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Today was a GREAT DAY….Crees Blog Entry

Today was a GREAT DAY. Me and my Best Friend finally found a day to spend together. We both work and so today was the day that we went to dinner and a movie.

I LOVE my Best Friend because she is so WISE. GOODNESS, I promise, we always end up on the same page in our lives. And even though she is married, she still finds time to spend with me. I love how she talks about God, and how she prays and we’ll sit and watch it come to pass. She says this about me, so imagine us together. POWER HOUSES!!! LOL Have you ever had a friend that listens to you, and helps you, and prays for you, and is the same person everyday? We’ve been friends for over 20 years. WE ARE BLESSED!!!!!

She’s a woman who loves her HUSBAND so dearly, she teaches me some things about marriage, and I don’t even have a boyfriend. LOL But I love to listen to her, because she gives good advice, and she TELLS ME WHEN IM WRONG. And as sweet as I am…… I’m a tough cookie, who loves to act like “my feelings hurt” and LOVES TO PLAY DUMB. LOL She doesn’t go for that. She knows me well and see through me. LOL LOL I know I’m a hand full, and its going to take a TOUGH MAN TO DEAL WITH ME!!! A VERY TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH ONE * IN LOVE* TO HANDLE CREE. LOL I LOVE MY BFF CHARLENE.

I’m just sitting here at the computer reading emails that made me smile. Things I had forgotten. Things I want/gonna do. Its going to happen for me soon, I can’t wait to get started. Let me not go too deep. Anyway….. I had a wonderful time today with Char, we talk and text all day, but its nothing like being face to face sharing God, and sharing the things that matter in our lives.

Be Blessed

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“POSITIVE ENERGY”…..CREES BLOG ENTRY

Growing up…. MY parents were married and had 4 children. I am the oldest of the 4. My parents told us they LOVED us everyday. We got hugs everyday. We got kisses everyday. WE got whopping’s when we needed them. LOL We were showered with LOVE. We were taught not to FIST fight each other, we could only express ourselves through discussion. We couldn’t get personal, we had to STAY on the SUBJECT. No going below the belt. We went to Church and we learned about Jesus. I was on the punishment all the time for sneaking in the peanut butter, and that’s when I started reading my bible every day. It was amazing that I somehow understood the King James Version.

Last week, my mom walked up to me….. she held me by my face slowly, and she kissed me on the forehead, she kissed me on both my cheeks, on my nose, on my chin, then she kissed me on my lips. I was in HEAVEN even at the age of 44. THANK YOU JESUS. My MOMMA KNOWSSSSSSSS that when I was a little gurl, I LOVED when she kissed me like that. I JUST MELTED. She knows that this calms any storm that I’m going through. She knows this. I love how personal she make her LOVE for me. She also had her special way of showing LOVE to my sisters and brother in the way THAT THEY UNDERSTAND.

When I left home to start life on my own at 22…. I found out quickly that NOT everyone knew LOVE as I had experienced it. I found out that all parents didn’t take their kids out to dinner, or for rides, or tucked them in and told them bedtime stories. I thought that all parents told their kids everyday that they LOVED them. I thought that everybody hugged and kissed when they saw each other, and walked into peoples home. I thought that everybody said ” I love you” as they left to go their own way. I thought that if you’re at home, and company over you don’t have to put your money or belongings up because you’re at home. I thought that when you get into a jam that you can call your family….. and get help.

My personality draws a lot of people to me. I didn’t know then….what I know now, but they were drawn to the LOVE that I displayed to them. God had wonderful people in my life who are still here today. So, here I was this “magnet” OF “POSITIVE ENERGY” attracting all of these people to me. ALL the LOVE that was inside of ME ….. I was doing my best, but what I found myself doing was …….stressing myself out trying to GIVE PEOPLE some of what I was feeling. Love was seeping out of my pours….. that my family/parents put there. It was all I knew. In my 20’s some took it and ran me over . Still for the life of me I wondered, was I the only one going through this?

One day me and my Siblings were having our talks at dinner in my home. And we started talking about how they experienced the SAME THING. Our personal friends say that we’re SOOOOOOOO nice. We laugh and say……. they don’t get to see that other side. LOL And I say that to say…. we are NICE…but we do bark… we just bark in LOVE. All of us are cut throat HONEST… we will tell you the truth and not hold back ANYTHING….but its all in LOVE.

Here I am 44 years old, trying to understand and ADJUST to the issues that goes on in the world that I NEVER knew exist inside of what I was taught by my parents. All I know is LOVE… to walk into a room and smile, give out hugs, give out blessings, and compliments. God is teaching me that no matter what I see outside of what I learned at HOME…… be true to MYSELF. I’m Blessed. I know what some people in the world was never taught… I know how to LOVE.

