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#FIFTYSHADES/ FIFTY SHADES OF GREY/BLOG

STAY CLEAR 50 CLEAR 

FINALLY a movie that explores ME. 

The kind of movie that my MIND and BODY craves. I’m a mind exploring -sexual person this is the perfect movie for my appetite.   Chemistry, Romance, Body Language, Mind Games, Way with words. Take MEEEEEEEEEEEEE 🙂 lol lol

When the books first came out, I didn’t read it at all. Wasn’t interested, too many people talking about it, and I didn’t want anything to do with it. I didnt read what the books were about, all I knew that it was a lot of sex… that was it. Never thought about it again…

Went to the movies sometimes last year, saw the previews on the screen and thought to myself…. Ummmm…. “I gotta see that movie.” My first concerns were that I wasn’t attracted to Christian… and didn’t think Ana was all that either. Because in MY mind, in order for a movie to be good, the leads have to have great Chemistry to attract my eye right away. Put it this way…. I had never seen either of the actors before, and couldn’t attract myself to their atmosphere. I was wrong. Dead wrong. Never to Judge a book by its cover EVER again.  I knew the movie was coming out Valentines Day…. I decided that I would go.

FIRST encounters… CHEMISTRY, ELEVATORS, DIRECT EYE CONTACT, HALF SMILES *while shaking the head in agreement*, INTENSE LISTENING *hard stares*, SEXUAL INTIMIDATION, SEXUALLY PARALYZED, BODY LANGUAGE NEAR OR FAR…., DIRECT WORDS * usually VERY short sentences*, MYSTERIOUS *the look in his eyes is a BRICK WALL, INVITING, THE SMELL OF HIS COLOGNE, ALLOWING THE WOMAN TO WALK AHEAD OF HIM *taking full control*, Making himself a THIRD PARTY* usually someone else comes in and start talking* while he sits back, watches and listens to your EVERY WORD. All of these things are important to me when watching a ROMANTIC movie, and also MY REAL LIFE experiences. What ever I THINK…. MY BODY RESPONDS. 

I know there are people who may read this who have not seen the movie yet, so I won’t spoil it for them. But the movie opens up to my gurl… Annie Lennox ….. I Put A Spell On You. I love this song, because I first heard it years ago by Screamin Jay Hawkins * youtube him*. The SOUNDTRACK…. is one I cannot explain. I have NEVER  heard a SOUNDTRACK that captures every scene to the point. I am in love with it!!! Please BLESS YOURSELF and purchase it. I have to share a few of the scenes in the movie that “did it for me”. I LOVE how in control he was, so disciplined. Controlling a little… but not over aggressive to the point that he would IRRITATE ME. Just enough to keep my interest to figure out what is it about him …………..mentally. The DIRECT *sureness*  of what he wanted when he looked into her eyes…. I fell in love. The swag in his body language… spoke volumes. The question I asked myself as I was watching the movie is….. out of all the women that worked for him, that he met from interviews, in passing, what was it about her, that he wanted so badly? Men with POWER AND MONEY…. is always in search of “that gurl”. She has to be special, she has to know who she is, and what she wants in order to attract him. In the beginning of the movie, she was so shy and so nervous as she interviewed him, he picked up on it and used it to his advantage. He controlled the whole atmosphere with his DIRECT STARES….. CHAIR TO CHAIR bouncing, and 10-12 word REPLIES. TURNED ME ON IN THE FIRST 5 MINUTES … LOL LOL Without telling the MOVIE…..it totally reminded me of one of MY EXPERIENCES.

A few months ago, I had went on several interviews searching for the right one for me. I was called to a 10:00 am appointment and when I walked into the lobby I was feeling GREAT and CONFIDENT. I  checked in, then sat on the couch and waited for the person to “come out” to get me. As I soaked up the lovely atmosphere, and beautiful interior decorations, I noticed a glance at me. I didn’t pay it any attention because I was busy looking around the place, but when he looked over at me for the  2nd and 3rd time…. I paid attention. I said to myself…… “is this man looking at me?” As I begin to focus on him.. I noticed that he was FIONE AS HELL. TALL*waves hand in the air*… handsome, sexy, thick, PRETTY WHITE TEETH, SUITED UP, beautiful in the face, eyes that says” come get it”, sexy lips, goatee, and very humble. I sat there trying to ignore him, because I know how my body respond to what I’m thinking and seeing. A INTERVIEW was the WRONG place for this. I kept trying to ignore his glances, until I realized what he was doing.

