Somebody Prayed for Me….. Cree’s Blog Entry *continued*
As I laid on the couch last week talking to God. I asked him…… PLEASE TELL ME…. LORD, WHY AM I SO NICE? WHY CANT I JUST GO OFF AND LET THAT BE THE END OF IT? WHY DO I FORGIVE PEOPLE SO EASILY WHEN OTHERS WOULD NEVER SPEAK A WORD TO THE PEOPLE WHO HURT THEM? WHY IS IT SO EASY FOR ME TO KEEP IT MOVING AND STILL KEEP PEACE? WHY AM I SO NICE… I MAKE MYSELF SICK LORD!!!! WHY?
Again, growing up all I knew was how to LOVE. I was told by my parents I love you so much and not only that, but they showed us. My siblings and I wasn’t allowed to fight so in order to keep it moving, we had to kiss, and say to each other “I Love you”. So, now that we have all this LOVE inside us, we started experiencing people trying to make us feel bad about saying the words “I love you” in public. We thought that everybody told their family this. My sister and I are light skinned, and my brother and other sister are brown skinned. People played the color game on us, we wasn’t taught about different shades of skin so when people said it….. we were like…. we have the same parents all 4 of us…..what’s the big deal? After a while in life, I started to think we were the ones who grew up dysfunctional.
Looking back on our lives, we were very popular. Everybody in the neighborhood knew us. We were good people, with good friends, whose parents wouldn’t let us do any and everything. We had rules, and our parents didn’t play.
Going back to my last post. When my friend who slept with my daughters father when I was in my early 20’s did that to me. I was devastated, because I never knew people betrayed others like that. My aunts didn’t do it to their sisters, my dad is/was CLOSE TO BOTH OF HIS BROTHERS… my parents didn’t do that to each other, so here I am learning something I never saw first hand or experienced, and I had to learn forgiveness through this selfish act. *Wooosa Cree* After it was all said and done, even though I was an angry person before this happened, it humbled me, and I learned FORGIVENESS. PRAISE GOD 🙂
One day I was with my best friend Charlene, and I had seen my Mother. I gave her a hug and a kiss on her lip, and my friend was like WOW, you kiss your momma on the lips? And I’m like yeah…. don’t you? She was like No…. we just say Hi. My mother kept telling me she LOVED me, and I said it to her as well. My friend had never seen or experienced this. That’s how my family is…. this is all WE KNOW. This is how we grew up. When we go to each other’s house, only thing ANYBODY will be saying as they are reaching to HUG AND give a KISS is……. I LOVE YOU!!! We don’t just walk into each others house without hugs and kisses AND START A CONVERSATION. THAT’S DISREPECTFUL LOL LOL My daughter is 25 and my nieces are 21 and 17, my nephews are 18 and 21. WE all KISS ON THE LIPS. That’s how we are. And I came to the conclusion that THIS IS HOW WE LOVE EACH OTHER!!!! MY FAMILY. We don’t steal from each other, we don’t misuse each other, we don’t take advantage of each other..we never slept with each other men….. BUT WE LOVE TO ARGUE AND DEBATE!!! LOL LOL One day I’m going to VIDEO RECORD one of our debates when my sisters and brother get together at my house or theirs. Babbbbbby YOU WILL BE SCARED A FIGHT IS GOING TO BREAK OUT. LOL But what we learned is that…. growing up we couldn’t FIGHT PHYSICALLY, so we had to learn to ARGUE… we had to use words. We NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GET PERSONAL. We stay on the subject and go at it for hours. IM THE OLDEST so I always WIN….* SIKE* You do not want to challenge me in a debate and I know I’m right. LOL LOL I did record one of our debates… maybe I’ll find it.
Going back to my previous blog entry….After I learned FORGIVENESS I started looking and loving people through the eyes of God. When people would say something or do something to me, I didn’t take it to heart… LIKE THE NEXT PERSON would. Because I know that hurt people, hurt people. And I had so much LOVE for others, that it was starting to seep through my pores. People saw it. It was like having on white pants, and people issues ,and their issues with me was seen on my pants. I attracted people who wanted to use me, or talked to me sideways. Not only did I tell people that I LOVED THEM…. but I showed it. And that’s when I learned that most people didn’t grow up with those words TAUGHT and SHOWN to them…. like I was. To tell someone you LOVE them in 2012 is like saying….. when I get my check I’m going to give you all of it. They don’t believe that. I didn’t grow up like that… and at one of our sit down gatherings, My Siblings and I learned that in our own personal lives, we all have struggles with the same issues. WOW .