When we were in our teens, we didn’t have to hide our money when company came over, we had “like minded” friends. But when I got on my own in my 20’s and started working, and meeting new people. I would keep my belongings around, but I found out real quick that people will come into your home and steal your things.That was foreign to me. My Sisters and I had boyfriends growing up, but we never looked or took each other boyfriends. So, when I moved out, I was carefree and kept my boyfriends around my friends, next thing I knew….they hooked up. I was devastated. I didn’t learn how to deal with these types of issues because My Sisters and I, never crossed that line. We never had to deal with those types of issues. I would go to my friends house, walk in and hug their mom, and hug the rest of the family,  and they would look at me like……..”where they do that at”…..all you do is say hi to the person you come to see….. and that’s it. And there were times when I went to my parents like……. why other people don’t hug and kiss like we do?

In my life time… my “magnet” of LOVE that was taught by both my parents…… has pulled in Rapist, Molesters, Killers, … and the list goes on. BUT GOD HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME. LET ME TELL YOU. He knows my heart better than myself, and he has really umbrella me from a lot of mess. He knows of the LOVE that pours out of me, and he knows people see it. And so he has always protected me from many issues. I can’t help that I’m this way… this is all I know. I REFUSE to step outside of who I am… to FIT in with how “the world” works. I’ll DIE FIRST. I am NOOOOO WAY… NO KINDA WAY PERFECT…. just because I know how to LOVE and show LOVE…. but I am special….. and it takes SPECIAL FRIENDS, SPECIAL PEOPLE, AND A FUTURE SPECIAL HUSBAND * if the Lord say the same* to be in my CIRCLE. And finally after understanding that I am different…… I LOVE CREE.

But before I close…… I must say this.With all that I have learned…… I am a VERY POWERFUL WOMAN….. MORE IN THE NEXT BLOG ENTRY.

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My Tyler Perry MGAJ Weekend…Detroit, Michigan…. Cree’s Blog

I was going to write a full review on the PLAY.. Tyler Perry’s Madea Gets a Job at The Fox in Detroit April 26-29. I don’t want to spoil it for others, and my mind is all over the place right now packing and getting ready to head out. So, if you know me, I can hit on different topics quickly and say much. So hopefully you can follow me.

Tyler Perry ….. very ANOINTED MAN…. I studied him on Thursday and Sunday night FROM THE FRONT ROW and baaaaby *I can stare with no blinks*. He is a very anointed MAN.

He is SO FUNNY. He kept on busting out laughing…. he was going into his mind after seeing or thinking about something funny… and laughing. That was funny to watch. He’s SHY too…. don’t let his laughs fool you. LOL Tyler is the type of person that if you are in his presence and you want to talk serious… he can CHANGE THE WHOLE ATMOSPHERE and make YOU laugh just to break HIS ICE before he get serious and answer your question. Imma tell you this……. if I had to take a test on TYLER…. I WOULD PASS WITH FLYING COLORS. LOL

The night of the play a friend of mines PAT drove down and we rode together to check into The Holiday Inn Express which is DOWNTOWN DETROIT across from the WESTIN HOTEL. Very creepy HOTEL. I slept no more than an hour. I went on 6 floors to get ice, and every time I got out of the elevator to get ice, the machine was broken or whatever. I was pushing the ice machine button like a killer was going to turn the corner and get me. It felt just like someone was after me. Then, I went to another floor, same feeling. Then I got paranoid and started pushing the elevator button like please open and let me get to my room. I found some ice and I went to the room like…..yall this Hotel is creepy. Neisha said ma…. I thought so too, I just didn’t tell anybody. Wow… all while we were there, we didn’t see a child, hear a TV, hear any walking, any talking, NO DOORS SLAMMING… NOTHING!!! If my friend wasn’t there from driving a long way, I would have got in my car at 4 am and went home. I never experienced anything like that. Went to check out, and there were about 50 people in the lobby. WOW… Felt like we were the only ones in the WHOLE HOTEL. CREEEE PEEEEEE!

Anywayyyyyzzzzzz…… My friend hit the back of a truck coming to get me…. it was starting off crazy. My dad was mad at me that day….. then finds out at the play that the story line was about parents in a nursing home. Touch me deeply… The songs were awesome….cant even explain how great the singing was and the BAND…. UM some cutie pies too baaaaaaaby * the horn guys*

Tony Grant sang at MY CHURCH SECOND EBENEZER, I went to Grace Community Church that morning to see my 14 year old cousin get BAPTIZED…. I cry when people get Baptized it means so much. So, I was there with lots of guest, then they took us to dinner at least 50 of us. YES EXPENSIVE TOO. Tyler Perry’s cast members came to my Church to support Tony….. but Faithful Tyler Perry ( a good thing) went to Perfecting… Bishop Marvin Winans Church on Vandyke near 7 Mile * side eyeing Tyler Perry for that*. My Bishop LOVES HIM TOO… Don’t do us like that next time. He reference those streets on Sunday Night at the Play….. that was funny. VERY FUNNY 🙂

These 2 older ushers * about 50 ish* were standing in front of me talking… one white and one black. They were saying that Tyler had some special guest sitting directly behind the PIT or they sat in the PIT in section 5.. and you know I was trying to see who it was without staring down their throats. LOL So, I guess the black lady wanted to know who, so the white lady reach over and whispered it in HER ears. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL That’s what my noisy a&& get. LOL But it end up being………Kem and Guest!!!

