I shared a little of this story… but I didn’t go into MY FEELINGS about it. But every since I was in my early teens my dad told ME.. * I’m the oldest* that he had another daughter. I was excited…. for one I LOVE people, and for some reason, it felt good to know that I REALLY WASNT the oldest *she’s 4 years older than me*. This story is different for me, because while my dad shared it with me when I was younger, I started having visions of what she looked like, what her personality was like, what kinda person she was, did we favor. And it stuck with me for years and years and years. As I got older, my dad would tell me “don’t go looking for her, you don’t know if her mother told her something different”. Even though I wanted to go against what he said, I knew it was true. I use to get my dad alone and ask him so many questions about her, that he wished he had never told me. LOL I couldn’t help it….. now looking back on it, it probably made him feel uncomfortable. I would think about her day in and day out… all the time.
Still to this day….since I finally got a chance to talk to her over the phone, I still wonder if she’s my sister. With all the information that she has, she believe that my Uncle through marriage of my dad’s Sister that we are cousins. I think differently. We have set up dates to meet, but it hasn’t happened yet. I’m kinda nervous…. because I will know from the moment I see her,hug her, and talk to her. And if I feel that she’s my Sister, a part of me will feel cheated……and I know that I will express my feelings.
When I talk to people, I always use the words Sis, Boo, Sweety, Baby, Princess and all of those words of endearment. But when we chat on FB or over the phone, I want to say Sis so badly.. because I’m use to saying it to people, BUT this is different. I really feel that she is my Sister.When you are told as a kid that you have a sibling out there, and you are interesting in meeting them, over the years you start to think about this person, you start to wonder about this person, and you have this longing desire to meet this person. You build this LOVE inside of you automatically. I have this LOVE for her as MY SISTER and it won’t go away, and I have told her this, she was very happy considering everything that has happened in her life, that she is accepted NO MATTER WHAT. I go to her FB page and look at her photos all the time, she reminds me of me so much. She loves people, and know lots of them just as myself. Today at work, I got a text…. and for the first time it was FROM HER!!!! I didn’t know, until I went into the bathroom to see who was texting me. I WAS SO HAPPY AND SO GEEKED!!! We have had lots of long long long conversations, very DEEP … but if I could just see her face to face. Lord, please help me to control my thoughts and what come out of my mouth WHEN I DO. I’m so direct, but I don’t want to come off as….. YOU’RE MY SISTER AND THAT’S FINAL!!!! LOL Even though I tell her this all the time, in all seriousness…. this is a sensitive ISSUE…. and I will bridle my tongue. LOL LOL LORD HELP ME ON THAT DAY 🙂
I went back to work today since being off March 12, I had a great time in Atlanta with Neisha, but I was also so happy to see my co-workers. I LOVE my co-workers, I have never had a problem with anyone, and that’s what make my job that much easier. If I can get past the customers then I’m GOOD 🙂 LOL They were so HAPPY to see me, giving me lots of hugs and welcome backs……that just made my day. I hate attention…. but when I walked into the building LOVE WAS BEFORE ME…..and it made me feel so good. I just LOVE my Boss, we had a lot to talk about, she’s a Christian too, and we speak God’s language. She was happy to see me. My other Boss is also good people, and every month about 6-7 of us get together and go to a different restaurant to chat and have dinner, well at our last meeting, they all decided to wait until I got back from Georgia to have our gurls day.((((hugs to them))))) So tomorrow we’re going to dinner about 5 pm in Downtown Detroit. I’m excited to be with them again.
This is what I LOVE about my Bosses…… we can go to dinner, go out of town, go to a Barbecue, go out to a gathering, and still the NEXT DAY AT WORK….there is NO favoritism. My Bosses will still put me/us on a register that we don’t like LOL LOL LOL ….. AND I LOVE THAT ABOUT THEM…. At work its BUSINESS, and outside of work…. its play. My Bosses keep it real, 100% ALL OF THE TIME…. I’m older than them all, and I still call them Ms.( name).
