Bishop Long/God
Today was a very good day. I watched Bishop Eddie Long this morning, didn’t know he was going to speak until I read Twitter. Im not the type of person who goes ahead of the verdict before I “prosecute” (ppl are something else)  someone. I have been posting since early this morning on the subject. People just won’t let God do his work, we are supposed to bring people to Christ and ppl want to focus on what MAN is doing. Yes, we are one in the body of Christ, and its important where the Leader stand, but we are not to Judge. Let the courts do their jobs, and lets see what happens. Other than that, Lets get back to God!!
Overwhelmed
Today was a good day. Business was busy… I had a good day as I try to have. I pray everyday either before I get up,  in the bathroom, or in the car. But tonight I feel like crying. I dunno why. ….well maybe I do. For one I get over whelmed with invites, calls, visits, gatherings, dinner dates. I just do. Too much is going on. I love people, thats a fact, but I get this over whelming feeling to be every where, and Im such a personal and private person. But I also know where God is taking me, I have to come out of it. Lord, how?????????????? Its like all of a sudden, things are moving at a fast pace for me. This is my issue, not anyone else. This is LaCrease’s issue. I just wish I had someone to guide me and show me how to do things in order where I won’t be over whelmed. I don’t like this feeling at all. Because I can feel my self about to back out of things because its so much. I have got to come out of this. I have too. I have too Lord. Here is a list of things thats on my plate. LOL Im laughing on paper, but tears really are the ones that want to fall.
- Someone I have nt seen a years wants to stop by tomorrow.
- Next weekend Friday after working a 8 hour shift, THEN…. Im going on The Detroit River for a boat cruise 10pm 2 am
- Next weekend Saturday work that morning, then to one of my best friends Dinner Gathering at her home * excited to see her and her hubby*
- Next weekend Sunday my dad want to get Baptisted
- A baby shower- coworker
- Another Baby Shower one of my older Raisingurls
- Another Baby shower nephew’s girlfriend
- A house-warming party. A Bishop and his wife whom I grew up with
- Ricky Dillard is doing a CD concert at my Church~ Second Ebenezer
- A pamper me party
- Nov 6, is our Sistergurl Meet and Greet … Movie and Dinner plus cake for one of my Sistergurls (BD)
- Charlene and I have to buy gifts for the Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving * people who names we pull*
- Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving sign up sheet needs to be past around * we already have 100 waters, and 3 huge cans of string beans*
- Just started a 30 day fast, which is going well.
- I have a friend who is in my Sistergurl group who is coming to Detroit to be with us ( Yea) cant wait to see her again
- Rental Trucks and cars for these events
- Need to start planning these 2 trips to ATL next year. SOON
- Going to NY next year with my Maxwell Family
- Last but really first. My Ministries Sistergurls the BLOG ENTRIES and the 64 group of Sisters Website
- Raisingurls to Women my BLOG ENTRIES and my group of Teens Website
- My cell phone rings all day,
- My house phone rings all day
- I got 1000 messages I havent even listened too, Im scared to do that, my friends are going to go off on me. LOL
- And I get goo goobs of instant messages DAILY
Wow, for some reason, by writing this down, I feel better. Hmmmmm. Looking at it on paper is not as bad as it was in my head.  LOL Well, I know I wont do them all, but I will try. I love all my family and friends, this is MY issue. I dont want anyone to write, text or call me saying that they read my post. LOL Just know that this is MY ISSUE. This has NOTHING to do with you. I need prayer on this. Just have patience with me…. please. I need a car, I’m tired of driving Neisha’s  Good Night. Gotta go to sleep…… its one of those nights….. I feel like crying.
Cree
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My WOW Testimony!!!
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
      and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
 11 Do not cast me from your presence
      or take your Holy Spirit from me.
 12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
      and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
 13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
      and sinners will turn back to you.
Psalms 51:10-13
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Lord, Thank you for allowing me to seeing another day!!! I am truly grateful. Thank you!!
