Conversations with God…..Cree’s Blog Entry

thank godDear God,

As I sat here earlier watching Creflo Dollar LIVE in Bible Study, he was saying some funny stuff about this lady who always prayed for him and LOVED to serve. Then it triggered a thought about you and I. LOL LOL I realize something. LOL LOL I cant stop laughing. I noticed that the 2-3 times I ranted in September about things in my life, and how I ask you when am I coming out of this wilderness, and why this and why that. But I noticed that every time I cried and ask you 1000 questions, I got instantly sleepy. I remember so clearly those times, in the middle of my rant, you said ” take a nap La’Crease”. It was so loud and clear… I remember standing up and walking around crying, and you said it again… “take a nap LaCrease”. But I sat back down at my desk… then all of a sudden… I GOT INSTANTLY SLEEPY… I couldn’t fight it. So I got up and laid on the couch. When I woke up.. I remember (((LOL LOL))) feeling so GOOD…. but I never pieced it together until now, that you caused sleep to come upon me ALL those TIMES. LOL LOL This is the same story for all of those times. You told me to “take a nap”. I did. lol Its amazing how Creflo’s story triggered me to think about this. I was so sleepy, that I couldn’t fight it… at all. And I can fight some sleep!!!! Now that I think about it, I probably was ON the thin line with my thoughts, anger, and questions. I was so sleepy, but I still wanted to ask you questions. Wow… that is so funny to me. I know next time….. just to go and take a nap

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

When God speaks to me…… Cree’s Blog Entry

cosignI just absolutely LOVE when God speaks to me about a situation that I just don’t understand. 

Working at a High School with teenagers IS A JOB. There are so many students, I can’t remember half their names… LOL But I know the faces of them all. When I’m out and a see a Teenager… I’m always looking to see if they’re one of “mines”. I LOVE my job, even though its stressful… I KNOW FOR A FACT that God gave me the mentality and the gift to be able to go in Mon-Fri and break up fights, send kids to the Dean’s office, give out money when they ask, clean up after them,  make them go to class, tell them to pull of their pants, to stop cursing, to leave the gurls alone, to stop playing so much, give them hugs, and pep talks, show LOVE to them, preach to them, pull them to the side and give them a “whopping momma” talk. This job is normal for me. This is my life, this is what I do. I am cut out for this. 

I work very closely with 2 other ladies. I enjoy working and moving around a lot. I like to move around and be in different areas of the building, and so last week I got into with one of them…. she’s an older lady. I ask God why is she acting FUNNY/FUNKY to me? He told me because I get done with my work faster now, since I found a quicker way to do things. Not only that… but because I chose not to work directly with her, and also because I help out with other things that I don’t have to do. In my mind I’m like NAW.. she’s not like that. LOL Didn’t she confront me about how I haven’t been working with her lately, and that I’m doing too much “other stuff”. She is NOT my SUPERVISOR AT ALL!! I WAS SO SHOCKED… GOD WAS RIGHT * as always*. She let me have it. LOL Now that I think back on last Thursday. LOL After she blasted me out * she’s so lucky I’m working on my ANGER ISSUES* She knew I was mad at her for acting jealous. I’m not sitting next to her everyday while there is work to be done. THIS IS ALL HIGH SCHOOL RELATED THINGS THAT I DO. Then today, she sat in her chair with her legs crossed and slept FOR 30 MINS. SMH This is why I refuse to work with her in that way again. People LOVE to make things all about them. 

I came to the conclusion.. that I need my own group. I need something more personal. I’m going to come up with a plan to get my group going. But it wont be in Detroit. 

