LOL LOL I did not know that Tyler Perry did a scene with my BABY ELMO. I just posted a video with ELMO the other day. What are the chances of 2 of my FAVORITES in a scene together? This made me smile tonight!!!
It has a 90’s feel to it, so sincere, and so true to her life .Listen to her voice. I’ve never been married, but my idea husband has to be ride or die for me. Â A Â man who has my back, and YESSS… I have his. Our life and work compliments each other, same page, same book, same line. This song reminds me that this LOVE I’m in search of, is out there.
Yesterday me and Nesha was pulling out of Starbucks, when this black guy.. maybe in his early 50’s walked almost up to the car and asked me would I drop him off someplace. My face was twisted and disfigured…. like get away from my car.
First of all… I watch too much ID to even let him ask me a question. I WISH I WOULD let a stranger in the car with me, while he sit in the back and hold a gun/knife up to me and my daughter’s head. Before he approached me… my chances of living was 100%, when you let strangers in your car…. THAT YOU DON’T KNOW… your chances of living go to 50/50. That’s one area I WILL NOT COMPROMISE. I’ll give you money, directions, advice, even food…. but to get in my car… and create a new atmosphere….. NOT GON HAPPEN.. So, I say that to say….everybody does not have good intentions. Be safe, and pay attention to your surroundings. You cannot drop everybody off someplace… just because you’re going that way.
ID has really opened my eyes………with my TOO FRIENDLY SELF.
This is real life for me. I felt in the past, that I was a very naive person. Mainly because no one has done anything to me, and I didn’t have any bad stories to share. But my daughter is apart of this new generation where people her age and younger and doing so many bad things. She is very cautious about everything, and she has really taught me a thing or two. By her working for sevral Judges, sitting in on many court cases, and just by knowing many things in the system, she knows this stuff.
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So I started watching the shows that she watches, plus I’ve always been a fan of mysteries, and crime solving. But after watching them everyday, through the night, it has really started to effect me. I DO NOT PLAY anymore. I am so cautious of people. I’m telling you those shows has really taught me about people. So, after I posted my stat on FB… my customer from Walmart sent me this video that had me SCREAMING LAUGHING… See I’m not crazy and I’m not alone. LOL Watch.
Today was a good day, got some writing done. There is so much I want to say. One thing I love about THIS VIRGO…. is the fact that I HAVE absolutely no one to IMPRESS in this world BUT GOD. I am so free to share my testimonies after they’re all said and done. There is not one person who I would keep from knowing my truth for the simple fact of “caring what they say”. I’m so done with that mentality. I know so many people who wouldn’t dare share their testimony for the sake of feeling they’ll be the person being JUDGED. Because they do a lot of JUDGING. There is no one on this earth who directs my path. Dang, that took me a long time to come to that conclusion. I feel so bad for people who are LOCKED into their own TRUTH.
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I know people who will stick to the same story for dear life, but refuse to share a “current” situation to help someone else… knowingly and unknowingly. I know people who have testimonies so deep, these are women with SO MUCH WISDOM…. but they’re so afraid of what others will think of them. They want people to believe that the life they last knew them to live….. still exist. Its okay if it doesn’t. Things change, people change.
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Don’t get me wrong… I’m NEVER the woman to sit up and empty my head out to ANYONE. I could be talking to you on the phone, and be packing clothes to fly to New York for a week, and I wouldn’t even share it. You’ll be saying ” I talked to you that night, why didn’t you tell me that”? I’m more of a person who will share a life lesson of mines, than something I consider….nothing.
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Anyway… You all know I LOVE LOVE LOVE my you tube videos. Here are 3 women who I love watching . I don’t know them personally, but I did ask them in inbox…. WHAT IS YOUR SIGN, BECAUSE YOU REMIND ME OF MEEEEEEEEE? LOL Guess what all 3 of these ladies said? IM A VIRGO!!!! LOL LOL Just like me!!! I watch their channel faithfully. They have great topics, cooking, nails, trips, married tips, hair, lashes, home remodels, they have personal testimonies all the time. So, I’m going to share. Some of the language may be sensitive, but don’t get the MESSAGES TWISTED!!! Okkkkkkkkk
Growing up, for some reason I never liked watching cartoons. And the few I did watch were The Flintstones, and Scooby Doo, . My sisters and brother would break their necks getting downstairs to watch them on Saturday mornings, while I’ll be in my room reading a book.
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For me, the cartoon has to have some kind of meaning, and it has to have a certain look about them for me to watch it. The Flintstones were a family that reminded me of my mom and dad, and I as Pebbles. Barney and Betty reminded me of my aunt and uncle. So for me, they were real people. That was my connection.