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Today me and my best friend was on the phone, and I’m listening to her talk about the “Cree’s Feeding the Homeless” list I sent her, and all of a sudden her mind started drifting. LOL We both do the same thing. We try to do too many things at one time. Then my mind end up being all over the place. But I notice that when I sit down and write out a list of things to do that day……. I complete everything on the list it becomes a challenge for me. But when I just go on as “usual”, I’m doing 5-6 things at one time….. and ask me how many I finish when I do that? How bout 1 or 2. SHM@ myself. LOL Wow. LOL
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 I have to find the time to write my Testimony in email…………. dang why havent I done that? Well…… I did start on it. LOL Even though I can’t share it, I need it for myself. It’s a WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW!!!!! LOL
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Today was a good day. Still thinking about my Fuu Fuu. I miss her so much. But she’s not suffering any more. I keep (hoping) that my sister, niece will come over with Fuu Fuu and she runs in the house giving me kisses wanting me to rub her. She loves my masages. LOL I wanted to go over there and give her some while she was sick, but I just couldn’t do it. I’ll sit on the couch and rub that dog for 15-20 minutes, sometimes she would doze off ,and wake up looking at me like “gurl you aint finished”! LOL I’m going to miss her, but at the same time I am so grateful because God bought her into our lives for a season and we loved her every minute. Thank you Jesus and I will forever be grateful!!
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Work was cool today. I’m so happy that I can talk to people. Thank you Lord, please don’t ever let me lose my voice or my ability to use my mouth. Today I was talking to a lot of customers about the Lord. On Monday, this OLDER lady told me she has the bible in her house and she has not opened it not one day of her life. ( blank stare for 50 minutes). She said that she don’t understand it. I said maaam “Noooooooo”, go out and get you a NIV New International Version Bible. I said you’ve got to pick it up and start reading it. I feel so bad. People are living life and never read the bible. She said she prays a lot, but still that’s not enough. I use to have a hard time reading the bible myself, but I started reading the bible at a young age, so I understand a lot of what is written in The King James Version, but I use other bibles too. I have several versions. I made her promise me that she would start reading her bible, so that means she may get home think about it and invest in a bible she can understand. I hope so cause time is running out.
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My dad called me a few weeks ago and he says to me” I wanna get Baptisted”, so not this Sunday but next Sunday I’m going to take him to our Church and do it. He is holding me responsible. I’m going to stay on him because he likes to back out, but he means well.
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One of my original Raisingurls came to see me Monday with her 4 month old son. It was so good to see her, she is doing well, and has her own place. She finished school and hopefully she will be going to College soon. One of my other gurls was acting up, so what I did was send her 2 page letter in the mail with her name on it. I let her know that she betta straighten up and I’m not playing. So today, when I got to work, I asked her momma “did she get my message” she said yea, but she wouldn’t let her see what was in it. She must have been ashamed to show her mom, but she knows I mean business. So with her, I see already that Im going to have to send her letters every 2 weeks, and if her mom come to work and tell me that she is acting up, on my off day Tuesday, I’m going up to her school!!! She will NOT continue in her ways!!! I do wonder why she didn’t want her mom to know what was in the letter. Hmmmm. Well, at least she read it.
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 I’m sleepy, on my way to bed. I had a lot to write about, but I forgot. LOL I’m learning so much about God and his love for us. On my Sistergurl site we are talking about forgiveness, but I think a lot of people aren’t getting it. I’m going to talk about it until I’m blue in the face. I have until the rest of my life. I’ve been Molested, Raped, Beating and Robbed with a double barrel shot-gun up to my head in a coney island drive thru all at different times in my life. If I can FORGIVE anybody can do it. I use to be so mean, and so hateful because I bottled a few of these things inside of me. God told me the other day, in order for me to use you Lacrease , you’ve got to be transparent. There is still stuff, I havent shared. That’s why I don’t get into it with folks anymore, gossip, argue all that mess is not for me. There is too much work to do and still I feel like I’m not doing all I’m suppose to be doing. So, I really don’t have time. I just keep it moving. I’m still learning to understand that my time is NOT my time, when people want to come over and talk, send me messages, calling my house and cell phone, coming to my job. I gotta stop ignoring calls. People really need to talk and there is nothing wrong with that. I gotta get myself together!!! I’m getting better I can say that. I have the issue not THEM.
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I’m going on the Princess boat next weekend from 10PM-2AM for a birthday party. My friend Theresa and her family owns a soul food restaurant here in Michigan and its off the hook!!!! Baabbbbbbbby, her momma and aunts aint nothing to play with in the kitchen!!! So, we are going to have a good time, Neisha and Margie is going with me. Well, Margie told me about it. lol I know its going to be cold on the Detroit River, but they have heat so I’m looking forward to it. I’m going back to ATL in April 2011 with Neisha Charlene, and her daughter Tyra. So, Im going to get busy planning for that. I like to plan too. I see that I do that a lot in my life and for others. I did my brothers wedding, and when my friend get married I’m going to do hers too. okay, that’s it for Cree.
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Gotta go!
Im going to miss my Fuu fuu * tears*
Hey Everybody!!!