Teens these days need someone who’s going to plant seeds into their lives, who care for them, who will teach them about consequences, who will hold them accountable for their actions, who love them, and who’s going to tell them the TRUTH. I work with teens… I REFUSE to bicker with ADULTS on the JOB, when its not about them. Then when I put my head down INTO MY CELLPHONE… and not join in on the conversations…. everybody wants to know what’s wrong with “Sunshine”…. nothing… I just don’t have anything to say. I don’t want to talk about anything but KIDS. SOME adults you can’t just sit and kick it with….. you gotta keep it moving… AND I PROMISE ON A STACK OF BIBLES….. IM THAT CHICK THAT KEEPS IT MOVING!!!! This is my gift my calling, and NO ADULT WILL GET IN THE WAY OF HOW I WORK, HANDLE BUSINESS, HOW I COMMUNICATE… AND ESPECIALLY HOW FAR I GO IN ORDER TO HELP MY TEENAGERS.
Anger triggers… let me go. * wink* 

Be Blessed 

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

I want to meet my Sister…..*tears* Cree’s Blog Entry

my sisterI want to meet my sister so bad ( in above photo)…. She use to live here and I hate that I wasn’t persistent in meeting her when she was here in Detroit. I go to her FB page all the time… we favor so much. We talk on the phone, but we’ve never met.My dad had her before my mom and dad married. But the way her mom and my dad got together was sneaky as far as how their families  connected… and for years after years it was a secret to her and to us. My dad is so stubborn and wont take a blood test to give her/us CLOSURE. She aint missing nothing * with him*… yeah I said it. But me and my siblings want to meet her, and hug her and LOVE HER.
My dad lives one min from me and we haven’t spoken in almost 2 months. I just don’t get that.

My daughter is so mad at him because he’s so stubborn she told him that she’s not going to answer his calls because of the way he treats his daughters. But I have a sister out there who wants to be around him….. * throws hands in the air* SMH FOR WHAT? I’m so happy that I’m not stubborn. That kinda life keeps you in bondage. I’m so happy that me and my daughter are very close. Praise God…. and I will communicate, do flips and all sorts of things to keep it that way. My dad has always been this way, he use to go months and months without talking to his brother when we were coming up and all living at home. I never paid it any attention…. never knowing that one day it would be me. SMH. It pisses me off sooooo soooooooo so bad that he’s like this. How you not talk to your BROTHER FOR MONTHS AND MONTHS … then when your kids get older, you do them the same way. We all grew up in the same house, don’t you long to hear my voice, my laughter, my smile, my silly ness…. don’t you miss that? Wow… Well let me say this….. my dad has done me/us like this all of our lives, and for once in my life….. I’m so over his behavior. Once so much time has passed…. it doesn’t even bother me. He had issues with his mom. she sold him to his dad in court for $1.00 and I think he hasn’t gotten over that. If I didn’t have God in my life so deep….. I would be some where crying and depressed. He was the very one who taught me, my sisters and brother to be close…. and if NOTHINGGGGGGG else come out of this as God chose him to be my dad…. I LOVE MY SIBLINGS.. THANK YOU LORD FOR HANDPICKING THEM FOR ME!

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Oh Lawd its a Fire…..Cree’s Blog Entry

buildingSo, yesterday morning I was just getting in from running an errand before I went to work….sat down at my computer and the FIRE ALARM in my building went off. I said “Oh Lord its a fire”…. this alarm was different than when the fire Marshall come out and do safety sweeps… if you are ever so concerned about YOUR LIFE…. you knew this was real. The security team came over the PA system LOUD AND CLEAR NO MUMBLE JUMBLE WORDS……. and said “please do NOT use the elevator use the stairways”…. you aint gotta tell me twice.. especially not about a FIRE. I just cant die that way Lord. So, I’m already fully dressed, I grabbed my car keys, my credit cards and I hot tailed down the stairs so fast, you would have thought I was in training for a marathon. Fire? I don’t play that. LOL

We’re all running down the stairs, I smelled the smoke but I kept it “running” lol. Once we got outside… I felt so bad for the elderly people who had to walk down the 22 flight of stairs. And its funny because when I first moved in the building, I wanted to be on the higher floors for the Detroit River/Canada View. I was a little disappointed that I forgot to request the higher floors, ….. but baaaaaaaby after what I witnessed yesterday…. 7th floor is FINE WITH CREE. LOL I’m good!

