First I want to say Thank you Lord for waking me up this morning to start a new day! Thank you Lord. When I woke up this morning that told me that you wanted me to be in the race one more day!
24Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.
25Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. 27No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.
Yes that scripture tells me that I am still in the race! One more day.
Today was a good day. I was kinda irrated a little tho. I picked Neisha up from school, and we went to bath and body works to get my best friend Gloria this pretty purse with lotions inside. She loves purses, she will spend her last on a purse for real. So we goes in and I get the purse because I knew already what I wanted. And when I looked into the bag, I didn’t like the lotions they had for the purse. The purse is $36.00. So I asked the cashier if I can exchange the lotions for another kind and she said yes. So she went to get the lotions and when she came back she didn’t have the 4 oz bath lotions for it. So she asked her boss (white lady) if she can give me 2 , 2 ounce bath lotions for the 4 oz that she couldn’t find. She gon say nooooooooo Im sorry if we dont have it, then we cant substitute it. so IM like they still add up to 4oz. I was instantly heated. I turned my head and stood there, not giving her any eye contact. She wanted to stand there and tell me why she couldn’t do it. But then her gurl walks in and they stand there laughing and ha ha and hee heing. So I was like forget it! And I walked out the store. Tomorrow Im going back and Im going to get that set, even if I had to leave out the 4 oz lotions. I bet if one of the ladies she was snickering with needed to do that, she would. I can see it in her face.
Any way that set off my day at work. But after about an hour I was okay. A few people got on my nerves, acting dumb and slow. I worked the 12 items or less lane, and people were getting in my line talking about “I have 15 items can you take me’? I was sooooooooooooooooooo irrated! Cause thats not fair to the other people in line with 12 items or less. Then they get mad at me, cause my face balled up and Im not aruging with them. Thats what they want so they can go and tell on you. I can hear them now “May I see your manager’? What is your name? Can’t none of them customers tell on me, cause when I get mad at them, they gets NO eye contact, they get a receipt and a have a nice day! rofllll Hell if I say something they will be ready to tell on me, then if I look ugly in the face……………. what can they say I said ? Nothing! What they gon tell I was making faces? haha Then the people who do have less then 12 items be looking at me like………….aint you gon say something to them? Please you can’t win for losing. You just have to learn to shut up, and have that face on, like…………let’s make this transaction real quick so you can roll up outta my line…….. “MAAM”. Ughhhh
This is a me me me world. Its all about me. People want things fast, right now, hurry up, get my lacta please now kinda world. Well, they got Credog messed up. This lady came through my line tonight (black) and had this walgreens coupon for $3.00 off some ink for a printer. I told the lady that we dont take Walgreens coupons. Then she was like “well I called the lady on the phone and she said yall take other peoples coupons”. And Im like we price match, and yes we take coupons, but we dont take coupons that say “Walgreens” on them. She kept on wanting to over power me talking. So I hit the switch on my register so a CSM could come over. I aint hardly bout ta argg with this woman. I said gurllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll ( sho did) let me call somebody ova here. Cause we dont take these coupons and Im tired of trying to convince you we dont.
So Mary came over and Im saying to myself, ( maam you really aint getting it now, cause Mary don’t play) Mary was like maam this says “Walgreens” then the lady says well dont yall take coupons and we said yeahhhhhhhhha, paper coupons not something that clearly have another company name on it! She was like okay!
But see ,no matter what I do, I cant do nothing about how people think or act. Its up to me to act in a way that is pleasing to God and that’s it. Im not going to spend my days and nights trying to figure out why and how concerning people and their ways. Nope not Lacrease.
Last night I got a letter for a woman who has been through a lot in her life. And by reading it makes me want to walk a straight line into my blessings. Meaning to be grateful and to enjoy the life I already have. Rather its without friends, without mom, a sister, brother, a husband, boyfriend, grand parents, nieces, nephews, cousins, and father. People are going through far worse than the next person. That letter taught me something spiritually. And thats to enjoy what you have, to enjoy whatever moment you are in, to enjoy the freedom of your fingers, and hands, the freedom of having your heart beat, and your mind on right, your legs to walk, your arms to hug, your eyes to see, your tongue to speak. It has open my eyes to see that my problems are so small compare to others, so with that said. Go out and live your life. No more foolish arguing, and going back and forth with people, debating, acting jealous, holding grudges, GET OVER IT! God has the power to take away everything that is hurting you.
