I’m sitting here feeling “some kinda way” I can’t even explain this feeling. It’s this quiet thinking, but not talking feeling. If Nesha was here, she would say… “ma, you look weird”…… what’s on your mind’? I dunno. Usually when I get like this… I’m usually lacking time with God.. or my music. Tonight I think its my music. So, I’m going to lay down soon and let my Ipod put me to sleep.
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I need to get out of this head space that I’m in. Oh yea… its almost the end of the month and my goal was to lose 9 lbs… and I’m at 10. So, that I am excited about. I have LOTS of work to do. Thank God for my beautiful shape… because I can get away with a lot. I can’t wait until it warms up, so that I can do my walking again at the Park. I can’t mess with all those jumping jacks, and hula hoops. LOL
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Even though this “wilderness” that I’m in….. I can’t deny the things I’ve learned. And funny thing is.. had I not been here… I don’t think I would know what I know. That’s something to think about……if your reading and have found yourself here. That’s a Blessing in itself. I look at people, things and situations in a totally new light. Not so much as bad either……. just “differently”. LOL
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Great thing is….. I’m feeling better even after writing this little bit. My break through is coming….and when it happens….. its going to be a loooooong time before I’m in this space again.
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Good Night… Be Blessed
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Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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