It was about 9:35 am when it all happened. After I got outside it was FREEZING especially living blocks away from the River….so I went and sat in my van. As I’m watching the firemen enter the building, you didn’t see fire or smoke coming from any of the apartments. Next thing I see and hear is windows breaking out. I looked up and counted the floors, and GUESS WHO APARTMENT IT WAS? Remember this story… https://lacreasewalker.com/2013/07/04/virgo-men-are-something-different-crees-blog-entry-virgo/ It was my friend I was writing about in my blog. It started in his bedroom… now I know he has an oxygen tank because he had pneumonia. Next thing I see is EMS taking him out on a stretcher, and to the hospital. I know my crazy Virgo friend gave them HELL!!! He was looking okay, it was probably his breathing. I’ve been trying to call him, but his phone ringer is turned off. I hope he’s okay. Even though all we do is argue…. we had fun and I want so badly to see him right now.

Here’s what I did * laughing*.. ..(((my nosey self))) when I got off work, instead of going to my floor, I went straight to the 9th floor to see how his apartment looked…..if I could. When I got off the elevator his door was WIDE OPEN… they were letting the smoke air out… AND IT SMELLED HORRIBLE . I can’t stand the smell of fire… I almost had to leave. I didn’t go in his apartment, but it was surreal seeing a burnt apartment up close and personal. He had so many clothes and shoes… that it was CRAZY. I have never seen a man with so many clothes and shoes. As I stood in the doorway and looked into his apartment, it was clear that this fire didn’t start in the kitchen… it started in his bedroom. I told him about that smoking and I hope he wasn’t smoking with his tank in that room. It was burned REAL BAD in his room. I heard someone in the back and called his name, but the building crews were in there and so I left.

This morning I wasn’t feeling well so I went to the convenience store on the first floor to get some headache medicine… when a young white gurl on the elevator started talking about the fire. I was saying they did a wonderful job in getting us all out… then she says to me.. Well I only heard on siren. I looked at her and said “one siren”? I said gurl how many do you need to hear before you KNOW its a FIRE? I guess she thought I was going to side with her…. I can’t there were too many sirens going off, not only that but a member of security announced several times, many times, lots of times to evacuate the building. So when I started asking her questions like.. even when you heard the first siren why did you hesitate? She didn’t want to talk about it anymore. She wanted me to AMEN the fact that she said she heard only one siren…. and my reply (((((IN MY MIND AND ON MY FACE…. WAS))))).. if you didn’t hear all those warnings…. you just didn’t give a DAYUM. I aint mad at cha….. BUT AS FAR AS FOR MEEEEEEEEEE….. I’m hitting the stairs BOO. LOL I looked at her as if to say gurl.. I be dog gone if I stand here and hold a conversation with you while you talk crazy…. and I NOT ASK YOU QUESTIONS based on this stupid story you’re trying to share….gurlbye. LOL

Thank God everybody got out safe and everything is alright!!! Amen

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Total Praise, Personal Scriptures….Cree’s Blog Entry

love godIts Saturday and I was out and about this afternoon. Tomorrow I’m cooking some Collard Greens. I love greens so much. I remember when I use to call my momma and ask her to make some and she would, just because she knew I loved them. Now my daughter calls me to make her some. No this gurl didn’t text me this morning at 9:14 am talking about “she gotta taste for some greens”….. she doesn’t live with me…she has her own place!!!! LOL When people say *they gotta taste* that means they want you to make them some. Call me what you want…. because I went to the grocery store this morning and got my baby some greens. Can’t wait to cook them. LOL 

This morning as I was laying down talking to God. I asked him why do I enjoy sharing my life stories with people. I know so many people who wouldn’t dare share their stories with anyone. They will post Scriptures all day everyday. And even though…. I KNOW MY LIMIT of what to share and what to keep private… I still wondered why I don’t mind doing this? What he said was…. I ‘m delivered from what others THINK OF ME. He said when you share a story.. ITS YOUR TRUTH and you know NO ONE on earth have the POWER to dissect it. He said some people have others to influence and when you have that in your life, you will always be afraid of what others think of you…. therefore those people will never share their stories for fear of JUDGEMENT. This is not for everyone… ONLY (((((SOME))))). 

