Author: lacrease

This is a post from the Tyler Perry message board, and below is my comment. I don’t know how many others are like this, but its worth a read.

Hi Tyler
I need a ear only to listen, I don’t want any thing else only your ear’s to listen.
I am a women,a blk women, a women that has had many problems growing up and with family “my family” . I have tried so hard to be strong,to handle life and life issues with my family. I grew up in a hurry no guide from a mother,or a father. I grew up protecting me. I had to learn life hands on.I never talk to any one I hold it in because there’s no ears to listen to listen to me, Now I’m stress because I can’t handle it any more all ways trying to fix every ones problem,but never fixing my own. I had a job I work for 15 years I received a assiocate Degree, to go back to work this school year and find out I don’t have a place, I’m what they call a sub-child care assistance. I gave them 15 years of me,now I don’t work until they call me, I don’t get mad I once again hold it all in,Knowing I don’t have enough income to support my family, remember I’m a single mother, not looking for your help only a ear to listen, My children are 19, 17, 10. They are old enough to understand now we have more problems, I have no car, I live in a house were the landlord is so LAZY don’t like to fix nothing or he takes forever to fix it. to get them to point A and B. But I’m the mother who helps everyone but her self. I look out the window and say my problems are small because others problems are bigger them mined. I thank God every day because of what I have and don’t have and whats on the way.

I wrote to her:

Thank you to A friend and Lynne for the BD wishes, thank you all so much.

I just have a comment for PT of Flint. You know I use to be just like you. Always praying and hoping the best for others, and neglecting myself. I was always looking out for others, but I looked up one day, and everybody was getting their blessings, and everybody was going back to school, and everybody was getting the home and nice cars they always wanted, getting the best jobs, and here I was the latter ( mentally) for them to step on to get theirs. Now don’t get my wrong, don’t ever ever ever ever stop looking out for other people. But gurl……..there comes a time when you have to look out for you.

Let me explain what I mean. I remember a time when my phone would ring from sun up to sun down. Everybody wanted to talk and that was cool. But when I would talk for 2-3 hours, I would ask, gurl what you over there moving, and they’d say, my furniture, gurl I’m cleaning up and talking to you. Now see me, I can’t talk on the phone and clean up. I cant talk on the phone and drive, I cant talk on the phone and eat. So guess what? My house hold chores would be neglected EVERYDAY! I would get off the phone, look around my house and it would be a mess. Then the very next day those same folks would call wanting to talk, and I’d say gurl what you doing, they would say……….just finish cleaning up!! And me being Lacrease, would be like oh okay, when I get off this phone I gotta do this or do that. This went on for years and years and years and years. OMG!!!!! Was I slow?

Then………..

A camera flashed right before my eyes. I started thinking……..dang here I am talking to her for 5 hours straight this morning, Then when I ask her, gurl what what you do today? She says she done cleaned up, wash the dishes, cooked, ate, did the kids hair and took them to school, and now she’s sitting up talking to me. But here I am, talking on the phone with sleep breath, hair all over and out my scarf, hungry, need to shower, teeth ain’t even been brushed, need to get up outta bed. So one day I got tired of my friends calling me first thing when they are finish taking care of their business . The more I kept hearing them say, oh I just got back form Target, Walmart and grocery shopping. I started thinking, and that was it. I would talk on the phone hour after hour, house looking like a tornado ran through it. I did this for years and years and years. I said no more. Because how can I sit up and keep talking on the phone to the same people day in and day out, when my work is not done? I’m not a person who can talk and do my work at the same time. So I had to decide what’s important, talk on the phone to people who are done with their daily work, or tell them I’ll talk to you later, I got work to do too.

And its not being mean. If this person is your friend, she will say, OK cool gurl, I’ll talk to you later. My friends call me now, if I answer the phone and you just want to talk, but you hear my voice sound sleepy, I hope you say, gurl you sleep? Call me when you wake up!! Cause I’m NOT about to sit and talk to you with a sleepy voice and hot breath. I had to realize that its okay to look out for others and be there for them, but you got to make sure you are okay PT. You have to make sure your things are in order. There are still some times when I will talk on the phone and my work is not complete. But I betchu after 10 minutes I’m looking at my watch saying to myself, its time to wrap this p hone call up. I’m not “finna” sit up here and talk all day. NAW!