CURIOUS 50

 

 

PART 2 COMING UP….TONIGHT * smiles*

I’ll leave you with this song… one of MY FAVORITES from the Soundtrack of Fifty Shades of Grey… * please listen to it* 

 

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Being OUTSPOKEN… A WRONG AND RIGHT TIME/BLOG

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I was talking to a friend last night, and our phone call conversation trigger several thoughts about being OUTSPOKEN at the wrong time. This is a subject that’s very serious to me, and I speak in COMPLETE BOLDNESS when it comes to it. I touched on this in the last blog entry…. but this one.. I’m going in.

Everyone who knows me know that when you call me, email, text, or we talk FACE TO FACE…I’m going to give you the real. I don’t add sugar to my conversations, ONLY salt.  I’m not going to short cut you, or baby you. I can feel when you’re leaving something out, and I can tell when you’re adding to it.I ask a lot of QUESTIONS… you already know. Many people come to me for advice because I can see the bigger picture. I use Godly Wisdom, and not worldly tickles. I’m not her. Period.

If I feel you’re holding back the complete truth, I’m going to shut down the conversation completely, and keep it moving. I will NOT hold a conversation with anyone, who doesn’t tell the full story…. it’s a waste of my time. I will never again hold 1 and 2 hour conversations just to listen * especially if the story is stupid and doesn’t need to be told* just because you want me to listen and not comment. FIND ANOTHER FRIEND FOR THAT. FIND A FRIEND WHO WILL LISTEN ONLY.. IM NOT HER…… AT ALL… PERIOD. I don’t have time to say.. “yeah, um um, I understand, right, yes, okay… all through the conversation without any input. I refuse to spend that kinda time on those conversations…. phone a friend who will. I’m not mad or anything… I’m just not that friend. PERIOD.

Listen.. as Christians we have to learn when to speak and when to fall back. When to stay in our own lanes, and when its okay to share lanes. Its very ignorant to be “OUTSPOKEN” on the wrong things. Its very ignorant to tell a friend… those shoes are ugly, where you get that ugly red hat from? Why you have on those pants, the style is ugly. When are you going to comb your hair? What time are you getting in the tub… I smell something? But then…. when its time to pay a bill and negotiate with someone.. you can’t do it. When you need to tell someone to stay out of your room, you can’t tell them. When you need a neighbor to turn down their music you can’t knock on their door. When you need to get pass someone and you can’t say excuse me, you rather wait until they notice you’re standing there. When you need to ask for a loan and SCARED of hearing NO.. or I DON’T HAVE IT. Instead of being able to ask these things… the excuse is ALWAYS…. “I don’t want nobody telling me NO… and If I say it, its going to come out wrong”. What is that? That’s stupid as hell to me. You can open your mouth and put your 2 cents into everybody else’s conversation, but don’t know how to work your own lane.

You can tell someone what their job is, and what they need to do, when they need to do it and why…. but you can’t knock on a neighbors door and tell them the’re too loud watching a Football game? That &&&& is retarded to me!!  You rather tell a friend their shoes are ugly…. IN THE NAME OF BEING HONEST. * because/whether they asked.. OR NOT”… but wont use that same honestly…. to knock on someone’s door and ask them to turn down their TV because its too loud.