I Thank God for allowing me to see another day. I talked with someone yesterday at work who just buried her sister who died in her sleep at 42, younger than myself. So, today I Thank him dearly. Im waking up for a reason, so again I Thank him. My sisters dog * my niece Fuu Fuu* had to be put down today. Oh, we are so sad, so sad. She was my baby. I loved that little gurl. She was a miniture dobberman. We have lots of photos and footage of her.
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Let me tell you about God. Last weekend my Sister went to Chicago with her fiance to his grandmothers funeral. My sister asked me could my niece Nell come and spend the weekend with us until they get home. I told her of course, just make sure to bring my gurl Fuu Fuu. We never knew that was our last time seeing her. God made it so that she could spend the weekend with us. She slept with me on that first night, and the second night with her sister * my niece nell* She was fatt! But a small dog and sooo, love able. I enjoyed her being with us because she is so much like a person. She sleeps in the bed, she will scoot her dog bowl all around the kitchen making these noises when she is hungary. We would crack up. When she wanted water, she would sit in front of you with this intense stare, and make these noises with her mouth and walk towards the kitchen. LOL She wouldn’t go into the kitchen unless she knew you were following her. I’m going to miss her.
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They took her to the vet a few days ago because she wasnt eating, and looking weak. They said that she would have to come back, so today she went and they said that she was a diabetic, and that her body had shut down. I cried a little today. I’m going to miss her, but at the same time I can’t stop thinking about how God knew how I felt about her, and he made it possible that my sister go with her fiance. My sister wasnt going at all, she hadn’t plan on taking off work. But she did and had it not been for that, I probably wouldn’t have seen Fuu fy. I am very grateful for that. Thank you Jesus. I gave her soooooooooo many kisses when she was over here, probably at least 100 . I kept kissing her and rubbing her. She loves to sit under my desk when I’m in my office. I kinda think those were the first days of her being sick, because her nose was kinda dry,a nd she stayed under my chair. I am really really really grateful to God. Thank you Jesus. Thank you.
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Good Night
Cree
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Running the race
Lord, Thank you for living to see another day. Today was a quiet day, I wasnt feeling well at all this morning, I laid in bed till 1:55pm. Whew, to all the men, Thank God yall don’t go through what we go through its nothing nice. I’m looking rough today. Just didn’t feel like anything. Gotta work in the a.m thats cool.
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 I’m going back on a 30 day fast tomorrow. I have too. I’ll be in and out. I’m rambling right now, feel like some kids are scribbling in my head cause my mind is all over the place. LOL I started writing out my testimony from April till now this week, I will be able to get back on it, right now I’m all over the place physically. I have some things coming up. We are getting ready to kick off donations for Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving in Oct. My best friend Charlene is helping me, and with her we are gonna do the thing. Praise God. My group Sistergurls are having a Meet and Greet Nov 6, 2010. Thats going to be NICE!!! I’m getting things together for that. I even have a Sistergurl who is coming from out-of-town to be with us….. and she’s staying with me. Yeaaaa
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Wow so much has happened, and its all good. Still tripping on how God ties things together. God really loves me. I know he loves us all, but this is MY STORY. One thing about me, I may kick and fight, but when I get by myself, and get to talking to God he always reveals things to me. I may not be able to chew on everything at once, but he knows when to give me more. It’s really funny, looking back on it. He told me so many things in advance, and I still don’t know how I got to this place. You know God loves you when he tells you things in advance and it comes to pass. It was already told to people, written down and I had proof. I’m happy about that. Real happy. Lord, give me the patience to write it all down for myself.Â
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Last night I wrote a very personal story that happened to me years ago, and I shared it on my Sistergurls site. I still can’t believe that I did that. See my coworkers and lot of my friends don’t even know about this page. I shared it here before. I know when I go to work tomorrow people are going to ask me questions, then maybe they will wonder why they never knew that. While, I was writing it, I was going back and forth with God about it. Whew, I didn’t want to do it. He said LaCrease you have to be transparent. Too many people need to hear this story. How, oh that did something to me. I feel like I had to share something so personal to my IMMEDIATE family and friends. Wow, still can’t believe I post it. There is a counter on Sistergurls page, and its going up and up and up. My heart beats. I feel like they can see everything going on inside of me now. But you know what? I did it. And that’s all that matter. Here is that blog post. http://sistergurlsmyblog.wordpress.com/2010/09/19/forgive-77-times/
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I can feel God moving in me. He is at work . I have all winter to prepare for my race. LOL Whew that went over some people’s head but its alllllllright baby. It’s alright!! This is going to be so hard, but it has to be done. I have to do it. I have too. I want too.Â
To my brother… I LOVE YOU!! I LOVE YOU!! I LOVE YOU!!!! Thank you f or saving my LIFE… through CHRIST JESUS.
