This year I have purposely taken the time out to get to know myself. I did that by paying attention to the things I like and to what I don’t like. It has helped me to give attention to those things that are important to me, and to leave those things that are not. I am really proud of myself, because I took the time to focus on ME. I’m always, always loving on others and being their biggest cheerleader, when I learned that I need to find out what it is that makes me ……La’Crease J. Walker.
I had to ask God, why do I love being alone so much? My friends always ask when are you going to do lunch or dinner? I love my friends and I would love to go and eat (( are you kidding me)) I realized that I’m more of a listener than a person who have something to share. I find myself having to be in the mood to listen, and when I think about that sometimes, I just want to stay HOME. I believe that I am just so boring and wonder why people always want to be around me. I am funny and very silly, but still I’m very boring.
For as long as I can remember, I have always had company at my place. I love to cook for my friends, and love to talk junk and laugh. When I started driving at 32, I no longer wanted to have company over, because I wanted to be out and about. I didn’t want to go over to anyone’s place, I wanted to travel. I wanted to go to concerts, and plays. No one wanted to do that. They wanted to sit up and play cards, drink, or go out clubbing. I had a car, I didn’t want to sit in my house anymore and that’s when I had to start regrouping myself. God showed me that when I had company everyday (( and there is NOTHING wrong with that)) that I was training people how to treat me. I did enjoy my company. But things changed in me when I started driving. And that’s okay too.
Then there came a time when I wanted to travel and go to concerts. I realized many years later, that those same people didn’t want to go to the concerts I liked. And that was cool too. I was traveling to Atlanta and Chicago a lot with OTHER friends. I went to Universal Studios in Florida 2 times stayed a whole week, that wasn’t with my card playing friends, it was with others. I traveled to New York 3 times with other friends. I went on a cruise this year for a week, and when I wanted to go back for next year, there were problems with friends. Its always so important to find like minded friends to do the things you like to do in life.
As time when by, I had to learn to travel alone. I will hop in my car and go to Atlanta so quick by myself. I’ll ask once, maybe twice, but after that I’m gone. I have went to so many plays and concerts alone. I go out to dinner and the movies alone. I got tired of begging people to do things with me, if they couldn’t go I had to branch out there and do it alone.
One thing that I notice about myself… is when I do go out with friends to a movie, dinner, concert, or anything else… I HAVE A BALL!!! I have always, ALWAYS. ALWAYS had fun.
So for 2018, my goal is to do more with my friends. I love my friends. I’m just a NERD right now and it has nothing to do WITH THEM AT ALL…. it has everything do to with MEEEEEEE. I promise to initiate dinner, movies, a concert or play with them. I have figured out why I was “crazy person” with them, now its time to realize that they love me and I love them and time is ticking for all of us. And at the end of the day, I can go home and BE ALONE! That’s the great part!
Learning Life Lessons 