Earlier today I was just sitting here thinking about how my Raisingurls from the first Season are doing. I see many of them and they have graduated from High School, in College and a few have children now. They still call me for advice, and today my niece came over, she has a job now, and she was telling me that my group has helped her out so much as far as working with the public, her attitude, and how to be a young lady at all times. She gave me a big hug and it really touched me. Sometimes I felt it went in one ear and out of another * while in the sessions*, but today she could have told me everything I said. It amazed me how much she remembered and how she uses those tools I taught in her life today. When I was in Atlanta looking at apartments, the school bus came up in the gated community and dropped the children off, and when I saw all of those kids getting off the bus, I was saying to Neisha ….. ALL OF THESE KIDS ARE GOING TO KNOW ME!!! LOL LOL My eyes lit up like a Christmas Tree. I was so happy to see that kids live in the community. I love kids, and I have even thought about adopting 1 or 2 of them. When I was there, I went to see The Covenant house of Georgia and took photos. I hope to work there someday, or even 2 other Foundations… as long as I’m working with kids. Out of all the things I can do or learn to do in this life, especially with my personality…. God has called me to do this work . This is my calling. I am reading this book, and this is what it says: God-given gifts are the skills a person performs without formal training. Although training and education may help to perfect our skills, they are readily recognized prior to the training.
So…. I’m home from Atlanta. I had a wonderful time. I have a lot to be Thankful for. LOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS 🙂
Anyway…… I noticed that Georgia folks drive differently than we Michiganders. We have a need for speed….and here’s why? We have only 3 lanes on I-94, our rodes are really only busy when we have concerts or its rush hour. We are VERY IMPATIENT people. We don’t like to wait, we have to go now…and that’s funny. Because I LOVE TO DRIVE…..I can drive for hours and hours and hours, give me 3 Ipods * I have 3* and its ON. But in Georgia, the rodes are so BUSY, that they don’t have enough space to pick up speed. They are always bumper to bumper, and when they need to switch lanes….THEY SWITCH LANES. LOL LOL LOL LOL They rarely turn on their blinkers, if they see opportunity to get over, they will take it. They will get over in the tightest spots, but do that here in Detroit…… that is considered DISRESPECTFUL to the HIGHEST POWER. At first I was like “WTH…. dat nicka didn’t even put his blinkers on….. he just got ova”. LOL After a while, I just started getting ova too…..but I used my blinkers. Detroit people will have a hard time driving in the ATL traffic, we get upset and will find it hard to deal . To me it seems as if they’re use to it there. Here, it takes no time to find yourself doing 80-85 on the highway….. and all that sudden switching lanes they do there, they can neverrrrrr get away with it here. We will chase you down, and mean mug you. LOL
I see now why the people in Georgia can NEVER drive in SNOW. They have too many hills and those people will KILL THEMSELVES . LOL They hit the breaks hard whenever they went up or down a hill. LOL LOL LOL Woo, so funny. Now add snow and ice to the rodes, man I see why they call a STATE EMERGENCY when they get a inch of snow… some of those people drive ways were like hills. I will NEVER drive up or down that baby…. I’ll walk. If it snows that is pure ICE…. I wonder how many people try to drive anyway?How could you stop? That was scary just thinking about it. LOL Its a trip that we are that different, but we are all people and God loves us.
I’m tired…. talked with my sistergurl from Virginia today…. Quetta. I wanted to see my ATL friends and family. San, Big San, Tasha, Ms Betty, Monica,TEARSA TEARSA TEARSA * <—mygurl*, Rubie, and JOANN…..But I didn’t want to turn it into a family/friend trip… that’s later. Business called…. and so it was.
Alright, I’m tired….. got lots of Business to take care of tomorrow as well. Be Blessed..
Sunday, March 11, 2012 But I do not want you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning those who have fallen asleep, lest you sorrow as others who have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with Him those who sleep in Jesus. For this we say to you by the word of the Lord, that we who are alive and remain until the coming of the Lord will by no means precede those who are asleep. For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of an archangel, and with the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first. Then we who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And thus we shall always be with the Lord. Therefore comfort one another with these words. – 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18
Sitting here still DEVASTATED by the loss of Whitney Houston. My 2 Sisters absolutely loved this Woman. Back in the day they use to double team me about who was the BEST……her or Anita Baker. LOL Truth was, we LOVED them both. When Whitney was going through, I would pray for her, and pray for her, and pray for her, because I knew that God was bigger than any addiction. I knew that when she left this world, she would be at her best ever. And when I saw her do a interview with Shaun Robinson, and also with Jordan Sparks, she LOOKED DAYUM GOOD! She looked better older than she did younger, and I’m happy. Thank you Jesus!
I know Saturday, that I’m going to boo hoo, and want to be alone, for a few hours. But the bigger picture is that she KNEW JESUS. She knew that he would come and save her, she knew that he loved her. He did. And for that I can smile 🙂
Thanks for the messages about my blog entries. So much is going on in my life right now, that I haven’t really been blogging like I normally do. But just know that when I do, I’m going to do some catching up.
