Me and my bestfriend Gloria, we would sit up and exchange exboyfriend stories about how we were treated by our kids dad and the things we did to get back at them. I would tell the story of my friend Val who betrayed me and started creeping with my boyfriend who is the father of my now19 year old daughter. Me and Val lived in a 2 family flat she was downstairs and I was up.
It was her own sisters who confirmed to me what she was doing behind my back. So when they both confessed, I did things to get back at her, and once that blew over, I needed answers. Still I was bitter and mad for the betrayal.I dissed him for good as far as me and him. Me and her talked, but I didn\’t trust her, she didn\’t trust me, and I found myself talking about it to family and friends daily. It took over my conversations, my mind, my everyday living, I was devasted. So when she knocked on my door and told me that she was moving to Florida, I was SO HAPPY. I didn\’t have to see her face anymore, didn\’t have to wonder if they were still sneaking around, didn\’t have to be fake anymore. I was very happy.
God spoke to me saying you haven\’t forgiven her. I was like yes God I have, I have forgiven her. She\’s gone now, so what does it matter?
Once she got to Florida, she would call and I would act funny, I heard stories of her being beaten by her boyfriend who she left with, ( yes he knew about what had happened) but was feeling like…………oh well what goes around comes around.
But One day I will never forget. After almost 2 years of her being gone, she called me and gave me the shock of my life. She said I talked to the landlord and he told me that the downstairs was vacant, and that she was coming back to live in the SAME HOUSE.
I thought I was going to pass out!!!!!
After I got off the phone. I said God how could you let her come back and move in the same house? You know what we\’ve been thru. How could you do this to me? Why this same house God? Why? He said because you haven\’t forgiven her, and you need to before you can move on. I had never in my life had to deal with forgiveness. I felt if you don\’t deal with them, or don\’t see them again, that it would eventually go away.
Before she came back, I had gotten real, real close to God, started dealing with my daughters father on a parent level, I really thought that I was moving on. When she came back, everything came back to me. I remember God saying to me so clear…….. Lacrease you haven\’t forgiven her! I went back and forth with God, because I felt that since I didn\’t have to see her, that I was over the pain, But ahhhhhhhhhhhh when she came back on the scene, all what I thought was over, wasn\’t. I was angry with God. I felt that he could have moved her on another block, or on the West side somewhere!! Instead he had another plan for me, and that is when I learned Forgiveness!
Im sooooooooooo happy for that experiences. I Thank God all the time for being by my side during those hard times. I was young, I had never experienced any pain so deep. But I got through it. Believe it or not me and VAL are better friends today then we were before it happened.
So when Tyler Perry said that you have to forgive, Lord knows he said a mouthful. Cause had God not moved her back in that flat apartment with me. I would still be hating her. Still thinking about that mess, still mad and mean. Still wanting revenge, wondering and hoping she is somewhere hurting. But today………….. Please I wish Lacrease would be still walking around with all that mess build up inside me. Nope cant do it. Um ummmm
\”For as low as you can go… Ask God to take you that high.\”~ Tyler Perry