I learned that people who ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS have a comment for what someone does, good or bad….((((especially negative)))))
they WOULD’ NT DARE LET OTHERS INTO THEIR PERSONAL LIVES FOR THE FEAR OF THAT SAME JUDGEMENT THAT THEY DISH OUT.
As I go through my personal storm (((( will share at a later time)))) this is my song that gets me through. So BADLY I want to THINK about how things are going to work out for me. But God said NOPE …. KEEP YOUR EYES ON ME ((((and that way I will have NO time to focus on my issues))))) and so it reminds me of these Scriptures. 

Jesus Walks on the Water

22 Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.

25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.

27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

29 “Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

Matthew 14:22-33 (New International Version)

Be Blessed

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Foolishness brings the Scriptures to Life….Cree’s Blog Entry

 

monicaWhen I was a young gurl, I loved watching Bible Stories. I have a nice collection of them now as an adult. I’d be SO mad when I watched people laugh at Noah and his family as they build the ark. No matter what they said he kept building. Again… Anger Issues… watch this. I “thought” I was mad at the people because they talked and dogged him out, but really *I’m learning* that I was afraid of the consequences for the people. I knew as a child that Noah was building that Ark just as God told him… I knew that. I was afraid that the people wouldn’t “open their eyes” soon enough to be saved. I never thought I’d grow up in “real life” and see people behaving the same way they did in those days.

I work with mostly police officers.. and this one.. every time I’m around him I can feel God doing flips inside me. This man does something to my Spirit when he speaks. He’s so lost and so clueless…. I feel so bad for him. He’s in his early 50’s… and so arrogant. I can’t even see him ever opening up to know better. I hope he does.

I use to pray and cry that everyone goes to Heaven, but as an adult I see that people bring to life the Scriptures below.

Matthew 7:13-14

New International Version (NIV)

The Narrow and Wide Gates

13 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

 

 

Photo is of my cousin Monica… she will bury her mom tomorrow. Prayers going up. I love you Monica and Family.

Be Blessed

 

 

Anger Issues, Dirty to Clean, Tyler Perry lay hands Cree’s Blog Entry

ImageAs you know * if you read my blog entries* I’m working hard on my Anger issues.. In order for me to go to the next level…. I have to get this in order. Its a MUST. Posting about Anger is a topic that I will discuss each time I post, because it helps me in my everyday living.

 

 

I’m the oldest of 4 and I’ve always been protective of my God, siblings, family and friends. And if I didn’t know any better… I would fight you over them . I would…..for real. LOL Truth is…. I’ve never had a fight before… but I can get be very SURGICAL with my tongue….and that has caused me, to come to the conclusion, that I need to work on my Anger issues. And it was tested again…. this weekend. Wow wow wow
 
 
Thursday was the first night of Mega Fest in Dallas Texas with Bishop TD Jakes and First Lady Serita Jakes hosting. I got up early morning to start the day, I watched all the afternoon and evening sessions didn’t leave the house at all, and on Sunday……. I knew the Bishop was going to give us “desert”….and I was watching STREAMING LIVE for the ENTIRE SERVICE.
When Bishop TD Jakes called up Tyler Perry… He was caught totally off guard… you can see it in his face. He’s the type of person who gets embarrassed about stuff like this. He rather sit in his seat and present a check later….. in PRIVATE. In his mind this is his time to get his Praise on and not draw any attention to himself. I’ve been watching TD Jakes Sermons for years and years…. he feeds my soul. I love his connection to God and his Ministry. When he called up Tyler that wasn’t to embarrass him, or TO BRAG to the Church AND the WORLD…. that he gave 1 million dollars PLUS, or to make any one in the audience or home viewers feel “SOME KINDA WAY” about THEIR donation if any……. *ijs*… It was simply out of GRATITUDE …..and about hearing the voice of GOD AND… ACTING ON IT. Say this with me…. AND ACTING ON IT… one more time… AND ACTING ON IT.
 