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Good Night and Be Blessed.
CREE
Lord, I won’t run
Thank you Lord for answering my prayers. When you spoke to me a few weeks ago, and told me not to worry, because worrying would take from what I was doing at that time. A peace came over me, and I let it go. Today, you answered my prayers. Thank you Jesus.
This morning I had to be at work @ 7 am. But last night I went to bed around 1, but couldn’t sleep at all. I laid on the couch and all of a sudden God started bringing back things to my remembrance. Things that he showed me before they happened starting back in April. It was so much, I laid there shaking. How could I put this far back into my mind like that? I guess what didn’t make sense then, I put in my “file” mentally. Now that it makes sense, I remember everything. God, I promise I’m not going to run. No matter what you show me. Just give me a little at a time. No, give me what you know I can handle. I wont run.
Aint gonna believe this one!
Praise God for another day!!! Yeaaa!
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I really enjoyed the chats I had with several customers today. My first customer of the day was this black gurl. She walked up to my register and said “What are you praying for today”? I was like I’m sorry maam, I didn’t hear you. She said what are you praying for today? I dunno what made her ask me that. I said I’m praying that God would bless me with a 2010 Towne and Country Van ♥, so next year when my gurls need a ride to my house for our gurls group meeting, it would be enough room for all those who need a ride. I pretty much forgot where our conversation went after that, because it shocked me, LOL that it came out of no where. She was real cool too.
Last week when I was called to the office for my evaluation. My bosses, boss, ask me why havent I advanced in the company and was I interested in doing so. She wanted to know my answer so badly, thinking back on it. Hahaha. I tried to put it as best as I could without making anyone feel bad about what THEY LIKE . I said to her, I said don’t get me wrong, I love this job and the customers, I LOVE my coworkers we ALL get along, we don’t get called to the office for gossip or anything catty. But I said……I’m just passing through. This is not the kinda job that I want to be doing. I told her that I enjoy working with the youth along with a few more other things. I said, the positions in this company is not where I see myself. Thinking back on it, I can kinda see her face as if I think I’m better than the others. On my sheet, it said that I didn’t Communicate enough… *blank stare* Wow, that was really big to me. I feel I Communicate too much.LOL Heck, if I say another word, I’ll probaly be outta there. LOL!! But when I shut down, I shut down. And maybe I have done that, because sometimes when you talk about serious issues that need to be addressed and “they” say well thats the companies policy, is like you can never get anything resolved. So, when they said that, I just do my job and go home to my happy life!!! ♥
Today…… my bosses, boss *same lady* ( I LOVE HER TOO, SHE IS SO SWEET) she came to me, she said Crease baby, do you know service desk? I said, No I sure don’t. And before I go into the conversation about that, let me say this. I was training for customer service some years back, and every time they would send me up there, they were like we need you back to your register , it’s getting crowed. Then they would say, naw learn it another day. So after so many days of trying to learn it without forgetting because I wasnt up there enough. We were like well, just forget it for now, because I’m not over there enough to learn it. Â
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At this time, they are cleaning house. Asst Managers JUST got fired, they have a whole new crew. LOL They are firing people for attendance and customer service left and right, and they’re not hiring people to fill those positions. So now what? They have to pull cashiers and send them to the service desk which makes us short. Okay, that’s fine with me too. I’m straight. I don’t care if they close the building down for repairs. Im not conformed to this WORLD!!  So today it was like she was ready to challenge everything I said. *hehehe* She said why don’t you want to learn service desk I said when I tried to learn it, they wouldn’t keep me up there long enough to learn it. I said but my biggest issue is this. I said, you know and I know that working at the service desk is more money. I said people are getting fired left and right when they make any kinda mistake, no chances, out the door~!!! I said I have watched the managers send UNEXPERIENCED cashiers to “fill in” because there is not enough people, and when a customer says…. “she was mean to me”. That cashier IS FIRED from a position that’s not even hers!!! She was being nice to go over there. Then she said well Lacrease you’re a good worker, you wouldn’t have that problem. I said I may be, but its proven too many cashiers are getting fired for a lack of knowledge. That service desk is nothing to play with. I kept telling her, I have to want to go over there, that is a position where you are “asked” to go to, we don’t have to do it. Because they know it’s a difference in pay rate. Its like she couldnt understand that.