Yep, Kem was there in the audience on SUNDAY NIGHT… I was sitting in the PIT and when he got up to leave at the end… Tyler shouted him out and when I turned around he was right there. LOL I went to his message board on FB and posted this today… Lacrease Walker saw you at the Tyler Perry play in Detroit on Sunday 🙂

45 minutes ago · Like · 1He was the one who liked it. Then he posted THIS:

Kem

The #MadeaGetsAJob play was my 1st time seeing Madea live. @TylerPerry has been given a perfect platform 2 minister 2 God’s people. Love it!

Also I admire the work of Ms. Chandra Currelley… and I LOVE HER CD’S.. * mines played out* I posted that I would be in attendance and this is her post to me…

Chandra Currelley Yes Lacrease, I saw your beautiful face. Thank you for your support! *so geeked right now*

I wish Tyler would have had a PROGRAM BOOK…. that’s a lot of money he missed out on… He could have wrote in it Blah, Blue, Black and it would have went for $10.00-$15.00 EASY. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

I know people were upset that folks were walking in late…. but hey people pay their money, things come up and they end of late. I didn’t have to worry about that, because I SAT FRONT ROW…. BUT it is what it is….and that’s where patience come in at.

There is something about the way Madea says things that makes people get it and understand. You can have 6 friends tell you the same thing, but when Madea says it…. ITS GOLD. She is surely needed to get these points of WISDOM to US. Where can you find people that will tell you the truth these days? People love to KEEP SUGAR on their conversations and it trips me out. I KEEPS PEPPER IN MY PURSE…. with a DASH OF SALT * blank stare*

Another thing I OBSERVED…. THE respect that Tyler’s cast mates have for him. You can tell they LOVE and Support him. I’m sure its some behind the scenes drama from time to time, but for the most part…. its all about

On Thursday Night the opening night of the PLAY here in Detroit…. Tyler seemed tired. His eyes were small, and you can tell that he was *making it thru*.. but baaaaby by Sunday.., he was READY!!! And we answered back!! He said wayyyyyyyy more extra lines did he did on Thursday.

Before hand I had chatted with some people from Twitter and didn’t get on my phone to communicate with them so that we could meet. Got home and this person said…. WHERE YOU AT? DANG…. she sat front row as well. I missed her. Tyler shouted out this 13 year old who was sitting about 6 chairs from me in the front row she had a tiara on her head, it was soooooo nice. I wished her a Happy Birthday as we exited the PLAY. He also shouted out on Thursday 4 older ladies calling them beautiful. So sweet.

This is a MUST SEE PLAY……. the messages, the singing, the concert at the end, the words of wisdom. Beautiful!

Be Blessed

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Think Like A Man…

Think Like a Man was really good.

In my late 20’s and early 30’s…… I use to play serious mind games. It had gotten so bad with me, that I RETIRED!!! I just can’t….. It takes so much energy to keep up with all that mess…. BUT at the same time it was fun.

I come to realize that the MEN of 2012…. are different. They deal with so many different women, that when a person who wants to be “just friends” come along, they don’t recognize it. Now, I know I’m the last one to talk because looking back at the MIND GAMES I played…. I have no room to even be typing this up. LOLOL But now that I’m “RETIRED”…..it may be time I DUST OFF MY SKILLS.

Of course it can be done in good taste. But I have become so “nice and so sweet”, that maybe I’m getting back all the things I’ve done. Let me be clear, I always know when to fall back, and I never get to personal. I’m finding that some MEN, like to chase….. in my mind I’m like what’s the point of that? Well, I guess you only chase what you like. Speaking of which. …….

Today at work I was working the Credit Card table, when this guy came in the store with his mom…. she was an older lady. When WE first laid eyes on each other… OMG what a stare off!!! His eyes hypnotized me. He could NOT turn his head or blink his eyes…..and neither could THATGURLTHEYCALLCREE… LOLOL. It was so intense. So, finally I turned my head,*saying to myself DANG LOL LOL* ….he’s good looking. He smiled at me, but he didn’t say a word. He just kept STARING at me. So, at this point, I’m like dang……is he a little slow, or deaf? His mother was talking to me, but he was staring like he wanted something….not sure what tho. SO, they finally walked away….. I was checking him out until they were out of sight.