 
When Tyler Perry took the stage…. he was nervous he grabbed Dr. Jazz hand, but once he was okay with what was happening and where God was about to take him …..at that moment I saw God totally take over Tyler and he went there!!! Before Tyler even took the stage I was already sitting here with tears rolling down my face, and when he started speaking in tongues….. I was gone… Spiritually Speaking. I knew God had taken over. He tried to give the microphone back…. but they knew God wasn’t finished… and when he laid hands on Bishop TD Jakes… it was God’s hand in the Spirit and Tyler’s in the flesh. My goodness it was something to see!!! I was done at that point, and the word hadn’t even went forth yet * as far as the morning sermon* .So much POWER went through Tyler, I know he was weak and hungry after that. LOL LOL Not only did you see it… but you could FEEL IT. My legs could not stop jumping, it was a very POWERFUL moment. Praise God…. I saw it LIVE with my own eyes.
 
 
Went to bed that night feeling GREAT…AWESOME… got up MONDAY MORNING and the news was everywhere!!!
 
 
“Tyler Perry lays hands on the Bishop… who do he think he is?” “The Bishop is fake, they planned this to get attention, and money”. “Tyler Perry was disrespectful to lay hands on the Bishop.” ” This is foolishness and it has to stop”! “This is the reason why I don’t go to Church” The headlines were endless. The main ones were saying….”You gotta be careful who you let lay hands on you”… All while I’m saying to myself…. and YOU gotta be careful not to let foolishness non God fearing men come up in your house eat your food up from your kids, lay on your couch, and drive your car, YOU gotta be careful to spend your money wisely so that you won’t have to beg, borrow or steal. YOU gotta be careful who you let around your kids while they’re cussing and doing whatever in front of boys”  YOU gotta be careful not to give your body to any man who says “you’re different”.  YOU….. gotta be careful not to talk down on the next person, because it could be them today and YOU tomorrow. So, people lets watch the “be carefuls” in other areas….. because really its true… but it goes without saying. #stuffyouknowwithoutsaying
 
 
 
 
This was the part that bothered me….not because they talked about Bishop TD Jakes… or Tyler Perry * who cares *…. but because of the many, many, many, many, many people who didn’t get it. And I know everyone is not on the same page…. Spiritually Speaking, but when you DISRESPECT (((and speak on))))) the move of the Holy Spirit, you put a chain on yourself so thick. Especially when you have no interest in seeing the whole REBROADCAST (((for yourself))))… and when you don’t care about The Lord, The Church members, Bishop or Tyler. All you want is head shaking, hand clapping, people pleasing AMENS.
 
 
As God is teaching me how to channel in on what triggers my anger. He’s showing me that I’m NOT angry * so I thought I was* about the fact that people I love and admire are being talked about negatively, I’m angry about WHAT THEIR NOT GETTING. That’s a HUGE WOW MOMENT FOR ME!!!!! I’m angry because people are not getting it, they don’t care. Its real that people are going to perish.
The bible says:

Hosea 4:6

New International Version (NIV)

6 my people are destroyed from lack of knowledge.

“Because you have rejected knowledge,
I also reject you as my priests;
because you have ignored the law of your God,
I also will ignore your children.

 

 

As I’m reading comment after comment on different sites…. I’m alarmed at the many people with negative comments, and hateful replies. That’s when God said La’Crease… “Look at this as a reminder of the work that *still* has to be done in order to get * reach* them to become believers. Then I thought….. If they don’t believe this…… TRUST ME…THEY’RE BELIEVING SOMETHING ELSE… UM UMMMM He said now… what would it look like if YOU.. joined in making them just as ANGRY as you are reading it? Yes it makes so much sense, which has caused me to shift my focus. When they heard and saw the video… it made them ANGRY…. so when I read what THEY wrote… it made me ANGRY. I had no intentions on commenting and I didn’t.

