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Living to Learn Life Lessons


Hey Fam!
Up late cooking my Collard greens for Christmas Dinner tomorrow with my family . Reflecting on this past year, where it has been great for me. Learning about myself and realizing how much influence I have and how 2016 will be GREATER! Watching my daughter work her BUTT off for those less fortunate, feeding the homeless, working long hours, getting a promotion, encouraging and mentoring kids and teens, assisting others with food, resources and lots of love and patience.
I remember a time in my life when I was wild and use to drink and club, talk on the phone all day and night. God dealt with me. I always took pride on paying my bills  AND PAYING OFF the whole balance when it was due. I ran into some hard times when I was in my early 30’s. My lights were cut off, my car broke down, I lost my job, and my gas was turned off… ALL AT ONE TIME.  I needed to hear  from God. After a few weeks  ((which seemed forever)) he finally spoke to me and said. “The person Nesha is to be.. you are getting in the way of it”. ” You are partying, drinking, going out too much, gossiping, having all this sex, talking on the phone, being REVENGEFUL, you need to stop right now!” I was shocked that he was saying all of these things to me, because never in a million years did I think what was happening to me was RELATED TO Nesha/MY BABY.
When I surrendered to God in that moment, it was like the sky opened up and things started happening good for me. I had to change everything about the way I was living. EVERYTHING! I knew it, and for some reason I welcomed it. I stopped talking on the phone.. (( HATE THE PHONE TILL THIS DAY)) I stopped going out, having company over, having sex.. I went back to Church and started reading my Bible daily. I had to cut off people in my life that wasn’t ready to give up what I was doing new. Never knew all of this was going to be connected to my daughters future.

I say all of that to say….. People change over the years. I’m not the same person I was last year, in 2012, in 2011. I have different thoughts and different goals in life. My experiences has changed the way I think. I use to be the Queen of arguing and debates. Today almost 2016.. I don’t go back and forth with NO ONE. I say what I have to say, you say what you have to say…..and after that… its a WRAP! God said to me one day.. LA’CREASE…. in YOUR ADULT LIFE …if you don’t fall out with the SISTERS I GAVE YOU… because you learn the many experiences and personalities of them growing up while living in the same household.. DON’T YOU EVER EVER EVER EVER get into with other women . THEY ARE YOUR MINISTRY!!!!

When I heard that, it made so much sense to me. If I don’t get into it with THEM… why  fall out with others.. NEVA AGAIN! EVA AGAIN! I’m so happy that I’m a NEW CREATURE… I think differently than I did 3 years ago, learn differently PRACTICING SELF CONTROL IS EVERYTHING :)!!!!!!. Thank you Lord for change… in 2016 I’m going to make you PROUD OF ME 🙂
I am La’Crease and I don’t have to do ANYTHING ELSE!


In 1980 I was 13 years old  when this song came out. When I first heard it I was blown away.  I instantly fell it LOVE with the lyrics and the way it was sung. Back then when you listened to the radio you never really knew who sung the song unless you catch the DJ saying it before or after …..IF he did. Now you can use your iPhone to ask Siri  LOL
This song has been in my iPod for years, and also on heavy rotation on my YouTube channel. I have to hear this song EVERYDAY. Recently I found the lyrics and decided to post the video to go along with it. Its Spiritual, Â and it shall be played in my Wedding. Jesus… I LOVE THIS SONG!
Joyous Flame
Da da da, da da
da da da
Into my my life you came
And now I know I’ll never be the same
I know that you and love are one in the same
You gave your life to be a joyous flame
Thank you Lord
Youre my reason why I live
You’ve got the only thing that I can’t give
With you I know, I know, I know, I know I can’t survive
You made me feel the joy of just being alive
Today I heard your voice, it came to say
From the fear and doubt in your life, you’ve just got to walk away
Be thankful that you’re here, never goin away
I sing and shout at what you’re saying today
Everybody’s gonna feel His love in this old world
Cause it’s about time for this old world
Everybody’s gonna feel His love in this old world
Cause it’s about time, don’t you think for this old world
You are my joyous flame
Joyous flame, I gonna praise your name
Life’s a chain, but you remain the same
I have been…born again
It’s you I claim
I need your love, wanna praise your name
Joyous flame, gonna praise your name
Thank you Lord
Life’s a chain, but you remain the same
Born again, it’s you I claim
In your love
Thank you Jesus
I need your love, I’m gonna praise your name
You are my joyous flame
Joyous flame, I’m gonna praise your name
Thank you , thank you, thank
Life’s a chain, but you remain the same
I’ve been
Born again, it’s you I claim
Thank you, thank you, Jesus
I need your love, I’m gonna praise your name