As Christians.. we have to learn how to talk to people. The only reason why you feel its not going to “come out right” is because you catch attitude from people when they get mad at you for being in their business when you wasn’t invited. So now that its your business and its time for you to be a Boss, you can’t. We have to learn how to look at people in a non confrontational manner when speaking to them about an issue that would other wise cause conflict. We have to learn how to use voice control and direct eye contact with others. We have to usher in a Spirit of Peace when we speak. We have to go to God and ask him to calm us down before we ask a question or deliver a message to someone who may not take it well. This is a part of growing up, getting off milk and eating meat. You cannot be afraid “it won’t come out right”.. but at the same time… claiming how outspoken you are. Stop speaking when not asked., stop being so opinionated on things that doesn’t matter. Learn to pay attention to how things come on * a friend told me this*…. many times when you need an answer or something done, you need to learn how not to offend, so that the person can get it. That’s the whole key….. for them to GET IT. Stop feeling as if you have to say everything since its true….. when its not your story, important or necessary to say. Ask God to calm your storm before going to someone if you feel its going to lead to an argument or debate. Take YOU out of the situation and get things done people!!!

I know “outspoken” people who will tell you how dirty your car is….. but scared to ask the cashier for more ketchup because 1 isn’t enough. SMH!!!! 

If we all told what we know of one another, there would not be four friends in the world- Blaise Pascal

Be Blessed!

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Today was a great day!! Yesterday was different/BLOG

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Hello Family

Today was a great day!!

Yesterday was different.

I went up to my job to pick up the check that wasn’t right…. THE FOLLOWING WEEK …… And almost had to put on my “clown suit”. My check still wasn’t there and will be cut on the regular day… which I know they knew. See, that’s the kinda stuff that makes me want to go back to the old LaCrease. When you work with people all they see is your good side, and they think since you’re a Christian, that your patience is longer. I’m still a person boo… and I will nut up every now and then. Please don’t push me.

So, when I got off work (current job), I called the front desk and told them to tell the manager that LaCrease was on her way up there ( former job). When I got there, the gurl at the desk told me that he came out of the meeting for a brief moment but she didn’t get a chance to tell him I called. I said.. guuuuuuuuuuuurl I called up here 1000 times, you see his face and not once think to tell him that I was coming ? She said well he was in a meeting earlier, and on his way back to another one. Im looking at her like OKAY….AND….. She said I wouldn’t bother him in a meeting anyway…. Lord.. why she say that? I said I know YOU wouldn’t  bother him in a meeting….cause you want your job.. I DON’T WORK HERE… Before I knew it I said.. I’ll walk in that meeting and set if off.  Everybody walking around there with THEIR checks and I not have mines.. I know you wouldn’t bother him in a meeting.. HEFFA YOU STRAIGHT. I heard God say.. Cree go sit down and wait on the man. LOL LOL Mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn people are so BLESSED.. that I’m not the same person I use to be. Make me not even want to be nice.. Goodness why does it have to be like that? Just let me be nice!!!

Anyway…… I’m just going to let this story go.

Today was a GREAT DAY!!!

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Crees Ramblings/Relationships/RHOA

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Hey,

I guess in this entry I’ll do some rambling. Lets start with RHOA.

I’m still stuck on Apollo and last nights episode. How the hell could he do what he did without thinking about his family and then TURN THE STORY AROUND ON PHAEDRA and accuse her of not being there for him? Do you see that type of thinking?…  I don’t be bothered with men like that. When they start talking “side ways” I will too, then after I get tired of that. I’ll start acting “dumb”.. after that…. then I’m done with the friendship/relationship because its pretty much going down hill. And in this case it  did. He got mad and asked her for a divorce…. SHE GLADLY ACCEPTED!

A. while you were fresh out of jail Apollo.. she loved you and married you. B. You decided not to go with the “family business” to run a funeral home and go at it as husband and wife. C. You wanted your own money and decided that scheming was the way to go.  I’m stuck on how he  figure that he could just skip over all that…. and discuss Phaedra not going to his sentencing. I’ll tell him…  look….. before we get to the “icing” we gon talk about the making of the “cake”. You did wrong to start with, didn’t think about me, didn’t think about the kids, didn’t think about our family, you thought more about money, and impressing people who are still walking around here Scott free. No one wants to run back and forth to a jail house with 2 BOYS..while you jail house talk me into staying with you for your return home. Women aint doing that “no mo”. We look at that situation as YOU LEFT US.. You did things that were more important than me and your kids. Women look at that as you LOVED US.. but not enough to do right so that we could all be together. Sorry I don’t feel any sympathy… especially, especially, especially when he tried to turn it all on her. Only in passing of a conversation will he acknowledge his wrong, never coming to the conclusion that what HE did …. is what got them in that situation in the first place. #SEEYOUIN5