 

 

In closing I want to say… you put DIRTY CLOTHES in a WASHING MACHINE… . What sense would it be to wash a load of clean clothes? Who goes in the cabinet and re wash the dishes they’ve already washed? Who takes a car to the car wash 2 times a day? Who does that? Nonbelievers feel that there is no hope for them because they have sinned. They pointed to both Bishop and Tyler as sinners who lay hands on others. As if to say.. Tyler Perry is not perfect what gives him the right to lay hands? These are the same people who PRAY… but still feel “somebody suppose to” ((((helping God out)))))) run over to their house and give them food . Instead of waiting on God. But what they don’t know is, if they’re clubbing, having non martial sex, allowing abusive relationships physical/mental, cursing, fighting, stealing, using drugs, robbing, killing, any thing……..and start going to church, reading the bible, building a relationship with The Lord, they will feel convicted in their hearts and put an end to it. Folks don’t want to sacrifice in order to see what’s on the other side. TRUST ME I KNOWWWWWWWWW about this!!!!
 
 
Stop talking about people, gossiping and waiting on people to join your “he/she said that wagon” instead…. smile, show yourself friendly, help others in need. Feel the need to ask God to use you. Find ways to become close with God instead of sitting on message boards, facebook, twitter and tearing down each other. Make sure that what you’re saying is not causing others to SIN..
 
 
But for those who are self-seeking and who reject the truth and follow evil, there will be wrath and anger.
 
 
Ephesians 4:31

Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.
 
 
Colossians 3:8

But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips.
 
 
because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.
 
 
The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
 
 
“How long will you who are simple love your simple ways? How long will mockers delight in mockery and fools hate knowledge?
And lastly
 

1 John 4:1

New International Version (NIV)….4 Dear friends, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world.

 

 

Be Blessed
 
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Comment…. or disconnect? Cree’s Blog Entry

big likeAs the days go by I am reminded by God to take deep breaths as he continue to work with me on my Anger issues. I am not afraid to declare this issue of mines. As a matter of fact, it has helped me to STAY CONSCIENCE of arising situations that causes me to speak on a matter when nothing needs to be said.

This morning, I was having a moment when I wanted to comment on a post on FB that was a result of what I posted on yesterday. Instead of commenting on my post, this person made their own . I wanted so badly to comment.. but I know me… I don’t just comment…. I CAN SHUT THE WHOLE STAT DOWN….no curse words…. just TRUTH. But God asked me… “must you fight off all fools Cree”? He said now, you either continue reading and NOT COMMENT…. or totally disconnect… chose one? LOL LOL

He also revealed to me another reason why I have this issue with anger. He reminded me that when we were coming up as teens, me, my brother plus 2 sisters. We had real true friends. Our porch was the one everybody came to sit at EVERYDAY. To this day we still have the same friends… all of them are still in our lives after 32-35 years… everyone is still alive. WE never talked about each other, we never turned on each other, we all loved each other and people saw that in our friendships. We didn’t fight each other AT ALL.. PERIOD…. NEVER EVER.. AT ALL. NOT ONCE. We argued and debated but we were cool everyday. And so, this mentality of how I view friends took me over into my adult years. I went to a Wrap and Wine party this past Saturday at my good friend Gloria’s house. I met 10 women… not one thing I had to say about any of them when I left. You know how when you leave a function, or gathering, and there is something to be said negative about someone… anyone…. I’m not use to that type of mentality. So, I’m like okay God.. how does this tie into me? Well, that’s one of my triggers. When people ALWAYS have negative things to say about others. I don’t like that.

Now I am silly… If I’m out to dinner with some friends, and one of them are throwing down on some food and its a silly moment.. I may say something stupid like…. OOO chile you putting that fork da WORK BABY!!! LOL But everybody knows I’m silly and will expect for me to say it. Now…… if that person is not riding home with me, and I’m with others that was there….. I may hit back on that subject, in a funny NON OFFENDING WAY. And its going to be something said that I would say to THAT person I’m speaking about. I wouldn’t DARE go call up another person and talk and bring it up. That’s childish to me, and its drama filled. But to say… oooo that dress she had on was a mess, or she know she was busting out. WE * * just don’t disrespect our friendships like that. As friends we don’t talk about each other, if we offend, we talk, debate, and kiss and make up on the spot. I don’t sit at the table with folks who I will talk about, and dog out when I’m not in their presence.