That letter reminded me to get over it! It hit me hard it really did. I started thinking about the guy who molested me when I was a young gurl. What if I just couldn’t get over the fact that he did that to me. ( Which I have forgave him in my mind) what if he died. What would I do then? How would I feel? Would I feel happy that he is not alive ? How could that make me feel better? Get over it while he is alive, and Ill guarantee you, you’ll sleep better when he’s dead.
Last night I was watching TV and I saw on the news where this black lady and this white lady slept outside with some homeless people to raise awareness. And God knows it touched my heart, cause thats what I want to do soooooooo bad. And I am going to get my wish one day. I am going to work with homeless people, I believe that’s my calling. To walk pass them when they are outside begging and standing there cold. That just does something to me that is making me cry right now. God is rich, there is no reason at all for them to be out there like that. Our father is rich! He is rich, he owns all of this here in this world, why are they outside freezing cold, not wanting to live? Where are the families? How did they get like this? I would love to sit outside one night for a camp out, and hear the testimonies of those people. I rather do that, than sit up and hear a story of how many bedrooms are in your new million dollar house. And thats on everythang!
I want to wash the back of an older homeless woman , comb her hair and listen to her stories. Listen to her childhood life, and her good days. I want to wash her feet and massage her scalp as she brings back memories of a good life she once had. I want to braid her hair, and ask questions as to how she some how got disconnect and lost her way. Thats whats in my heart. Talking to people and holding a good conversations these days just turns me into a monster. I rather talk to a homeless person on a 10 degree night under blankets, than to talk to a woman who is complaning about her life. It does nothing for me.
I think about me sitting at home with my computer typing, and my 4 bedroom nice neighborhood house, with a car parked outside full of gas, just left a job, money in the bank, Christmas gifts stored all around the house, food in the refrigerator. It reminds me of how blessed I am. Sometimes with all my complaing I wonder if I deserve this. Im not saying I want to be homeless and Im not thankful for my life, its that what’s inside of me, thats burning to change the thinking of these people. I have it inside of me through God. And one day I am going to have the opportunity to bring out this side of me. And Im going to lead people to God, and then they are going to be trained to be leaders and lead someone else to God. That’s what I want to do in this life. I wish I had lots of money. I would open up a center right here near me and have it for homeless people. Set up programs to get them back into the system. To help them with self esteem, and how to communicate with people, and do deal with past falls. Then get back out there and move moutains. God is a good God. He got it like that. He is our father, he is rich!
Daily Im learning that people are so out of touch. We don’t realize how grateful we are. We complain, and grumbling all day about nothing. And I’m the ring leader. But when I read of stories, and hear of things that are happening to other people and is skipping right pass my ungrateful a**. I get irrated. 911 skipped pass me, New Orleans skipped right pass me, death in my family skipped right pass me, war in Iraq family members fighting the war…..skip right pass me, Tsunami, ……skipped right pass me, car jackings and shootings in my family ……, skipped right pass me. Its time we give God some praise while the time is still light. Cause when it gets dark, woe on those who don’t know. Woe on those ungrateful, hateful, UN forgiving so and So.’s. The time is now, And this especially goes for me the AUTHOR OF THIS BLOG!
I went out and bought Mr.& Mrs. Smith the DVD and the soundtrack, cause its off the chainnnnnnn. OMG. I aint loved a sound track like this since Diary of A Mad Black Woman. My favorite songs on here are Baby, baby, Lay lady Lay, Mongo Bongo, and my number one song “The Assissin’sTango”. You better ask somebody about this baby! Its off the chain. I am in love with Brad Pitt. Brad’s and Angelina Jolie’s chemistry in this movie is nothing like I had ever seen. I hate that Brad and Jennifer broke up, but I don’t think that she can mess with this chemistry. I mean I’ve seen this movie at the movies, but now that I own it I have seen it about 3 times or more just at home. This movie is sexy and smart!
Me and Lori went to dinner last night at Texas Road House, we needed to hook up and chat. We use to work together, and she is ready to get serious about God. So she called me and we made dinner plans. I need to keep in touch with my friends, it should be that way. I don’t call people that much and I need to do it often. She has a new friend, he sounds like he’s a keeper. Go head Lori!
Neisha is cool, Nell is over, Im off tomorrow,. Im closing for now, so see ya later.
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