A sad weekend…..Cree’s Blog Entry

cjHey Fam,

Its been a while since I’ve posted. I don’t even know where to start.Last Saturday I went to the funeral of Gary Berry and man who I’ve known since he was no older than 2 or 3. He was murdered.

Then after wards in another area of the church* mostly the people at the funeral was at the celebration as well* was a 75th Birthday Celebration of Ms. Harris, a woman who use to live directly next door to us when I was about 7. She was the Madea of my time. It was a sad day turned happy day.

Last night, this same woman lost her grandson to a senseless murder, so now again, we will meet up at a funeral. I remember when his mom Lynn was pregnant with him 30 something years ago. He was born weighing 14 pounds, the biggest baby I’ve ever heard of. He recently got married and has children with his wife. Everyday he was posting videos playing with his kids. I watched them all because it was so cute seeing a husband/man/father interacting with his children. Last week, I told him that I was calling him the “VIDEO MAN”. LOL Wow, how does this mother tell her children that their father is not coming home? * CJ in the above photo*

kenThis afternoon one of my best friends Gloria, lost her boyfriend* in this photo* to kidney failure. I am so sad. I knew he was sick, but not that sick. What a sad weekend. My male BFF Rodney lost his aunt on Friday, and a cousin through marriage buried her mom yesterday. Its like God is calling his people saying… “you come home”, “you come home”, “you come home”, “you come home”. There is nothing no one can do about it. I know we have to leave here, and this is why I preach daily…. tell your family you love them, spend time with them, if you get into it make up quickly. I even called my dad early this morning , * Thanks Sherry* because I see that he wasn’t going to call me first, and he was the one who hung up on me. I just don’t have time for back and forth anymore. I’m almost 50, I’m not spending my last “minutes” on earth arguing with folks, being mad, and not talking. I just can’t.

God will see us through.

Be Blessed

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

What am I gonna do? * brow and nails* Blog entry :(

janine

Hey,

So…. I’ve been getting my nails and brows done by Asians Shop owners HUSBAND AND WIFE… Amy and John. He does my nails and she does my brows. I’ve been going to them faithfully for 11-12 years straight!!! When I go to the shop John is the only person I let do my nails, and trust me, he wont let anyone in his shop do them anyway…. lol. She does nails too, but she specialize in brows. One day she was real busy and I walked in, she pointed to one of her other techs, and said to me… she can do your brow. I looked at her, I said Amy come here…. she said huh? I said LOOK, pointing to my eyebrows with a straight face, and so that no one else could hear… “NOBODY DO BROW BUT AMY OKAY”? She cracked up laughing!!!! She said okay, but she do good job. I looked at her and said I don’t care how long it takes… I’ll sit here and wait for you. She got my point, and so I waited for her. Now, there has been times in the past where I would le one of her gurls do my brows… because yes they did a great job. But if she’s there I will wait. But no one has ever, ever, ever, done my nails for 11-12 years except john. NO ONE EVER. Not one person.

Yesterday, as me and Nesha was entering the shop * I notice everything* I saw a note on the window saying that they’re open on Tuesdays. I know Amy and John close on that day. So, I walked in and OMG….I saw this Asian man sitting in John’s chair. I spoke to everyone there, and said” hey where is Amy and John?” The man sitting in John’s chair * I almost passed out seeing him sit there* he said they’re on vacation, they went back home , they will be back”. So, I’m like okay. Now, I’m standing there debating if I should leave out of the door or stay. I decided that since I wasn’t getting my nails done, that maybe I could try out one of these ladies to do my brows. So, we go and sit in the brow section, they “man sitting in john’s chair” kept looking at me. As he was doing that, I was looking around saying to Neshia, this place feels different. I said I don’t feel Amy and john’s SPIRIT around here. I can discern Spirits, and I didn’t feel them AT ALL.

As, I’m sitting in the chair looking around, the “man” is still doing nails and looking at me…. look around this shop. Then I see new things, and things moved a certain way from how Amy had them. I said to Nesha, NO… NO…. UM um that man is lying, this is his shop now. Nesha says ma, please don’t say nothing to that “man”, you gone embarrass me. I said gurl… something aint right around here and I know it. So, her phone ranged and that was my time to ask this “man”. One of those times he was watching me and done with his client…. I put my finger up and said come here okay? He came over to me. And I looked him dead in the eyes, and said in a real low voice….. tell the truth okay? Is this your shop now? He said Yes. He said Amy and John went back to their country because someone is very sick in the family * her mom or his mom* and they went back to take care of them. He said they didn’t want to leave and want to come back soon, but for now, I’m taking care of it for them. I said okay…. Thank you for telling me the truth. I said it doesn’t not feel for same in here. They had it fixed up very nice and cozy, but the point I’m making is, ITS NOT AMY AND JOHN. He went on to say that he would take care of me, and that he hopes I continue to do business there. I was happy, and told him that I look forward to it.

