Thank you Lord for everything. For ALL  the talks in advance. I can never ever begin to Thank you for everything. Thing for thing has come to pass, just like you said it would. The visions, the words, the actions are happening. I didn’t know what to do. Didnt know what to think of it………. But today is the day, that I have to turn it over to you. This….. I can’t do. I dunno why I tried too, cause what you told me was self-explanatory. Here is your baby….its turned over to you. I’ll be here when its my time.
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I’m on my way to see a movie ( solo).
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Last night me and MY SISTERS went to the movies with our daughters and WE HAD A BALL. THANK YOU JESUS FOR HANDPICKING MY SISTERS OUT FOR ME. I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE THEM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.
Lord, I hate when I dont have answers and closure to something. This is one of the worst feelings in the world. Im not complaining Lord, but please tell me what is your purpose? What are you up too? What are you saying? Why do you tell me everything else, but this you wont. It does something to my insides. I dont know if Im angry, or just dont understand. This is deep.
Today was a very good day!!! I love having good days and I Thank God for them. You know people watch you, and they want to see that you represent Christ. I fall DAILY. DAILY DAILY! But I love that God puts me back in my place. I can laugh about it and keep my place in line. LOL
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 I like to be up on the latest news, I’m a news freak and I have to know whats going on. I am so excited that all 33 miners are out and safe with their families. I cried so much tonight, I hope my husband get to see tears on my wedding day. LOL I’m a cry baby for real. I hate to say it, because some people won’t even get this, but this is the kind of things we need to appreciate our family and friends. We have to sometimes go so low, so that when we go high, we can look up and appreciate each other. That one miner who had a wife and mistress, I really hope that he learned a lesson in all of this. But I will say this, if that was MY HUSBAND, I bet that mistress wouldn’t have her BUTT on the site!!! How you gon show up at the site and I’m the wife? disrespectfull as HECK! See, that couldn’t have been ME. I would have shut that whole SITE down!!! While she thinking she was the “plant manager”. That should have been a wake up call for all cheaters. LOL But seriously, when tragedy strike like this, God is showing us something deeper. They showed so much love for each other, I just couldn’t stop crying. I know God looks down on the fellowship and smile.
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 Today, I was called into the office again! This time the lady ask me if I mind “Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving” to be INTERVIEW. This is really getting deep! I’m so excited, and will share more at a later time. My sheet is all filled! MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!! 75 people will be feed this year. A special Thanks to all my Family and Friends! I’m so excited. Thank you Jesus! Thank you! I will be taking LOTS AND LOTS of photos, and also VIDEO FOOTAGE.
Thank you Jesus for waking me up this morning. I was off and I slept good last night……until I got real hot. It was humid or something, but we were hot in this baby.
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Okay, I have officially kicked off “Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving”. This year my best friend and her husband has gotten on board. They have already went out and bought the items they signed up to do, and has also gotten several people to sign up. I gave the sheet to my family first this year so that they can sign up FIRST. Last year, I took my sheet to work and when I came home it was already filled, and there was very little for them to do. With so many people at my job, I seem to always missed people who didn’t get the chance to do it last year. This year, I’m hitting them first as well. Sad, but also happy to say, that it is only 2 more things to get The help is overwhelming!!! I had everything on the list, from eggs to bacon ( as ingredients). I Thank God so much for this, I just need to come up with a way to do this more often. Next year we’re going to feed 100 people! People want to help, people want to get involved. All we have to do is open our mouths.
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Look, a few days ago, I was walking in the door and, my bosses,~ boss came up to me and started telling me about how the company wants to get involved with helping a  homeless shelter this season. (another foundation). And that one of the office personal ladies wanted to talk to me about it. So she asked me to stop by the office after I punch in and talk to the lady. I did. And you know whats funny? This lady that I had to talk to, to me she always seemed funny acting, or had something on her mind. She barely speak, and she always look “zoned” out to me. So, I was really hesitant about seeing her. Well, I did and we stayed in the office talking for a loooong time!!! We had some much in common as far as the homeless and our vision to help, it was unreal. Never judge a cover by its book!!!!  She want me to help her gather can donations so that we could get them to this place we want to sponsor. Then she asked me about my project. I was blown away about how it has gotten around the building. Which is GOOD! Only those who are donating knew about it. She asked me “how do you get people to donate”? Arent you nervous? I told her, when you believe in a project, you’re NOT nervous or scared at all. I said you have to believe in your vision, you have to believe that it will work. People will see that confidence, and they will take a chance on you. I told her, when I take this sheet ( I showed it to her) around to people, they gladly sign it. People also remember the person you are when they sign on. If you known as a selfish, greedy, schemer, have attitudes, funny acting……. ALL YEAR AROUND…….they remember that kinds stuff, and they will tell you NO just by the person you are daily. Thats why I tell people… presentation, and character,  is important.