When it comes to business I have to really be on my game. Sometimes you can appear friendly, too friendly, not aggressive on the surface but when it comes to business I am a beast and I know it.
In business you have to always  discuss facts and stay on the point. Because once you get off the point the other person can drive your story all over the place. Not gon happen with me. Sometimes I hate to go there because I can be very expressive in the face, because I’m always  a really nice person. I can come off as very aggressive and I don’t mean to be that way. But I find out that I let things build up and when its time to discuss it there’s no changing my mind. And I don’t if that’s a good thing.
I Â Live downtown Detroit and there are a lot of new developments going on in the city. Many people are leaving the suburbs and moving to these downtown apartments which is causing the parking space to be an issue here. Â In 2012 when I moved here you can park anywhere at any time inside of the gated parking lot and there was no problem. But now since the building is almost occupied which is 22 floors and 18 apartments there is no space to park. When I come home at 3 AM Â I have to pray before I even get here to find a space. They tell us to park across the street which is a Hell to the NAW NAW and definitely not the back where I can’t see my car. I had my van stolen from here a few months after I moved in, and I wish I would park anywhere else except in the gate or in front of the building. They have extra security here and that’s perfect.
This morning when I got home I parked in front of the building along with seven other vehicles.  I went down this morning to run an errand ((( and to move the car))) security asked me about it and I told him there is no room in the parking lot to park anymore I will not park across the street  or in the back of the building. I will not have my car stolen like my Town & Country.He was here when it was stolen because he did the investigation on it. So he knew my frustrations, and understood. But not before I went there.
Just then the property manager came in saying that it was OK because of the issue. I really hated I had to go there but I had to let them know  there was no way I was parking in the back or across the street. Thing was when I said that my van was stolen, people looked at me like WHAT???? YOUR VAN WAS STOLEN FROM HERE? OOO weee I bet security or management wont go there with me again. They shut that conversation down in front of folks REAL QUICK!!! LOL
Now I tried to be nice about it, didn’t want to alarm others in the building, but this is the 3rd time I’ve been asked about my parking. My thing is this, you jammed packed this building knowing full well there is not enough parking for all of these people, then I will let it be known, WHERE I WONT BE PARKING AND WHY. I pay rent here and its NOT CHEAP! Don’t ask me to park across the street, where if something happen off the property they’ll say, “Well that’s not our property.” NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! I made it short and to the point. I don’t do all that 3 minute talking especially when I’m right. Make some parking space around here….. now that’s doing business. All they care about is fulling up the apartments…. AND I AINT MAD AT THEM… BUT DON’T TELL ME TO PARK ACROSS THE STREET. GOT ME MESSED UP! The new people don’t know any better..
La’ Crease does! 🙂

Just sitting here crying my eyes out re-watching Whitney Houston’s funeral thinking about God and how we must all leave someday.
I was also thinking about how close Whitney and Bobbi were. You can tell in every video, how much love they had for each other. That lil gurl loved her mother something deeply. I can relate, because I feel the same way about my mother. We’re very close, talk on the phone everyday, we’re always together. I was at her apartment late last night. Took her to dinner the night before, I Â take her grocery shopping, Â take care of her bills, out for rides, trips, and her doctor’s appointment. I LOVE my mother something deeply. Bobbi Kristina was a young gurl when she passed away, I CANT imagine the pain she went through with the world watching. Always having to say “I’m okay” when she wasn’t. I just CAN’T imagine the tears she cried every time she thought about her mom. The love of a mom is DEEP.. A love that God can only create.
Then I think about my daughter, my one and only, my 9/3/86… I love this lil gurl something deeply and she loves me the same way. We’re so close its scary sometimes. I wonder how did God give us the ability to love so strong. Don’t get it twisted… I LOVE GOD more than anything and anyone. HE GAVE ME- THEM BOTH. Since I have HIM.. I have them. I’ve been playing the song below all morning, crying my eyes out, thinking about the LOVE OF A MOTHER AND DAUGHTER.
RIH Bobbi Kristina… I know you’re where you want to be. (( tears- tears- tears))

 (( I don’t have to do anything else))

and I worked together, and when we would get tips we would put them in our tip jar, but when we were low on money instead of ringing up pastries and coffee, we would STEAL and put that money in our tip jar too. We started off doing it a few times a week, then we started getting addicted and depended on that change so we did it all day everyday. Eventually we quit that job we were working, and started other jobs. We were very, very, very, close did everything together, lived across the street from each other, went out together, took trips together, she knew my family and I knew hers. We LOVED each other like Sisters. We were so goofy , laughed all day everyday.
Erika, had gotten big and didn’t know me 😦  We were in different places at this time, and no matter how much we talked, we never got that connection we had in the beginning.  😦 I learned a serious lesson in all of that. What we did together spilled out in our own friendship. There was nothing I could have said to convince her that I didn’t steal her money. The consequences of stealing from that company, was how I lost my BFF and the closeness/bond/friendship of my NOW AKA BEAUTIFUL GOD DAUGHTER!! I paid for that dearly. I will never forget this lesson. We are connected on FB and its so good seeing her and Erika. They’re both
Christians who LOVES, LOVES, LOVES, LOVES, LOVES, LOVES, LOVES, LOVES THE LORD… and I’m so glad that we can laugh and talk about our past while moving on to our future. We’ll both be 48 this year and I Thank you Lord Jesus for that LESSON TO SHARE WITH OTHERS. AMEN!