Hey 🙂

Today is me and my daughter\’s BD. She is 21 and I am 40!!! Yea another year! Thank you Jesus! Im off to enjoy my day.

I love you all!

Cree

Say a prayer for the people effected by Hurrican Katrina. I can’t imagine what these people went through. I wonder how many of them still havent found their way. Have you ever thought what you would do if this happened to you in your city? I hate to say this, but I have a strong feeling that something even worst is on its way. Decide today that nothing in your home, or even the money you have in your bank account, can ever take the place of your life and your love ones. I feel that we should all from this point on, understand that nothing is promised to any of us for tomorrow. Watch this footage for yourself.

God Bless You

Lacrease

Last night when the Mega Millions winning balls were announced. My sister called me screaming and hollering that her boyfriend Dee, his brother Rick had just called them and told them they he matched all the numbers to the Jackpot of 250 million dollars. I\’m screaming, they screaming, we all are on the phone screaming, hollering, and happy as all get out. So, I told my sister to put Dee on the phone, cause I have to hear detail by detail of the conversations, cause I can tell if something aint right. Dee gets on the phone and I asked him, what did his brother say when he called. He said that Rick was screaming and hollering in the phone, saying he swear on his daughter, and that he was crying and everything. Told Dee that he called his wife who is a nurse to leave the job and come home right now. So, I\’m like okay, maybe this is real. I\’m asking him question after question after question. So by now I\’m convinced!!!

My daughter walks into my room and said \”ma I see dollar signs in your eyes\”!!! ROFL. I\’m like dang for real. LOL. So after a long time, we were talking and making plans, cause Rick told Dee that he was going to hook him up! LOL We are on the phone making big plans! All of a sudden Dee says to me, Imma call you back, my line is beeping, Rick is on the other end. My heart started to sank. I had a feeling this was the SIKE call. I called back in about 5 minutes. Dee was so quiet. I\’m like Dee what\’s wrong, what what? He said my brother was LYING. I said what? He said my brother play a lot and I don\’t know if he is telling the truth or not. My sister was so heated she went to bed! LOL So, Dee was like naw, I\’m about to put on my shoes and I\’m going ride and see if they have company or not. Too see if lights are on in the house, he said if its a lot of cars and they have the door open, ITS TRUE. Dee went ova there, and alllllllllllll the lights in the house was off. They were in the bed sleep. You know if anybody you know hit a lottery, WE AINT going to sleep ROFL! My nieces and nephews was hott!! My nephew who is 16 kept asking his momma before they found out it was a joke, can I throw this old cell phone out the house, momma please, momma please just say the word. Let me throw this in the streets, cause Im getting a new one. When that boy heard it wasn\’t true, I thought my nephew was going to be taken away in a ambulance! ROFL!!!!!

Thats what we get for \’mentally\” spending somebody eles money!

God Bless You All!

I was sitting here thinking about the time when Gerald Levert was here in Detroit promoting his new CD, “Do I speak for the world” at a secret and private location. A friend of mine had won two tickets off the radio and she invited me to go with her. After the party was over, she and I went to the bar, and there was Gerald and Joe (his bodyguard) along with some members of his entourage. He was sitting on a couch that was in the bar, and as bad as we wanted to go over there and talk with them, we just talked from a distance and admire his smile and atmosphere. After a while, we finally got a chance to talk with him and laugh. We were so happy.

When I heard of his death, I was devastated, felt numb, still till this day, cannot even believe it. However, it reminded me, that we should live everyday as if it is our last. Not doing any and everything, but doing the right things. Had I known that would be my last time in my life seeing Gerald in such an intimate and private setting, I would have surely walked over to the couch and talked with him for hours, I would have made sure that the throw away camera I was carrying had more photos to take. I would have made sure that I told him how his music made me feel through out my life. I would have made sure that I kissed him the cheek, and told him that I loved him. There are so many things, that I would have loved to share with my Teddy Bear.

I say this to say, that we don’t know the hour or day our love ones will be taken away from us, We must live each day “like its Golden”, loving each other, caring for each other, looking out for each other. Therefore, when it is their time to go home, we will have Peace, knowing we loved that person to the best of our ability.