 I’m speaking from experience. I was dating this guy and we were trying to get it together. He was the sweetest man, loving, kind.. and he LOVED HIM SOME LACREASE. But he kept going back to jail. I was there for him, going to court with him, writing him everything.I LOVED THIS MAN. I don’t have one bad thing to say about him. He got out, did the same thing, and went back. When he came home… I was done with him. Told him to come over and pick up his things a few pair of socks and papers. He was sad, knew I meant business, we kept in touch but our relationship was over.

He went back to jail!!!

Came home and got it together. By this time I was long gone. We kept in touch from time to time. He had gotten married, was happy and doing well. Years had passed one day he contacted me, I invited him over and we caught up on old times. Time went by again, he came over this time he was in a different place. Told me that I WAS THE REASON why things went downhill for him. Told me I was a good woman, and that he loved me more than anyone he’s ever been with, and that if I hadn’t left him in his time of need ((jail)), then his life would have been different. He tried to make me believe that I was the reason why his life was the way it was, saying had I hung in there with him, we would be together. I wasn’t happy with  that conversation, because just like Apollo, HE made  the decision to do illegal things.You’re not going to put that on MEEEEE I’m sorry. He left my house.

Two weeks later he sat on the edge of his bed and shot and killed himself in the head. For years… I thought about his last words to me. So after watching last nights episode it bought back many memories. I hope Phaedra continues to stand strong. I hope she takes the boys to see him, I would hate for her to keep them from each other, but as far as herself…. she has to keep it moving in order to have peace of mind.

Be Blessed

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Dear Husband/BLOG

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Dear Husband,

Where are you? LOL Its getting hard holding it down baby. I’m meeting a lot of guys… but nothing serious.. So I guess… you’re still in the running. LOL You know I remember years ago asking God for you, but I clearly see that I wasn’t ready.  I’m learning so much about myself…. its crazy. I would have drove you nuts!

I guess the hardest part about everything is being/staying celibate. I’m very clear and upfront about it with men that I meet. I get tired of the “why” and the “when”. Then I feel they hate that decision, so they stay in the picture longer hoping I would give in. Not gon happen. My personal conclusion about it, turns into a challenge for them. And they KNOW.. that I’m serious. What they love about me is that I’m the kind of woman they want, but none want to go the distance with me, because they know I’M NOT THE ONE FOR THEM.  A man knows!!!

Today for dinner I made some Collard Greens, Fried Chicken and Corn Bread.. with a Pepsi and strawberry short cake for dessert. Yesss.. it was good too. Well, I’m closing for now, have to do some brainstorming for my gathering.

Until we meet… Be Blessed!

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Flirting/BLOG

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These last few weeks has truly been amazing for me.. Spiritually. That’s another blog.

Living alone has really forced me to pay close attention to ME. I’m really in tuned with myself, things I never paid attention to when I was raising my daughter… I guess because it was all about her. But looking back on my life and this is so funny to me.. So, so, so, so, so, so funny. And I’ll tell you why in a few, but when you learn your likes and dislikes you are building Character. There are things you will simply not deal with, and I so love that about myself. I don’t comply with things I don’t want to deal with. But let me share what I learned about myself…. and I wish I knew why.

There are these contractors that work in the building, they’re the nicest group of men you ever want to meet. They don’t have attitudes or anything. Well the Boss/Leader likes me.. and I like him too. Not only that, but several of his people are attracted to me as well. And he knows it. LOL I love to flirt and talk “junk” to him… but I am firm on my won’ts and don’ts.

I looked back on my life and realize that through the years.. I have dated members of management at my job. I’m always attracted to the Leader. I wonder why? I wonder if its something I’m putting out there and I’m not aware of it, or is it something in both of us that attracts each other. In this situation I will never flirt with his people, but I LOVE THE ATTENTION. LOL Its funny because I know it will never go further than flirting…. I’m just not a woman easy to catch like that.