Came time for me to leave for the day, as I was turning in my paper work, they were in line. When he saw me…. we just locked eyes AGAIN. This time I was standing up and he was staring at me so LONG AND HARD…AND SO INTENSE that all I could do was follow suit. This time…… I stared him down, we did this for at least 2 minutes. Customers and MY COWORKERS were looking like CREE… LOL LOL LOL LOL, and no matter how I tried to turn my head, he would not break away. Then his mother said….. My Son is looking for a wife!!! I was like O O O OOOO OKAY. LOL LOL LOL Finally after that we broke our stares. HE smiled that GERALD LEVERT SMILE and BABBBBY…. I almost crumbled to pieces. I said… see why you making me smile like this? Not to mention I wasn’t even CUTE today. I need my brows done, hair freshly perm, and my LASHES… I asked him what was his sign…… He smiled and said LIBRA……* looks away* I hope to see him again….I’m sure I will.

Even tho I have *RETIRED* from MIND GAMES….. I think I”ll just have a little fun * WINK*

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I know to PRAY and KEEP IT MOVING.

If I don’t know anything else to do in this life….. I know to PRAY and KEEP IT MOVING.

I’m always sadden by people who look for others ALL THE TIME…. when there is a GOD to help us in our time of need. Even if he doesn’t give you what you want, he will give you what you need. I DONT UNDERSTAND the mentality of people who is always PRAYING, and as soon as its time for God to do his part…. they fall apart. Do all you can, let God see that you are trying, then after you have done all you can…. STAND! For real, for real….and let him do the rest. Get on the phone, call people, make some changes even if they are painful….. DO IT…… QUIT WHINING! Then people get mad at me, cause I KNOW HOW TO KEEP IT MOVING!!! I be DANG if La’Crease Walker lay down and DIE….without a fight. Don’t ask me how I did it, just know IT GOT DONE. BOSS UP!! Quit looking to see what I’m doing…… IM SWIMMING…..GOD IS MY LIFE JACKET. I stand on that when things are good, and when things are not so good. I’m always looking to the HILLS…… and I keep, keep, keep, keep, keep, keep, keep, JOY IN MY HEART…..Look, Yes I may be strong ( Thank you Jesus) but that does NOT mean LEAN ON ME…… MY strength comes from God. ITS FREE. YOU CAN HAVE SOME TOO….. you cannot ride with ME..Sit in the passenger side of YOUR OWN car, and LET GOD DRIVE YOU. This time……I’m not sending a boat to get you…. I’ll ask Jesus to help you…. you have to decide if you’re going to TRUST HIM.

IM DONE

CREE

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Pearls of Wisdom *1*

Everyday I wake up with Joy in my heart. I just feel good. When I get up, I’ll go in the bathroom and just Thank God for waking me up. Sometimes many thoughts will rush to greet me……and I say “Oh No…. not before I say Good Morning to God”. Waking up another day, tells me that my time here is NOT up. It tells me that there is more work to do, more encouraging to do, more LOVE to give, more time to share the good news. And that makes me excited.

Last week a coworker who works the evening shift lost her mom.

Even though I’ve been working at Walmart for 9 years, still there are many new faces, and I can’t say that I know who she is for sure. So, another co-worker decided to send a card around to ask for donations to help out in any way. Everyday…. * and I mean everyday* my coworker would come to work on her OFF DAY, and just before her shift started…  sit in the break room and ask people to sign the card and to donate money if they could. Now, I watched her everyday. I knew something was on her mind about doing this, and each time I saw her, I made it my BUSINESS to tell her that she’s doing a GREAT JOB, GOD LOVES A CHEERFUL GIVER, and no matter what…..to keep doing WHAT SHE BELIEVED GOD LEAD HER TO DO.

One day last week, I sitting alone on my break in Subway. She was coming in to work and came to sit with me. She said La’ Crease can I talk to you for a minute? I said sure boo, sit down…. what’s going on? God had already told me days ago, what she was going to say, so I was READY. She said… I’m tired of people coming to me saying… “you’re crazy for coming up here on your off day, and before you start work, just to pass around a card for someone who people barely know”. I said to her….. I know you are bothered by this, I can see it in your face. I said look….. you are doing this from your heart, you know that everyone WILL have a time of need, and this is hers and you are her friend. I said DON’T YOU DARE LET WHAT “OTHA” PEOPLE SAY…. STOP YOU FROM THE LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU ARE DOING FOR YOUR FRIEND. She said I know, but it bothers me. She said I bought some candy just to get people to help out when they donate, and she said all they want is to eat the candy without donating. I told her your friend needs you, and if you listened to what others say, you will do a disservice to her.