NOW, I SAY THAT TO SAY….. I am offended by the way people today just totally talk down to each other, diss, curse, and are ready to fight each other these days. We allow so many people to “geek” us up to go with the popular, that we don’t even realize that its going to hurt us in the long run. This type of disrespectful behavior gets into my soul and breaks me down. Why even be around people you have to discuss and talk about? What point is that? I’m just saying people, … we have to do better with our energy. I’m so happy that I’m learning my triggers. So let me name them…. BULLIES, PEOPLE WHO TALK ABOUT OTHERS IN A MALICE AND MALICIOUS way, people who are RUDE.. and folks who DO NOT KNOW/CARE TOO… HOW TO TALK TO ANOTHER PERSON in a respectful tone. But….. I’ve been doing soooooooooo good… yeaaaaaaaa. I’m proud of myself. Chat layta.

Be Blessed

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

A story that will warm your heart…. Crees Blog Entry

GOT A STORY TO SHARE : FROM MY FACEBOOK FRIEND CYNTHIA….. SUCH A WONDERFUL STORY

CYN AND JOHNHubby and I went to Olive Garden to have dinner..as we were sitting there waiting to be seated this little girl came and sit down beside us. I would say she was about 7 years old. She kept looking and then she was staring..I smiled at her and she smiles back. Then she said, ” Do you both live together?” I said, ” yes, We are married” So she kept staring and then I said, ” Have you ever seen a black and white couple together?’ She shook her head no. Then she said, ” Do you have any kids together?” I said,” No, but he was married before me and he had a wife, she died and went to heaven and they had kids, and now their kids have small children so we are grandparents.” She said, ” Why couldn’t you have any kids together.” I said, ” We got to old!” I smiled and she started laughing..I continued talking to her and I said,” So that’s ok right?” She shook her head yes and smiled.Then I asked her, ” Do you have any black friends at school?” She said ” No. I don’t have any.’ I asked what school did she got to. She told she is at a new school this year and she was telling me about her old school. So she just kept smiling at me and staring at me. I asked her , ‘What’s your name?” She said, ” Riley.” I said ” nice to meet you Riley, I’m Cynthia and his name is John.” She got up and stood up and looked up at John smiling and looked back at me smiling..So next to us where her parents, as I thought they were her parents , come to find out it was her adopted grandparents..and I told them our conversation and the grandmother said Both girls had been not around alot of people..but I did commended to the grandmother, that she was very polite and was very curious..she spoke so pleasant and she was very friendly. The grandfather looked a little unpleasant at first when I began telling the story and I think he thought I was going to be upset and then when the grandmother and I started laughing and smiling about it..John and I saw he was a little bit more relaxed and he started smiling bigger as I continue telling what this little girl asked John and I . I told the grandmother, despite her not being around any Black people..I felt like she wanted to learn and this is a step towards learning and getting to know other people from different races..She smiled and said ” Thank you for being so nice to her.” I told her, ” I really enjoyed my conversation with Riley and I hope she has learned something from our short conversation.” I told the grandmother, ” Thank you for helping to raise such a smart and polite little child.” I said to Riley as she was sitting down, ” I’m your first Black friend.” She smiled really big. Her grandmother told her, ” Riley, you met your first Black friend tonight.” She nodded her head and smiled. We said our good byes and Riley waved at me as we were called to our seating. I know some people would find it uncomfortable with the lady saying that but I didn’t..maybe it opened up something to them they had not ever had to approach. I don’t know.

I hope Riley spreads her love for people her whole life and I hope she helps someone else understand that we may all be of different race but we are all the same through and through.