God Bless

La’Crease

Hey,

Its been a while since Ive heard from you. I miss you!!! How are you? How can you be away from me this long? Don’t you miss our little friendly debates we had? Do you realize that it will be a whole year come Oct? This is really hard. If you ever get married, make sure that you can give her your time, roses and gifts are nice, but TIME is everything. Guess when we talk, I better savor the moment, won’t be running off at the mouth like before…………………..that’s for sure LOL! It was all good tho. Right? I know you’ll probably read this entry sooner or later, just understand how I feel. Just know that I know. God told me one day, and when I share with you, what it was, you are going to crack up. But knowing you, you probably said it on purpose, cause you know I’d pick up on it. Silly self. Well, here are 2 of my absolute favorite songs, they are both classics. They are for you. Enjoy.

Cree

Here is another one of my favorite songs!

When we were young, I remember my auntie use to play this song all the time. Its # 29 in my iPOD since December of 2006! Check it out!

Hey,

Today I want to focus on God and the things that he does. I hear a lot of people saying “where was God” were was God when my family member did this to me”? Sometimes you just don’t know the right thing to say to some one in that situation. We need to understand that its always a lesson to be learned in the experiences that we go through. I remember many times when I was like “Ok God, why did you let this or that happen, you saw it all go down, you knew ahead of time it was going to happen…….why did you let them do this to me”? I didn’t know till years later, that when you get to know him for yourself, and not just someone who exist, you will begin to learn and understand things about him.

I can look back on a lot of things and say. Lord, if you hadn’t told me to go back in the house and get this or that, I would have for sure been in that accident that I see right now. And so he begin to show me things that would have affected me had he intervene.

So, today and on all Tuesday’s. My blog entry will be the topic of “Look @ God”

Listen to what the man say @ 10 seconds. But pay more attention to what happens @ 15 seconds. Look@God!!!

Hello Everybody!

It’s raining outside like crazy today!!! I had to go to jury duty this morning how bout @ 7:45 am. When I got there the parking lot was on jam, $10.00 to park!! I’m still trying to figure out, how do you have to go to jury duty and pay that much to park!! Thats just deep to me, why couldnt they have an area for Jury Duty only people. Even though they’re going to send me a check for $25.00 ( whoop-de-doo) what good is that gonna do Cree when she have to park today? Then I had to snack @ lunch time, which was $4.00. So after that, that leaves me with $11.00. LOL I aint even mad, I met some nice people today.

I was looking cute today, well , except my hair, it was so wet it looked like a wet baby doll head with grease in it. LOL

Security aint no joke either since 911, we couldnt take in cell phones at all. The only people who could bring in cell phones for communication was the Lawyers. That was cool, but the dogone phone booth was taking people’s quarters. Jury Duty wasnt that bad, its just the sitting and not knowing whats next or what you have to do. I sat there watching people and how they respond to things, I had several out bust, yall Im silly and when I see stuff I laugh, not at nothing bad, or personal issues, people crack me up. Especially their facial expression, the way they take things, makes me laugh. It was quiet as a Church mouse when everybody first get there, thats when people are getting the feel of whats going on, and checking things out. But as soon as time go on, we start getting off the hook, talking and giggling loud with the people on our row and stuff.

As, I sitting there trying not to have any more laughing outbust, I had to think about something that would make me cry, so that I would’nt laugh. But the lady next to me, kept noticing where my eyes were landing and would laugh when I would. Man she was my gurl, she and these other older white ladies, were soooooooooo pretty. She looks just like Betty White, from the Golden gurls. We sat up and laughed our butts off. She is so funny. She was telling me stories about how she kept getting out of jury duty and this time she had to come. Her name is Ms. Dorthy, next to her was Ms. Linda ,and Ms. Vikki sat right across from us. We all sat there talking and having a good time, people were looking at us, not acting funny, but you can tell they wanted to know what we were laughing about. They talked about their kids, and mothers. And you know when one of us were called, it was like an Ahhhhhhh moment for us, we were so connected that we didnt want the other to go.