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So, later on, she came back to me and said that the STORE MANAGER, wanted me to type up how I got started doing the “Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving” and to give it to him so that I can compete with 5 spots to appear in one of our monthly newsletters. I’m excited about that. WOW!!! I didn’t know that HE knew about it too. WOW.
So………… I went to the computer at work and saw that I was denied that day off 11/24/2010. I was horrified. But after talking to my assistant manager, she’s going to give it to me. That part is the biggest blessing ever, and I can’t even post why……….yeah FAVOR is all I’m going to say. God told me not to worry that he would take care of it, and HE DID.
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I have so much to share, but Imma have to tell some tomorrow. It’s really deep too, gotta find a way to post it without offending. Well, good night!!
 I’m just going to jump in a jot somethings down. On my way to bed, gotta work in the morning.Im sleepy and sitting here nodding. LOL
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God told me more things and they came to pass again. It’s so “funny” not laughing funny, but “are you serious” type of funny. And that is not directed to God either. I think people try to “feel” me out and they think I give them a little of me every time. They think they know Cree, but they have no idea. LOL I am my own person, one look into my eyes and they knew………. I was different from the rest.Still trying to talk to me, still trying to be “my friend”. Shaking my head, God has told me it all. I guess being a snake is easy these days.When I say something its “MAGNIFIED” to the 100th power, but if someone say the same thing, it has no VALUE. Lord, Thank you for showing me that. La”Crease has to always watch what she says. Always. My silence will speak for me….. I LOVE me that way. I love me. I love me quiet.  Destruction is on its way……all I can do is watch it go down.
Okay, so I’m standing at my register, ringing up people. This BEE comes outta no where and fly near me. I’m scared of bugs~ flies, worms, bees, ants, roaches, bed bugs, moving fish, fish flies ( who cares if they just stand there),mice, * not squarels, cats or dogs*, rats, YOU get the picture. So, I shoo the bee, keep in mind I’m scared and don’t have a problem letting the customer know that I am. Didnt this bee almost go up my shirt? (WTH) I guess you know, I blinked out, and before I knew it I was midway through pulling my shirt ova my head!!! LOL!!! All my stomach was showing, all the way up to my bra!!! LOL Something was like La’Crease, you’re at work!! I didn’t care, I was about to walk around in bra and pants until somebody came and killed it!!! LOL I told this customer yesterday, if bugs knew how much power they have ova me, they would take ova my life.  LOL I’m so serious. Which just made me remember one day when we were kids, my sister jumped out of the car while MY DADDY WAS DRIVING, LOL LOL LOL cause a BEE flew in the car. Whewwww we talk about that to this day, we be hollering!!! My friends know, don’t ask me to go to a picnic and sit outside with flies and bugs flying around. Plus we eating, can’t even hold a conversation cause I’m somewhere LOOKING and WISHING a bug would get on me. LOL
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This morning I got up with Neisha to go and get her plates for her car and insurance. Now, yesterday we went “homeboy” told us that she had to pay $384.00 down and $237.00 a month. I’m like dangggggg that’s a lot. So, were like okay…….. we just wanna hurry up, take care of this and get to the Secretary of State. The computer goes out. I’m looking like…..HUH. But then what can you do? So, we goes home, end of that. This morning they call, are you all coming back down today? We say yes, we’re on our way, we get there and another guy….. the owner does it this time.(Good) He says okay pay $ 200.00 today and then on the 5th of Oct have $139.00 in the bank. Okay cool, no problem. Then he says, your monthly insurance is $84.00. ( Me: Looks directly at the guy who told me $237.00 a month). See that right there, bothers me. How the he@@ can this happen? Same office, same eveything, and but different prices? When I go out and take care of business my sisters mom, and neisha STANDS BACK and be quiet, LOL Cause I ask questions. You can’t just be like Okayyyyy to La’Crease !!! Usually I would ask him a million question about how he came up with a higher price, but I let it go, because I got a deal and it was time to go. You can get me in email, and MAYBE on the phone, in person, eye to eye……. you don’t wanna go there with Cree. ( in a good way, don’t get me wrong) I use to stand back and let people take care of my business and talk to people on the phone for me, because I was afraid of the words NO. …or we CAN’T do it this time. I was deadly afraid of those words. But now……. bring it on! LOL That’s why I like to help people who are shy and are afraid of asking questions, I can sorta figure out what it is they want and need. I love helping people, but don’t play me. I use to be shy and afraid and thats a hard place to be when you need things taken care of. When people come through my line and they are having a hard time, or bad day, God tells me. And I don’t care who gets mad. Yesterday these 2 chicks come through my line, moving all fast, like they’re in a hurry and call themselves looking at me hard. They don’t even know…… I told the lady who I was waiting on to “take your time maam”. Those gurls were maddddddddddddddddd at meeeeeeeeeeee. I didnt give them NO eye contact, they wanted me to look at them so bad. HAHA. They whispered something and got in another line. How you gone walk up and rush the person who is looking for their money in their purse, and the lady is OLDER? How are you gonna do that? And get pass meeeeeeeeeee. YEA WHATEVA*