Ok where do I start? LOL I went to one of my 2 BFF friends apartment for her BD celebration. I have to always get there early before her friends arrive so that we can catch up, laugh and talk our junk. Gloria is my RIDE OR DIE FRIEND. Have you ever had a friend that if you did some dirt, dirt, dirt and you know, you wont hear it again? Well she’s that person in my life. I met her in my/our “off the hook days”. So if anybody knows La’Crease…its Ms. Gloria. She keeps it REAL.. 100% ALL THE TIME, and she can handle me because I’m something else ( in a good way). LOL But anyway, since we live a ways from each other , and work daily, we don’t always get a chance to see each other often. So it was really good to celebrate her BD with her and her friends.
As she was in her kitchen mixing us up a LIQUOR FRUIT DRINK… which was OFF THE HENGES!!!! I was driving alone that night and had a ways to go ,so I only drank 3 cups. Ahhh it was so good. Yesterday she invited me to her cousins BOAT RIDE ON THE DETROIT PRINCESS BOAT FOR A MIDNIGHT CRUISE on March 10, that’s going to be fun. Oh yeah Gloria is the one who has came to all of my FEEDING THE HOMELESS FUNCTION. She is in all of my videos. Well enjoy. I had to add music over this, because we laughed and talked to much, plus we didn’t want anyone to hear our conversation.
Okay, I was going to write more, but I want/need to get back to this book I’m reading.
Standing outside of the line that separates me from the “world” and the things in it. I can look inside and speak to it. Staying true and honest to myself, has allowed people to look at me and know I come from God. I speak…. they listen.
At work we have this food donation box and as I went to go look in it to see what people were giving, I realized that it was all NO NAME BRAND items, and stuff people wouldn’t eat. The boxes were bent in and chewed up on the corners.
This has always bothered me.
Why do people call themselves giving especially when it comes to food, but give THE FOOD THEY WOULDNT EAT? What is the purpose of that? That’s not giving, that’s cleaning out your food pantry and giving away food you can’t see yourself throwing in the garbage. That’s selfish as HELL!!! If you’re going to give, GIVE YOUR BEST. If you’re going to a baby shower, take your best gift. If you’re going to a wedding give your best!!! People get out of the “dollar sto” mentality!!! If you want good gifts you have to learn to GIVE good gifts. I don’t have anything against the dollar store at all ( let me make that clear), but I don’t shop there for myself, and its out of order to shop there for anyone else… IF YOU DON’T SHOP THERE!!!! Yes, I know you can buy cards and other small items there, THATS FINE, but don’t make it a habit to buy a gift for someone from the dollar store.
If you want to donate, go to your OWN food cabinet and give it away. Learn to get in habit of giving away your “good stuff”. Its just “Stuff”. And what bothers me is that the people who are donating say” well, at least I’m giving them something”. What? Food that was headed to the garbage because you didn’t want it? If you want BIG Blessings, you have to give BIG BLESSINGS. We have to put away the “dollar sto” mentality. If you want a lady that wears the same shoe size as you to have some nice shoes, don’t give her shoes that are old and running over, what’s wrong with going to your closet and giving her your best?
I remember when my online Ministry Leader would send for us to come to Chicago to stay at her home, then take us to a resort to be pampered. She would tell us all the time, always give your best, God wants your best, never half step with giving. This was new to me, I felt if you are giving, then nothing should be said about it. But I kept it in my heart, and with the work that I do TODAY, I see how important it is to give your best. She would have gifts and more gifts and more gifts waiting for us. When it was time to fly back to Detroit, I had so much stuff to take with me. She gave us the works, and you can tell she spent good money on it. I was like wow. Here is someone who gives us something and its not cheesy, and not only that, but she had to buy several. And I looked at that and I adopted for myself.
If you want the best from God……learn to GIVE YOUR BEST!
I shared a little of this story… but I didn’t go into MY FEELINGS about it. But every since I was in my early teens my dad told ME.. * I’m the oldest* that he had another daughter. I was excited…. for one I LOVE people, and for some reason, it felt good to know that I REALLY WASNT the oldest *she’s 4 years older than me*. This story is different for me, because while my dad shared it with me when I was younger, I started having visions of what she looked like, what her personality was like, what kinda person she was, did we favor. And it stuck with me for years and years and years. As I got older, my dad would tell me “don’t go looking for her, you don’t know if her mother told her something different”. Even though I wanted to go against what he said, I knew it was true. I use to get my dad alone and ask him so many questions about her, that he wished he had never told me. LOL I couldn’t help it….. now looking back on it, it probably made him feel uncomfortable. I would think about her day in and day out… all the time.
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