When I’m walking to my car, the men working in the apartments will whistle at me and its so funny looking up at the windows and finding out who it is, only for them to blow me kisses. LOL They have never tried to come to my apartment or say anything out of the way… I love that about them. Even though I don’t flirt with them… I enjoy them flirting with me… because its always when the Boss is not looking. Men crack me up. I don’t even think the Boss knows my name. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA… see little stuff like that… I love discovering about myself. He doesn’t even know my name. LOL When I see him Monday… I’m going to ask him.

But also let me say this too. I’m very friendly and approachable. I don’t walk around with my face twisted, and mouth turned up. I’m always smiling and in a good mood. If I’m going through something.. I’ll leave that at home. I NEVER take it out on anyone. I do get quiet when something is bothering me, but I never transfer my Spirit onto another person. I make eye contact with people that cross my path. I smile and show myself friendly. And by me saying that… I believe that’s what attracts these men. Everywhere I go. I try to think positive and it shows on my face. Men like that.. they don’t want to be around a woman who always look mean and have something smart to say. Men don’t like that. I don’t like that in a man. Looking all mean and DISCONNECTED… get out of my face with that.

Anyway… women discover some things about yourself. I promise I love myself more and more everyday.

Be Blessed!

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YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS LORD/BLOG

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Hey Family!!!

I know its been a minute since I’ve written.. my numbers are popping off the chain… even when Cree is away. LOL I love that.

So much is happening so fast….  I have shared much about what’s been going on with me in the last 2 years in my private FACEBOOK group. Me moving to Atlanta, not getting the apartment I wanted or the job I interviewed for, coming back home to Detroit. Having to live with my daughter for 3 months, moving into an apartment that I didn’t want to move in, working a part time job barely making ends meet. Having spiders bite me, losing my job a day before Thanksgiving, going BACK to Walmart for 4 days, while they try to pay me $7.80.. so I quit. From my van being stolen out of my parking lot of my apartment, to applying for Medicaid and Food Stamps. I shared my story and my pain to a selected 103. Now God said its the turn a round… When I tell you… what GOD HAS DONE FOR MEEEEE… I WOULD GLADLY REDO THOSE LAST 2 YEARS OVER AGAIN TO BE HERE….. BECAUSE I HAVE LANDED THE JOB OF MY DREAMS/CAREER.. INTERVIEWED.. RETURN INTERVIEW.. AND ORIENTATION IS NEXT WEEK!!! I AM OVER JOYED.. THANK YOU JESUS.. THANK YOU LORD!!!! Then to top that off. They have done a complete make over of my building. New fitness center, brand new store, business area with many computers… and once your lease is up.. you HAVE  to move out into a brand new apartment. And guess what? My lease is up next month.. I’m so excited. Living in the heart of Downtown Detroit. Wow, wow.. Hahaha… and I told God.. I didn’t want to move here. LOL He knew what my future held. 

But what amazes me… is that someone can know all that you’ve BEEN through.. know the tears you’ve cried, the pain you suffered, the stories you told… and still they’re not AS happy as they can be for you.. Because they’re afraid that you may go higher than them. But you know what? I DON’T GIVE A DAYUM!!!! I’VE BEEN THROUGH TOO MUCH… TO LOOK OVER AT TWISTED FACES BECAUSE OF WHAT GOD IS DOING IN MY LIFE… QUIET -SILENT- PAUSES….Been looking over at people scared to fly.. I’m outta here. Lord.. I want ALL YOU HAVE FOR ME!!! ALL!

BE BLESSED!

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Some Women Are Something Else… had to go there/BLOG

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So….. tonight I’m just rambling. Thinking about triggered things before I lay down to sleep.

There’s this gurl who lives in my building, she has to be about 28 ( a “kid” to me.. my daughter’s that age). Very nice pleasant. She always smiles and speak and also have a bubbly personality like I do. Every time I see her, she’s always chatting with someone in a good mood.