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Today, me my momma and Neisha went to Applebees, and the waitress was very nice ( I always get the best people), but baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaby Neisha and my momma was so hungary they could have made ketchup sandwiches at the table . LOL So, after she took our order and gave us something to drink. I was like wait, its been 5, 10, 15, 20 minutes. Oh wait…… I found the waitress and locked eyes with her, and waved her to our table. My momma and Neisha be like OHHHH LAWD. lol I looked her in the eyes, and said “Maam do we have to wait and eat our “h’orderves” with our dinner”? She laughed a little and said “Appetizers” I said yeahhhhhhhh. ( I knew what I was saying, I just wanted her to LAUGH and then GO GET EM)….. my buffalo hot boneless wings) It’s all in presentation, VOICE, AND EYE CONTACT. You gotta know how to talk to people, make it funny, AND MEAN BUSINESS at the same time. I guess you know, she came out in 3 minutes with them. LOL * side eye*
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Today was a good day over all. My bills are paid. Been paying my Tithes FAITHFULLY since April….. no skipped months at all. That may seem like bragging to some, but I don’t care!!!! I have been slipping, and saying “I don’t have enough money”, “I can’t do it with this check”!!! God has told me through many people, start paying your tithes. Now, its nothing to me. It’s a way of life. Its automatic now. I never thought I would get to this place, especially when things get tight. And still no matter what God still looks out for me. So, to all reading, pray that God puts it in you to WANT to tithe. WE should all do it willingly, but we don’t. So pray, and let god touch your heart every check day, to set money aside and look at it as “do not touch money”. I’m telling you a habit will form and can’t no vacation, no event make you go into that money. Try God.
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I’m about to wrap it up, take a shower and go to bed. But before I go, here is a SONG THAT IS ON MYÂ mind DEEPLY! Be Blessed everyone. Tell someone you LOVE them, don’t say. Love You. Say, I Love you!!
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Ps. My friend Gloria had that cupcake 9/3 made for my Birthday! Yummy!
Sitting here listening to Anita Baker…My Everything. She’s my #1 gurl always, can’t wait for her new CD to drop in January. I havent seen her son around lately since she’s been on tour, but when I go near her home to get to my sisters ( Anita lives about 6 minutes from me….if that)I always think about her.
Music makes me feel so good. I was in deep thought again today ( still feeling the same way as yesterday) music really bridge the gap. I love music and I love to hear it while I’m writing. When I’m at work and I’m on my lunch hour, I would have my iPod on and 3 certain people, would sit down next to me and hold full fledge conversations , and they SEE me listening to music. LOL People are a trip. You gotta love em though.
God told me 2 things would happen, and they both did today. LOL I couldn’t stop smiling, wow he is really amazing. Back in the day I wouldn’t be able to handle things coming to past, because I wasnt spiritually mature. Now, when he tells me things they are happening from one day to the next. And I just love it.
I feel so bad for a few of my co-workers. Meeting men on-line and they are turning out to be something different. One of my other coworkers is actually getting married this month ( Oct). She met him on-line too. You got to talk to these people face to face these days, Using direct eye contact. So many fake people out here, pretending its killing me! That way you can feel people, check out their body language, and the way they interact with others. Thats important to me. All that email, and instant message, phone calls, you can’t get the real feel of people that way. All they’re doing is writing!!! So, I hope that’s a lessoned learned for all of them.
Thank you Lord for everything. For ALL  the talks in advance. I can never ever begin to Thank you for everything. Thing for thing has come to pass, just like you said it would. The visions, the words, the actions are happening. I didn’t know what to do. Didnt know what to think of it………. But today is the day, that I have to turn it over to you. This….. I can’t do. I dunno why I tried too, cause what you told me was self-explanatory. Here is your baby….its turned over to you. I’ll be here when its my time.
The help is overwhelming!!! I had everything on the list, from eggs to bacon ( as ingredients). I Thank God so much for this, I just need to come up with a way to do this more often. Next year we’re going to feed 100 people! People want to help, people want to get involved. All we have to do is open our mouths. 
Inside the mind of cree 