When it comes to a woman’s clothes, shoes, eyelashes, nails, hair, home. WE DON’T PLAY. We are very, very, very, picky. That’s just how we are. So, as the lady was doing my brows. I kept asking myself why am I letting her do this? Then I thought if Amy is not here and has no plans of returning, I have to learn to trust somebody. As she was doing them, my mind is spinning. I’m thinking Father God in the name of Jesus, please don’t let my facial expression * Nene Leakes* show how I’m feeling about her doing my brows. Please God let me be nice, and let me say the right things, in a nice voice. Please let my brows come out pretty. So, when I saw them, my facial expression was good and I love my brows.

I guess the point I’m making is….. I miss Amy and john, and for now I don’t know who is going to do my brows and nails. I’m sad…. so sad. Well, at least I do know how to always get in touch with my hairstylist Janine. Even though I don’t get my hair cut and curl often *I curl my own hair when its long* she is the ONLY, THE ONLY ONLY ONLY ONLY ONLY ONLY one who I’ll let  do it. She’s been doing my hair for 21 years since Nesha was 6 years old. I let someone experiment on my hair ONE time and that was it. *felt guilty too* lol No one has done my hair EVER SINCE * she can sang too           * Janine * her in the photo above*

So, I’m feeling some kinda way today. I feel like I’ve been abandoned. 😦

Be Blessed

I’m sad :(

god has a reasonI had a wonderful day at work today. When I came home from Georgia, I didn’t want to go back to Walmart. Seems like no one understood that. Yes, I was making GOOD MONEY there, and I’m good friends with all the managers, several are on my FB page. I just didn’t want to do that. I didn’t want to be bothered with grown folks anymore. I wanted to work at a School with TEENS. I prayed, and prayed,, and prayed and prayed. As time went on, I was getting desperate and needed to work. But all my needs were being met and MORE. SO, it allowed me to hold off on making a decision to go back there. I’m so glad I waited on God. After being fingerprinted by the FBI, I am now working where I want…with Students at a High School….. I LOVE THEM!!! I have many stories to share later on this weekend. LOL

 

I’m looking forward to seeing them tomorrow because TONIGHT…. I’m sad. 😦

 

My friend * guy I like* called me tonight and told me that he got the job at the airport that he’s been waiting for. I’m so sad right now because he works a first job 7-3, and this job will be his afternoon job, so that means I won’t see him anymore after March. He says he’ll come to visit, but I know him, after working 16 hours a day, on his day off he’s going to want to sleep and be with his family. I can’t even cry, it hurts so bad.

 

I’m happy for him, because I know how he feels about this position. But dang…. Here comes this guy that I really like and he’s going to be gone from my life. He lives almost an hour away from me in the first place. This is going to be really hard for me. I’ll see him all weekend here at my job, could be therapy, or it could be tears 😦

 

But I have to be honest here. One day I walked up on him as he was reading the Bible. He looked up and said Hey! I asked what was he reading, he told me, then said…. I’ve been thinking about you. He said GOD told me something/several things ABOUT YOU… after he told me it blew my mind. All I could do is stare at him, caught me totally off guard. After that I went back to my apartment because I had to think alone about what he said.

 

I was sitting in the bathtub, and he called me. He said Lacrease are you mad at me, are you okay? Because I left so abruptly. I said yeah… I’m good. I said what you told me just blew me away. It was then while in the bathtub is when I realized AND KNEW FOR A FACT, that he was only in my life for a season and a reason. God knew it would take for someone I REALLY LIKE to come into my life and tell me what he told me. I knew THEN that eventually he would be leaving my life. I knew it. I knew it. Now that time is here. He was only in my life to share that, and I had to hear it from someone who I liked. I made him feel like everything is fine, and he never brought it up again.

 

My heart is broken AGAIN this week!* I’m a strong woman……I’ll be fine.*