I shared with her the time when I wanted to start the Feeding the Homeless Project, and how scared I was to do it. And God told me to go to work the next day and pitch it to 2 RANDOM people. I was SCARED. Even though these are people I worked with for years, I was afraid of how their response would shoot down my project. I found 2 people and told them about it and they were like “YES CREE do it, we’ll help you”!!!!! Yes!! Those were my God appointed people, they had no idea that God had chose them. So, that first year we fed 12 people, the following year we fed 50, then 89, and in 2011 we fed 100 people!!! I told her…. I have email from people who were MADD at me because I “forgot” to ask them. I said you SEE THE BLESSING IN THAT… I was so afraid to ask for help…… NOW THE HELP IS MAD AT ME FOR NOT ASKING THEM TO HELP. LOL So, I told her….. if you want to stay here over night and take donations FOR YOUR FRIEND….. DO IT, DONT FOCUS ON THE PEOPLE WHO ARE opposite of you……. FOCUS on the people LIKE ME WHO ARE FOR YOU…. AND JUST DO IT!!!! DO IT. SHE GOT IT!!!! SHE ACTUALLY GOT IT, AND I CAN SEE IT IN HER FACE….. she hugged me and hugged me saying…. I’m so glad I can always talk to you, she Thanked me for my donation, and she walked away happy. PRAISE GOD!

Ask yourself…what did you learn from a experience similar to this?

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Somebody Prayed for Me….. Cree’s Blog Entry *continued*

As I laid on the couch last week talking to God. I asked him…… PLEASE TELL ME…. LORD, WHY AM I SO NICE? WHY CANT I JUST GO OFF AND LET THAT BE THE END OF IT? WHY DO I FORGIVE PEOPLE SO EASILY WHEN OTHERS WOULD NEVER SPEAK A WORD TO THE PEOPLE WHO HURT THEM? WHY IS IT SO EASY FOR ME TO KEEP IT MOVING AND STILL KEEP PEACE? WHY AM I SO NICE… I MAKE MYSELF SICK LORD!!!! WHY?

Again, growing up all I knew was how to LOVE. I was told by my parents I love you so much and not only that, but they showed us. My siblings and I wasn’t allowed to fight so in order to keep it moving, we had to kiss, and say to each other “I Love you”. So, now that we have all this LOVE inside us, we started experiencing people trying to make us feel bad about saying the words “I love you” in public. We thought that everybody told their family this. My sister and I are light skinned, and my brother and other sister are brown skinned. People played the color game on us, we wasn’t taught about different shades of skin so when people said it….. we were like…. we have the same parents all 4 of us…..what’s the big deal? After a while in life, I started to think we were the ones who grew up dysfunctional.

Looking back on our lives, we were very popular. Everybody in the neighborhood knew us. We were good people, with good friends, whose parents wouldn’t let us do any and everything. We had rules, and our parents didn’t play.

Going back to my last post. When my friend who slept with my daughters father when I was in my early 20’s did that to me. I was devastated, because I never knew people betrayed others like that. My aunts didn’t do it to their sisters, my dad is/was CLOSE TO BOTH OF HIS BROTHERS… my parents didn’t do that to each other, so here I am learning something I never saw first hand or experienced, and I had to learn forgiveness through this selfish act. *Wooosa Cree* After it was all said and done, even though I was an angry person before this happened, it humbled me, and I learned FORGIVENESS. PRAISE GOD 🙂

One day I was with my best friend Charlene, and I had seen my Mother. I gave her a hug and a kiss on her lip, and my friend was like WOW, you kiss your momma on the lips? And I’m like yeah…. don’t you? She was like No…. we just say Hi. My mother kept telling me she LOVED me, and I said it to her as well. My friend had never seen or experienced this. That’s how my family is…. this is all WE KNOW. This is how we grew up. When we go to each other’s house, only thing ANYBODY will be saying as they are reaching to HUG AND give a KISS is……. I LOVE YOU!!! We don’t just walk into each others house without hugs and kisses AND START A CONVERSATION. THAT’S DISREPECTFUL LOL LOL My daughter is 25 and my nieces are 21 and 17, my nephews are 18 and 21. WE all KISS ON THE LIPS. That’s how we are. And I came to the conclusion that THIS IS HOW WE LOVE EACH OTHER!!!! MY FAMILY. We don’t steal from each other, we don’t misuse each other, we don’t take advantage of each other..we never slept with each other men….. BUT WE LOVE TO ARGUE AND DEBATE!!! LOL LOL One day I’m going to VIDEO RECORD one of our debates when my sisters and brother get together at my house or theirs. Babbbbbby YOU WILL BE SCARED A FIGHT IS GOING TO BREAK OUT. LOL But what we learned is that…. growing up we couldn’t FIGHT PHYSICALLY, so we had to learn to ARGUE… we had to use words. We NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GET PERSONAL. We stay on the subject and go at it for hours. IM THE OLDEST so I always WIN….* SIKE* You do not want to challenge me in a debate and I know I’m right. LOL LOL I did record one of our debates… maybe I’ll find it.

