question……………….Crees Blog Entry
Someone on my FB page ask this question: Have you ever asked yourself; “Am I being a good role model to those whom admire me?” That’s a question everyone should ask themselves. Before I post anything on FB or Twitter, I ask myself.. what message will they get, am I angry right now, will I please God? I admit I can be quite VERBAL on Twitter, and I noticed that and for now on… I will take a few minutes to regroup myself from posting things that are done out MY EMOTIONS. People are paying attention to what you post. Whatever is in your post… it first came out of your heart.
I learned that if I’m angry about something, If I just give myself about 20 minutes to calm down… then what I was going to post I WONT EVEN POST ANYMORE. I LOVE that about God. But if you want to be seen, heard, or even felt, your EMOTIONS will override God’s voice, and your stats will always be full of ANGER AND RAGE, UNNECESSARY BRAGGING, AND IGNORANT CONVERSATIONS. If you don’t believe me….. scroll down and check your last 10 stats. Remember people are on FB for either one or two things, to be Spiritually Fed, or to be Nosey. Just know we ALL have BAD days.. we ALL go through… we ALL get mad and angry….. but the person who can control their EMOTIONS are the ones who are most ADMIRED.
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
God wants me to know…….Crees Blog Entry
Today, Lacrease, we believe God wants you to know that …
you need to maintain a balance between your needs and others’ needs.
Yes, it’s not an easy balance to keep, but try you must. Give too much, drain yourself, and there is nothing left only bitter space. Give too little, become a cork, and you block the flow of God’s love through you. Keep on balancing.
This is the truth. I am truly balancing. It was hard for me in the beginning but I’m finding it FUN to do things for myself. I am NOT GOD…..just like I have to go to him….. I will be directing all others to do the same. Oh yes….. there will be CHANGES.
This song is for ME…
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Made my night……Crees Blog Entry
Its amazing how I was feeling down… and one of my students sent me this in inbox tonight…. MADE MY NIGHT ….
Maa, i went to the hospital in they did in X-ray on my Heart in they found you in They Said If You Leave I will Diee
Let me share how we became friends. Everyday at work she would ask me to come over to her table and she’d say ….. “you owe me $1.00”. And when she first said it, I was like “huh for what”?. I’m always buying them something.. and I thought maybe I did owe her money.
I noticed that she has this Spirit about her that tells me that she’s the boss of her gurls. Everyday she would see me and give me this look as if she wanted to “be my friend”. I know that look, because they’re people who I meet and instantly I know, we’re going to be good friends. Well, this one day I went and sat down at her table with her and her friends. I said to her…. do I really owe you some money? I knew I didn’t, I wanted to talk to her to see where she was coming from. She said No, you don’t…. and smiled. I looked around the table with a smile and laughter in my voice, and asked her friends… hey yall…. is she a bully? They were like YES YES YES… but not in a bad way. I looked at her laughing.. I said I knew you were, talking about I owe you some money? LOL LOL We all cracked up. I said to her, now let me ask you a question? Who in your family is a bully…. because I know for a fact, if you’re a bully, you’re being bullied. Her eyes lit up like “how you know”? She said my mom bullies me. Isn’t that something? Ever since then we have kept in touch. The things that she has to go through… is unreal. I cry for her, and I want to always be apart of her life. And she’s a VIRGO just like me…. she’s my baby.
These mothers these days are killing me the way they’re mistreating their God given children. My daughter tells me all the time.. Mama you raised me so well. Today we went to the movies, and when we left, she went into the gas station to pay, as she was coming out, there was this lady standing at the door. I know she must have said something to Nesha… cause she reached in her pocket and gave the lady some money…. I was about to cry. She does this all the time, because she watched me do it all her life. When your child is grown and you see them living the way you taught them… it’s a wonderful feeling. I can’t even explain how I felt today.
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
This too…….Crees Blog Entry
Whenever I’m going through my own personal thing… I go through many different emotions in a day. I have learned to use that time alone to cry, pray and just think. I do not like to share those emotions because I always go to bed hopeful. This too, shall pass.