I always said that its 2 ways to LOVE someone. Through the eyes of God, and an Earthly way to LOVE. To Love people in an earthly way is to…. be nice, but when they get out of order, you go back to your “childish ways” and handle it. Through the eyes of God is to be humble and communicative when two don’t see eye to eye. BE patient and let the other speak. Listen, and ask God to help you understand the issue at hand. That’s who I try to be, and so far is has worked for me.
So, I asked God why am I so friendly? Why when people do me wrong, I’ll still speak to them and be polite? When in my mind I want to ignore them and pretend their not even born? He said to me as I laid on my couch last week….. your mother PRAY AND PRAY AND PRAYED for the day that she would see you kind. She prayed that your anger would turn to LOVE as she taught you. He said it brings joy to her heart to see you happy and smiling without being mean and angry all the time. He said somebody PRAYED for you.
Siblings: My 2nd oldest Sister Na, Baby Sister Peedie, 3rd child only Brother Bobby, and ME~Cree
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
I love my SIBLINGS :) Cree’s Blog
Thank you Lord for such a wonderful day with myfamily!!! My mom told me to gather all her kids to go to dinner today for her
Birthday. She had one request that she didn’t want a gift this year, she wanted
money. And so it was done. We had a great time, we laughed and talked, got a
chance to catch up in each other lives, which was so good. We all work and its
kinda hard together sometimes. These are the times when we need to cherish time
being together. I know that we all must go, and when we start to leave here, I
want to be able to say that we had a great time and that we loved each other.
As, I was telling a friend today who is at odds with her sister, that GOD
handpicked our sisters and brothers out of everyone in the world, we need to
show him some respect and LOVE THEM to the best of our ability. Even if you
don’t get alone with that sibling, do whatever you can to make things work. I
know its hard, me and my brother get into it all the time, we argue, and debate
all the time, but I love him and even if he irritates me to know end, we still
make up. Is it hard? Yes, LOL its hard because you know each person is grown
and have the power to walk out and go home to our safe domain. But the sad part
is, you will think about them all day, all night, and its even sadder if you can
go home and NOT think about them. It takes work. In my family we all have VERY,
VERY, VERY strong personalities, and when we get together and have debates, its
like HOT FIYAH…. We cut loose. We don’t get personal, we stay on the subject
and after we finish, we kiss and make up. It gets hot in the kitchen for those
who haven’t seen us in action. MY Sister Na…. she’s the “know it all”. I’ll
say it was 80 degrees yesterday, and she’ll tell you, it was 81…. that would
be because the weather man said it before she left work, her car don’t lie, her
friend said it, and she knows the weather man personally.LOL MY brother Bobby he’s
the Marine, “motor mouth” is what we call him, because he never shuts up! He can argue about a car filling up at $40.00, when the next person
will say its $35.00. If you can debate with him for 20 hours, he can go STRAIGHT for
40 more. LOL MY baby sister Peedie…. she’s the baby, she can take on all of
us AT THE SAME TIME, she loves being the opposite of what we are saying. We can say the classroom
should be no more than 25 kids, she’ll say it should be 40. And will debate that
in her loudest voice, until you say…… okay Peedie you WIN! And me……..
Ms. Cree, if I ask my siblings what they would say about me, that would say I
think I know everything, but never want to take advice. They would say that I
get loud, and get real mad when we debate, they would say that I’m bossy and
want everything my way. They would say, I’m always trying to be the boss of
everybody. LOL And that I talk loud to get my point across and make faces to go with it. That I never want to be wrong. Hahahaha You put all those personalities together, and you will have the 4th
of July. LOL But in the end, we hug and kiss, because we LOVE EACH OTHER DEARLY,
we have to make up because we don’t ever want to leave each other bitter and
upset. Thank you Lord, for handpicking my siblings. Thank you.
🙂
Vents, truths, and personal thangs….