Going back to my previous blog entry….After I learned FORGIVENESS I started looking and loving people through the eyes of God. When people would say something or do something to me, I didn’t take it to heart… LIKE THE NEXT PERSON would. Because I know that hurt people, hurt people. And I had so much LOVE for others, that it was starting to seep through my pores. People saw it. It was like having on white pants, and people issues ,and their issues with me was seen on my pants. I attracted people who wanted to use me, or talked to me sideways. Not only did I tell people that I LOVED THEM…. but I showed it. And that’s when I learned that most people didn’t grow up with those words TAUGHT and SHOWN to them…. like I was. To tell someone you LOVE them in 2012 is like saying….. when I get my check I’m going to give you all of it. They don’t believe that. I didn’t grow up like that… and at one of our sit down gatherings, My Siblings and I learned that in our own personal lives, we all have struggles with the same issues. WOW .

I always said that its 2 ways to LOVE someone. Through the eyes of God, and an Earthly way to LOVE. To Love people in an earthly way is to…. be nice, but when they get out of order, you go back to your “childish ways” and handle it. Through the eyes of God is to be humble and communicative when two don’t see eye to eye. BE patient and let the other speak. Listen, and ask God to help you understand the issue at hand. That’s who I try to be, and so far is has worked for me.

So, I asked God why am I so friendly? Why when people do me wrong, I’ll still speak to them and be polite? When in my mind I want to ignore them and pretend their not even born? He said to me as I laid on my couch last week….. your mother PRAY AND PRAY AND PRAYED for the day that she would see you kind. She prayed that your anger would turn to LOVE as she taught you. He said it brings joy to her heart to see you happy and smiling without being mean and angry all the time. He said somebody PRAYED for you.

Siblings: My 2nd oldest Sister Na,  Baby Sister Peedie,  3rd child only Brother Bobby, and ME~Cree

 

 

 

 

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if you have forgiven her…..lets see. PART 2 Cree’s Blog Entry

She moved in…without her husband. They were in the process of a divorced. I hated her being back, living under me, seeing my every move. And me wondering if she was a even worst person than before. By this time, I had built a wall around myself where I was very private. If you wanted to ask me a question about me…… you wouldn’t because you’d be scared of me going off. My business was my business and no one was ever going to hurt me in that way again.

 

As time went on, I wanted to know how things happened with her and my daughters dad. She told me everything. By this time, I had cut him off completely as far as sexual. He came to see his daughter, but I wouldn’t let him buy me a sandwich if I was Hungary AND HAVEN’T EATEN IN 50 WEEKS… HE WAS CUT OFF. When I’m done….. I’m done.

 

Me and her started going to Church, we would talk and really enjoy each others friendship again. I NEVER TRUSTED her in that kinda way as far as my male friends. NEVA …. but it was something about her that was different this time. She told me how her husband use to beat her, and how he got on drugs, and how he made her life a living hell. Apart of me wanted to say…. That’s what you get…. but there was something in me that wouldn’t allow me to be ignorant. Believe it or not, we were the BEST OF FRIENDS. She was better a friend to me then, than she ever was before. And what’s funny……. is that all my friends that I use to call over to help me terrorize her, had a hard time  letting the offense that she did to me go. I couldn’t even explain how things had changed, and how God moved her out of the house, and then back into it years later, JUST SO THAT I COULD LEARN THE POWER OF FORGIVENESS. When she moved out, I moved out as well. We kept in touch as we do today. I can’t explain our friendship and how God did things, but it was for our good. And even though we live in different cities, we chat on FB all the time, and she’s MY BIGGEST FINANCIAL SUPPORTER OF ALL MY HOMELESS PROJECTS. She is truly a Woman of God and I love her dearly. And I Thank God for showing me who I was, and how to FORGIVE. Even if it took for him to move her out of town, and back into the same house years later to teach us both a lesson. God knew that it would come together.

 

As I laid on the couch last week talking to God. I asked him…… PLEASE TELL ME…. LORD, WHY AM I SO NICE? WHY CANT I JUST GO OFF AND LET THAT BE THE END OF IT? WHY DO I FORGIVE PEOPLE SO EASILY WHEN OTHERS WOULD NEVER SPEAK A WORD TO THE PEOPLE WHO HURT THEM? WHY IS IT SO EASY FOR ME TO KEEP IT MOVING AND STILL KEEP PEACE? WHY AM I SO NICE… I MAKE MYSELF SICK LORD!!!! WHY?

 

Part 3 coming tomorrow. Its deep.

 

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if you have forgiven her…..lets see. Cree’s Blog Entry

My best times to talk to God is when I lay on my couch with the TV off and the light is dimmed. I look up to my ceiling and talk his ears off. LOL

 

One day last week, I was having one of those talks and I started looking back on my life and seeing how it relates to me today. And what God showed me…..tells a lot about who I am today. I didn’t understand how no matter what people do to me, I still LOVED them. I’ll explain more later.