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Scooby Doo was my favorite of them all because they solved mysteries. AND THATS WHO I AM. I love a good mystery. It shows up in my life today as I watch ID, Who the bleep did I marry, REDRUM.. all those shows. As a child I didn’t know that this cartoon would connect to the person I am today. I love anything that requires research, problem solving, communication, and hard work doing it. Scooby Doo the dog, represented the “scary” part in me. LOL He wanted to help, but at the same time he was scared. That’s so me!!! I have seen them all.
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Let me share this quick story. When I was a little girl… I made this blanket that I called my “ball cover”. I would take the ends of it and make it into a ball and rub it on my lips, my fingers, and my hands and face. I can’t explain to this day, this feeling I would have as I held it, and zoned out. I would carry it around everywhere I went. I use to pray and worry if God was mad at me for having it. I always thought it was a bad thing. All through my 20’s and some of my 30’s, I had the same ball cover and EVERYBODY in my family, plus my friends knew to NEVER MESS with it. If you come into my house and you see it on the couch… DON’T TOUCH IT. I didn’t mind people asking me “what is that?” There were plenty of times, when I would RAISED THE ROOF.. if I got home from work and it wasn’t where I left it. Oh My Goodness!!!! Nesha caught on early in her life about that. Where ever it was……. LEAVE IT. LOL I noticed that people always wanted to watch how I used it, plus they also wanted to hide it from me for some reason. They wanted to see my reaction to it being lost.
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If you know me.. YOU KNOW I LOVE ELMO. I LOVE THIS EMOTIONAL CHARACTER. So, one day when the movie The Adventures of Elmo in Grouchland was shown on cable. I sat down to watch it. I almost passed I was so stressed * I can laugh now* that I couldn’t watch the whole movie…….. because I was SO SO SO SO SO SO MAD AT ZOEY. IM STILL MAD AT ZOEY. LIKE I REALLY WANT TO FIGHT HER. FOR REAL FOR REAL. LOL Please watch the VIDEO. Still to this day…. I can’t finish it.
Sitting here thinking about my life. Who would have guessed it would be this way? No…… not that its bad. What I mean is……God knows me… so well…. LOL He knew if someone had asked me the end of 2012, would I have moved out of my 4 bedroom brick home for the life I have now? My answer would be NO. Never in a million years.
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See…. that’s the beauty in God.
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He knew that if I had a peek into my NOW future, that I would have stayed in my comfort zone. He knew it. He knew it. He knew it. He knew it. He knew it. He knew it.
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I have “narrow down” my closet of friendships that does not fit me at this time in my life. I have realized that I have changed in my way of thinking, and looking at things. God is moving me forward and preparing me for something GREAT. I feel it. I know it. I’m being prepared for GREATNESS. I’ve been tried in every arena this last year and a half. If I think about it too hard.. I’ll either cry or FLEX my muscles. LOL God has really moved me COMPLETLY out of my comfort zone. I cannot go back to life as I once knew it. I can never get so comfortable that its hard to “move” again. I am officially on the move. I am no longer doing things LaCreasea’s way. I am no longer in charge. God has made that CLEAR to me. All I can do right now… is throw my hands up and surrender. And as “tired” as I am fighting…. I GLADLY SURRENDER. Â Â Â Â Â *smiling*
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For a woman such as myself… who has always been in charge… this is really… I MEAN REALLY a humble beginning. I have totally surrendered myself to the fact where I am blindfolded, walking with a cane, and God holding my right arm. I can’t even explain this like I want to… some will get it. God has shown me that everything I have asked for he gave to me. Jobs, homes, my one and only daughter, the best friends, the best parents, the best sisters and brother. I’ve never been without.
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God has truly been good to me. I can never Thank him enough for sending someone special into my life. This person has told me time and time again these things that’s going on right now. Um um um… smh.. I didn’t get any of it then. Â But I get it now. Still learning.
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 Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Growing up my parents were split when it came to voicing our opinion. My dad allowed it, but my mom didn’t. As long as we kept our voice in check, not hollering or talking loud, he would listen. With my mom, whatever she said WENT… that’s how it was. LOL Thinking about it now, this is why me and my siblings are very opinionated because for one, we weren’t allowed to fight, and for two, we could express how we felt. So now that we’re all grown….. we ALL have a hard time learning to control what comes out of our mouths. None of us will curse you out…. but we’d keep going until WE feel our point has been made.
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Which brings me to this. Being a Christian is hard work. You have to always be in position to represent Christ. And yes its hard. You can’t say what you want to say. And if you do, as a Christian, you have to learn NOT to OFFEND… but to make sure you get the point across, so that they’ll get the message. No matter how much you smile, speak to people with a friendly tone, people will still try you. Thing is, you have to really work on keeping yourself together. Its one of the hardest things I’ve had to learn. Its very hard. Right now in my life, I don’t know if I’m just going through something and I feel a little more sensitive, or is it that I’ve ignore things that really should be put to an end. Side talking, smart mouth people, who have always been this way have really gotten it from me lately. I’m just not dealing with it anymore. It’s a SHAME how much I let get pass me, for the sake of “trying to stay friends/cool”. Makes me feel that friendships ended long time ago, and that I was the one holding it together by “salt coating” and changing the subject for the sake of arguing or having a debate. #donewiththat
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With me coming to that conclusion….. I wonder sometimes if I’m a good person? Am I pleasing God? I wonder if I’m going to far, or if I over reacting. I’ve also notice how humble I can be. I have a habit of explaining something till there is nothing left. LOL I’ve been catching myself to say little as possible. People don’t need to know everything I KNOW. Most people don’t even care. Wow… the less I say.. the more people want to know. That’s funny.