Hey Good People!!I know its been a minute since I’ve written. I’m 43 years old and I’m still tryna figure out this thing called LIFE. LOL
This past Saturday 2/26, me and my cousin Gus planned for all the cousins to get together and go out to dinner. We never, ever, ever, ever get a chance to see or talk to each other. But since FB, we all have really drawn close. So we all met at Applebees for dinner, it was 34 of us! Praise God!!!! I sat at a table of 10 with my sisters and other cousins, all of a sudden my sister and cousin started talking about how I use to do them back in the day ( lol), how I wouldn’t want to be bothered with them, and when they came over my house, I wouldn’t answer my door for them and they knew I was there. I remember that time so clear. They had just left for a minute, and I made up in my mind that when they come I wouldn’t open the door. These 2 heffas TOOK THE DOOR off the hinges and came in. LOL They were thinking something had happened in that short time, I didn’t feel like being bothered ( don’t know why at the time). They were MADDDDDD AT ME! LOL Thing is, I feel so bad for treating them like that, and whenever we get together, they always bring it up. OOOOOOO that burns me up. LOL They have plenty of stories on me, I was a MEAN, HONERY SOMETHING, SOMETHING back in the day. Matter of fact, a whole lot of my friends have stories on me, and I am so not like that now, that I hate to hear those old stories. They seem eager to tell ALL that THEY REMEMBER. Now, I do have some funny ones with my friend Gloria, but those were less than 10 years ago. My sister and my cousin stories go wayyyyy back. I wish I knew how to deal with it, more so than “look crazy” in the face when its bought up. I’m really laid back now that I’m in my 40’s, I just don’t wanna hear that mess LOL. I noticed though, people LOVE to bring back old memories, especially if it will make you cringe, while they look like “good fellas”. They say your past will stare you in the face. Boy, I tell you. LOL
Since, I can remember I am the one who will/can plan, movie outings, game night, restaurant day, house gatherings, pool night, you name it. I’m not creative at all. I cant match a pair of pants with a shirt, LOL but Imma bad sister when it comes to details of the gathering, day, keeping in touch with people through emails, phone and in person. I will gather a strong person to help me and then I carry out whatever it is to be done. I write down everything I need and expect from people involved, I am VERY serious about details. But I have one problem…. there is always someone CLOSE to you who seem to always want to change YOUR plans on YOUR EVENT. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind when someone says…… well what about this, and what about that? That’s fine, but don’t GET THE HELL MADD CAUSE IM NOT DOING IT YOUR WAY!!! That’s why I’m the visionary. If you want to put together a function, then do it. Ill be there, I will help you, I wont confuse you with how LaCrease would do it. Everybody want to be the “plant manager” on your function but they expect for you to “have a seat” when your at their function. And that’s one thing about me, I know how to take a back seat. I LOVE to be invited to a function and all I have to do is show up, SIT MY CHUBBY BUTT DOWN and get my laugh on!! LOL You aint said nothing but a word boo. I don’t want to manage nothing I’m invited too. I wanna sit, sip and chill! * blank state*…..(then smile.)
I’m about to get real serious right now. I had a lot on my mind when I was doing to Valentines Day Care Packages for the homeless, and I really wasn’t doing all that I know I could do. So, I put the money aside and said Lord, okay help me to buy the things that’s on the list. Finally, I went and bought enough spaghetti strings and meat for 30 ppl to have nice size plates. When it came time to cook it my family and friends were saying that 1 1/2 HUGE packs of meat was enough. But I kept saying…. naw I don’t think so. Am I really over doing it? They agreed. But came time to serve, we ran out of food and had to make the rest of the hamburger. I wasn’t mad or anything at all, its just that I asked God to help me with the specifics of HOW MUCH TO BUY AND MAKE, cause he KNOWS I hate to NOT have enough. Then turn around listen to others and have to end up making more. That kinda bothered me because I know God told me to make them both, and so my good friend Gloria grabbed the spatula and started making the rest of the spaghetti for me while I rest (((hugs)))). I learned to follow the Lord on my plans. Im not listening to anyone anymore about how I go about my functions. They are successful because the vision is clear, and when I start to listen to others and allow others to change the plans, then I get frustrated. That ended Valentines Day.
This past Saturday we were out at our family function things were moving smooth. Family was coming in the door, we had room for 32 ppl, 2 sat at the bar. Then out of the blue walking in the door this person close to me, comes to me saying, since we all cant sit together we can go to my house. I said gurl naw, we are here and this is where we will stay……… tension was in the air. Who cared!! I didn’t. Flash back to Valentines Day…… I’m straight. This is my view, okay its 18 ppl here now, so we just up and leave, go to your house and say FORGET the other 16 people who are on the way in a MICHIGAN SNOW STORM……. In the words of Sheree from* Atlanta’s Housewife*…. I don’t thank so.
So right now in my life, I’m learning to stick with the vision. If others want to plan a function that’s cool, DO YOUR OWN THANG, but as for me, I’m doing things my way. Now, me and my cousin are about to plan a huge gathering at my Sisters home April 16. 2011. Her basement alone can hold 1 million ppl seem like. LOL And it has a fire place, so you know its huge!!! Gotta decide on a few things, then we are planning a family picnic for the summer. But first, MY GURLS GROUP RAISINGURLS TO WOMEN starts May 1, 2011. I’m so excited about that. My babies, some new, some old will all meet up again. Gotta go straight in teacher mode for this one. We have lots of work to do. So right now, my hands are tied, I don’t even see myself slowing down. God is teaching me a lot of things about people, and how things work. Its scary aint gonna lie, so many different emotions. Somebody gotta do it…….. God chose me.
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