 

I grew up in the home with both my parents, even though me and my dad didn’t get alone well as I got in my teens, he is a man who LOVES his family. We were told I LOVE YOU all day everyday. We got hugs…just because. We use to go out to dinner every Friday when my dad got paid. We got allowances, we would go for rides every weekend. When me and my siblings (4 of us) got into arguments we had to make up on the spot….which was kiss and hug. We were NEVER allowed to fight….if we got caught it was TROUBLE!!! As we got into our teens, we were very popular in the neighborhood. Everybody use to come and sit on our porch all day and all night. We still have those SAME FRIENDS to this day.

 

As I started dating, the guys I ATTRACTED use to make me mad and jealous. I was very jealous growing up and when they made me mad, I would say things like ” I hate you, I hope you die”. I was a very angry teen, which later turned into my early 20’s. I was so mean that my MOM use to PRAY for me day in and day out. I was so mean to my boyfriends, that my parents didn’t know what to do for me. Once I moved out at 22, my mom PRAYED harder that God would change my attitude. She said that she didn’t want anyone to “Kill” me with the anger I was carrying. Little did she know…that GOD was about to deal with me ONE ON ONE.

 

I went through a lot with people being jealous of me, of my relationship with my siblings, and for having both families in the home, where I had complete total access to both of my parents. The way I lived, and how friendly I was, without it ever being a story of me hurting anyone. I was and still is a good friend. When I found out that my daughter’s dad was sleeping with my friend who lived in a downstairs flat ….. IT ROCKED MY WHOLE WORLD. I never in my life felt a betrayal and devastation like that in my life. OH God…. that pain is deep in my heart….. I couldn’t even cry. I terrorized her every chance I got, and I cut him off from the HEAD!!! After so many months of preying on them, they finally stopped seeing each other. I hated him and hated her.

 

One day, I said Lord, I cant hold this in my heart any longer….its taking over my thoughts and my life. Then…..she knocked on my door and told me that she was moving out of town. I SAID YESSSS!!! I was so happy, she wanted to make amends and leave with peace. Our friendship was over as far as I was concerned, but I was too happy she was leaving town to marry her kids dad. Good BYE!!! After a year or more of her being gone. I remember clear as day, God asked me while I was washing dishes……have you forgiven her? I said Yes!!! She moved years ago, I don’t have to see her anymore….. I said Yes, God I have. He said alright….we’ll see. Never knew what it meant by that.

 

Soon after that day God asked me that question…… She got my number from her mom and she called me saying this…… I have spoken to our Landlord, and I’m moving back downstairs. I was devastated again. I said God how could you let her move back into this same house? How could you let her come back to Detroit? I told him that I didn’t ever want to see her again, and that I had forgiven her. I was done with her in my mind, I had never planned to see her again… she did me wrong.

 

He said if you have forgiven her…..lets see.

 

Part 2 tomorrow.

 

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Cree’s Blog….. EVERYBODY COMFORTABLE

I was watching Oprah’s Life Class tonight and I’ll tell you. Iyanla is the best thing since Gayle. I am so happy that things went the way they did back when Iyanla left. Because it makes their friendship that much stronger. I KNEW HER OWN SHOW WAS COMING….. I KNEW IT 🙂 I KNEW IT…. I KNEW IT… From the day that interview ended when she was on Oprah’s Show talking about what happened between them. Iyanla just wasn’t ready back then, and even through Oprah was grooming her, she still didn’t get it. Like Oprah said… I was giving you my podium, my stage…how could you not know I was setting you up for success? That was a Aha Moment for me. But the time is now…… Oprah has had her on Life Class last year, and this year as well….and I’m so happy that she will have her own show, and I will be FRONT AND CENTER. She’s going to do very well. See how things happen? And the chemistry of their friendship between them is wonderful. Oprah was talking so much about God when it first came on, she has really opened up, and I know who God sent to help on that. And I’m happy about it. I wonder if Gayle gets jealous? LOL She probably calls Oprah as soon as she get in the house after taping LIFE CLASS, and want to know everything her and Iyanla talked about. Hahaha. Let me stop I’m the only one whose jealous like that.