At break time I went directly next door inside the building Frank Murphy Hall of Justice, to get me a snack. I bought a Pepsi, some pretzels, and a bag of chips. I gets over to the Jury room, and I started eating my chips, grabbed my pop opened it up and took a squig, I was like dang this taste funny. So, Im like well maybe its these chips, I had tasted those kind before, but I was giving the Pepsi the benefit of the doubt. So, I took another sip, and I was like naw, thats it, let me go and get another kind. To make sure it aint me, I checked the cap and yep, just as I thought it was expired, the date said August 13, 2007. What does that tell you? That pop was made a looooooooooong time ago. So I gets over there the lines are off the hook. I went up to the lady who is an arabic or something, and said in my nice sweet Lacrease voice ” maam this pop taste old”. So she looks at me and start screaming LOOK, YOU DRUNK IT”!! Just hollering at me like I was her 8 year old. I got maddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd! I said let me tell you something, look at this pop I ONLY TOOK 2 SIPS, THIS PEPSI IS OUT OUTDATED AND EXPIRED, YOU GONE GIVE ME ANOTHER ONE. So she looks at it, because she thought that I wanted my money back, and said “Go GET ANOTHER ONE, GET SOMETHING ELSE DONT GET A PEPSI”!! I said do you think Im going to get another Pepsi and its expired? We were going at it, I said dayummmmmmmmmmmmmm, Im having a good day, and you don pissed me off!!!!!!!!! I wanted to choke that lady. It didnt have to be like that, if she wasnt so in a hurry to get that next dollar, had she looked at my pop to see that I didnt drink much at all, we would have been cool. I guess she thought I got my few sips out of it, and wanted my money back. Im 40 years old, gurl please I rather be sitting my fatt butt ova in the other room snacking on my snack, with my new gurls, laughing and giggling, than to be marching ova here, arguing with YOU, wanting $1.50 back!!! I’m a cashier for Walmart, I drink Pepsi’s errday, all I want to do is enjoy my lunch.

Anyway,

Before lunch time, it was about 150-200 people there. I wanted to stand up and say to the people that if anyone needed some lunch money that I had a few extra dollars for them. Cause let me tell you, I know what’s it like to be somewhere, and all you have is yourself there. You dont have lunch money, phone booth money or anything. I know that feeling. And so I kept having this urge to stand up and see if their was somebody who needed money.

But I didnt do it.

So later on as the day was turning old and there are about 30 people who didnt go out side or into the hall way for lunch. I heard this young white gurl on the phone ( we couldnt take in cell phones into the building) telling someone that she was mad because they told us that we had to stay till after 2 o clock instead of going home with the others who had left at about 12:30, and that she forgot her money in the car, and her book that she had bought to read. Her friend had dropped her off, and that she was hungary. So after she got off the phone, guess who she sat by out of all the 300 chairs there? ME!!!

She started telling me that she didnt have any money on her, and that how hard it is for her and her boyfriend with their one child to feed with either of them working. So, after she finished I said to her, I will give you a couple dollars to go next door to the snack house to get you something to eat. She looked like she wanted to take it, but she still resist. So, I said to myself if I keep talking to her, she will feel comfortable with me and she would eventually take it. We sat and talked for a good while, when I said again, gurl here~~~~ take these few dollars go and get you som
ething to eat, this time she took it and thanked me so much. I said gurllllllllllll this is no problem, I said I have been in the same situation times and time again with no money, its a honor to be able to help you. She went, came back and we talked and laughed, till they told us @ 1:40 we could go home!!!

All I kept saying was Thank you Jesus for sending her to me, cause he know how bad I wanted to bless someone. He knew. I try to be sensitve to the needs of others, and help them when I can. Im like this alllll the time, and so thats why I look back at times and see that God always helps me out of jams, makes me wonder when help is sent my way, did someone ask God to be a blessing to someone today, and it was me? Its hard out here, but we as seasoned Christians cant be about God bless you, and I’m praying for you all the time, we have got to be about action. And see I know first hand about that, cause God is/has taken me out of my comfort zone of this very same situation. Its time to be a hands on Christian, and there’s a time to be a praying Christian. I’m going to be more and more senstive to the needs of others. There are so many people out there that throw out hints and that are not as outspoken and upfront as myself. If we would be more senstive we could help out others in a heartbeat.

Im closing for now, I will talk to you all tomorrow~

Cree

Pearls of Wisdom

Here is the trailer for Tyler Perry’s new movie!!! Enjoy and dont forget to vote.