As I sit here and type this, I have this warm fuzzy feeling in my heart and I’m a bit choked up with tears..I hope Riley has a happy life and embrace everyone no matter what color skin they have. I’m so happy that I was the first Black person that touched her life as I may never see her again. But I will always remember that sweet little face of hers. — feeling wonderful.

Secrets, Facebook, Millionaire, and Anger Issues….Cree’s Blog Entry

excuse meI’m very proud of myself….. I’ve been doing really good with my ANGER issues. I’m working so, so hard to just learn to fall back, and not speak a word, especially when its not important. I learned that my issue is not having an attitude in the morning, or when I walk into a room… mine come in on STUPID ISH. For example. I was driving the other night from a movie, and there was a Detroit Tigers game that had just let out, and while WE had the GREEN light, people were still walking across the street like THEY HAD THE RIGHT AWAY. Okay, so I’m cool with it, then after while, people just kept on coming and “we” who had the right away….. was like okay nah…. we about to start driving… it is a green light for us. As I’m inching in letting the people know… this light is not going to stay green forever, I’m about to start driving.. this white dude… staring at me like… “YOU BETTA NOT HIT ME”… Lawd…. why did I have to see that look on his face? AND ITS MY TURN TO DRIVE THROUGH THE GREEN LIGHT!!!! I just started praying, I was about to lay on the horn for 30 minutes… LOL I just let God talk me out of it. This is the kinds of things I go through with being Angry. I NEVER fall out with family or friends… never have attitudes, never act funny to people… its other people and their ignorance that sends me over the top. But I’ve been doing good for the last 2 weeks or so. Trying not to have “ANGER stories to tell”. Trying to get up to ZERO STORIES.

I was sitting up thinking about how if we had Facebook back in the day when I was in my 20’s…. what would MY stats be? LOL LOL LOL Baaaaaby… it would probably read…”Had a party last night at my house, and when the morning came, my sister friend was laying in the drive way sleep”. ” One of my boos was ova, he wasn’t talking about nothing, so when the phone rang and it was my other boo, I pretended to have a headache and made home boy leave.” LOL On my way to Watts Club Mozambique *male dancers* to see my baby Ace Lee” “Got my gurls ova, we bout to talk ish over spades and down 1800, absolute, and Henny”. ” Walked up in the club looking good, banging body, hair laid, and all the men looking at me.”  LOL Thank God, we didn’t have that mess, I can save some of my drama and foolishness LOL LOL for the world to see. HAHAHAHAHA… those kids can have it… I only use it to uplift. I think that’s why I can relate to so many people, is because I know and remember the person I use to be, and so when I see young people behaving the same way…. I don’t JUDGE them. I try to help them. I have a lot of young gurls from my old job, and they listens to me. They have to have their day where they’re foolish, so when I speak to them I try to let them see another light of it. The sooner you come out of your foolishness, the sooner you can get on with God’s plan for your life.

I watched about 4 Secret Millionaire episodes this past week, and they were so good….. had me crying like a baby. If I ever got rich or have a husband who is, I’m going to spend his money giving it away. I will volunteer for the rest of my life to helping teens, women, and the elderly. So many of our young people need help. One day I had group meetings with students at work, and I was so shocked to hear how many kids who have foster parents. Even the grandmothers are either dead, or can’t be there for them. I think a lot of people from my generation were on drugs, and sexually abused. It was so many rapes going on in my days of being a teen, and some of these women never recovered. Everything is a dang ole secret now a days… PISSES ME OFF. I HATE SECRETS. HATE THEM WITH A PASSION. These grandmothers raising their grand kids with all this LOVE, they should have shown their daughters when they were growing up. Now the daughter lost her way, and the grandmother is not telling the whole story to anyone or the grand kids about why her daughter cant MENTALLY raise her own kids. The daughter has been raped, molested, exposed to drugs, didn’t have a father at home, was left to find food for her siblings…. all kinds of stuff. I’ve seen it first hand… and after all these years.. it angers me to know this story about my friend. Anyway…. let me get off this subject.

Be Blessed

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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