Today was a good day at work…. again so much Love from my co-workers, they really missed me those 11 days I was on vacation. Lately, I’ve been practicing going back to the way I use to be when it comes to my Communication. I’m not asking anyone any questions, I’m not answering any. There use to be a time when I was so secretive that if you wanted to know something about me, you would have to sneak in my room and get my journal/diary to find out anything. Now since I’ve gotten older , I like to ask so many questions. Remember I was a kid who get all low grades in school, because I was afraid to ask questions. I had to drop out of High School, and complete a GED. I’ve come a long way…and went to dang ole far. …. LOL

Yesterday me and some coworkers got together for our monthly outing, and somehow I always end up being the person who calls everybody and “REMIND” their grown a####, that we’re hooking up. I didn’t lift a finger yesterday. When I got to work at 9 am this morning….. 1000 people asking me * like its my function* why you didn’t call me? And I said……. yall grown butts knew. I’m not calling people NO MORE communicating anything, if you really wanted to go.. YOU’D BE THERE!!! Last year I was appointed to help get our family reunion together because I like to plan and I plan well. I did the family dinner at Apple bees, then at my sisters house, then a park. This year, they’re like……Zee, are you doing the family reunion for 2012? Nope….. not this year.. I’m getting ready to move and its all about me. They have watched and saw how I did it, its time for somebody else to step up.If I don’t do it…… it won’t get done….and that’s fine with me. Its a whole lot of us and everybody PULLED THEIR WEIGHT AND MORE….. but again its about Communication. Nobody wants to do it. I’m not doing that anymore. I’m doing my own thang staying in my own lane……just like I use to be. I’m not mad at anyone, I’m just really taking a look around my life and seeing that I HAVE MADE EVERYBODY COMFORTABLE…. My Sister came over yesterday and she said “I MISSED US * THE 3 OF US SISTERS* GOING OUT TO DINNER…. TALKING, LAUGHING… I said well … plan something! Lets go to dinner this weekend. She said okay….. but watch….. she expects me to call her and my other sister and remind them. They expect for me to COME UP WITH A RESTAURANT….. WHAT TIME…. WHO PICKING UP WHO…. WHO ALL ELSE WANT TO GO….#GURLBYE… LOL I’M NOT DOING THAT…. I’M NOT!!! LOL * I LOVE THEM* Yes, I want to go, and I plan to go. Its that I’m the oldest and everybody expect for me to be on top of everything….. maybe I do put myself out there that way. I love to plan, I love to gather, I love to travel… I am the oldest.. but I’m tired now…. I’m thinking about MYSELF.

When Tyler Perry tickets went on sale for “Madea Gets Job”… my Sister came over 3 years later * sarcastic* and said we got to get tickets to see Madea….. I didn’t open my mouth…… * blank stare*. Finally I said GUUUUURL… those tickets went on sale 2 weeks ago. I have my ticket for 2 NIGHTS. She said dang……… why you didn’t tell me? I said gurl   you know I don’t wait 10 weeks to buy his tickets and you know how fast seats sell. I said I’m tired of waiting for 50 people to get their money ready. She was mad….hehe but she’ll be alright. I have a Credit Card ON DECK… for my concerts, plays, my trips, my hotel and my rental cars…. I DON’T PLAY THAT!!! When I told her that I was sitting in the Orchestra Pit both days, she almost passed out. LOL LOL #Gurlbye… see people be playing and I feel I allowed the buffoonery to be apart of my life, when I do things off script of who I am.

I remember one time Tyler Perry came to town for Madea’s Family Reunion.. I collected the money as always….. after collecting money for 13-17 people and 2000 days later * not a really 2000*…. TICKETS WENT ON SALE…. WE sat in row RRR…. I SAID NEVA AGAIN!!!! If you have your money ready the day of, WE CAN ROLL….if you have your money any time after that….. its a WRAP …. I’m out with or without you!!! I’m not sitting in ROW ZZZZZZZ123456789 NEAR THE CEILING….#GURLYOUGOTMEMESSEDUP. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

When Mary J came to the Fox I sat 3rd row ORCHESTRA PIT.. when Gerald Levert came I sat ORCHESTRA PIT FIRST ROW…. When MAXWELL came TO DETROIT….I sat 4th row FROM THE STAGE… when Anita Baker came to Detroit 7 YEARS STRAIGHT….. I SAT 1ST ROW.. ORCHESTRA PIT …AND 3RD ROW from the stage. I got tired of missing out on what’s good for ME… waiting and phone calling everybody….trying to be nice and include others. Those days are over.

When we went to see Tyler Perry’s Good Deeds…. we went 22 deep. I told everybody get your ticket early… they LEARNED… LOL But when For Colored Girls Came out IN 2010, I gathered my gurls up and it was 32 of us all together. I told them get YOUR TICKETS EARLY… CAUSE TYLER PERRY SELLS OUT…. the people outside of the 32 were calling me from the movie before it started….. Cree, do you have any extra tickets…. they SOLD OUT? I said Nope.. the extra ones I bought, people bought from me. Waiting until the last minute when it comes to SOMETHING CREE put together…..will get you missed out. So about 6 of my people outside of the 32 had to go to another movie house, but most waited for the next showing.

Watching Oprah and Iyanla tonight…. triggered these thoughts. Hmmmm :0

I needed this 🙂

I’m staying in MY OWN LANE…

SEE YA 🙂

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

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