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
In 2013….. I Learned…….Crees Blog Entry
This year has been one I will never forget. Living alone with yourself…. will teach you a lot of things. The reason why I decided to share mines is because…. I believe that we all can take inventory of our lives… and when we do… we just may learn something.I learned that I LOVE PRANKS. Even though I would never prank anyone. I realize that I go to youtube when I need to laugh, and when I need to smile just before going to bed. I’ve subscribed to several PRANK sites…. this is something that I realized I did. Wow. I asked myself… what is it that you get out of it? I LOVE to see people’s reaction. I love FACIAL EXPRESSIONS… they’re so funny to me.
I learned that its okay to enjoy being alone. I learned that I’m not the kind of person who calls up people and tell them my problems. I let God work things out, and that way I’m able to tell the story in TRUTH and in FULL. when I’m ready.
I learned that I have control of things that Angers me. For example, when the drive thru lady rolled her eyes so hard at me, all I could see is the white part in her eyes when I asked her for ketchup. I learned this year that I have total control of how I will react to ANY SITUATION, and that I was the one who really had the POWER. I always thought I had POWER AND CONTROL when I “told her off”…. but this year I LEARNED that the one who can laugh through it all…. is the one who has the POWER and SELF CONTROL.*pops my collar*
I learned that I don’t have to be “CONNECTED” to anyone. MEANING… if I’m cool with 2 people and they have issues with each other….. THATS THEIR PROBLEM TO WORK OUT!!!!! I’m free from DRAMA with my own SISTERS… I consider myself free from DRAMA with ANYBODY ELSE. I will not engage in ANY conversations pertaining to the other… PERIOD… AT ALL. I am my own person, I do what I want to do, I’m not connected to anyone. I do my own thang.
I learned this year… that I have always been the listener. My life has changed so much this year… sometimes I didn’t know if I was coming or going. In being the listener all the time….. I realized this year I didn’t have a listener for myself. Even though I’m good with that….. I realized and LEARNED that when I let all my talkers…..talk…. that I didn’t make them listeners. LOL But God had my back. And its all good.
I learned this year that my dad is who he is and that’s FINAL. I learned that whenever he got mad at me, that I was always afraid that he would be mad for a long time, and that’s why I always made up with him first. I went over 3 months before calling him * he had no plans to call me first* that was my first time going that long. I learned that its OKAY… that this is who HE is….. and for me to Boss Up… and accept it. I learned this year, that he can go months even years without talking to me.
I learned this year that I spent a lot of time holding people’s hand…. too long. I refuse to go any longer putting band-aids, and green rubbing alcohol on folks…. they gotta go to God.. JUST LIKE ME. I learned that I spend TOO MUCH TIME…. ( it’s okay to spend some time) on folks who don’t want to “get it”. I can’t use extra energy for that any more. I have to attend to me. I learned that I have neglected myself in so many ways. Those days are over.. and brighter days are coming.
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
A Frustrated Dreamer…..Crees Blog Entry
THIS IS FOR FRUSTRATED DREAMERS
I was driving in to work this morning and I started thinking about all the days I dreaded going to work. I was so sick of it… the job, my boss, the people I worked with, the traffic… I would wake up angry every morning. I didn’t want to deal with the crap of the job, but I was forced to go. I had been homeless, I was broke, living paycheck to hopefully the next paycheck. I couldn’t take a day off for fear I would get fired. I was just frustrated. I thought I hated my life and the job.
It was so aggravating because God had placed all these dreams and hopes in my soul and mind and I had no idea how they were going to come to pass. To have a dream of being something better and living better than the way I was at that moment and to not see a way of getting there felt like death to me. I thought, “Dear God, why would you give me so much hope and not make a way?” But what I learned through prayer was, with no path in front of you and no road map… this is where true faith begins. With faith I realized that I wasn’t frustrated with my life or the job, I was frustrated because I was a person who had dreams for myself, a person who had visions for my life and I wasn’t living it. Have you ever been there, where you felt so strongly that there was more to this life than what you see in front of you?
One of the most difficult things about being a dreamer is the fear that the dream will never happen. I’m here as a living witness to tell you your dreams can come true. You can’t give up. And I am here to let you know that everything can work together for your good. The time that you are spending on that job that you think is a dead end is not. You’re being prepared just like I was. I was a shoeshine boy, I worked as a bill collector, a used car salesman, in housekeeping in a hotel, and they all were preparation for where I am now.