This one night maybe about 1 in the morning. I went downstairs to the lobby to talk to security about the dog next door to me and its barking. He told me that the new neighbor will be in shortly from work and that she’s very understanding and friendly. When she came in, we talked. She told me that her dog will be leaving in the morning to live with a friend because she’s gotten complaints from the front office about him. That was cool. We stayed in the lobby and chatted with security for about an hour plus just the 3 of us…..

When….

HOMEGURL * the nice friendly one* WALTZ in staring at me… like I stole her dayum lunch money. At the same time walking towards HIM… but staring at me REAL MEAN. So, I’m saying to myself…. gurlyougotmemessedup….. we’ll tear this lobby up tonight! I never in my life had a fight…. but the way she was looking at me…. I had to turn my head, then look back at her to see if she was looking at me. Now, I usually laugh at women like that. But when she walked in, she changed the WHOLE ATMOSPHERE. She didn’t say Hi… or nothing. She came in and posted her no-shaped body….right next to him. He’s a nice guy, he was looking like… “gurl what’s your problem?” He’s a Virgo too… so I know he checked her real good when we left. Anyway…. she never spoke. Me and my neighbor.. caught the elevator to our apartments and dueced out!!! LOL

Last week… didn’t I see that…  NO BOOTY HAVING SPONGE BOB SHAPED gurl in the lobby talking to HIM?  Keep in mind.. he’s been working here almost a year.. and before that night…. I NEVER KNEW HIS NAME. I speak to everyone, smile.. and keep it moving. Now, I’m walking up to building looking at the security counter before I walk in. I could see them. So, I said to myself.. she always speak and make conversation with me, and I don’t like to jump to conclusions about a person. So, if she speaks to me.. Okay… maybe that was ME the other night “feeling some kinda way”. I said now, if she throws me shade… it was her all the time, and that means she likes the security guy and feels some kinda way about me. I walks in.. looking cute… and says “Hey…. how yall doing?” She’s looking down at her phone… LOOKING REAL MEAN * LOL*.. He’s looking at me, and we speak at the same time. I looks at her… as I’m walking to the elevators.. She took a looooooong pause and FINALLY said “hi”.  It was so low, and dry. LOL She never looked up at me… totally out of character for her. I don’t even know this child’s name.

MY point is….women STOP IT. STOP! Why must we do this to each other? What is the point? Some women are so territorial about these men. And for what? Now, I have to be on guard when I see her again, instead of looking forward to a funny and friendly conversation with her in passing. I’m also a friendly person. I speak to everyone, never have an attitude. I don’t see how women can devote time and energy into other women with this MESS. Its so petty and time consuming. Grow up!

I look forward to having my Sisters Only Gathering. I have a lot to say.

Be Blessed!

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My ONE ((thing)) HUSBAND wish list/BLOG

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 Dear Husband,

I hope you LOVE…… FOOTBALL. We don’t have to be on the same team, but …you must be a SPORTS FAN. I love BASKETBALL, BASEBALL, AND #1 FOOTBALL. I love to scream, curse (( I can’t help it)) when I watch FOOTBALL  (only). I turn into a totally different person. I’ve tried to calm it down…. sometimes it works.. somethings it don’t. I scream loud, stand up, walk around the house taking junk at the players. I sometimes think that I’m the only person in the world… my screams are THAT loud.

I live DIRECTLY across the street from FORD FIELD…. I can see the building from my apartment…. but I’m too scared to go to a game (( like I do concerts)) because of the things that come out of my mouth. I might embarrass myself and who ever is with me. I can’t control my feelings when I’m watching the LIONS .  I even LOVE the way the DRIVE of the game makes me FEEL. I’m sure you’ll be turned on!!! ((( Can’t tell me NOTHING when I’m in my LIONS zone.)))

I promise to make you and your friends (( and my gurls)) dinner, snacks, and drinks for our  Super Sports Sunday Dinners. I promise to set the atmosphere for a wonderful day of Sports to entertain our family and friends. The house will be cleaned and smelling good. Dinner will be of your choice. Husband listen…. you won’t have to get up for nothing…. I got you boo…….. and your friends for whatever…..

Your Loving Wife

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