I had to have been around 15 when I read this from the Bible.
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2 Timothy 3:6
New King James Version (NKJV)
6 For of this sort are those who creep into households and make captives of gullible women loaded down with sins, led away by various lusts,
I was horrified that one day this could be me. I remember thinking…. God please don’t let me seem gullible to a man where he comes into my life/home and make this Scripture true for ME. Still till this day… I believe with all my heart this is the reason why I NEVER let a man move in with me. Not only that but I never lived with him either. Its bad enough I’ve had my share of “clowns” without living together. And I will say this, women in these types of relationships are breaking up with these men….. after having their babies. That’s when low self esteem comes in, and the woe as me syndromes. Women we’ve got to pay more attention.
This can’t keep working. When it comes to these types of conversations and my friends come to me for advice. IM BRUTAL….. with LOVE. I am Zero Tolerance for this type of relationship behavior. MY advice to this women is this
find something about YOURSELF that you LOVE and ADMIRE
find out what it is that you like to do , that brings out your personality
I love and enjoy quiet time near The River. I have to make that kind of time for myself. Being near water for me brings a peace and calm…. I’ve never known. Make sure that you PUT THIS TIME ASIDE. It helps me to see life clearer, and the people that’s in it. What brings out my personality is… making small talk with strangers. I enjoy talking to people who are different than myself. They interest me, and I can always learn something new.
The more you get to know YOURSELF…. when “The One” does come along, he will appreciate you more for being YOUR OWN PERSON, not someone who needs HIM to come and “complete” you.
I know its hard being single…. but be a WOMAN who refuse to deal with any and everything, for the sake of “having a man”. And I noticed the SAME WOMEN.. who chose these types of men, are the first ones who will say…. my momma aint trying to help me, my friends aint there for me, don’t nobody care about how I get from A to B. Wont nobody come and pick me up. And I’ll say to them… YOU’RE REALLY MAD AT YOUR BOYFRIEND…because he’s not doing his job by providing a way for you to do those things…… HOW DARE YOU TURN THIS ON YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS!!! These type of women will blame all the names in their cell phones, before they’ll ADMIT… they made a wrong choice in their relationship.
Its okay to live alone, or with your children. Date a man for dear life if you have too. Stop be so submissive to the first man who tells you….. your hair is pretty. Know your own hair is pretty FIRST…. then let him put his AMEN with it. Compliments you’re hearing for the first time from a man… YOU MUST HAVE NEVER TOLD YOURSELF FIRST. So yes… of course it sounds good and special. Get to know YOU. A person is willing to help a single mother faster than they would a woman who has a NO GOOD MAN , sitting on her couch…… PLANT MANAGING A REMOTE CONTROL
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Don’t wait around for other people to be happy for you. Any happiness you get you’ve got to make yourself. –Alice Walker
I watch ID everyday. I think I’m seriously addicted to it. I can’t help but wonder what would we really know about things that happen behind the scenes in relationships without these shows giving us a inside look on how things got started.
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What bothers me the most are the women who want to be LOVED, heard, needed, wanted, will put up with MANY THINGS just to be in a relationship. Many of them TOTALLY IGNORING the God inside of them… screaming… DO NOT DO IT… THIS MAN IS NOT FOR YOU. But see WOMEN…. we HOPE things get better. Even when we see signs of cheating, signs that he doesn’t want to work, signs of mental abuse and physical…. we still want to have FAITH in that person. But I’m hear to say.. aint gon happen!!!
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Even if its hard for a woman to admit it…. these are signs of low self esteem. AT some point you want what’s best for YOURSELF. At the same time… a woman needs to KNOW what she will and WILL not deal with. Let me give this example: I can’t/ wont deal with a man who screams at me, or others. I like to talk things out in a voice that’s not conformational. You’re understood better, and the other person is actually listening. Because at A N Y point I detect you’re trying to LOUD talk me, proving that your voice is the loudest, while trying to shut me down…..then I will get LOUD too. This would mean.. … that whatever we’re going through won’t be heard because we’re screaming and yelling at each other. I wouldn’t recommend a person writing a list of “HOW THEY WANT THEIR MAN/WOMAN TO LOOK”… but I will say.. write out a list of things “YOU WONT DEAL WITH”. Not only that….. BUT STICK WITH IT.
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