What do these things have to do with where I am now? I’m glad you asked. I am able to use skills that I learned. I shined shoes, so I know how to shine my shoes if I need them to look nice. Selling used cars was a great way to learn how to close a deal. Bill collecting taught me great negotiation skills. Working at that 5-star hotel taught me a lot about travel. Every experience in your life is here to teach you something.
Today, while you’re at work, don’t be frustrated. Look around you and ask God what are you there to learn and how will it be a part of your future dream. Honor that job, do the best you can at it, because God will bless you for honoring something that belongs to another.
I hope this inspires you today. If you need a little more inspiration then watch my first sit-down interview in years with Oprah on Oprah’s Next Chapter. It airs this Sunday on OWN: Oprah Winfrey Network at 9/8c. I talk a little about not giving up. I know it will move you.
Here’s a prayer for today: “God help me hold on, help me to get to what I dream of, help me to honor where I am today so that I can appreciate where I will be tomorrow. In Jesus’ name.”
How we fed 150 people for Thanksgiving in Detroit….Crees Blog Entry
I realized that God equipped me with Being a Visionary I have insight on things that others just don’t see, or understand…. and ITS OKAY. As a visionary you have to be able to think quickly and able to come up with solutions. You have to always have a plan B. I have a gift to vision the whole thing in progress before it even happens while sitting in my living room months before time. In doing this, I can see all the issues that may come up, and that is how this is able to go smoothly EVERY YEAR. THANK YOU JESUS.
While I was preparing for our 5th Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving, my mother, and sister said to me…..* WE laughed* what do you do, because all we see you doing is writing stuff down on your notes? I laughed so hard at them, while they laughed at me… and I said yall have NO idea what it takes to pull this all together. Had this been years and years ago when they were “cracking jokes” hehehehing….. I would have been mad * only for a moment*…. but I knew that they didn’t know any better, and when they see me in action…. they’re going to “FEEL BAD FOR ME” in a sense.
The day before we went out to the streets to feed the homeless, I met my mommy over to my sister house were we sit up, snack, laugh, and talk about different things going on. We were all comfortable when my phone rang… I had to go and meet someone to collect items. When I told my family I would be right back… they were unhappy. They thought I was there to chat… but really I knew I had to meet donors in the area. When I returned…… 30 minutes after that I had to meet someone else, they wanted to know how long I was going to be… because they wanted to sit up and talk.LOL LOL *since they were hehehe about me* But see little did they know I had to do a lot of running around. So after my 3rd pick up, they were like… omgoodness we’re starting to see what you really do. They asked me do you feel like all of this driving? I said yes. I love to drive so this is nothing to me. When 5 pm came, that was my last pick up, and then it was time to take things to my other sisters house to store until the next day. With all the running around… I put in $38.00 in my tank just for those 2 days ALONE then I had to put in $45.00. YES #TRUESTORY
Wednesday morning I was up at 7 am… ready to drop nesha off at work, then to Walmart, Target to pick up some last minute things, picked up my BFF with macaroni and cheese, her daughter, then to my sisters house to get MORE macaroni and cheese she had made that morning before she went to work. We had even more things to unload before we started the process. Whew that was a lot to unload.
By this time it was after 11 am. WE had to bag all 150 dinner rolls, 150 cookies, then we had to tear off over 200 pieces of aluminum foil to cover the dinners. We had to put can pop, and water in 150 bags. WE had some much trash. LOL After we did the drinks, we had to hall them into the van because they took up a lot of space on the floor. After all the food was done, and ready to be served except for a few things that needed to be heated…..my CREW WAS HUNGRY. ME….. when I’m busy like that and I want things done… I can go all day until were done before I even get hungry. So, I had to pause for that… usually I buy extra chicken, rolls and pop for everyone who participated, but they wanted
Mc Donald’s. I didn’t want to go way across town to pick up the chicken AND make extra trips to the restaurant, so I timed it so that we can make only one trip. Whew… the faces people make when they’re hungry is funny!!!! I had my friend Gloria call several places that I had written down to get the best deals for 300 WHOLE PIECES OF CHICKEN WINGS. We found a deal $190.00 we were off to get food. Me, gloria, Charlene and Tyra. It took us over an hour to return and that set us back from being out on the streets at 4 pm. I wasn’t happy about that, but oh well, what can I do?