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 This is my thing. They’re real quick to say “we want to clean up the store” or this manager is “by the book”. OKAY COOL that’s fine. Be by “the book”. Quit playing! Stop asking these gurls to go to a higher paying position and not pay them.Thats not “by the book” management. The rule is, if you are at the service desk more than 2 days, you are supposed to get paid for that position. See, this is what I try to tell people. First of all, stop running up behind these managers trying to be their friends!! Stop that mess! Stop trying to learn the gossip. Who cares! Do your work, because YOU will be the first to go! I’ve seen it too many times. Because when its time for BUSINESS, ITS TIME FOR BUSINESS!. Doing real Business is saying look, here’s what’s in the handbook, THIS IS NOT.
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 Some want to argue about a job they don’t want to do, but SUPPOSE to do, but here is a higher paid position job THEY DONT HAVE TO DO, but do it anyway,……. and NOT get paid for it. Thats retarded to me. Then they look at me like Lacrease, what you’re thinking about…..YOU DONT PLAY!!! I said NOTHING!! I don’t have not one word to say, quit trying to pick my head on the subject cause it “aint gon happen”. My face will continue to be blank. They always want to know what Lacrease has to say, what Lacrease think, whats on Lacrease mind? How is Lacrease looking at it, is she mad, is she okay? I dont have anything to say about these “man made everyday on the spot changing rules”. Stop asking and quit looking at my face.
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I do my work! When they ask me to do this or do that. I do it no problem. Gladly to do it. I’m just a person who do what I’m told and I wont complain, I just do it. Then somebody said. …..well… Lacrease you never do anything bad. I said UMMMMMM don’t put me in a box like I don’t do no wrong around here. But when it comes to Business let’s do business.
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I guess what really got me fired up was I found out today about this investigation based around the same kinda stuff. A incident that happened last Sat. Another cashier was asked to go to the “Service desk” because they “needed help” after firing folks and NOT replacing them. I had worked, punched out, and was at the register getting rung up, when I hear this man in a wheel chair NUTTINNNNNNNNNNNNG UP, on a cashier * I call her my daughter*. Just CLOWNING her. Everybody looked like dang where is that noise coming from? We all looked over at the service desk, and it was this man ACTING A FOOL *It was only 2 customer services girls working, but none of their mouths were moving, so we were like dang, LOL who is he mad at? Then this lady who was standing in front of the desk…….. started NUTTING UP on her too. I mean they were going off walking out the door, cursing her out. All that time my coworker never said a word. I was right there. I saw it all. So, these doe doe birds* the customers* who WERE TOGETHER, got home and call the store manager * who was on vacation*. They made such a big deal over the matter, the Assistant Managers had to then called the District Managers, because they want HER FIRED!! They came out and  reviewed the tape and saw that my coworker NEVER said a word as they cursed her out together. The cashier told him/them that she couldnt cash the check for whatever “company” reasons were…. and he got mad. In the office they tried to trick her up with fancy words, they said ….well did you say this” and you did you say that”. She said well, you reviewed the tape did you see my lips moving? They said no, but did you mumble something? Messed me up! I didnt even want to hear the rest of the story.Then, the people CALLS BACK up to the job a few days later and says ” did yall handle that yet”? *crickets*looks around….handle what yet*? SMH@ ppl. WOW
 Now, they are really pressed about taking action, because look, if those people come back to my job and see this cashier is still there, they can purposely start something with her AND MY JOB WILL BE LIABLE for it. But guess what? This cashier WASNT EVEN SUPPOSE TO BE WORKING AT THE SERVICE DESK, SHE’S A CASHIER!!! So, they were hoping and wishing that they could see her mouth moving, and FIRE HER! But they didn’t. So she gets to keep her job. But if those people come back and see her, it could be trouble. And my job KNOWS IT!! She has to be really careful about her attendance, attitude, everything, because they are looking to get rid of her. I’ll keep you all updated on this story. SMH. Thats why I tell them quit grinning UP in their faces, do your work. Cause baaaaaaaby, if it EVA came down, its gonna be YOU and NOT them when it comes to losing their jobs.
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It’s about to be Christmas time and people are going to be on Tweak mode!! I’m just passing through at this job, learning patience ( I need it ) and to learn how to deal with people. Because where I’m going, I’m going to need it. When its time for God to release me…….. I’m gone, and I will NOT look back. I know I did my part, and my job to the best of my ability and I wont owe anyone …..ANYTHING!!
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Be Blessed Fam!
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