When we returned my friend Nicole and her 2 daughters were on their way. We knew that once we got in the house we had to get started making 150 plates and when I say it takes some time….. BELIEVE ME!!! They had chicken and dressing, potato salad, string beans with white potatoes, mac and cheese, dinner rolls, and 2 pieces of fried chicken. Pop, water, brownie, and cookies.
What I learned is that here in Detroit the weather changes from year to year.. and when its cold outside I have to make sure we are on the streets be fore dark at least 4 because they go inside of a building and stay. Last year when it was warm, they were all over the streets and it took us 7-10 minutes to pass out all the food. This year it took us longer because dark caught us, and it was cold outside. So next year I’m going to focus on quality instead of quantity. We can make the plates heavier with food, we can give more deserts out, we can also pass out more waters or pop and juice.
After it was over.. my mommy and sister said we ARE SO SORRY FOR MAKING JOKES ABOUT YOU AND YOUR NOTES… my mommy said she could NEVER IN HER LIFE DO WHAT I DO AND STILL HAVE A GOOD ATTITUDE IN FROM OF EVERYBODY. They said…..we never knew it takes all of that to pull this together. They helped me all the way through and couldn’t believe all the work it takes. LOL I told them… I knew they didn’t see the big picture like I did… I know it is God who gives me the drive and motivation to put this together. It takes a sane mentality to inbox, phone, email, text people to make sure everything is going well… I am so proud of myself to truly learning how to “keep it moving” no matter what’s going on.
After we loaded my van, Nicole’s truck and my sister/hubby car… we went to the streets of downtown Detroit. We were so tired.. but for some reason I was up the next morning at 7am. Wow God… for real? LOL
Can’t wait till next year.
Be Blessed!
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Love will follow….Cree’s Blog Entry
Growing up this was one of my MOMMA favorite songs. I hear it and think of her. Someone posted this on FB today and it took me back. I never knew Shanice did the song with Kenny, and the way it came out was beautiful. I was going to post the version of just him singing, but when I clicked on them doing it together, I posted this one. Enjoy.
I run out of breath and start to shake I love you with all my heart can take I hold you beside me in my sleep And long to be dreaming endlessly
We’ve come into a place in time Where I am yours and you’re mine A circle filled with love
If you come away with me I can show you ecstasy Close your eyes and we will lead And love will follow
Take a chance and hold my hand I know you’ll understand We’ll find a special land And love will follow
A smile on your lips and in your eyes A stranger adrift in paradise You touch me and slowly move away Take all of the night you need to take, babe
Just wait a little while and see What you mean to me I’ve waited all my life
If you come away with me I can show you ecstasy Close your eyes and we will lead And love will follow
Use your wings and fly away And come with me today Your heart will lead the way And love will follow
(If this was just a chance of make-believe You’d never feel it this way) I’ve always wanted to love somebody As much as I, I’m wanting you now
[Musical interlude]
We’ve come into a place in time Where I am yours and you’re mine A circle filled with love
If you come away with me I can show you ecstasy Close your eyes and we will lead And love will follow
Girl, I swear I love you so Tonight you’re gonna know And everywhere we go Love will follow
Use your wings to fly away And come with me today Your heart will lead the way And love will follow
I’ve always wanted to love somebody As much as I am loving you now
(Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on)
We’ve come into a place in time Where I am yours and you’re mine A circle filled with love
If you come away with me I can show you ecstasy Close your eyes and we will lead And love will follow
Take a chance and hold my hand I know you’ll understand We’ll find a special land And love will follow
A smile on your lips and in your eyes A stranger adrift in paradise You touch me and slowly move away Take all of the night you need to take, babe
Just wait a little while and see What you mean to me I’ve waited all my life
If you come away with me I can show you ecstasy Close your eyes and we will lead And love will follow
Use your wings and fly away And come with me today Your heart will lead the way And love will follow
(If this was just a chance of make-believe You’d never feel it this way) I’ve always wanted to love somebody As much as I, I’m wanting you now
[Musical interlude]
We’ve come into a place in time Where I am yours and you’re mine A circle filled with love
If you come away with me I can show you ecstasy Close your eyes and we will lead And love will follow
Girl, I swear I love you so Tonight you’re gonna know And everywhere we go Love will follow
Use your wings to fly away And come with me today Your heart will lead the way And love will follow
I’ve always wanted to love somebody As much as I am loving you now
(Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on) (Hold on, hold on tight, hold on, my baby, hold on)
Inside the mind of cree 